This is a personal blog, but I likely wonβt be making many posts myself. I prefer to stay silent and reblog stuff, mostly fanart. If I do post something, itβs most likely to be whining or ranting. However, Iβm also known to ramble on (especially when Iβm tired).
Iβm the type who hyperfixates on one thing, and it becomes my whole world. However, I have a vast collection of other fandoms I like, as well as other interests. So thereβs likely to be odds and ends here and there, too (especially when I fall down rabbit holes).
Iβm also the type to hyperfocus on one character. In doing so, he (as the character is almost always male) is subjected to the insanity and depravity that is my mind. Mainly by pairing him up with other guys from his fandom (and sometimes other fandoms, too), in which his dynamic will always be the bottom. Iβm also a sucker for omegaverse, so heβll be an omega if applicable (98% of the time).
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Current hyperfixation & other distractions:
Detroit: Become Human | Connor | HankCon, RK1K (MarkCon), RK1700 (900800)
Code Geass (Lelouch), Death Note (L), Durarara (Izaya), Free (Rin), Fruits Basket (Yuki), Fullmetal Alchemist (Edward), Kuroshitsuji (Ciel), Naruto (Sasuke), Natsume Yuujinchou (Natsume), Neon Genesis Evangelion (Kaworu), No. 6 (Nezumi), One Piece (Sanji), Promare (Lio), Shingeki no Kyojin (Levi), Tokyo Ghoul (Kaneki), Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle (Fai) (and other CLAMP series) (Watanuki, Kamui, Subaru, Kazahaya), Tsuritama (Haru), Yuri on Ice (Yuuri, Yuri)
Movies/TV shows:
Adventure Time (Marceline), The Big Bang Theory (Sheldon), Buffy the Vampire Slayer (Buffy), Disney/Pixar, Doctor Who, DreamWorks, Ed Edd n Eddy (Eddy), Fantastic Beasts (Newt), Harry Potter (Draco), How to Train Your Dragon (Hiccup), Good Omens (Crowley), Gravity Falls (Dipper), The Hobbit (Bilbo), In the Flesh (Kieren), Labyrinth, Lord of the Rings, Marvel Cinematic Universe (Loki), The Princess Bride, Rise of the Guardians (Jack), Sherlock (BBC), Sherlock Holmes (Guy Ritchie movies) (Sherlock), Star vs the Forces of Evil (Marco), Steven Universe (Lars, Pearl), Studio Ghibli, Supernatural (Sam), Wicked (Elphaba)
And possibly various other games, anime, manga, movies, shows, books, actors, bands, YouTubers/streamers, Sanrio, animals, nature, astrology, astronomy, etc.
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Itβs finally happened, and by βitβ I mean recycling fic ideas from other fandoms. It was bound to happen eventually, as there are just so many ideas. I just wasnβt expecting it to be for the Dispatch fandom (for some reason). In part inspired by Bitch(ed), but more so seeing it reminded me of a fic idea I had a few years ago. See, as much as I love alpha bitching (and I DO adore it), I love the trans omega concept more.
It starts with alpha Robert. The Mecha Man legacy is one composed of all alphas, and Robbie does his best to instill that sense of alpha pride in Robert. Unfortunately, it doesnβt quite stick.
Even as a pup, Robert never cared much for the dominance and posturing of alphas. All the alphas he saw were aggressive and gruff, loud and forceful. He didnβt understand the appeal in being an alpha, despite his father telling him for as long as he can remember that heβd one day present as one.
Of course, Robert learned to keep such thoughts to himself. The one time he told his father he didnβt want to be an alpha when he grew up will forever haunt him. Robert tries to be the alpha pup his father wants him to be, but heβs justβ¦ not.
Heβs βsensitiveβ and quick to cry. He likes attention and affection. He likes softness and comfort. And while heβs never seen a nest in person, heβs always thought they looked nice and inviting in TV and movies. Maybe most damning of all, he doesnβt want to hurt or to hurt others, which really goes against the whole hero thing; getting hurt is inevitable, and the bad guys arenβt going to just come quietly if he asks nicely.
No, the Robertsons are alphas. Whatβs more, Mecha Man is an alpha. And so Robert learns to hide the parts of himself that donβt match the alpha image his father tries so hard to instill in him.
When Chase starts babysitting him, he gets the opportunity to indulge in some of the comforts he so desperately yearns for. Chase doesnβt get mad at him when heβs not able to control his emotions and even comforts him when he cries because he misses his dad. Overall, Chase treats him like a normal boy, not the son of Mecha Man.
Maybe itβs because Chase indulges him that he lets himself cry to his babysitter after he presents as an alpha as a preteen. His father was proud (and maybe Robert was just imagining it, but his dad also seemed relieved) after his presentation, but all Robert felt was dread and an indescribable sense of WRONGNESS. While Robert canβt give voice to his inner turmoil, he lets himself cry and clings to Chase when heβs offered a hug (and Twinkies).
