laughtrak

one second. i want to talk about Jung Heewon and i can't pull quotes rn so it's all vibes it's about the way she IS Dokja's sword! SHE IS HIS SWORD. she loves him she lives for him she is his weapon, the best he has. in a world where Dokja could maybe get Yoo Joonghyuk to do what needs to be done, he understands; he can't rely on Joonghyuk the way he can rely on Heewon. because—she's loyal, to the burning core of her. because she is his, she didn't exist in twos, he made her, he decided the story she would inherit, he raised her up to be his sword and by god. she fucking is. i can't count how many times she throws herself into battle for him, unflinchingly, reliably, beautifully. she's backed by Uriel, one of the strongest constellations in the star stream, and she is first a judge of evil. she is so, so righteous. so determined to protect what needs protecting, punish what needs punishing, and when Eden won't back her she fights anyway. she fights and fights and fights for Kim Dokja and at the same time she resents him so much. how can she not, she is a sword and the hand that wields her keeps throwing her away. the hand that wields her keeps finding other ways to die when—when she's right there. when she could gut what wants him dead or kill him herself. no wonder she's the one who takes his self sacrificing the hardest, because it's like. he's her purpose. he's the hand that guides her. what can she do without him? why won't he just keep her, the way she is meant to be kept, as his strongest sword until the end. and the thing she hates most, because she's a sword, is that she's never thrown away for not being hard enough or sharp enough or quick enough; that she could understand, a sword that isn't good is discarded. but she is never discarded for not being good enough. she's discarded because the hand that wields her has found yet another reason to die and doesn't think about what will happen to the objects under his care when he does that. she resents him. he abandons her. she hates him as only a sword can hate its wielder. and her miracle; that she becomes someone detached from good and evil, becomes a force of pure unfettered righteousness against Dokja's enemies and her companions' enemies and then he goes and abandons her again. not because the fight is over. but because he doesn't care about the duty he owes her, and she does. she keeps waiting for him. she waits for three years and ten years and then decades. the sharpest blade. “that man is the world i wish to save”