August has been full of tears, and I'm happy to say that I'm ending it with tears of joy. It's been a wonderful birthday. Could you believe I cried because my friend gave me his Uno pack? We have so many memories with it. It's a very sentimental pack to us.
My heart is honestly so full. It's just... beyond me. I can't find the words to describe how happy I am. I've really realized how much love I get from them, and how they chose me as much as I chose them. I could never show the amount of gratitude I have for them.
None of them have tumblr, so I'm really posting this for archive purposes. Just to have it somewhere.
And... I also realized something else.
My life doesn't belong online. At least, not anymore. I'm not me when I'm online. I hide behind names, behind personas, behind the fact that I could just... be whoever. I could alter and filter what I say and do to please whoever I wanted to please at the other end of the screen. But that's not me. I can't keep wearing a mask anymore. I'm happier when I don't have anything to do with my online presence other than to keep contact with friends. I want to be me. To enjoy who I am, who I will be, instead of trying to build myself up to something I'm not.
My birthday gift for myself this year is to step away from this. From this cycle that I keep finding myself in. Well, I was already doing that before. The 5 and a half month summer has been harsh on boredom, and being "active" was supposed to be for passing the time.
Summer's ending.
I won't delete this blog; it might be nice to check in on it again in the future when I'm older, like a fun little trip down memory lane. But I'm going to stop using tumblr for a while again. Hopefully, a long while. My friends here know where to contact me, and, well, anyone else doesn't really need to contact me, I guess.
So... yeah. You can unfollow this blog if you'd like. I don't really care.
This is Kyuudii Kreepincryptid Krypticbastard Juniper Kyndredfire Nina, signing out.
