Ray of sunshine,the clouds are vanishing | ZHY
Zhang Yixing x fem!reader
Best friends to lovers!AU
Plot:love can disappoint sometimes,but what if you find someone who shares the same wounds as yours? And what if that person is Zhang Yixing,the friend of a friend who randomly started hanging out with your group?
Authorâs notes:I was in the mood for a slow burn so here we are!! It took me a while to write and itâs pretty long,also a little bit clichĂŠ maybe,but I hope you enjoy itâĄ
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âYou light up the rooms you step inâ
You were sitting on the sidewalk in front of the club you had just left. An half empty bottle of Soju standing a few inches away from your left leg as you were staring at an undefined point in front of you. You shivered:the short skirt and the fishnet thighs werenât enough to protect you from the cold of the night,but you had no strength to get back inside the club. You didnât want to see him again.
Your night was amazing until he appeared.
You were drinking,dancing and singing with your friends,having fun in trying to convince Lisa to hit on the cute guy she had put her eyes on at the beginning of the party. Everything was great,you didnât have such an amazing time in a while until him,your ex-boyfriend,was so bold to talk to you as soon as he noticed you.
He appeared and grabbed you from behind,hitting on you like he had never cheated with a chick with fake lips and fake boobs. You felt like throwing up and,then,your night was ruined with a snap of fingers.
Mad,you slapped him and ran outside,without even seeing Sehun and Jongdae scolding him. You didnât know what to do,you felt lost.
Suddenly,all that pain you had felt while breaking up rose inside you once again,with no mercy,ready to make your heart bleed for love.
Fuck him,fuck her and,most of all,fuck yourself for being so dumb to date a walking red flag when everyone had warned you.
You sighed,stroking your legs with your hands in hope to warm your skin;when,suddenly,someone covered you with their black jacket.
You turned around sure to see that asshole,but the only person that was there was Yixing,Baekhyunâs friend,who had started hanging out with your group a few months earlier.
âTake itâ he said kindly,sitting next to you
âThank you-you grabbed the bottle of Soju-you want some?â you asked
Yixing sipped from the object and then gave it back to you,watching as you threw the burning liquid down to your throat
âSlow downâ he laughed,trying to stop you,but you pushed his hand away
âI need this. My night has been ruinedâ you mumbled
âI didnât really understand why,to be honestâ
âYou saw the guy that approached me? That was my exâ
âNow I get it. Thatâs why Sehun and Jongdae snapped at himâ
âYes. They were mad. Junmyeon and Minseok had to hold them back-Yixing giggled-youâre so lucky to have them. Theyâre great friendsâ
âI know. I wouldnât be here if it wasnât for them. When I broke up with Sunghoon everything was pitch black. They were my lightâ
âDid he hurt you that much?â Yixingâs soft smile disappeared as soon as you talked
âHe cheated on me for six months. In a relationship of one year, half of it was a lie. I think heâs the person who hurt me the most.I pushed all my fears aside for him and gave him my heart only to find out that he stopped caring about me before I could even noticeâ you sighed,drinking more Soju. You were having an hard time holding back your tears.
Yixing noticed and slid closer to comfort you, caressing your back
âI hope you know that wasnât your faultâ he then said,softly
âI know now,but back then I didnât. I felt like I deserved nothing. If Iâve changed my mind is thanks to my friends:they sticked with me,supported me and helped me seeing myself in the way I had to. However,Sunghun still haunts me sometimes. I was so happy with him,I thought he was the oneâ
âThere are many potential ones out there,donât focus on an idiot. Iâm saying that because I got cheated on as well,so I know how it feelsâ
âReally?! What a bitch. Youâre such a nice guy,you donât deserve a similar a treatment!â
âNeither you do,but it happened. The most important thing is that we both know that itâs none of our fault,but theirsâ
âYouâre absolutely right Yixingâ you smiled.
