Summary: You unintentionally walk in on Sana, completely naked, and see a large tattoo you never noticed before. You're admiring the artwork but she has her eyes on something else.
TW: this is literally just fucking. If thatโs not something you want to read, please donโt! Slapping, teasing, biting, fighting for who is on top, Sana has a dragon back tattoo, overstimulation, choking...uh degradation maybe? Let me know if I missed anything
A/N: Thank you @neoplatinum for letting me write a story *cough porn cough* about back tattoo Sana and to @nr1chaedickrider for scheming hehehe. And thank you to @tttwiceeluvrr for the request that I thieved from Neo! @myouicieloz for helping me spark the idea for the same cuz i was STRUGGLING lmaoo Please enjoy what my Sana brain rot produce and thank you for reading<3
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Music bumps through the house, vibrating the walls and rattling the framing of the pictures scattered.The high hats ringing off the ceilings, bass reverberating through the floor. Sana knew you were coming. You made plans to go out to eat that day at 1:30pm after schedules, she couldnโt have forgotten right?
Letting yourself in, you walked through the halls to the source of the loudness, finding the master bedroom cracked with about an inch of space between the door and threshold. Yelling her name was useless, music blanketing any sound that couldโve been made in a 20 foot proximity.
Pushing the door open curiously, you take your first few steps into the room when her shadow comes into your view, stopping you dead in your tracks.
Sana was in her walk-in closet, completely nude, facing her clothes and attempting to pick out an outfit. The curvature of her was enough to send you into a panic, perfectly smooth skin draped over a frame even Gods were jealous of. Muscles noticeably flexing as she slid a shirt across the rod bolted into the wall.
Seeing her bare like this wasnโt the only thing that surprised you.
An entire back piece, a dragon in Japanese traditional style, lay across her, fitting that perfect frame in a way that was almost natural. Like she was born with it. Getting lost in the intricacies of the details, beautifully designed with near perfect line work ascending her spine.
Head of the dragon on her shoulder, body of scales intertwining down her back over part of her ribs, claws on her hips and tailed stretched down her butt and ending at the top of her thigh. Cherry blossom petals balancing the negative space throughout the piece, shading perfectly balanced and clear. This was a work of art.
You are suddenly hyper aware of everything around you. The loudness of the music, the softness of the carpet, the way your heartbeat picks up its pace, arguing with the bass in the music, and how your lungs are struggling to function properly. Your underwear is in the beginning stages of being ruined, unable to help yourself imagining her looking down at you between her legs.
Mind completely mesmerized and your body moving without your permission, you step into the closet to get a closer look at the artwork on the masterpiece that was Minatozaki Sana.
Your hands lift and lightly start tracing the line of the dragonโs head on her shoulder, startling her. Her back muscle tensed underneath your touch, before she whipped around to see you absolutely enchanted by her naked body along with the ink laid into her skin.
Attempting to keep eye contact and not look down at her chest, already feeling horrible about invading this much of her privacy to begin with but your pussy was soaking at the thought of making her cum.
Thereโs a glimmer of something present behind her eyes, a slight smirk slithers across her face when she sees how red you are. Your brain immediately releasing cortisol into your veins causing your blood to run cold in panic.
โIโm so sorry, I shouldโve knocked.โ abruptly shouted over the speaker system before attempting to get out of that room. Absolutely embarrassed that you didnโt just turn around and leave in the first place.
Speeding to the door, the music was halting mid song and you hear โIโll be ready in a minute!โ before you close the door behind you and almost sprint to the living room. Thinking about just leaving entirely when your phone vibrates twice in your pocket. A text from Sana.
Sana: You better not leave! We have lunch plans.
You: Fine.
Sana: :)
How could she just know you were going to try and escape the situation? More importantly, how could you not just stop yourself from approaching her? What an invasion of space.
Hands reach to cover your face in shame when you hear Sanaโs crisp giggle emerge from the hall that connects the living room to the rest of the house. A long heavy sigh leaves your chest, raising your head to face her.
Sheโs wearing a short sleeve cropped shirt thatโs nearly see through, a black sports bra underneath, black cargo pants that are a little too big for her, and some white sneakers. Giving a little spin to show her outfit, but all you can focus on is the bold lines that shows through her shirt and exposed on her lower back.
You swallow roughly, standing up and attempting to explain yourself and apologize.
โI am so sorry, Sana. I do not know what came over me, I shouldโve knocked or texted you or something instead of just walking right into your space and then not leaving immediately when I saw you wereโฆunclothedโ not wanting to bring attention to the fact that she was naked. So uncomfortable with the idea of violating a good friend's boundaries that you could barely even make eye contact with her.
Sana is smiling at you in an endearing way, placing a finger under your chin and tilting your head up to force you to look her directly in the eye.
โY/nโฆitโs completely okay. It was only a matter of time, okay?โ
Only a matter of time?!
โWhat do you mean by that?โ regrettably leaving your mouth before you could even question the thought.
โMaybe Iโll show you after lunch.โ winking and grabbing her keys before ushering you out the front door, giving no time to question what she had just been spoken so nonchalantly.
Pushing you playfully to the car, opening the passenger side door, and motioning for you to get in. Baffled by what is happening currently, you canโt imagine why she would say what she didโฆunless?
Unless she actually meant itโฆpeering over to her, watching her carefully put the key into the ignition, pull the car out of park and speed off down the road.
โWe are going to go to that Italian place down the road, Iโm feeling like pasta today! Is that okay?โ still peeking at her, you forget to respond entirely. Distracted by the sentence that plays back in your head over and over and over again, causing a slight ache between your legs.
โY/n? Are you there?โ reaching over to lay her hand on your upper thigh, lightly tapping to try and get you to pay attention to what she was saying. The tap causes you to clench your thighs together, holding your breath as a devious smile appears on sanaโs face.
โToo distracted? Whatโs on your mind?โ knowing full well she already knew the answer to what was occupying your thoughts.
Flashes of those details on the cherry blossom petals and the dragon's teeth cascade through your mind, you know what? Fuck it.
Finally exhaling and beginning to breathe regularly again, you shift back in your seat and mutter โI saw you naked once and now I canโt stop thinking about it.โ
A little surprised by your boldness, that was not the version of you she was familiar with, sunglasses slid to the end of her nose as she raised her eyebrows at you.
โLetโs discuss over lunch, hm? Iโm interested in the thoughts youโre having.โ sultry tone coating you in absolute need for her.
โMaybe Iโll show you after lunch?โ oh my god, why did you say that?
A snide chuckle knocks on the windows of the sedan as she pulls up to the restaurant.
โPlaying my own game against me?โ sultry tone still present with half lidded eyes, leaning over the center console to get closer to your face.
โHow am I doing?โ leaning towards her, almost mocking her movements, even playfully, she takes it as a challenge.
Smirk, a hum, and a tongue in cheek as she picks up her phone and makes a call. Youโre confused until she speaks.
โHello, I would like to play a to go order please.โ
Sheโs calling the restaurant you were parked out in front of...I guess we will be dining in today.
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Food in hand, you walk back into the house you left about 20 minutes ago, Sana throwing her bag and keys on the counter as you place the food down. Having no moments to register whatโs about to happen, she places her hands on either side of you, trapping you against the counter.
โWhat were you going to show me?โ lowly reveals itself from her throat, inching closer to your face, somewhat teasing you and attempting to ignite the tension that had been building since you were caught admiring her shamelessly.
Sanaโs hands travel up your sides under your shirt, youโre stoic in all of this. Waiting for the opportunity to show her exactly what you meant as she continues you softly run her nails down your ribcage.
Goosebumps pepper your skin as you throw your arm around her waist to hold her tightly against you. Skin warm on yours while your forearm locks her into place, bringing your face so close to hers, mouths almost touching, her lips chasing yours in an act of desperation.
โTell me what you want,โ whispered into her mouth, eye contact all consuming, completely converting your mind from slightly nervous to absolutely lust drive.
Sana watches how you change, the shift in dynamic between the two of you tenses the air even further. Though she was the instigator, she was no longer in control and she knew that.
โI think you know what I want.โ lips moving closer to yours before you pull back again, making her a little annoyed that you keep making her work for it.
โDonโt start something you canโt finish, Satang.โ a warning disguised as playful banter. Neither of you had ever experienced each other in this way before, even if it felt natural to hold Sana so close to you.
Chuckling at your statement, sheโs having a hard time taking you seriously. The friend version of you sits in her mind's eye. Always so sweet and caring, she assumed that carried over into the bedroom too.
โOh, are you a top? Well youโll have to fight me for that. Iโve waited too long for thisโฆIโm not going to give up control so easily.โ big brown eyes blinking at you, almost challenging you, pushing you a little farther off the edge.
โSafe word?โ coldly uttered as your pointer finger trails up her stomach to the neck of her shirt.
โDo we need one?โ head cocked to the side. She truly has no clue whatโs about to come.
โHmmโฆletโs go with colors instead. Stoplight style.โ smirking at you, eyes full of lust and curiosity waiting for you to make your move.
โDeal.โ Hand maneuvering from the neck of her shirt to her actual neck, the soft sweet human she knew was no longer present in this. Almost predatory in your movements as you lightly pulled her to her bedroom.
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โYouโre going to listen to every word I say, understand?โ ice shards spewing around your words before throwing her onto her bed.
She looks confused by this, never expecting the sweet anxious Y/n to be soโฆdominant. It tastes like a daydream sheโs had continuously since sheโs met you.
โAnd if I don't? What happens then?โ curiously inquiring about your plans, testing the waters to see if being a brat was something you wanted.
Glaring down at her, ignoring the question, you simply had one instruction for her.
โStrip.โ
Sana hesitates, another push, intrigued by the demeanor youโve presented to her. Itโs just so unexpected, youโre usually so docile and reserved about sexual things. This is what she dreamed of most nights, unable to grasp that it was coming true before her eyes.
โNow.โ taking a seat in the chair in the corner to watch the show you insisted she put on.
Sana stands up, sauntering over to you while grabbing the hem of her shirt and peeling it from her body. She slowly turns around, removing her sports bra in the process, dragon tattoo on full display, making sure to slowly slide her pants and underwear down to her ankles before kicking them to the side.
Refusing to pull your eyes from her body as you take in the ink and curves. Her skin is silky smooth, a perfect ass you just wanted to take a bite out of, and not a single mark on her to tell the world who she now belonged to.
โTurn around.โ rotating to face you, she takes a few steps forward and leans down, placing her hands on the arms of the chair and invading your space again.
โDemanding, arenโt we? Especially since you were the one who came into my room unannouncedโ standing up straight and walking over to the bed. Her ass on the edge leaning back on her hands, legs spread apart in front of you. She is leaving nothing to the imagination.
Jaw tensing at the new view you had, practically ripping your shirt off before leaning back into the chair again. Unable to keep your eyes off of hers as she continued on in that low tone that nearly made you rabid.
โWere you expecting to see me like this? Sprawled out on the bed for you? Iโve thought about inviting you over, just to give you a show like this.โ one hand raises up and you know exactly where itโs headed.
โStop.โ eye contact maintained as she halts in her tracks, surprised you said anything.
You stand and walk over to her, removing your bra and pants along the way.
โDonโt touch whatโs mine.โ growled at her before roughly cupping her face and bombarding her with a fiery kiss, tongues intertwining, her hands wandering up to you as she tries to flip you onto your back.