After that, it seems like things only get worse. Robbie cracks down. Robertβs told heβs not a pup anymore, that heβs becoming a man and needs to act like it. As a result, his fatherβs lessons and training just became more grueling and punishing. It seems his father becomes even more determined to beat any last traces of weakness (of softness) out of Robert.
The next few years get progressively worse. Robert tries, he REALLY does, but he just canβt seem to make his father happy. He grows increasingly familiar with his fatherβs impatience and the look of disappointment on his Robbieβs face. It doesnβt matter how much he excels on the more technical side of things (his hacking skills in particular developing nicely), he always falls short on the physical and practical side. Heβs not quick enough, not strong enough, not ALPHA enough.
His only reprieve from his fatherβs never-ending dissatisfaction and disappointment are the times Chase babysits him. However, the older he gets, the less frequent Chase is called to watch him, as his father continuously remarks that heβs getting old enough to take care of himself. Until eventually, his father tells him Chase will no longer be watching him at all. Coincidentally, itβs not long after that that Uncle Eli Shroud shoots Mecha Man Astral.
After his fatherβs death and Robert takes on the mantle of Mecha Man, heβs too busy (and too stressed) to contemplate the feeling of wrongness under his skin. In some ways being an alpha is a boon as a hero, as it means heβs immune to other alpha commands (and there are plenty of villains who try to fight dirty and escape by issuing a command). And inside the suit, scents and pheromones are filtered out, making it safe to interact with even those experiencing their mating cycle.
Not that Robert is affected like other alphas. The scent and pheromones of an alpha in rut doesnβt repel or agitate him (although that doesnβt mean his presence doesnβt still agitate THEM). And for some reason the scent and pheromones of an omega in heat make him nauseous and vaguely make his skin crawl, especially the more sickeningly sweet ones. Which is perhaps ironic, as he has quite the sweet tooth.
However, even normally Robert doesnβt have much interest in omegas. Not that he has time for dating (or friends). He knows heβs bisexual, finding both men and women attractive, but he has neither the time nor the energy to figure out much else as far as his preferences.
Truthfully, he doesnβt have the same sex drive as other people his age, especially other alphas and males. His ruts are similarly abnormal, being rare and nothing like what heβs read about or been told to expect. Theyβre always short, he only really gets marginally hornier than usual (which already isnβt a lot), and he isnβt driven by the same desires to knot and breed.
Which is another thingβ¦ not that he has much frame of reference, but his knot is much smaller than normal. Not that it happens much, if at all. It only really happens during a rut, which is fine by him. If heβs honest, it makes him uncomfortable. He canβt help but think it feels WRONG, which is why heβs thankful it happens so rarely and his ruts rarer.
He tries not to think about it, the wrongness. It helps that he stays so busy, but itβs always kinda there at the back of his mind. He knows heβs not like other alphas, and heβs fine with thatβ¦
He tries not to think about the fact he doesnβt like being an alpha. Just like he tries not to think about not liking omegasβ¦ and the fact that heβs more drawn to other alphas than betas.
Itβs not like it really affects his daily life anyway, so it doesnβt matterβ¦ right?
He also tries not to think about the nightmares he has featuring his father and his reactions to the disappointment of an alpha he is. (He tries ever HARDER not to think about the dreams where heβs not an alpha at allβ¦ where everything is warm and soft and his scent is sweet.)
And so for 15 years he works his hardest to be Mecha Man and not think about things he has no time for. Heβd like to think heβs doing fairly wellβ¦ at least until he gets blown out of the sky.
Feeling nauseous and have a terrible headache. I'm no doctor but I'm pretty sure I can fix this by staring at my phone in a dark room reading fanfiction.
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I don't like that the game makes out that roberts a little oblivious about his own fucking mech. Like its like he's relying solely on royd, and in the conversation about the mech and the pulse they talk about gearheads and science nerds they could've put robert in the gearhead category. Which to me he is he's been repairing and maintaining that mech for like 15 years. I wish he was more involved in the rebuilding and designing of his mech, that we got more of him royd talking about it and how he managed for so long.
Like i think he puts himself down in comparision to his dad, so it would have been intersting if they focused more on the revelation that he didn't make the pulse. Like they easily could've made mini game sequences for rebuilding the mech with royd. And used those sequences to give us more exposition on robert and his dad, even his granddad. Get into the dynasty of mecha man and talk adout how his grandad powered his mech when they're trying to make a new pulse/power source.
It just feels to me that robert isn't given as much focus after the first two eps even though he's the main character.
I agree with this. I wouldβve even been fine if Robert says he isnβt good with the suit and maybe doesnβt actually know the βproper namesβ for things because he didnβt have formal training, but then itβs shown heβs a bonafide gearhead like his dad and Royd
And especially to that second point, his conversations with Royd would be so funny. Theyβd start out practically talking in two different languages. Feeling like heβs the stupid one, Robert stops participating until Royd cracks the code: they are talking about the same thing but Robert had his own names for stuff. Cue Royd both adapting to Robertβs way of thinking and also trying to teach him the scientific names
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