itty bitty titty committee

i think its evil that im not in walking distance to a museum and a little cafe. thats all i want

ozzy and drix would fix my chronic illness

every year i bake something for my work besties birthday like he didnt change my life in an irrevocable way. like you made me realize i have self worth again and all i have to offer you is. this brownie

the good news is my persistent dizziness has finally disappeared (well its like 85% gone. still affects me if im doing tasks that have my eyes moving around a lot). the bad news is im now experiencing panic attacks for the first time in my life. it sucks

i think social media should have a button that just says “i did the hard thing” and you can just press it and not specify what the hard thing was and we can all support and celebrate our mutuals in doing whatever hard thing they had to do

someone convince me to finally pull the plug and go to therapy for the acute health anxiety im dealing with. im dreading it and dont want to make the appointment but i know im not doing well

so ive had a total of 5 primary care visits and 1 urgent care visit AFTER my initial 2 weeks of being incredibly ill/2 urgent care visits/3ER visits , and still no answers. im now incredibly dizzy and unstable every day and can barely function/work/drive and its been 6 weeks since the onet of the flu. the best theyve offered me is a referral for vestibular therapy. not even a referral to a neurologist or ENT or any imaging. im suffering so much and nobody really gives a shit to try and figure it out. i dont know what else to do or say. work is breathing down my throat about my missing time and i now i have to beg my PCP to extend my leave when she initially only gave me 3 weeks because i “should be getting better”. if i cant get this sorted out in a timely fashion while being on such a drugged up cocktail just to function i might lose my job and my health insurance. im just at my wits end and feel like i cant do this anymore

hate when ur constipated and you finally get the rock out and you have relief for like. one minute, before you can physically hear the moaning and groaning of the avalanche thats about to hit within the next 10-30 minutes. like the conveyor has started moving again buckle up boys

so i finally got a primary care doctor and got a urine culture sent off for a suspected UTI (thankfully it was a very mild one and passed on its own)(which is great since the urine culture took 5 DAYS. LIKE WHAT ARE WE PLAYING AT) and i did not pass the threshold of detectable infection. which makes sense. what i did learn is i have a much higher base level of e.coli in my bladder than a normal person. normal people have miniscule amounts if anything at all, and anything <10,000 CFU/ml is considered definitely not an infection, and anything >100,000 is considered an infection. i had 10,000-30,000, a grey area of maybe/maybe not. which essentially means i have a ticking time bomb of bacteria in my bladder that could multiply and cause infection at any moment. which would explain the chronic UTIs. and its not doing any wonders for my brand new health anxiety. waiting to see what my doc says on monday, but she hasnt been great so far, every time i talk to her she just tells me to keep drinking water and reduce stress and it will magically heal any ailment i have

!! they finally got rid of my terrible coworker who has never been able to do her job right and had an attitude with everybody after nearly 3 years !!!! hallefuckinglujah!!!

yeah i gotta get better at advocating for myself medically. cause i really went into this appointment today with a certain goal in mind and then ended up just saying yes ok to everything the doctor said and not getting what i really needed. and now im just like. i cant even be mad cause its my fault. such a fucking people pleaser

another doctors appointment with no answers. another all your blood work and urine came back normal so you’re fine. another you just need to wait and see if this passes. listen i know its only been 3 weeks since my onset of flu but the inflammation in my body is killing me. i get lightheaded most days. im struggling to work. now my bladder is inflamed and causing pseudo UTI symptoms. i havent had a normal bowel movement. and then they wanna give me a hard time about filling out FMLA paperwork and require another appointment for it like. i get it. they only give you 15 minutes with per appointment, which is stupid. more appointments more money out of my pocket. but you told me to reduce stress as much as possible, and potentially losing my job and my health insurance because i still feel like crap isnt a low stress option and probably contributing to how awful i feel. why are doctors and PAs fucking useless