Grabbing her hands, locking your fingers in hers, and pinning her to the mattress. She lightly whimpers into your mouth causing your knees to buckle. Feeling her lips curve up before she uses a leg to literally sweep you off your feet. Your knees hitting the ground roughly, causing you to wince, squeezing her hands tightly and pulling her forward with you.
โHow can you expect to be the dominant one from the floor? I thought you were actually going to put me in my placeโฆsuch a shame.โ glowering at you from above.
โYou wanted a fight didnโt you?โ jumping to your feet, pushing her onto her back, rolling her over harshly, inciting a giggle of excitement out of her.
Cocking your arm back, you smack her ass roughly, watching her flesh ripple underneath your touch, only to lay another immediately after. Hearing her suck air through her teeth as you lay another handprint to the canvas.
โColor?โ cuts through the sound of Sana panting, admiring the red welts left behind and watching a string of slick drip from her.
โGreenโฆso so greenโ between breaths.
Expressing amusement at her enthusiasm with a dark chuckle, you apply one more solid smack to her before placing a kiss at the bottom of her spine, confusingly soft in your touches and light pecks up her spine, over the line beautiful line work, across every cherry blossom petal and up to her neck.
Sana breathing heavily underneath you with your tits pressed firmly against her back to hold her in place to avoid her squirming, you take a second to appreciate the position you found yourself in, and how absolutely drenched you were for her.
Your right hand follows the curvature of her hips wrapping around her and sliding down between her legs. She groans before you even touch her.
โAwhh, babyโs all worked up, hm? How long have you been dreaming about what I would feel like between your legs?โ dragging your middle finger lightly over her dripping cunt to gather a little wetness before coasting over her clit a few times, just to rile her up a little more.
The bed muffling her whines, you grab a hand full of her hair and pull it towards you, forcing her head back to allow the honeyed moans to drench the room in their sickly sweet stickiness.
Sounds reverberating through her body, causing a reaction in yours, solidifying the ruination of your underwear. Sanaโs hips start rocking back and forth in the rhythm of you set with your hand so you still your movements and let her fuck herself on your hand.
โAwh, look how desperate you are for me. Grinding into my hand to feel something? How pitiful. You might as well beg.โ
Sana squeals in frustration, grinding down into you harder as you watch her pathetically try to earn some sense of pleasure, tail of the tattoo snapping with her subtle movements. Itโs like watching a scene unfold.
Removing your hand suddenly brings her even more anger, rolling over, forcing you onto your back with the movement and quickly finding her seat on your abdomen, slick warm against your skin. Your breath hitching silently so she canโt see how weak she has you.
โWhy canโt you just fuck me like I want you too? Have to make it about teasing me?! I obviously fucking want you so why wonโt you just take whatโs yours?โ almost maliciously spat at you, her hands dragging down your chest and brushing over your nipples. You're clenching around nothing as Sana touches your body, trying to tease you back.
Youโve had enough of her trying to be the dominant one, even if itโs only for a second. You sit up, halfway getting in her face, foreheads pressed together and noses brushing, her arms instinctively wrap around your neck.
โI donโt need you to tell me what to doโฆcolor?โ Wrestling her onto her back again before she has more time to protest.
โGreen,โ moaned back to you, her eyes half-lidded, screaming fuck me through the tension. Lowly growling as you press your lips together, urgently trying to absorb as much of her as possible.
Making your way to her neck, you bite down viscously. She moans your name into your skin as you refuse to let go of her. Youโre practically dripping onto her as she rakes her nails cruelly down your back, causing you to whimper into her.
โFuck baby, I need you.โ hoarsely stated, shaky hands tug at your waistband, trying to pull them off, moving . Youโre inclined to help her remove them from your frame, finally unlatching from her neck and giving her just enough leverage to slide them off you.
โLet me feel you, baby. Iโve waited so long- need to feel you.โ running her hands up your thighs, grazing over your slick covered skin until she reaches your core. Her finger glides past your clit a couple times causing you to almost get carried away grinding into her, before you snatch her hand away from you.
โWhoโs the desperate one now?โ Spat at you as your slick drips down her fingers slowly.
โItโs still you.โ guiding her hand down to her own pussy, letting her smear your cum onto her. A loud wail leaves her mouth, feeling the warmth from your wetness against her, unable to stop herself from shoving her fingers inside.
Grabbing her cheeks, forcing her lips to pucker and making eye contact, you utter one single word that halts her in her tracks. โNo.โ
You remove her hand for her knowing she wasnโt going to do it herself. Whimpering at the lack of something inside of her, sheโs reduced to just a begging mess for you. Your little whiney play thing.
โPleaseeee, Iโve been so good.โ rocking her hips, the attempt to feel something overpowers her need to be the little brat she was attempting to portray.
Smirking at her, you lean in to kiss her again. Sheโs melting into you, exactly where you want her to be. So desperate for you. Your hand wraps around her throat again, squeezing lightly before your fingers descend her torso, scratching along the way, and stopping right above her slit.
โBegging looks good on you. Are you sure youโre needy enough? Maybe Iโll make you wait all dayโฆmaybe Iโll make you wait all week, actually. I think you look too good like thisโฆโ sharply spat into her mouth as her brows furrow. The whiny little whore beneath you squirming, writhing for your touch, bucking her hips up.
โMaybe itโs because you canโt make me cum.โ the whiney tone contradicts the words hissed, neediness has taken over and now sheโs just trying to make you fuck her.
A smack on her cunt, followed by a loud shriek fills the room, her juices coating your hand and splatter against her thighs and yours.
โTry againโ straight faced, despite how badly you want her, how badly you crave the way she tastes. She doesnโt need to know how close you are to fully devouring her.
โUnghhโฆfuck, please y/n. Please fuck me! Iโm so fucking desperate for you. Want to cum for you. Fuck please please please.โ tears brimming at how badly Sana aches for you. The knot building in your stomach pulls at all your senses, this was just as bad for you as it was for her.
โSo patheticโฆcolor?โ gripping her hips tightly before getting on your knees, pulling her forward just a little bit and resting her legs on your shoulders.
โGre-eeenโฆoh, shit.โ stuttered as the warmth of your breath radiates up her thighs
The sounds she's making could make anyone weak for her. Yelping and arching her back, rutting her hips forward for more contact, the lustful whimpers begging you to use her in a way that you never thought you would.
โLook at me.โdemanded before laying a long, slow, tantalizing lick from her entrance to her clit that has her unable to keep still, sheโs absolutely rabid.
โMore, pleaseโฆfuc- Iโll do anything, just pleaseโฆโ almost weeping, running her fingers through your hair, gripping tightly and attempting to pull you closer to where she needed you the most. Putting your tongue out in preparation; you knew she was going to try to do this.
Allowing her to use your face for mere seconds, you force her hips down onto the mattress and give her another slow long lick. Taking back the control you allowed her to have and driving her insane all in one swift motion.
Hair completely all over the place, face red, and half lidded watery eyes look down at you, a single tear, reflecting your diligence in working her up, sluggishly plummets down her features before hitting the bedding with a thick thwap.
You mewl into her, securing your lips around her clit before running your tongue over it incessantly. Sheโs already close, body tensing under you, unable to keep still as you overstimulate her. You spent all this time working her up just for this moment where she would absolutely crumble for you.
โFuck fuck fuckโ followed by another string of unintelligible sounds solicited from her mouth. Immediately adding 2 fingers into her with no intention of taking it easy on her, immediately pumping at full speed just to watch her fall apart for you.
โJesus fucking Christ!โ Screamed out into the negative space of the room as Sana came around your fingers. Her silky smooth thighs tighten around your head, one hand grasping at sheets the other tugging your hair as you keep lapping at her aggressively.
โFuckโฆwait waitโฆIโm gonna- oh my godโ already hitting another stride of pleasure.
Pressing up into her roughly, the sound of her pussy crying for you makes you want to shatter her. Sucking, licking, and sliding a third finger into her, Sana falls apart around you again. Shaking violently as you hold her down against the sheets, tears running down her face as a flash of heat dances across her entire body in pure ecstasy.
Breathing heavily and sitting up, she grabs a fist full of your hair with one hand and leans back onto the other. Bucking her hips into your tongue wildly, panting and moaning loudly without a single care in the world.
Firmly holding your head in place, smearing her cum along your tongue and lips, completely lost in pleasure as she fucks your face in an attempt to push herself over the edge another time.
Letting her have her moment, you left your tongue out for her to use. Slurping every drop of her as she rides your mouth. Her pants are getting faster, body tensing again, moans being cut off by curses. Sheโs completely lost in her own pleasure when she finally manages to formulate a short and simple sentence..
โGood girlโ
Ripping her off of you before she can fully finish using you. The frustration behind her eyes seers into you like a brand, eyes carving into your skin as you start sifting through nightstand drawers.
โWhere is it?โ almost shouted at her, trying to quickly locate the last thing you needed to prove the point that you were in charge. She knows exactly what youโre looking for, huffing over your question and pointing to the bottom drawer of the dresser across the room.
Quickly stepping over and finding it, the 8 inch strap heavy as you fix it around your hips, balance feeling almost off as you bring your attention back to Sana who is still rocking her hips and whimpering. Just where you want her.
โFlip overโฆcolor?โ Youโre practically leaking down your thighs and she fixes herself, ass up for you. Her back arched, face in the mattress and massive tattoo on full display as she taunts you by wiggling her ass against you.
โFucking greenโฆFuck me, please! Need you inside so so so bad.โ desperation weighs heavy in her voice and only grows worse as you grind the strap against her clit, teasing her even further. How far could you push her?
Smacking her sensitive little clit with the silicone a few times, building it up even further than you needed, just to see how she would react.
The sounds coming out of her are so pitiful, whining incoherently for you.
โYou want it, Hm?โ teasing the tip at the entrance before running it over her slit one last time. Pressing the head into her entrance, only the head.
โIโd bet youโve dreamed about this moment.โ removing the tip to watch her clench before gliding it back in painfully slow. Sana is just nodding her head and making sounds that could only be described as painfully needy.
โDreamed about what it would be like for me to slam into you?โ rapidly bottoming out into her, touching her cervix and staying in place.
โDoes the little slut want to cockwarm my strap while I mark all over this tattoo? Let the world know who you belong to? Hm?โ brutally sinking your teeth into the line work of the dragon that graced her back.
Reeling your hips back slowly, torturously staying with half the tip in, waiting to re-sheath it and leaving it buried inside of Minatozaki Sana. Just where it belonged, inside your perfect little toy and she couldnโt be any more feral for it. Trying to push back into you to feel something, even if it was just to feel full.
Finding a place on the other shoulder to bite down on, railing into her again. Creating a slow building rhythm that harmonizes with the symphony ejecting from Sanaโs perfect lips. Like a crescendo building higher and higher as you slam into, getting faster in every thrust.
A scream, the snap of a knot, another belligerent bite down, and a continuous pace that wasnโt going to stop until she was unable to hold herself up, creating a whirlwind of heat and passion. Dragon tattoo on her waving into the waves the both of you created, Sana slamming back into you with your hands on her hip, pulling down and creating leverage for yourself.
It didnโt take long for her legs to give out, fully spasming into the bedding, gasping for air when you finally let go of the flesh on her back, tasting a mixture of her and iron on your tongue, licking the wound before laying sweet kisses on her back and neck.