You didnât expect that such a short chat could lead the two of you to a beautiful friendship:you slowly started opening up with Yixing,exchanging messages all day and talking about everything;even Sunghoon who,suddenly,started looking for you again.
It disturbed you a lot. You had healed in the past months,but not enough to face him again. The truth was that you had been hoping to never see him after breaking up. You wanted to re-start building your life;so,seeing his lost calls and texts unsettled you a lot,pushing you closer and closer to Yixing as he seemed the one who could fully understand the situation.
âWhy donât you block him?â the boy asked,sitting in front of you as he sipped his coffee
âI canâtâ you mumbled,resting your chin on the palm of your hand
âWhy? You said you donât wanna have anything to do with himâ
âNo butsâ you sighed,Yixing giggled
âMay I tell you what I think,y/n?â
At those words you nodded
âI think that youâre still in love with that assholeâ
âThen block himâ your friend rested his back against the chair
âSeen it? Thatâs my pointâ
You rolled your eyes and scratched the back of your head:maybe Yixing was right;maybe,deep down,you were still a little bit in love with Sunghoon,but it didnât imply giving him a second chance,that was another reason why you ran away when you saw him at the club.
âWhat am I supposed to do Yixing? Please help me,Iâm so tired. I was feeling better,so why did he have to come back?â you hid your face with your hands,holding back your tears.
Why was your life so hard? Why couldnât you be living happily for once? You constantly had to face troubles and problems without even looking for them. You had enough.
âYou already know what to do,y/n:stay with your friends,enjoy the good things of your day and focus on yourself until youâll meet someone who values you for the amazing person that you areâ the boy smiled and hugged you. Your face sank in the crook of his neck,your nostrils got filled with his sweet cologne. Your stomach tingled for a second at that nice sensation,but you were so lost in your thoughts that you didnât even notice it.
âDonât tell our friends heâs texting me again. You saw how they got mad,I donât want any drama to happenâ
âMy mouth is shut,key thrown to the sharks-he giggled-but you gotta block him. Promise me youâll do itâ
âThen letâs have fun together so you can forget Sunghoonâ
Said so,Yixing started organising regular evenings out with the whole group:you would eat together,go clubbing,try fun activities like climbing and even organise movie nights.
Besides that,when your friends were busy with their jobs and couldnât join you,Yixing would always find some free time to spend with you,even if it meant only having a coffee together.
That was why you grew fond of him,developing a soft spot in your heart that made you consider Yixing your best friend. The same happened to him. He had to admit that,even tho he had a lot of friends,no one made him feel as good as you did:you were his ray of sunshine,the person he would look for when he needed positive vibes,that someone who would listen to him and support him through the hardest moments,making the clouds vanish.
The more time flew,the more you two became close. You met everyday,letting your inner children come out and fully heal in each other presence.
âLetâs do this!â you grabbed Yixing,dragging him towards the shooting game of the arcade you had decided to visit that night.
âKilling zombies sounds fun!-he laughed,grabbing the VR headset-let me help you with thisâ he then smiled,tucking the lace at the back of your head.
His fingers accidentally stroked against your cheeks while he was placing the object on your eyes:it sent shivers along your spine. Yixingâs touch was always so gentle and delicate,it made you feel safe and well treated. A little smile unconsciously appeared on your lips.
âWhy are you smiling now?â your friend asked
âWhat? Oh,nothing,Iâm just having funâ
âThe game hasnât started yetâ Yixing laughed,grabbing his VR
âI know but Iâm having a great time tonight. Itâs been a while since I came here at the arcade. I missed it,this was my favourite place when I was youngerâ
âThen weâll come back soonâ
Those words widened your smile even more;then,once the zombie game had finished,you moved to the next one:the Pump it up game. You were surprised it was still there.
âThis one! I wanna dance,itâs always been my favouriteâ
âLetâs go then,Iâll beat your ass!â Yixing exclaimed,placing himself on the platform.
