"'You always hurt the one you love.'"

there should've been a btvs episode that's just what spike is doing, like the xander pov episode they did in season 3. spike always seems to have a ton of crazy shit going on in the background that no one else really hears about until he's being hunted down by the demons he plays kitten poker with because he owes them money or he forgot to refrigerate the demon eggs he was smuggling and almost caused a local disaster because they hatched. i want to know what else he's up to i bet it's more interesting than what the rest of the characters are doing most of the time.

wait I dont agree with what I just said 3 minutes ago

god I just. love ruthlessness as a character trait so much. sexy sexy sexy

idk some people like to compare about how spike reverts to william in tabula rasa vs. whatever evil mode angel went into when something similar happened on ats but. the very next btvs episode is smashed. the very next episode spike finds out he IS a vampire all over again but only towards buffy and instead of continuing to be her actual friend he decided to be that vampire. not william. wouldn't have it any other way of course s6 spuffy is everything to me but it still makes me so sad that This is point where he truly failed her. she was already starting to love him back and he chose to fail her. RIP to their best friend era