Carefully removing the strap from her, she moans at the loss of what filled her. You watch her muscles contract and laugh to yourself as you remove the leather off your hips and crawl up next to her.
Sanaโs still laying stomach down horizontally across the bed, breathing heavily with her eyes closed. Tapping her shoulder, you lift an arm and offer for her to cozy up with you and she is happy to take it.
Arms and legs wrapped around each other, dragging the tips of your fingers over the bite marks and ink, you canโt help but ponder when she got the tattoo.
โCan I ask you something?โ whispered to her, not willing to remove any comfort that she currently had from her grasp.
โMhm.โ hummed back at you in pure exhaustion, you can feel her body relaxing onto yours- sheโs about to fall asleep.
โWhy did you go for a back tattoo? Out of all the tattoos I thought you could get, a very large dragon was not on my list.โ chuckling as you spoke, watching the coy smile form on her face through a sleep filled haze.
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song(s): good luck babe - chappel roan | runaway runaway - mars argo | casual - chappel roan |
summary: youโre dream was to debut with your best friend. what do you do when she doesnโt want to debut as your โfriendโ anymore?
pairing: idol!huh yunjin x soloist!fem!reader | slight idol!nakamura kazuha x soloist!fem!reader
tags: angst, eventual happy ending
wc: 2.7k
cw: mentions of dieting, internalized homophobia LITE, period-typical homophobia
ex: not beta read will do it later sorry ๐
jennifer had been your best friend since highschoolโ or I guess you should say huh yunjin, now. you both met in your freshman year, and bonded over your love of music and dance. she was loud, extroverted, but not in an obnoxious wayโ she was like the sun, shining brightly, oozing charisma. She lit up a room, and it was all you could do to chase her warmth like a desperate, frost-bitten flower.
you were still extroverted, albeit enjoying time away from people. you werenโt popular, you were a bit more reserved, a bit more closed off, but relatively well liked for your humor and academic prowess. You had one or two close friends, one of them being yunjin.
it was the summer before 2019 when she told you she wanted to be an idol. You were sleeping over at her house, since your parents were fighting, again. you, who had no real plans after highschool, whose parents didnโt really care what became of their daughterโ you smiled and held her hand. Youโd follow the sun anywhere it went.
you both made it onto produce 48, jumping up and down, screaming and crying for just the pure joy of it. Alone, again, with her, you held her head in your hands, finally kneeling in front of each other on the hardwood floor, your foreheads touching as you both panted, giggling and smiling still. The moment quickly broke away when you heard the door open, breaking apart faster than you could blink. Thatโs when it all started, you could say. When you realized you might like your best friend.
you were a rising star, praised for your smooth, detailed dance and soft, honey way of singing. You began to rank higher and higher, everyone loved youโ everyone but your best friend. Everyone but who you wished would love you.
a part of you thinks if you werenโt going through your angsty teenaged romance, you wouldnโt have tried as hard to debut as you did. All your songs were about her, her hair, her voice, her eyesโ everything about her. She was your reason to keep going. Maybe she deserved some credit, after all, you would never had been as popular if everyone wasnโt so curious to know who Koreaโs new rising rookie was so in love with.
when yunjin was eliminated, it was the worst day of your life. The cameras caught you, with your hand over your mouth, frozen, tears falling down your face. You struggled to breath, but finally got up and ran to her. You didnโt even care if the cameras caught you, you didnโt care- you just needed her- your best friend- you needed her.
you cried for days. you tried not to bother anyone, muffling it with a pillow. you got so good at crying quietly, but everyday youโd wake up with puffy, red-rimmed eyes, and got told to cover them up. You tried to keep contact, but she โcouldnโt handle the reminder,โ right now, or so she said. Either way, there was a hundred messages you sent before you got that sharp reminder that you would never be anything more than a friend. maybe less, now. She was never yours. You were on borrowed time. the sun shares its warmth with the whole world, you were just naive enough to believe it was you who allowed it to be shared.
after that, Koreaโs rising star fell back to earth. The pretty sunflower wilted, and broke apart. You were eliminated shortly after, and some people put two and two together. There was never enough proof for a scandal, but some people believed that you fell apart because that person you were writing about left, but they still werenโt sure who. God, theyโre so dumb.
you continued to be a trainee, lying in wait.
you got called into a meeting. You had the opportunity to debut in a new group. Le Sserafim, they called it, an anagram for im fearless. A part of you laughed. you were never fearless. You were a coward. You couldnโt even tell her how much you loved her. You didnโt try to think about it, though. You hadnโt heard that name in yearsโ
it was three years before you heard the name huh yunjin again. She was coming back, and she was going to debut. In the same group.
and like coming home after years of being lost. obviously, you were ecstatic.
all the starving, all the work, all the tears and pain and sufferingโ it was all for her. itโd all be worth it to feel her warmth again, to get your sun back, to end this constant winter.
Youโd get to be her sunflower, again.
The heat of August in Korea was in full force, and you were wearing nothing too impressive, just a Nirvana shirt youโd had for years and a pair of baggy jeans when you saw her. To be completely transparent, you had heard her before you saw her. You could never forget that laugh. You peeked your head from behind the wall, peering down the corridor. You practically ran to her.
You beamed, barely contained excitement buzzing around you. โJEN! Youโre back! Oh my god, how are you? I missed y-โ you were cut off. She smiled at you, but it didnโt look.. real. It look practiced. She didnโt smile at you like how she used to.
โIโm good, and yeah, itโs great to be back. Nice to see you again, y/n,โ she nodded, before she continued walking with the staff member into a different room, farther down along the corridor.
What just happened? Did she.. not like you, anymore? Did she forget? Did she move on? What were you sayingโ there was nothing to move on from. Stress relief, she called it. Just a distraction. Casual, easy, quick. What were you thinking? No, really, what were you thinking? She had only dated guys all throughout high school, you were probably just her experiment, just something she tried out.
You decided to find out.
You cornered her in a hallway. Not very classy, you know, but where else could you find her?
โJen- is there a reason you stopped talking to me? I just- you probably know, weโre gonna debut together now, we need to.. work together. I just- I need to know. Did it mean nothing to you? You were my best friend,โ
Yunjin looked vaguely uncomfortable, cringing towards the wall, looking to the side before she spoke. โListen, y/n, weโre about to debut. Iโm about to debut. Iโve been working on this for years, and so have you. Why would we throw it all away? We should focus on our debut, not whatever silly things we did when we were younger,โ she shrugged, giving a practiced grin. โBesides, it was never serious, right? You know how I am, we both agreed we were just bored-โ
โBored? Because we were fucking bored? Youโve got to be kidding me, Jen. Thereโs no way you believe that- I fucking loved you-โ
โYeah, well, itโs over now. Weโre debuting. Get it together,โ she spat acidly, pushing past you and opening the door to the practice studio before looking over her shoulder. โI mean it, y/n. Just forget about it. It didnโt mean anything to me, and it shouldnโt have meant anything to you either,โ she said icily, about to close the door. โJust call me Yunjin, now,โ she muttered, door clicking shut behind her, leaving you a bitter, heart broken mess.
you didnโt follow. You figured she needed time alone- she didnโt need you, anymore. you wouldnโt have known how wrong she felt saying it, how it felt like ripping out her heart every time she watched your face break. It was for your own good, she thought. You didnโt need her ruining your chances. You both wanted this, right? To debut? That was the dreamโ she was doing you a favor.
โIโm sorry, sir, but I donโt think I can debut in a group,โ you said seriously, your hands clasped together. โI would rather be a soloist.. Iโve already written a few songs, Iโve planned the conceptโ you know how popular I was during Produce 48, right? I swear, just give me a shot-โ You pleaded, beginning to ramble before he cut you off.
โY/n, youโre an excellent singer, and a well-rounded dancer. Youโre an asset, to say the least. I never really wanted you in a group to begin with. I think you have a future as a soloist,โ he smiled, nodding. โSure, why not? Tell me your ideas,โ
it all went from there. You were gonna debut. Either way, even if you were in a group- it wouldnโt be with your best friend, Jennifer. Itโd be with Huh Yunjin, idol extraordinaire. You didnโt like her, much. You didnโt want to be her flower, or anyones, for that matter. Returning to the ground was a better choice. Sunflowers were always too bright for you anyway. You preferred white carnations, anyway.
You made your debut around the same time as Le Sserafim, and it was a smash hit. You released your debut album, LIMERENCE, with the title track โGood Luck, Babe!โ You were widely praised, forums discussing whether or not the song was about the same person you sang about in Produce 48. They were right, of course, but theyโd never guess who. You were on a music show, getting your first win. The Le Sserafim members clapped, and you smiled graciously at them, your gaze lingering on Yunjinโs before you turned to the cameras, smiling, waving, holding the trophy before you were handed the mic for an encore. You smiled, readjusting the trophy in your arms before your voice began to ring out on the loud stage.
โIโm fine, itโs cool, you can say that we are nothing but you know the truth,โ you began, glancing at Yunjin not-so-subtlely.
โand guess Iโm the fool, with her arms out like an angel through the car sun roof,โ memories of fooling around, joking, sneaking out your parents house to meet her, to meet Yunjin.
โI donโt wanna call it off, but you donโt wanna call it love,โ your voice grew in volume, periodically facing and waving at the cameras, before facing Yunjin once again. You really didnโt care if this was posted on forums, saying there was something going on saying you were rude, you didnโt careโ you just needed her to know.
โYou only wanna be the one that I call baby,โ Yunjin tensed under your gaze, averting her eyes. Sakura and Chaewon looked at her knowingly, a bit disappointed. Kazuha and Eunchae looked a bit confused on why, exactly, you were staring at Yunjin like you wanted her to explode.
โYou could kiss a hundred boys in bars, shoot another shot, try to stop the feeling. You could say itโs just the way you are, make a new excuse, another stupid reason,โ memories of the seen texts, never responded to, flashed through Yunjinโs mind. That stupid argument a few months ago- was this about her? Who was she kidding, of course it was about her, y/n only loved her. She was secure, in that. She hated it though, she didnโt want to ruin your chances, you should move on from herโ she wasnโt good for you, she never would be, you deserved better.
โGood luck, babe! Well, good luck, babe! Youโd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling. Good luck, babe! Well good luck, babe! Youโd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling,โ you walked across the stage, staring into the cameras as you said this. You winked, giving a winning smile before continuing. โIโm cliche, who cares? Itโs a sexually explicit kind of love affair,โ another wink. โAnd I cry, itโs not fair,โ you gave a theatric frown, pouting. โI just need a little lovin, I just need a little air,โ You kept your gaze off Yunjin for the next few lyrics, acting as if you were now pleading to the crowd, the cameras, for love. Yunjin continued to watch nervously. Why werenโt you looking at her anymore? It started to sound as if you were really, actually over her.
โThink Iโm gonna call it off, even if you call it love. I just wanna love someone who calls me baby-โ you began again, gaze lingering on Kazuha, winking at her general direction, waving, and turning back to the cameras. You continued to sing, entertaining the crowd before beginning to look a little more bitter, a little more jaded, a little more angry. โWhen you wake up next to him in the middle of the night, with your head in your hands, youโre nothing more than his wife. And when you think about me, all of those years ago, youโre standing face to face with โI told you soโ, you know I hate to say it, โI told you so,โ you know I hate to say, but- I told you so!โ You cried, clutching the mic as you sang passionately, years of resentment, of confusion, of anger, of regret, pain- everything you had felt for Yunjin, everything you would feel. This is what this was for.