The two of you chose the song,a Michael Jackson one to make things harder but funnier,and started dancingâŚif that was how you could call what you two were up to.
To be honest,all you did was pushing each other to make the other hit a lower score:
âAre you that scared to lose?! Really?!â Yixing taunted you,blocking your hands with his:you melted noticing how his touch was,once again,extremely careful with you. He treated you like you were a precious jewel,which warmed your heart.
âYou are scared to lose!â you bit back,laughing,and trying to push him away
âIâm a dancer,thereâs no way Iâll lose!â
âIâm better than you in this game,Iâm sure!â
âOh,yeah,I see! Thatâs why youâre sabotaging me right nowâ
âThatâs not true!â you kept on laughing and pushing,until,by accident,you slipped and lost your balance.
âOuch!â you exclaimed,falling,but,luckily,your body never touched the ground as Yixing laid in and held you tight.
âYou okay?â he demanded,concerned
âIâm-Iâm fineâ you blushed:his arms were wrapped around your waist while your chest was against his. You could feel both his heartbeat and his warm breath on your skin.
You bit your lips:what was happening? Why,all of a sudden,you were feeling so odd? Something that you couldnât tell was going on inside you while being so close to him. Your stomach twitched and sparkled while your legs were shaking. You didnât want to lean back and stand on your own feet,you wanted Yixing to be that close forever.
âSoâŚthatâs the reason why you stopped answering to my texts,isnât it?â A familiar voice made you startle and push the brunette away.
âWhat are you doing here?!â You asked,shocked as Sunghoon was standing right in front of you. Right hand in his pocket,soft black hair framing his beautiful features. You felt like the ground beneath your feet was missing.
âTexts? What is he talking about?â Yixing furrowed his eyebrows
âI can explain!â you exclaimed,grabbing his arm. Sunghoon laughed:
âYeah,explain everything to your boyfriend. Come on,I wanna listenâ
âHeâs not my boyfriend,asshole! And tell me why youâre here! Are you stalking me now? Wasnât text bombing and calling me everyday enough?!â you growled
âYou answered so I just texted. I donât seen anything wrong with itâ Sunghoon shrugged his shoulder. His cocky attitude was getting on your nerves.
âWhy did you answer him? You said you wouldâve blocked himâ Yixingâs face was marked by an expression of disappointment
âI should have,I know,but I didnât;however I told him to stop texting and calling,I did it multiple times. I swear Yixingâ
âIf you didnât want to text me you wouldâve blocked me like the dude saidâ
âShut the fuck up Sunghoon!â
âYeah,you heard her:shut the fuck upâ Yixing stepped closer to the boy,who obviously didnât back up
âWho are you to tell me what to do?â
âYixing,please,no dramaâ you ran towards him,holding him back. The boyâs attitude softened as soon as you touched him;so he breathed in and recomposed himself.
âHow did you find me?â you asked again to your ex
âI saw the story you posted. I was around so I thought I could come say hiâ he smirked
âYouâre fucked upâ you mumbled,shocked
âYou said hi,now go homeâ Yixing butted in the conversation, wrapping one of his arms around your shoulder. You scanned his movements,realising that there was a new shift in his attitude:he clearly had something in his mind so you just let him talk.
âOr what?â Sunghoon threatened the guy
âOr youâll get kicked out. Let my girlfriend alone as she told you to do. I donât repeat myself.â
âGirlfriend? For fuck sake is he your boyfriend or not?â
You were about to talk but Yixing gently hit your shoulder,meaning to let him handle the situation,so you did.
âI am,and youâre ruining our nice dateâ he spat out.
Sunghoon glared at him,then his eyes met yours:
âIs he lying?â he demanded,leaning in
You were sweating:you knew that the best thing to do to get our from that awful situation was following Yixingâs lead,but you were so scared of Sunghoon that words wouldnât come out from your mouth.
