Crowned by Stars

What you want to believe doesn’t matter to me.

You couldn’t even imagine. The feeling that I’m the only one not rolling forward.

The first time I saw you was like seeing the world for the first time all over again

I’m trying to point out all the bad things about you. All your flaws and why you were supposed to be a nightmare I should wake up to. Pointing out your flaws was the only way I could convinced myself to hate you so I could stop missing you. All it ever did was remind me that I fell for all the bad things about you and it made me miss you even more.

I wanna know how are you doing? Are you still trapped in that suffocating cage you built for yourself? Please I wanna know..

“To sit in silence with you. No words, just silent breathing. You are there and I am here.”

Ah time machine. Would I go back to that night to go back to you? Would I go back just to stop myself from leaving? Or would I go back to that day when I first met you and tell myself to look at the other way? Too late, too far gone.

I wonder if you think about me more than once a day. Do you think about me at all?

Cutting toxic people off that you had clung onto for support would be painfully hard. You’ll feel lost, unbalanced and lonely but that’s alright. As long as you’re moving forward, you’ll eventually find your way and you’ll be fine, always.