โYou could kiss a hundred boys in bars, shoot another shot, try to stop the feeling, you can say itโs just the way you are, make a new excuse, another stupid reason,โ you spat, making brief eye contact with Yunjin, hatred flashing in your eyes, a mask for the hurt to wear.
โGood luck, babe, well good luck, babe. Youโd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling. Good luck, babe. Well good luck, babe! Youโd have to stop the world just to stop the feeling,โ you sang, crescendo falling, the song ending as the crowd cheered your name, and you finally walked off stage. You walked the building until you found an isolated part with little to no people. You leaned on the vending machine next to the water fountain, sighing. You told your manager you had to use the bathroom, but it was just an excuse to slip away.
You looked up when you heard footsteps. It was the pretty Le Sserafim member you saw standing near Sakura. Kazuha, you think her name was? Youโd have to double check.
โOh, hello,โ You smiled, bowing slightly.
โAck- oh, hello! Congratulations on your win- I liked your song,โ The Japanese girl bowed, clasping her hands together.
โThank you, I quite liked your song as well,โ You praised. โYouโre very pretty,โ you said, a slight grin on your face as the other girl blushed, spluttering with her words. โWhatโs your name?โ
โKazuha- Nakamura Kazuha,โ she responded quickly, stuttering. You figured she was Japanese from her name, and smiled warmly.
โitโs nice to meet you, then. Iโm Y/n,โ You nodded, outstretching your hand, leaning in close to the flustered girl. She took it and you shook her hand, before hearing another set of footsteps.
you looked up to see Yunjin, who looked a tad angry. โY/n. Congratulations on your win,โ she said in a stilted, stiff tone.
โThank you, Yunjin,โ you replied back coolly, carefully practiced facade slipping back into place.
โIโve got to get going now, Jen- oh, sorry, Yunjin,โ You said mockingly, not using honorifics. There were no cameras to catch you here, anyway. You walked off, leaving a dumbfounded Kazuha and even angrier Yunjin.
โโฆsheโs really pretty-,โ Kazuha began dreamily, clasping her hands together.
โNo,โ Yunjin said gruffly, beginning to walk back to the group with Kazuha. โDonโt even think about it, Kazuha! Sheโs mine,โ Yunjin exclaimed childishly, warning Kazuha a bit loudly, causing Chaewon and Sakura to turn to her.
โIf that song was about you, Yunjin, then I think she might not be yours as much as you think,โ Sakura said plainly, tone giving no room for argument as Yunjin averted her eyes, shame and embarrassment burning her face a light red.
โThis was going to be a long comeback period,โ Yunjin thought bitterly, groaning internally as she saw Kazuha begin to scroll though y/nโs Instagram posts as they waited for their managerโs car.
ermmmm hello! Iโve never written for x reader before so Iโve only ever written in third person, bear with me here while I learn how to write this genre ><! this will be three-ish(?) parts. i donโt know who for sure y/n will end up with yet, but.. I will be posting backstories to this, as it was very yn-centric and we donโt get much of yunjins thoughts. Y/n seems delusional but I SWEAAAR sheโs not. Iโll post some more works abt how they acted and stories from pd48 daysโฆ sheโs not insane guys!
also white carnations symbolize pure love and GOOD LUCK. get it?GOOD LUCK. GOOD LUCK, BABE! Iโm so funny.
i wrote this in like 3 hours of pure chappel roan good luck babe brain rot pleas forgive me. Iโll beta read it in a few hours after I sleep. thank you jihyoruri for letting me ramble in ur anons for so long ๐also I love asks plssss send them. byebye now, have a good day! :3
People have said that theyโd read more of my fics if everything werenโt chubby reader centered. Maybe thatโs true. Maybe people would read my fics and follow my page more if I didnโt center them on chubby/thick bodies.
โจ But thatโs not the point โจ
Us chubby babes already have close to nothing in the fic world. If my fics can be of any contribution at all, no matter how small, to giving us some representation then Iโm the happiest girl in the world.
synopsis: your roommate is aware that you hate her and she likes irritating you but oh no she just now realizes youโre hot and wants you so bad
warnings: kinda porn w no plot ; smut!!! ; mentions of alcohol ; hate fucking(???) ; degradation kinda ; insulting each other as they fuck yesss ; face riding ; comp sci major!reader *shivers and shakes* ; fwb-ish but not really ; nayeon is umm lowk manipulative but only if you squintย , maybe? ; not proofread as always
wc: 5.1k
a/n: computer science major slander (i'm jealous) and also i donโt like the pacing but oh well maybe u guys will (i'd be such a great writer if i werenโt lazy af...ย )
with a groan, you lift yourself off the bed after hearing a loud thud. tiredly, you blindly reach for your phone and check for the time with squinted eyes: 1:04am.ย
a low โfuckโ leaves your lips while you struggle to sit up, still hearing the impact of bodies crashing against the walls and the faint sounds of a woman and man groaning through the bedroom door.ย ย
nayeon is home.ย
this is a bi-weekly occurrence; your roommate nayeon stumbles into the apartment all hot and heavy from the alcohol that was in her system, and then you can hear her getting all intimateโagainst your willโwith some random person sheโs found at the various clubs she cycles through. to be completely honest, you donโt care for her midnight rendezvous, just as long as they donโt bother you.ย
however, this night sheโs bothered you greatly; youโre fucking irritated.ย
just when you had finally sought solace in the arms of sleep after hours of laboring over a project, your few minutes of rest are abruptly shattered by the intrusion of nayeon. โall drunk and insatiableโwhoโs barging into your room whilst some average guy latches onto her neck. he doesnโt look like he knows what heโs doing, but it doesnโt matter because nayeonโs senses are too fucked to really pay attention to that.ย
โget the hell out of my room.โ you yell angrily towards the two. to say you were annoyed would be an overwhelming understatement, you were furious.ย
โahโfuck, sorry y/n,โ she responds, voice all airy and light whilst the manโs hand slides down to play with the edge of her dress. โwrong room baby, letโs go.โ she says whilst pushing the man off her a bit, much to his dismay.ย
they both leave the room, still attached to each other with their hands roaming and gripping at anything. to make matters even worse; they didnโt close the door behind them.ย
โfucking whore.โ you scoff, falling back down on your bed and groaning.ย ย
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im nayeon is an indescribable pain in your ass and unfortunately, she also happens to be your roommate.ย
for the most part, you generally pride yourself on your composure and tolerance, but living with nayeon has truly put your patience to the test. she's irresponsible and unreliable, which regularly pushes you to your limits. you find yourself frustrated sharing an apartment with someone whoโs always falling hort of your expectations. she's falling far from them, really, and itโs almost impressive.ย
she has a knack for disappearing into the lurking inย the apartment while you're away, often entertaining friends and leaving behind a mess in her wake. the audacity she possesses to neglect simple chores like doing the dishes or tidying up after herself borders on infuriating, youโre fighting the urge to bodyslam her into the mattress sometimes. it's as though she expects the cleaning fairy to magically swoop in and restore order while you're left to pick up the pieces of her irresponsibility, maybe she thinks youโre the fucking cleaning fairy.ย
living with her was hell, you donโt even know how she managed to keep up with her courses and stay sane with how she lived her life. she was a pretentious, sassy little thorn stuck in your skin.ย
but still, there are two things that keep you tethered to the apartment, even if it's a bit embarrassing to admit on factor. one: the rent is cheaper, and your shared living space is nice. two: nayeonโs fucking hot.ย
the truth is: nayeon is the epitome of physical allure, the hottest person you've ever laid eyes on. as much as you resent her for her shortcomings, you find yourself unable to ignore the pull of her undeniable visuals, which whispers against the urge to pack your bags and leave. ย
you despised the stupid allure of her face, the way her figure teased and tempted, and the fact that she held the power to have you on your knees if she poked you in the right ways. it grated on your nerves to know that you weren't the only one drawn to her; half the campus seemed to be either enamored with her, aspiring to be her, or eager to get into her pants. and she wielded her beauty like a weapon, using her "pretty privilege" to her advantage. ย
the feeling you had towards her was bitter, but the attraction you had made things complicated.ย
it was easy to mask your little attraction for your pretentious roommate with annoyed comments and irritated glares, but deep inside you wanted her in ways that you could never admit out loud. countless daydreams and very questionable thoughts about her invaded your mind at the worst times possible, espeically when she was near.ย
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your irritation mixed with attraction was mutual. nayeon felt the same way about you; what a match.ย
at first, nayeon found herself irritated by your stuck-up demeanor and seemingly perfect self. your involvement in various extracurricular activities, dedication to your studies, and honestly majoring in computer science major as a whole contributed to her initial impression of you as someone who had it all together. it was a stark contrast to her own carefree attitude and laid-back approach to everything, which built friction between the two of you.ย
(nayeon could never do all of that, study for hours and keep her shit together. and god, especially watching you type for two hours straight already made her head swirl. how does someone do that without losing their shit? she wonders if youโre okay)ย
from nayeon's perspective, you were nothing more than a stuck-up bitch in her shared home, always fussing over cleanliness like a relentless clean freak. it striked a nerve every time you scolded her for leaving behind a couple of dishes or a few stray bottles of alcohol. if it bothered you so much, why not just pick up after yourself instead of constantly complaining?ย
despite the irritation you stirred within her, nayeon couldn't deny the undeniable truth: you were actually pretty cute for a nerdy, uptight roommate. in fact, she'd even go as far as to admit that you were pretty hot.ย
nayeon has seen the people in the computer science department, most of them are men who look like theyโve never spoken to a woman or gone outside for more than thirty minutes a day. you on the other hand were quite the sight, someone nayeon would describe as โeye candy.โย
and yeah, she kind of overlooked the fact that you were her type after you had yelled at her so much, but then there was this one little moment that changed her mind. maybe she could tolerate you more.ย
(maybe nayeon had to put looks first in this case.)ย
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some thursday afternoon, while you typically would be found either buried in books at the library or enjoying the afternoon at a cafรฉ, nayeon found herself in a predicamentโshe couldn't find one of her favorite t-shirts. with frustration growing, she decided to take matters into her own hands and went into your room to see if it had somehow ended up there, given that you were supposed to be out. ย
to her surprise, she discovered that you were most definitely home, a fact that caught her completely off guardโespecially when youโre home in your room, in the middle of taking your pants off.ย
she barges into your room to see you with your shirt off and the fly of your pants down, revealing some of the logo of your victoriaโs secret underwear. your cheeks flush a dark hue of red when you realize sheโs invaded your privacy, and you quickly cover your chestโwhich, is already covered since you have a bra on, but god is this whole situation embarrassing.ย ย
after you literally push her out the doorโslamming it shut with embarrassmentโnayeon stands outside the door with a newfound interest.ย ย
nayeon couldn't fathom that someone who dedicated their sanity to lines of numbers and letters on a screen could look so good. there was something mesmerizing about the subtle groove tracing down your stomach, hinting at the definition of your abs, or the glimpse of your bicep as you hastily covered yourself and scolded her for intruding, maybe even the hint of muscle on your shoulders. whatever it wasโall nayeon knew was that the little mishap of you not locking the door and giving her the chance see you like that piqued her interest without doubt.ย
and after seeing you half naked? the image of you, with your shirt off and the hint of your physique tantalizingly on display? holy shit you had her fantasizing a little (a lot) more than she already had been; she needed some of her fantasies to come true. ย