âStep backâ your friend put his arm between you and the guy whose eyes shifted again,leaning on Yixing
âYou arenât his boyfriend,are you? Youâre just trying to get rid of meâ
Yixingâs jaw clenched:he was getting extremely mad,you could tell from the veins of his neck popping out. It was sexy for sure,but it was also scary.
âIâll show you thenâ the brunette spat out,turning to you.
Suddenly,you found your face a few inches away from you friendâs. His eyes chained to yours as his fingers stroked your cheek,resting on your chin. Your heart started beating fast,shivers crossed your spine,then the space between you and Yixing was set to zero.
When you lips met, the world stopped spinning. Everything froze,the only thing you could feel was Yixingâs sweet taste of mint bubblegum. He kissed you slowly,delicately. The arm wrapped around your shoulder tightened his grip a little bit as he used it to push you closer,while, with one of his hands,he tilted your head on the side. His lips moved back and forward,sweetly biting yours,mixing your salivas.
Your hands rested on his chest,gripping the cloth of his jacket,while your lower abdomen started tingling as you pushed it against the boyâs. You had completely lost control of your body,but you liked it:it had been a while since you felt like that.
You were completely lost in the moment,same was Yixing who wouldâve never let you go if Sunghoon didnât remind him of his presence with a loud cough.
âIâm his boyfriend and you gotta get out of hereâŚnow!â the brunette exclaimed,hiding his short breath.
Sunghoon glared at him,fire burning in his eyes:
âYouâll see me around,assholeâ he growled
âI hope not for your safety. Iâm not always this gentle with dickheads like youâ
You watched as your ex left from the entrance door,feeling relieved.
âGodâ you mumbled while hiding your face in your hands
âHeâs goneâ Yixing dragged you into a new hug that you couldnât reject,in fact you let yourself sink into it.
âThankfully. I-I thought we needed to call the cops for a secondâ your voice was breaking as holding back your tears was hard
âItâs okay y/n,Iâve got you-Yixing said stroking your back-shall we go home?â he then asked,you nodded.
The next day you blocked Sunghoon everywhere,hoping that finally you wouldâve lived a quite lifeâŚbut nothing like that was about to happen.
There was one more thing that couldnât let you sleep at night:Yixingâs kiss. It had been magical,you couldnât deny itâŚand you couldnât deny that the boy was as lost into it as you were.
âFuckâ you blushed,covering your face with the sheets of your bed. Why were you feeling like that? Like a little,vulnerable kid? You were so confused and,at the same time,so eager to meet Yixing again.
You wanted to see his smile,feel his fingers linger on your skin,giving you those little pleasing shivers and lighting up the sparkles in your stomach.
WaitâŚwere you in love with Yixing? That Yixing,your best friend?!
âIt canât be possible!-you exclaimed,sitting-it canât be!â you sighed.
Right in that moment, your phone rang and,as if it wasnât enough,the one calling was the person you had been thinking about.
âHiâ you spoke calmly. You couldnât let him know what was going in on in your mind.
âWanna have breakfast together?â Yixing asked
âIâd love that,Iâll get ready. Where are we meeting?â
âAt your place. Iâll pick you up. See you in a bitâ the brunette didnât even give you the chance to talk as he turned the call off.
Fastly,you got ready and then jumped in your friendâs car once he had arrived. You had breakfast in a nice cafĂŠ in Hongdae;the streets were already flowing with people even tho it was only 8:00am.
âHow are you doing today?â Yixing asked while biting his croissant
âIâm doing better,thank your for askingâ you smiled
âIâm great to hear that. Iâve been pretty worried. I donât want you to suffer again for that idiotâ
âIâm doing fine,really. I just got scared yesterday,I told you,but luckily you were thereâ without even thinking about it,you were looking for his hand to hold.
Yixing blushed as soon as your hands touched,but he didnât try to shrug yours off,otherwise he held it back
âYou mean the world to me. No one will make you suffer,not as long as I am aroundâ
His eyes were chained to yours,a sweet light shining in their pupils:you didnât know in which way he meant those words,but they made you skip a beat.
