Barbatos

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Barbatos

He/they/it

Schizoaffective depressive type, dmdd, ADHD

Suspected bpd Cd

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Oshikatsu + jfashion + psychology

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I will be using myself and accounts from friends with diagnosed bpd as examples. Please keep in mind I only have heavily suspected bpd not fully diagnosed yet. Also be aware i am on antipsychotics primarily for schizophrenia that also double as mood stabilizers and my friend is on typical mood stabilizers.

Mood stabilizers calm everything down, they are noted to reduce mood swings and intensity of emotions somewhat dulling everything. While this can be problematic due to people with bpd often already having dulled emotions until they’re extremely intense it cannot be helped that the medications dull emotions further. Although many people with bpd also feel emotions extremely intensely often so this dulling of emotions can be helpful to many.

In my experience it dulls my obsessions as well, my obsessive tendencies towards people are still they're just much less intense and I feel much less ecstasy when talking to the person i’m fixated on. These obsessions still come in swiftly and clearly though, I will become easily attached to and think about a person near constantly and be constantly scared of them abandoning me.

Fear of abandonment doesn’t go down much at least on antipsychotics, but my splitting-like symptoms have significantly decreased. I used to have symptoms similar to a split nearly every night but have now only had them occasionally. This is due to the mood regulation making it more difficult for rapid mood swings that splitting entails to exist.

Symptoms such as impulsivity, suicidalness feelings of emptiness, attention seeking etc do not go down with mood stabilizers, things like feelings of emptiness can even be more clear and intense due to mood swings not distracting from it and intense panic. It’s a trade off that you have to make if you have a psychotic disorder comorbid with bpd or bpd-like symptoms

symptoms can include: hallucinations, delusions, paranoia, disorganized thoughts and speech, lack of empathy, flat affect, memory problems, periods of mania (which includes impulsivity, increased energy, etc) periods of depression (lack of motivation, feeling down most of the time, etc) and lack of motivation.

Just like schizophrenia/bipolar/depression this can cause struggles in school and home life.

For schizoaffective disorder to be considered you must have at least 2 weeks where you aren’t having a major mood episode but have psychotic symptoms.