KYLENE ONG

It's been a while since I've written in my blog. I have never felt such urge to write, besides right now. I have been so happy lately. I found someone who loved me so much more than how I love myself. I felt that I didn't deserve his love. Yeah we fought a lot, but what relationship doesn't fight. Our issues was always about trust, but I did all that I could so that he won't doubt me, but I lacked in my efforts.

Marco Lin / Lin Fan

Xin Liu / Liu Yuxin

Xiaotang Zhao / Zhao Xiaotang

April 28, 2020

I don’t know what day it is of quarantine since the COVID-19 pandemic, but I know it’s day two of me just randomly crying. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I just keep crying out of nowhere, just space out and not talk to people, I avoid leaving my room and my bed. I only leave it to eat to seem normal, the sad thing is, no one at home seems to notice. Today in day two, of feeling like crying, I feel like total shit, like I’m not worth anything right now, like I feel so ugly, after years of developing self love, I just suddenly felt like one huge bag of ugly trash. I suddenly became rude to the guy I like. This is the first time he saw me just being negative.