Just Me

I don’t know why I’m just remembering random things today. Some of them hurt, but others just make me smile.

We were laying on your bed. Not doing anything but cuddling, telling jokes, reading funny pick-up lines that just make us laugh more and more. We started talking about things from high school. Teachers, friends, (for lack of a better word) enemies. I told you some of the old rumors that I had heard about the teachers. He told me I’ll end up being one of those teachers that’s a TILF. Gross! I mean, I’ll be five or more years older than the kids I end up teaching, so I hope they don’t think that. It sickens me to hear people say that now, so if it was said about me…. Just gross.

Him: I’ll just come in and scare them all. Her: Yeah. Just come with me on the first day. I’ll just let them know I have a boyfriend. Him: Boyfriend? Really? Her: What..? Him: Four years from now. Do you really think I’ll JUST be your boyfriend then? Her: I… I don’t know… Him: If… No. We will. In four years, you’ll be referring to me as your fiance, if not your husband. Her: … I…. Uhh… Okay..

How do you even respond to something like that? I had NO idea what to say! He randomly says things like this, and I start stumbling on my words and stuttering and just not knowing what to say back. I’ve had guys do this to me before. Tell me that they will be my forever and always. The look in their eyes made them seem like they were speaking the truth, but their voices were never sure. You could tell that their brains were saying “Yes, of course!”, but their hearts were saying, “Not really. You can believe it, but it’s not the truth. You aren’t the one.” None of them have said it like him. He tells me that he wants me forever and always with a firm voice. It doesn’t shake, not a quiver. It’s like he saw the future, and he knows that it’s true.

Scary, right? Definitely.

Love scares the daylights out of me. It’s like he absolutely means every word. He talks about marrying me, having kids with me, scaring my future students, taking me away from this hell hole of a home, growing old with me, and making me smile until one of us takes our last breath. I’ve had guy after guy after guy make these promises to me, and I just want to go with the flow. It just makes me so fuzzy to hear these things… I want to believe him. I want to stop over thinking and just smile. I might. And who knows?

Maybe he’s from Gallifrey and is a time traveler like the Doctor. Maybe he traveled through time and space and knows exactly what is in store for his future. Maybe he met me in the future, and I gave him a “spoiler” of what is to come. How could I know if he didn’t just tell me?

I’ll just keep going with the flow. I don’t see this relationship ending anytime soon. We’re over four months in, and still happier than ever.

zonepan:

badgersprite:

guardian:

“I didn’t start publishing Pennsylvania’s Orange Street News so that people would think I’m cute. I want to get the truth to people, even if it makes grownups mad,” says 9-year-old Hilde Kate Lysiak, publisher of and reporter for the Orange Street News.

After reporting on a suspected homicide in Selinsgrove, Pa., Hilde was harassed by “disgusted” adults commenting on her site, saying her time would be better spent at tea parties and playing with dolls. 

Hilde has something to say, and she takes no prisoners, firing back at her aging critics, with a video and in her column for the Guardian. 

how pathetic do you have to be to pick on a literal nine year old

you’re both right :) a wagging tail means the cat is highly stimulated (think coiled spring, ready to go off). depending on the situation, this can be interpreted differently - just like people can smile nervously at job interviews vs. happily grin at friends.

in most cases, it’s safe to interpret overstimulation as ‘you’re doing something to amp up the cat & it wants you to stop’ (ex. unwanted petting). it should be seen as a warning; all that pent-up energy COULD be released as a swat or bite.