your roommate had already been attentive to your quickโand evidentโglances on her body and her lips. she also noted the subtle bite of your lips when she swayed by, your eyes barely caught her, but she noticed it all. getting her fantasies to become a reality seemed easy enoughโprobablyโand she was determined to make it all happen. ย
she knew she already had you starting to wrap around her finger, just by those observations, so it should be easy enough to get you hot and heavy, right?ย
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โoh look whoโs finally fucking awake.โ you mutter, turning around to see the hungover, marked up woman emerging from the hall.ย ย
nayeon rolls her eyes at you like always and simply responds, โoh shut up, donโt be a drag.โย
โiโm a drag? iโm not the one barging in at one in the morning the same night my roommate stays up to actually do their school shit. not only that, but that fucking guyโโย
โwas a terrible kisser,โ nayeon cuts you off, pinching the bridge of her nose. โi kicked him out so can you please justโโย
โno!โ you scoff, surprising nayeon with this burst of anger. youโre much more irritated than usual, which is weird. nayeon suspects that itโs because sheโs never accidentally stumbled into your room, and to be fair; this was kind of intentional.ย ย
you see, nayeon thought that if she could make you a little jealous, itโd increase the chances of you intervening. just what she wanted.ย
โi couldnโt fucking sleep and i have a really important assessment today.โย
โyeah yeah, move over i need some tea.โ nayeon says tiredly. upon hearing her response, you clench your jaw tightly and lean against the marble counter, gripping it with one hand tightly to suppress your annoyance.ย
your roommate looks at you and a laugh slips out accidentally. after hearing that, there's probably a vein visible on your forehead, maybe your neckโsomewhere.ย
that was your last straw.ย
angrily, you lift yourself off the counter and swiftly advance towards nayeon, pinning her against the fridge with force. the impact reverberates through her as her back meets the cold surface, while you lean in closer, your eyes narrowing with intensity. ย
now, this should not be turning nayeon onโsheโs going to blame it on her hangover and whatnot, and maybe the fact that whoever that guy was and whatever he did didnโt really satitate herโbut it does. ย
with barely an inch of space separating you, your height advantage allows you to tilt your head down, locking eyes with nayeon with a glare. the tension crackles between you like a firework, itโs thick and palpable, your look shows restrained anger. despite how furious you look, there's an unexpected allure to you, drawing nayeon in even as she senses the little reprimanding youโll give her.ย
โdonโt give me that fucking attitude nayeon. youโre fucking unbelievable, youโre a fucking slut, you know?โย
โyeah?โ she says, a smirk tugging at her pretty, plump lips.ย ย
you feel your body tense as soon as you start to take in the proximity of the two of you. gulping lightly, you move yourself away just an inch, but nayeon pauses you, pinching your collar.ย
โoh donโt get so timid now, you were just fuming earlier pretty.โ she laughs. โkeep going. this is cute, i like this. what did you call me again?โย
as nayeon's eyes flicker from yours to your lips and back again, the tension between you is like pushing down on a spring, and itโs about to pop back up any moment. sensing an opportunity, nayeon skillfully navigates her way out of the looming scolding, her allure becoming a potent weapon against your mood. she begins to weave her charm, coaxing a reluctant softening in your expression. despite your initial anger, you find yourself drawn to her, you canโt let yourself slip up, not now, not when sheโs the reason you might fail your assessment.ย
โyouโreโ youโre so... fucking irritatingโฆโ you mumble the last part of your sentence, voice getting smaller. you push yourself away from her and shake your head, trying to conceal your blush. nayeon giggles before going back to making her tea, the tension in the air like an invisible weight pressing down on you, and this whole morning might just completely flatten you down from how distracting itโll be the whole day.ย
nayeonโs relieved, at least youโre not scolding her while she dips her chamomile bag in and out her little mug of hot water.ย
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the day is filled with the events of the morning, with you struggling to finish various lines of code because the feeling of nayeon toying with your collar lingers, and nayeon trying to force the thought of you finally snapping in her head.ย
seems like the two of you are trying to avoid the same thought, despite how badly you two want it.ย
it's palpable that thereโs something in the air that needs to be swatted away, and nayeon knows youโre too much of a coward to really do anything about it, so sheโll figure somethign out. ย
one thing about im nayeon: she always gets her way, no questions asked, no matter what it takes.ย
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nayeon finds you on the couch typing away later that night, probably doing some homework.ย
nayeon plops down next to you, intending to tease and push you over the edge. you turn your head after feeling the cushions under you shift, immediately grimacing once you see your roommate.ย
โwhat do you want?โย
โwhat, i canโt sit next to my roommate?โ nayeon questions, โiโm just going to watch tv, if you donโt like it you can leave.โย ย
โwhore.โ you mutter under your breath, quiet enough so she doesnโt catch what you say.ย ย
your roommate lounges lazily on the couch and rests her head against the armrest. as she reclined, her hair spilled over, framing her face like a halo. nayeon's gaze wandered lazily around the room before settling on the tv, and with a languid movement, she turned to lay fully, bending her legs so they didn't intrude into your personal space.ย
your jaw tensed, a visceral reaction to the sight before you. the light from the tv in the dimmed room accentuated the allure of nayeon's figure. you couldn't help but steal a glance, your attention momentarily torn away from your screen by the annoyingly captivating vision in your periphery.ย
casual sweatpants adorned her figure, the looseness of the bottoms from brandy allowing for comfort yet teasingly hinting at the eye-catching curves of her terribly alluring figure beneath. the fit of her tank topโcropped just enough to expose a sliver of her toned midriffโeffortlessly made your gaze linger. the fabric clung to her silhouette in all the right places, revealing the subtle contours that sent a subtle jolt through the room and your veins. you completely forgot about pretending to be irritated in that brief trance.ย
the tank top, snug against her skin, revealed a gentle dip of her collarbone, an enticing invitation that you took note of. the image staying in your head even as your attention returned to your screen. a flush settled on your cheeks as you tried to focus again. the ambiance of the room, however, remained penetrated with the downplayed sensuality that lingered in the air. you huff lowly. she's winning whatever game this is without even trying.ย
after typing at your laptop for a bit, you hear the faint sound of people talking in the background. you look up from the screen and see some show playing, then turn to see nayeonโs head turned toward the tv.ย ย
shaking your head, you redirect your attention back to the assignment in front of you; the task is quite easy, but itโs insanely tedious and for some strange reason nayeonโs presence isnโt helping you.ย
nayeon shifts on the couch and sits upright against the cushion, you donโt bat an eye. your roommate is sick of you being academic, sheโs bored and wants your attention. needs it, maybe.ย
โwhenโs that due?โ ย
without turning your head, you respond, โnext week.โย
โwhy do it now?โย
โwhy do you care?โ your tone is impatient. โand besides, itโs better to get things done earlier.โย
โnerd.โ nayeon sighs. she scoots over and peers at your screen, putting her hand down beside you to prop herself up and when she leans over, her boob smushes against your arm a little.ย ย
you glare at her. โarenโt you usually out? itโs a friday night.โย
she shrugs. โdidnโt feel like it.โ and after she scans the screen one more time, she leans away (to your dismay) and continues on with whatever drama she had been watching. ย
the thought of her boob being smushed against you lingers, embarassingly itโs almost tattooed in your mind for the next half an hour.ย
when you finish your assignment, thatโs when you let out a big, hefty breath and close your laptop.ย ย
nayeon's annoyingly melodic giggle dances in the air as you sink into the plush couch, surrendering to its embrace that eases the pain in your shoulders. after savoring your few seconds of tranquility, your thoughts drift to the comfort awaiting you in your bedroom, your bed, peace and quiet, being enveloped by the blanket. ย
as you start to stand up, a delicate yet firm grip clings to your forearm, delaying your departure. nayeon's touch, like a sirens call, invites you to linger, gently coaxing you to stay a little longer.ย
she bats her eyelashes at you. โstay here.โ ย
you brows knit. โwhy would i stay with you?โย ย
โwatching shows alone is boring, and i know your ass isnโt going anywhere tonight.โย
you groan in response and decide to give inโyou might as well lounge on the couch for a bitโearning a smug smile from your roommate. she unpauses her show and you allow yourself to ease into the cushion, then watch with her (against your will), only to immediately tense up at the scene that unravels before your eyes.ย
two girls appear on screen, and theyโre kissing each other.ย ย
theyโre close, kissing, and then fifteen seconds pass and boomโtheyโre eating each otherโs mouths sloppily, groaning and everything, tongue and all. you shift in your seat when you feel a weird pulse down at your core.ย
โy/n,โ nayeon starts, โhave you ever even kissed someone?โย
โof course i have.โ you respond, crossing your arms.ย ย
nayeon turns her head in surprise and tilts her head. โseriously?โย
โyes, is it that surprising?โย
โwell, youโre always cooped up in the house and whatnotโฆ didnโt think you had any game.โย
โi hooked up with someone last month for your information. i'm not a homebody.โย
โyeah? sure, you did.โ she laughs, shaking her head. you roll your eyes at her.ย
โfuck you.โ you mutter, keeping your eyes on the tv and watching the two girls undress each other. โdo you always watch shit like this?โย
โwhy, does it turn you on or something?โ nayeon asks, shifting closer to you. a lump forms in your throat.ย
you shoot a quick glare at her and lie, โno.โย
nayeon laughs in amusement after pink dusts your cheeks. โyou seem pretty flustered baby.โย
what the fuck?ย
as you meet her gaze, a wave of surprise washes over you, mirroring the hunger that burns in her eyes. nayeon's laughter tumbles from her lips, enchanting and playful, as she places her hand delicately on the couch. leaning towards you, she ignites a spark that makes your heart skip a beat. feeling a sudden urge to be closer, you subtly shift in your seat, captivated by the exhilarating simplicity of the moment and giving into nayeonโs intentions.ย
โi donโt believe you.โ she says.ย
โwhat?โย
โyouโve never kissed someone, hell, like you could even fuck someone.โย
โexcuse me?โย
she just laughs at the mix of emotions coming from you; your cheeks are dusted pink, but your tone and expression displays that regular irritated look of yours.ย
then she bites the corner of her lip, finally easing into the reason she even bothered you in the first place. she leans a little closer, lips hovering near your ear lobe, and giggles again.ย
โhow about you prove that youโve fucked someone, hm?โ nayeon suggests, raising her brows. โthat you even can.โย
your breath trembles slightly, youโre stiff in your place.ย
โif itโll shut you up then... fine.โย
she clicks her tongue, then pulls away from your ear. now sheโs looking at you with a shit eating grin, you want to wipe it off her face.ย
the air stilled, your breath shook, and nayeonโs hand inches to your forearm. her other hand grabs the collar of your shirt, pulling you in and your lips meet in the middle.ย
she tastes like cherry, well, her lip gloss does.ย
your hand finds its way to the back of her neck, pushing her deeper into you so your lips can hungrily slide and suck and gosh, everything, all of the above, both a and c, you name it.ย
the last thing you had on your mind for the friday night was kissing your roommate aggressively. initially, you were just going to finish the assignment and take a nap or something, but this? itโs much better than what you had planned originally.ย
nayeon practically takes your breath away after simply kissing you, just the way your lips lock makes you greedy. you groan accidentally, embarassed until you have nayeon groaning into you too, even louder for that matter.ย
