Sl8ter

You think you know but you never do

I get jealous easily because I know there’s nothing special about me

Honestly just leave me alone you don’t understand me you never have and you never will

I am the sole victim of my own terror

Be the person you wish was there for you

no matter what i do all i can think about is death

He’ll never know how much I think about him

I don’t want you to worry but it would hurt me even more if you didn’t so I don’t know what I want anymore

I’m so alone

I’m never going to amount to anything so I rather end it now than continue living in eternal misery

I’m going to die and I don’t know what comes after that I just know I’ll be gone and they’ll be happy

I have nothing genuine in me to give

It feels like the world is quietly erasing the only proof I have that people actually like me

I can never get it right, I never will

I’ve felt numb since February

I never wanted to end up like this

I don’t want to “become” anything.