My name is Antonio Lopez and I am a FtM transgender. I first found out when I was in middle school. I first came out as Pansexual and Transgendered in high school freshman year and most of my friends supported me 100%.
I was born into a traditional Mexican family, my dad left sometime in the beginning of my middle school year. I had a boyfriend that told me that it’s stupid and selfish and that im never going to transition so I put every thought about it aside, from the ending of my freshman year all the way till my senior year. I eventually broke up with him and now im making sure nobody is telling me what I can and cant do with my body. I came out to my sisters as Transgendered in my senior year of high school, they were a bit salty at first but they eventually supported me and still fully support me today. I have not came out to my dad yet and I honestly don’t think he would give a shit (I mean he has lesbian porn dvd’s, so I really doubt he would have a problem with me comming out as pan/trans male), besides my dad hasn’t really been a factor in my life like my mom has. A part of me thinks that if I was born a guy to begin with, my father would have stayed and never left my mom. But my dad is never going to stop massproducing babies with other women and leaving them until he get’s himself a boy to passdown the family name. My mom on the other hand has been with me all my life, doing her best to support the 3 of us (my sisters and I) since birth. I came out to her some time after I graduated high school, she told me that I needed god, and that I shouldn’t tell her about it and that I should tell god. Ive tried coming out to her and talking to her about it more than once and its always the same thing, even before I came out to her she would always say that gays and trans are going to hell. I wish my mother would support me, she was the main person that I hope would have supported me from the start but I feel like she will never come through. But for now, I gotta try and keep my head up, and try to find a job to help support my mom and my sister financially.
In the meantime I am living with my new boyfriend, who is a Cis Pansexual male, at his moms house, he’s moving out at the end of the year and i’ll be going with him, also im trying to help them financially(even if i dont have a job yet), but they dont put pressure on me to pay for things, they are a sweet family and I can tell they accept me. I am trying to make a living off my art and comics, my boyfriend and i have been working on a lot of things comics, graphic novels, youtube ideas, short films, hes a writer so naturally we work pretty good together. I am not the most financially secure, which is why I created this, I am going to have a lot of pressure with job and helping my family, I know I wont have enough to pay for my surgeries on my own, as you all know, FtM surgeries are expensive, and I want to get started now saving, For now i try to cope with a breast binder, wich some of you may know, can be very uncomfortable and even painful at times and even hard to breathe in.
Please, even if its only a couple cents or a dollar or two, if you could find it in yourself to donate, I would be more than thank full, especially knowing that you are the reason I can finally feel comfortable in my own skin, Im sure karma is gonna come around for you and give you a nice pat on the back, I am working on getting health care for myself at the moment and starting on testosterone so I will keep updating my pictures so you can all see the progress of my transition. Again, If you donate I will be most gracious, every penny counts and every thought means the world. Please help me reach my goal.
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