you pull away for a brief moment, voice a little shaky and out of breath. โis this why you bothered me? are you that horny that you wanted me to fuck you?โย
โoh shut up, itโs not like youโre against it.โ nayeonโs right, youโre not. not in the slightest.ย
โfuck youโ is uttered from your lips before you crash your lips against her again, taking the air from her lungs again.ย
the kissing quickly escalates and your tongues are in each otherโs mouths. youโre both unashamedly moaning and groaning into each other carelessly, itโs funny how quickly everything escalated within seconds, the boundaries between whatever you two had dissolving like sugar in boiling water.ย you shift yourselves over so that nayeon is under you, both your knees on either side of her legs. you reach over for the remote to pause the two girls who were mirroring the two of youโwell, the two of you started going at it after they did so maybe it was the two of you mirroring them.ย
each subsequent kiss felt as electrifying as the crackle of sparks dancing in a bonfire. the more nayeon deepened the kiss the more it drove you crazy, irrationally enough to continue kissing her and slip your hands under her shirt.ย
nayeon sighs blissfully as you kiss down her neck, her fingers tangle with your hair while she claws at it aggressively, and still, the pain from her grabbing your hair only turns you on more.ย
โfuck,โ she groans when you suck on her neck, sinking her nails into your tricep.ย
โslut.โ you mutter, smirking against her. โso easy to rile up.โย
unashamedly, nayeon begs and begs for you until youโre biting down on her skin, repeatedly uttering your name until youโre leaving marks thatโll have her friends wondering who ruined her this timeโand this time, itโs not some person sheโs run into at the bar while tipsy.ย
still, she could get drunk just off of you.ย
you start to undress her, starting with her top and taking a moment to gaze at her undeniably alluring figure. strands of hair just barely stick to her forehead as she gazes at you breathlessly with eyes full of lust. she moves her slender fingers to work at the edge of your shirt, urging you to take that stupid t-shirt you have on off so she can get a sight of your surprisingly exciting figure. maybe sheโll get a better, longer view of what she had seen that night she walked in on you changing.ย
โfuck, why have you been hiding this?โ she mutters, sliding her hand down your side. โgod you fucking bitch.โย
โif i didnโt youโd be all over me, you fucking horny mess.โ you spit back harshly, but the way you moan when nayeon latches her lips onto your neck completely rids of that fake, irritated tone of yours.ย ย
nayeon ends up on top of you in a matter of seconds, thenyouโre groping her ass shamelessly as you two devour each otherโs mouths again. hands tug at whatever else covers your bodies until itโs just the two of you skin to skin. everything that had just happened in the span of ten minutes was for sure ten times better than whatever else had been going on in the movie.ย
you can feel her grinding desperately against your thigh as you kiss her, feeling the moisture from her needy cunt that dampens your once-dry upper leg. you palm her breasts blindly and feel her gasp against you, and then nayeon forgets how to breath when you press your thigh up and against her, adding more stimulus.ย
she moans frustratedly, the feeling of just your thigh against her throbbing pussy is far from what she needs. so, sheโs putting her hand on the middle of your chest and pushing you down to lay flat on your back. she bites her lip blatantly before lifting her hips away from your skin.ย
you furrow your brows in confusion and begin, โwhat are youโโย
โshut up,โ she grunts, shoving one hand in your head and gripping your hair so rough that you whimper. she shifts over so that her pussy is directly above your mouth and orders: โjust eat, bitch.โย
this is something you canโt argue with her about, and fuck youโre hungry. ย
thereโs a meal waiting for you that youโve been craving, you canโt just lay there and starve.ย
eagerly, you lift your head up a bit to meet the aching in between her legs; sheโs so wet and youโre definitely teasing her about this laterโbut who knows how long it will take until itโs later.ย
she moans louder than ever and it surprises the both of you, it only leaves you wanting more of her, wanting to hear her when sheโs at her limit. your nails sink into the flesh of her thigh as you devour ravenously, taking note of what makes her twitch more and what earns lewder noises. what earns noises that turn you on more than ever.ย
it doesnโt surprise you how shameless she is during sexโclearly, she isnโt ashamed of seducing her roommateโthe way she rides your face so desperately gives you enough to know how she is.ย
nayeon likes when you suck on her clit, she grips your hair tighter with each โpopโ sound thatโs made after you release the suction. sheโs easy to read, her cunt is easy to adjust to.ย
โfuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck,โ nayeon moans, leaning back little while she continues to ride, head tilted back and face almost parallel to the ceiling. โgod-- fuck, oh myโshit, keep going,โย
you can see her tits from your view, nipples all perked up while you grip onto her thighs tighter, feeling her shake in your grasp. ย
nayeon's like an alarm clock, ticking and ticking away until the alarm rings, her cry echoing through the room, hand gripping at your hair tighter than ever as her head falls back. you continue to savor her arousal even after she came, earning little whines and whispers of your name.ย
โoh, y/n, just like that...โ ย
you're doing all the work now, which only helps with your aversion towards her, but still, youโve made her moan, cryโall of the above, so at least thereโs something to use against her.ย
and then she lifts herself off of you, letting your head rest back against the seat of the couch so you can catch your breath. ย
when she looks down, all she can make out through fuzzy vision and overwhelmed senses is the puff of your lips, hooded eyes, and fucked up hair; everything about the sight of you is a product of her desires, a fantasy thatโs been lingering in her mind now come true.ย
โslut,โ you mutter, almost breathlessly. โyouโre really loud, you know.โ ย
โfuck you.โย
โalready did.โ you retort, giggling. โletโs go for another.โย
โoh so now look whoโs a horny mess.โ nayeon responds, moving over to sit on your lap.ย
you sit up, holding yourself up with your hands placed behind you. โyou just never shut up, do you?โย
nayeon smiles before tracing her finger along your skin. โdo you want to?โย
you look at her amusingly before shifting positions so sheโs laying down flat on her back, with you hovering above. the two of you kiss again, nayeon savoring a the traces of arousal off you, a muffled hum of delight vibrating against your locked lips.ย
she pulls away, thumbing your nipple and making you groan surprisingly. you pull away to glare at her.ย
nayeon laughs, โwow, youโre so--โย
you cut her off by shoving your ring and middle finger in her mouth, she almost gags, but the way she sucks obediently is enough to tell you that sheโs enjoying this.ย
โyou just never shut up, do you?โ ย
in response, she moans with your fingers still in your mouth, right before you pull them out, skin coated with her saliva.ย
you bring your fingers down to her cunt, teasing her folds.ย
synopsis: seeing sana again during christmas causes feelings to resurface
warnings: food ; alcohol ; datzu crumbs ; cursing ; proofread halfway bc i got lazy + grammar and spelling errors probably
a/n: how to write angst?? am i cooked?? (I'm cooked) ALSO I wrote this in December so a lonnnngg time ago like when I touched the doc for the first time two days ago it said last edited 12/30/23 T-T
โy/n! come help with the decorations, it a bit tough to reach.โ your mom calls out from the entrance.ย ย
pausing in your place, you turn to respond to her, โiโll be there in a bit, let me finish mixing everything.โย
โokay honey. make sure to wear a coat when you get out here, itโs chilly!โ she yells back before closing the door.ย
a giggle leaves your lips as you continue to sift the dry ingredients, trying not to spill the flour and sugar. when youโre done with a part of your cookie process, you wash your hands and throw on your puffer jacket before heading out to help your mom.ย
christmas is in four days and your mom has this annual thing where she throws a big party at your place every christmas eve. she invites all her friends who are back in townโsome even fly out to come to this big eventโand it goes on until the concerningly late hours of the night.ย ย
your mom didnโt get to throw this big party last year because she was terribly sick, so you missed it that time, but now sheโs so back.ย ย
this means youโre in charge of the baking (yet again) and also helping her out everywhere. itโs not that you donโt enjoy this, if anything you look forward to this eventโjust not this year, it wonโt be the same as the previous christmas parties.ย
your mom has this friend who moved in five minutes away from your house when you were twelve, and they had a daughter your age. of course, both your mothers found a way to get you guys to meet, and eventually, youโd be spending the majority of your middle and high school years together stuck by the hip.ย
her name was minatozaki sana; she was the first person you had fallen in love with inside and out.ย ย
she had this type of vibrance to her that spread through her surroundings like a bullet train. if the room was dim, itโd seem like she had brought a piece of the sun inside just by being there, instantly illuminating it. it was palpable that she had her flaws, everyone did, but with the way she held herself up and gave her all, youโd see right past her imperfections and into that warm heart of hers.ย
sana expected nothing and appreciated everything, thatโs what made her lips curl up into a contagious grin. the streaks of creased skin in the corner of her eyes as she flashed that toothy grin gave everyone the intimation that she was simply overjoyed to be able to have the ability to love and to care. she was so beautiful in the way she found adoration so enticing, and thatโs why you had fallen in love with her.ย
your years with her passed by quickly, each year was filled with vibrant memories that led you to fall even deeper into her charm. however, you never mustered up the courage to tell her how you really felt toward her, and by the time you had gotten close to spilling out your pent up feelings; sana had found herself a little boyfriend.ย
chris was some guy on the basketball teamโwho was also a bit short and lacking skill to even make the teamโhe was an arrogant, pretentious, and egotistical snob who managed to win sanaโs heart. how did he do this? who knows, everyone whoโs interacted with him either hates his guts or is in love with his pathetic self.ย ย
he was only nice around sana, but you had seen him when he wasnโt pretending like there wasn't a stick up his ass. he was below the bare minimum and thatโs how youโd describe him, he was nowhere near sanaโs league. if anything, maybe you were just jealous (and that you were), but you knew what kind of person deserved sanaโchris was not someone who deserved a wonderful woman like her.ย
that asshole managed to win sanaโs heart and keep it for half of junior year and all of senior year of high school, then he managed to convince her to go to a college that was a five-hour flight away from homeโand by the way, your town was a two-hour drive from a well-known, top notch university, one that you and sana agreed to go to when you were both in middle school.ย
there was no way youโd let sana go to that college, not when chris was the reason she was going. it was a school that wasnโt even comparable to the one not so far from home, the one that had significant alumni and programs fit for the both of you. sana could easily win a decent scholarship to the university youโve been dreaming of going to, but she was going to let him change her mind in a matter of seconds.ย
there was no way youโd let that happen, so you simply walked over to her house and stormed up to her room after seeing her text regarding this whole plan, a foolโs plan.ย ย
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you remember the argument that shattered your friendships in seconds, almost like it was yesterday.ย
โsana, you canโt just go to that school because of chris. look, iโm saying this as your friend and because i love you: heโs not all that, and the uni nearby has great health programs, theyโre ten times better than the school over there and you know it.โ you argue.ย ย
youโre pacing around the room that you and sana have had countless late-night conversations and sleepovers in, the place where you had done more for sana than chris did. your eyes land on the two strips of laminated paper that hold the memory of the time you two had gone to the photobooth on your sixteenth birthday, your brows crease at the sight of your cheeks squished with sanaโs as the two of you posed. a heavy breath makes your lungs shrink as you exhale.ย