âT-Thank youâŚâ you murmured,lowering your gaze. You wanted to giggle and kick your feet like a teenager girl,but you couldnât.
Yixing smiled and tucked a strand of your hair behind your ear:he was looking at you with those puppy eyes that made you melt.
âAnyway-he coughed,recomposing himself-do you wanna go to the cinema tonight?â
âTonight?â you blinked
âYeah. I meanâŚhumâŚthereâs a nice movieâ
âI-I donât remember the title right now,but you can find it out by coming alongâ
You laughed:was there a real movie to watch or he just wanted to see you again? You didnât care. You nodded and accepted the invitation,spending the whole day thinking about it.
As soon as you got back from work you ran to your bedroom,picking out the nicest dress you had in your wardrobe;then you moved on to your makeup,putting mascara and eye-liner on. The last time you worried so much about your appearance it was during one of the first dates with Sunghoon. That fact made you think even more:were you actually in love with Zhang Yixing? Damn if you were. You had lost it for that guy,for his eyes,his smile and,most of all,the way he treated you. You felt like a princess anytime he was around:he cared about you,paid attention to your well being and did everything he could for you to have a good time.
âYixing,what did you do to me!â you sighed,hearing your door bell ringing:it was him for sure.
You ran downstairs and met the boy,who drove you to the cinema. You werenât sure if Yixing actually chose the movie you saw or if he randomly picked one up just to cover his nice little lie,but you didnât care anyway as you were too busy laughing with him and leaning onto him anytime he whispered something to your hear. You didnât do it on purpose,your body was naturally attracted to the boyâŚand so was your mind.
Once the movie had finished the two of you went for a night walk,no one wanted to go home.
It was past midnight of a cold Saturday night. You were wrapped up in your coat,but apparently it wasnât enough for you to stay warm
âI hate winterâ you mumbled,sliding your hand in the pockets
âYouâre always so cold-Yixing giggled,wrapping an arm around your shoulder to hold you close-better?â he demanded
âBetterâ you laughed.
The silence fell for a few seconds:you could see the boy staring at you under the dim light of the moon,a little smile on his lips
âWhy are you smiling?â you demanded
âI think itâs your presence. You light up the rooms you step inâ
âOh come on,thatâs too muchâ you laughed
âThatâs not. I really believe it. No one is like you,and I must be favoured to know youâ
At those words your cheeks heated up:thank God it was dark so he couldnât see how you turned into a fresh tomato
âI could say the same of you. Iâve never been so happy before meeting youâ
Without even noticing,the two of you had stopped walking and were standing face to face
âI can make you happy everyday if you let meâ
âW-what?â those words caught you off guard
âYou heard. Why would I keep on staying silent? I think itâs clear,isnât it?â
âW-what do you mean?â
Was he getting there? Was he about to say what you had in mind? Oh God,make it happenâyou thought
âDonât pretend you havenât noticed it,I know you did. I never really tried to hide it,maybe at the beginning,but not in the past weeks-Yixing paused for a moment-I love you y/n. I donât know how it happened:maybe it was because we shared the same experiences,or maybe because I found someone that listened to me and understood me,or maybe itâs just you and the way you areâŚcuz youâre beautiful y/n,both inside and out. Youâre the ray of sunshine Iâve been looking for during the past years and I wanna keep it with me for as long as it wants to stayâŚso,y/n,would you like to warm me for a while? Maybe forever if weâre meant to be?â Yixing grabbed your cold hands,holding them and dragging you closer. Your noses were a few inches away from each other. Once again,you could feel his warm breath against your skin
âI do,Yixing:I would love to be your ray of sunshineâ you smiled
At those words Yixingâs hands cupped your cheeks and his lips met yours:once again sparkles lit up in your stomach and you lower back tingled.
Maybe it was finally time:maybe you had found the person that wouldâve given you the unconditional love you deserved.