โi canโt let you do this, not for him sana.โย
โbut i love him so much y/n, you know this. he promised we could stay in an apartment together and that everything would be perfect, we have a whole future planned and iโโย
โwhat about us sana?โ you cut her off, voice breaking slightly. โwhat about our future? we promised that weโd go to that uni together, what happened to that? youโre going to throw it away for him?โย
โyouโre being ridiculous y/n, we were thirteen! things change and you need to grow up, lookโโย ย
โweโve known each other since elementary school and youโre throwing away this opportunity for a guy whose grades are falling apart. not only that, heโs a fucking ass! youโve come crying and complaining to me more times than i can count on my left hand.โ you respond angrily, and much louder than you meant to.ย
sana looks at you in disbelief, her expression almost carrying some sort of disappointment or disgust. she scoffs and you feel your heart shatter just from hearing it, this isnโt like her at all.ย
โif you were so fucking annoyed by my misery then you couldโve told me,โ she responds harshly, water lining her eyes.ย ย
โsana thatโs not what iโ"ย
โyouโre supposed to be my best friend, always there for me and to support me. now look at you, what happened to that? canโt you be happy for me and chris? i seriously love him and all youโve been is mopey and bitchy whenever heโs around.โย
โi know more people that have treated you better than him. heโs an asshole sana, itโs clear as day and even dahyun agrees.โย
her eyes meet the floor and she says in a smaller voice, โi love him y/n, and he loves me.โย
not like i love you, never will he love you like that.ย
your features soften as you look at her. โsana you canโtโโย
โget out of my room.โ sana spits in a stinging tone thatโs worse than a dagger to your heart. she shakes her head then turns to avoid your gaze and your heart completely shatters as you watch a tear slide down her cheek in the process. โget out of my house, i donโt want to hear it.โย
โsana,โ you begin, but when you hear her sniffle, you hold back everything thatโs burning in your chest. your shoulders give up and sink in defeat before you croak out an โokay.โย
turning around, you step out of her bedroom with a heavy heart and trembling lips. tears stream down your cheeks as you make your way out of the house where sana and you had spent countless hours togetherโhours that youโd never forget no matter how hard you tried.ย
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each breath you take is visible in the cold air and snow compresses with each step you take whilst hanging up the christmas lights. your mother smiles once you pin the last string up andย then you take a step back to admire the illuminating pattern of diverse hues beaming when your mom presses the โonโ button.ย
โthank you again honey, i appreciate it.โ your mom says, holding your hand and squeezing it gently.ย ย
you turn and smile at her, shaking your head before responding, โanytime mom.โย
the two of you enter the house again and immediately youโre on your way back to the kitchen to finish up your famous cookies. you three different types of cookies: chocolate chip cookies (the fastest batch to be eaten), matcha cookies with white chocolate chips, and ube cookiesโsanaโs favorites.ย
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โube? whatโs that?โ sana says, giggling softly as you hand her a purple cookie with white chocolate chunks.ย ย
โjust try it sana, youโll love it.โ you assure, urging her to try. โitโs purple too, how could you not?โย
she rolls her eyes at you then picks up the sweet treat, taking a bite of the cookie. itโs crunchy on the outside and perfectly soft on the inside, making her shoulders sink down and eyes close when the new, thrilling flavor meets her tastebuds.ย
โso, how is it?โ you ask, raising your brows. sana simply smiles and nods, shooting a dorky thumbs up before taking another bite.ย
โitโs wonderful, itโs like coconut and nutty and has vanilla and oh my gosh itโs soโฆ itโs really good.โ she sighs, melting as she consumes your baked good. she looks adorable.ย
you laugh at her response and take a bite of your own experiment, eyes widening at how good they were. sana was right, theyโre wonderful.ย
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โah the purple cookies, those were a hit ever since you started making them.โ your mom says, rubbing your back. she looks at you with some pity, knowing about your little falling out with sana.ย
you simply smile and nod. โi like them, i was going to save some for myself too.โ you joke, easing some tension in the air.ย
โwell, iโm going to call your dad up, go visit the kimโs later and tell them i said hi.โ your mom insists, placing a twenty dollar bill on the marble counter. โheard they have a holiday latte out, you should try it. dahyunโs also been experimenting with her baking and beverages, she gets better each time i visit.โย
โof course she is,โ you chuckle lightheartedly, โlet me just finish these last cookies and iโll put them in the fridge for a bit. did you want anything from their place?โย
โno, itโs fine. oh wait! i have a present for dahyunโs mom, can you give her this if sheโs there?โ she asks.ย
โmhm,โ you hum,ย โjust put it near my bag on the couch.โย
โthanks sweetie, iโll do that.โ your mother beams, then rushes towards her room to grab whatever it was that she needed.ย
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ringย ย
the sound of the bell chimes throughout the cafรฉโwhich is not too busy other than the elderly group in the corner and a student typing away at their computer to the side. you catch sight of the familiar face, instantly grinning when you walk towards the register.ย
dahyun is turned away from you and cleaning the espresso machine, wiping it down and yelling a โwelcome! feel free to check out the holiday pastries and beverages!โ without turning towards you.ย
you laugh and speak up, โitโs nice to see you miss know-it-all.โ and upon hearing your voice dahyun instantly turns around, beaming a bright grin and setting her rag down.ย
โy/n? you didnโt tell me you were in town? what the hell where were you last year?โ she questions, walking out from behind the counter and then towards you to greet you with a warm hug. she smells like coffee grinds and cinnamon, you hug her back and smile.ย
โi was deathly sick last year, like seriously fighting for my life. i didnโt tell you?โย
โno stupid, you didnโt.โ she sighs, then pulls away to look at you. โiโve only seen your instagram posts, havenโt seen you in a bit and wowโฆ you look better than in the pictures.โย
โthank you?โ you giggle before she walks over to return back behind the register. โiโve also seen your instagramโฆ whoโs that girl youโve been posting? got a girl and didnโt fill me in with the details?โ you pry, smirking cheekily.ย
โoh, tzuโฆ gosh y/n we have so much to talk about, iโm glad youโre back in town.โ dahyun says appreciatively, and you donโt miss the slight pink that dusts on her cheeks before she starts again, โletโs talk over some coffee. what can i get you? on the house by the way. we have like, thirty minutes before a bunch of people start piling in.โย
a giggle leaves your lips again before you decide on a peppermint mocha. dahyun gets to work and weighs out the coffee grins as you situate yourself to the side, watching her work her magic.ย
the two of you catch up on whatโs been going on with college, dahyunโs love life that youโve missed out on, and what youโve been up to yourself. twenty minutes pass and youโve both ended up on some old memory that has the two of you laughing like idiots again, making both your stomachs hurt.ย
โsoโฆ weโve talked about whatโs been going on with meโฆ what about you and your love life? bet youโve met a girl too.โ dahyun interrogates with a teasing tone.ย ย
โoh, wellโโ you begin, awkwardly staring at the cup in your hand. โi dated this girl for a while, but we ended up falling out and staying friends, nothing muchโฆ we just werenโt right for each other.โย
โi seeโฆโ dahyun responds, holding herself back from bringing up the sensitive topicโor, well, person.ย ย
dahyun was aware of the falling out as well, but still stayed friends with sana. however, she was your friend before she met sana, so she had made sure if it was alright to keep contact and whatnot. of course you didnโt want your own personal problems to get in between other friendships, and you still loved sana despite everything that had happened so you gave dahyun the green light.ย ย
after running to dahyun the same night of the argument with sana, you cried for an hour or two in her room. this was the first time you turned to someone other than sana, and dahyun had been on your side of the whole situation, making it easier to comfort and reassure you. she also disliked chris, but not as much as she liked you.ย
she pretty much agreed with everything you had ranted about and thought it was stupid that sana would rather choose that asshole over someone like you, and later on youโd confess that you were in love with sana to dahyun. when everything had been rocky with sana, dahyun had been by your side, and you were grateful for that.ย
โwell, maybe youโll land yourself a kiss under the mistletoe, who knows whoโll be showing up to your christmas party.โ dahyun nudges you, smiling as she hands you some peppermint chocolate bark treat. โi could always set you up~โย
โitโs fine, really.โ you guarantee. a smile spreads across your face and you dismiss her offer with a wave of your hand. โum, by the wayโฆ has um, has she stopped by or anything like that recently? does sana still visitโ"ย
thereโs another ring from the door opening that cuts you off, making dahyunโs attention redirect towards the customer walking in. her eyes widen and she pauses in place before smiling awkwardly, then she mumbles an uneasy โum, be backโฆโ before walking over to the register.ย
you donโt think much of her weird mood shift and instead swirl around the small remainder of coffee in the latte cup.ย
โhi dahyun! itโs nice to see you again.โ a voice beams.ย ย
you freeze in place, all of your body tensing up as soon as the familiar voice processes through your ears. itโs smooth, itโs sweet, and it has that same high-pitched ring and giggle that follows. immediately, your heartbeat spikes and youโre doing anything you can to avoid interacting or even looking in the womanโs direction.ย
โitโs nice to see you too sana,โ dahyun greets with a bubbly tone. the name being uttered from dahyunโs mouth is enough to make your hands grip the cup in your hand a little tighter. โcan i get you anything?โย ย
โhmโฆ iโll have that peppermint mocha please. iโm also going to take a look around the bakery, i need to grab some treats for others. you know how it is, holidays and whatnot.โ sana says in that adorable tone, it has you falling for her all over again just when you thought youโd gotten over everything thatโs happened.ย
quickly, you finish the last sip of your coffee before setting the empty cup down abruptly. it makes a small yet noticeable sound with the glass plate it had been sitting on, making sana advert her gaze.ย ย
the small gift you had set down beside you is now placed on the glass that covers the display of christmas themed cakes. dahyun looks at you in confusion and tilts her head before you turn to smile at her, avoiding sanaโs widening eyes.ย
โthanks for the coffee dahyun, take the present on the glass to your momโitโs from my mom to yours.โ you start, trying to keep your voice levelย
every ounce of restraint and discipline is fighting back the urge to simply glance at sana, whoโs standing right in front of dahyun. you almost manage to avoid her, but itโs inevitable, your eyes land on your first love for the first time in almost two years.ย
sheโs looking at you with parted lips and surprise, but she still looks as beautiful as you remember. sana looks a little more mature than when you last saw her; the curve of her jaw is sharper, lips somehow brighter and her features are more defined overall. sana is wearing a scarf that fits around her neck comfortably, a brown, fluffy sweater, and dark sweatpants with uggs to compliment the outfit. thereโs simplicity in her lookโsheโs jaw dropping, the sight of her makes your jaw tighten and heartbeat spike.ย ย
her eyes meet yours for exactly three seconds, enough time to have every memory flowing in.ย
clearing your throat, you finish your farewell to dahyun with a smile, โiโll see you around, my mom says hi to your mom, tell her i also said hi too. iโll get going now, have a good one.โย
your body doesnโt fight back the urge to glance at sana againโbig mistakeโbefore turning around and walking out the door.ย
sana keeps her look on you the whole time, baffled to see you here and her own heart yearns for you. sheโs missed you more than youโd ever know, and more than sheโd like to admit. it doesnโt help her case that youโre ten times more attractive than when sheโd last seen you at graduation.ย
โyou should talk to her.โ dahyun says softly. sana keeps her eye on the door, youโre already out and probably in your car, but she keeps her eye on the door still.ย
โwere you talking to her earlier?โ sana asks, now turning to face the younger woman.ย
โwe were catching up.โ dahyun answers. the woman behind the register turns around to start making sanaโs drink, unknowingly the same drink you had ordered. it all makes dahyunโs own heart sink in her chest a bit. โhow long has it been since youโve talked to her?โย
โsince graduation.โ sana explains, looking down at the counter. โi messed up.โย
dahyun turns around again to see sana, sorrow and regret etching into her features. the barista frows and reaches over to place her hand on sanaโs shoulder, then rubs it gently.ย ย
โtalk to her, thereโs always time to fix things. especially with y/n.โย
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a few days past since that meeting, youโre still shaken up from it to say the least.ย ย
sana is too, but you arenโt aware of that.ย
to stray away from this event that is dreadfully close to leading to some form of existential crisis or spiral, youโre helping your mom out with setting up the last few decorations and tables while your cookies that you chilled a couple days ago bake.ย ย
dahyun is also coming over with her girlfriend in the evening to exchange a couple of greetings and to properly introduce her girlfriend tzuyu to you. your mother had met tzuyu before and talked highly about her, so you were excited to meet her yourself.ย ย
when the time comes, you hear a knock at the door and shoot up to answer it. you open the door and dahyun stands there with a nervous grin on her face. next to her stands tzuyuโand sana.ย ย
your eyes widen and your jaw tenses when you see her perfect face, standing next to tzuyu with this awkward smile. sheโs wearing a gray pullover and black sweatpants; an orange scarf also wraps around her neck comfortably. she looks snug and cute as ever, no matter what sheโs adorable in your eyes. your heart flutters and you get all nervous like a teenager again.ย
pushing away the edginess flowing throughout your whole being, you greet dahyun with a warm hug, then give tzuyu and friendly one as well. youโre not sure how to greet sana, being all shaken up by just her presence, so you resort to a smile and a small โhi sana,โ then invite them all in.ย
sana walks in and her hand brushes against your arm on accident, the two of you definitely notice itโthough you both decide to ignore it and the warmth in your chests.ย ย
your mom greets all the girls with a hug and the five of you sit down in your homey living room. sana sits across from you on the couch next to your mom, and you sit there avoiding eye contact as you all catch up.ย
an hour passes by and dahyun is over in the living room talking to your mom about whatโs been going on with her parents and the bakery. in the meantime, you decide to give yourself a break from feeling all nervous just by being near sana.ย
standing up, you announce, โiโm going to the kitchen for a bit.โ your mom simply raises her brows at your sudden departure, youโve been silent for most of the conversation and it seems like youโre the only one affected by the tension in the room. โwonโt be long.โ you add, smiling weakly.ย
the fridge is still full of some essentials, and to the side, thereโs some cold brew and your favorite coconut milk; everything you need is right where you need it. you head over to the counter and grab your favorite glass cup, heart stinging at the memory of when you had received it. it was one of the many gifts from sana.ย
you grab some ice and put it in the cup, then add your cold brew inside. then you grab a small cup with some honey and search for a spoon so you can mix it in with the coconut milk.ย
โdrinking coffee at this time?โ a voice says, making you freeze. you break out of your short trance and hum in response before continuing to make your drink.ย
โyou know i canโt resist a good coffee, sana.โ and the way her name slips off your tongue feels right. you havenโt said it often since the falling out and it still rolls off perfectly, it feels right coming from you. youโre hesitant to talk again, feeling her eyes drill into your back. something in your heart shifts and you manage to ask, โdid you want something to drink?โย
โyeah,โ she answers, walking over to you and sitting at the kitchen island. โsame thing youโre drinking, but sweeter.โย
of course she wants it sweet, just like always.ย ย
โokay.โย ย
your back is still turned towards sana and she watches you grab another glass. as you do so, she gets a glimpse of your own glass and smiles. โis that the cup i got you?โย ย
still fixing up her drink, you nod and answer, โyeah. itโs my favorite.โย
โa lot of your gifts are my favorites too.โ she admits, her voice so soft and fragile that youโre scared the thick tension in the air might break it.ย
sana watches you turn around, but you still avoid her gaze. you place both cups on the surface of the kitchen island and begin to pour the coconut milk mixtures into the coffee. the liquids swirl as they combine, creating a satisfying view. sanaโs quick to redirect her attention back to you, staring at your face again.ย
last time she had saw you at dahyunโs cafe, she only had the chance to get a simple glance at your features, not enough time to fully take in everything thatโs changed about your apperance. thereโs two new piercings on both ears and a new, small tattoo below your ear; the length of your hair is also noticeably longer. your lips part as you swirl both cups in your hands around, and then you take a quick glance to the side, allowing sana to admire your side profile and the unique curve of your nose and lips.ย
you hold the mug out for her and finally meet her eyes again. sanaโs favorite thing about you were your eyes, theyโre still as pretty as she remembers.ย ย
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itโs some thursday night during your sophomore year of high school, you were supposed to be studying with sana for your math quiz tomorrow, but she had other ideas.ย ย
โstay still,โ sana mumbles softly.ย
she situates you in the chair near her desk and tilts your head up with the fingers holding your chin. sheโs inches away from you as she puts some sort of sponge on your face, brows creasing as she does so. your heart is racing.ย
after a couple of minutes, sana finishes up your makeup. sheโs done some type of natural look on you, nothing too heavy or bold. you look at yourself through the mirror and take a moment to examine sanaโs doings. as you do so, sana canโt keep her eyes off you.ย
something in her heart shifts as she admires you. her eyes land on your lips, theyโre oddly alluring, and sanaโs cheeks burn.ย
โsana youโre staringโฆ do i look weird?โย
โno,โ she practically breathes out, mouth slightly agape. โyouโre beautiful.โ she says breathlessly, her expression turning all serious it makes you giggle awkwardly.ย
there have been many moments where sana has found you pretty, not just physically. your small gifts and reassurance have made her heart flutter, but sheโs always figured that was just because she loved you deeply as a friend. but when you stare at her with those eyes in this moment, sheโs so surprised by everything she feels. she's giddy and happy and warm inside and gosh her heart wants to jump out her chest and cling onto you. she's not opposed to the feeling; she always has this feeling aorunf you and she loves it. that's why sheโs always around you in the first place.ย
her face burns and youโre gazing at her all confused, you look so cute.ย
growing nervous from how non-verbal sana has been, you try to shake her out of her trance. โhey, youโre scaring me. earth to sana? helloooooโฆ?โย
โhow are you so pretty all the time.โ sanaโs eyes soften and her whole body relaxes as she rests her head on her palm. โlike, your face is so perfect and your eyesโฆ god y/n, whoever gets to be with you would be so lucky, seriously. like, youโre honestly the prettiest girl in our school, how do you not have a boyfriend?โย
your cheeks flush from the abrupt compliment, so you push her gently and giggle. sana giggles along with you, still star-struck. youโre both young and unknowingly in love with each otherโgiggles and teasing seem to be the only way to hide that.ย
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sana has always found you attractive, after all these years she still hasnโt figured out why she made the mistake of pursuing chris instead of the person who was always there for herโand ten times prettier. youโve always been right there, sheโs a fool for looking right past you.ย
sana grabs the mug, still making eye contact with you and both your eyes soften at the same time.ย
โy/n iโm sorry.โ she says immediately, โi messed up really bad andโโย
โsana,โ you cut her off, โjust enjoy the drink.โ she watches you smile at her, itโs genuine and small, still enough to calm her nerves. you grab your glass and walk towards the door to the porch, tilting your head and urging her to come follow. sana figures she could pour her heart out later, if it were on the porch it wouldnโt be the first time sheโs poured out her emotions there.ย ย
the two of you find a seat across from each other, the fairy lights above create some type of ambiance to ease the tension thatโs hanging in the air like an invisible cloak of some sort, suffocating the two of you with its unease.ย
โhow have you been?โ sana asks. itโs clichรฉ, but what else was she supposed to say?ย ย
you donโt look up from the drink in your hand when you respond, โgood, you?โย ย
โlikewise.โ sana lies, her jaw clenching.ย ย
โyou know,โ you begin, and with intent, your eyes meet her face and sheโs doing the same as you had been doing before; she simply sits there with the drink in her hand, looking quite on edge. โi figured if i were to see you again like this, chris would be with you.โย ย
โwe broke up three months after we moved in together.โ sana says quietly, โi broke up with him.โย
โsanaโฆโ you mumble quietly, surprised to say the least. โwhyโ what?โย
โi ruined everything between you and i because i was so blinded by his affection, i couldnโt stay with him anymore with guilt clawing at me.โ she explains, her voice breaking slightly. โand i couldnโt bring myself to talk to you after hurting you. losing you was the biggest mistake of my life. god, it took everything in me to come back to you.โย
โyou never lost me sana,โย ย
โiโm justโฆ sorry for everything, i really am.โ she says sincerely, โand i donโt think enough words could really explain how sorry i am.โย
you look at her with pity, and despite her coldness towards you during the last semester of your senior year, you decide to let everything go. sheโs your best friend after all, you promised yourself to be there.ย
โitโs okay.โ you say, itโs not the truth, but itโs not a lie either. โit was my fault too for letting the distance between us get larger.โย
โdonโt say that, itโs not your fault.โ sana sighs. she takes a sip of the coffee, itโs good, of courseโ everything youโve ever made for her has been great. โi only stayed with chris because i was scared. thatโs why it was so easy for me to leave everyone i loved behind, i think.โย
โscared? โฆof what?โย
she looks dead into your eyes and exhales, โi realized that, that maybe i was with chris because i was trying to push down how i felt about you.โย
you tilt your head in confusion, then begin to pry, โsana what do you meanโ"ย
โy/n, i was falling for you and it terrified me. i mean, i loved you, and honestly, i think i still do. i'm so fucking dumb, god i'm just oblivious.โ sana says, then immediately, your heart rate spikes and your brows raise. she continues while fidgeting with her fingers, โi guess itโs easier to admit now because weโve grown distant, and physically weโre distant enough. chris treated me alright and loved me, but i came crying to you all the time because he never treated me like how i wanted you to treat me, i donโt know why i did that. i donโt know why i let myself go through that when i had you. every time iโd kiss him i wished it were you, every time we did anything honestly.โย
sana's eyes shimmered with unshed tears, their glossy shine failing to hide the immense emotions she was desperately trying to suppress. the weight of her confession hung in the air, causing the entire world to momentarily freeze. it felt as though time itself had paused, giving you a moment to absorb the magnitude of her words.ย
sana loved you, and she still does. you loved her, and you still do. ย
but really, you canโt. you canโt go through with this.ย itโs too sudden, so unorganized and uncertain.ย
all of this is a recipe for disaster.ย
the echo of her vulnerability reverberated through the atmosphere, your mind spun in a cyclone of emotions. thoughts collided and collided again like football players during some game, leaving your head in a dizzying state of confusion, the sheer intensity of it all was jarring, leaving you all disoriented. the feelings you suppressed were finding their way back out, and you found yourself teetering on the precipice of vulnerability once again, just as you did years ago.ย
finding out that sana loved you still gave you hope, but the revelation also made you uneasy.ย it had been too long without sana, and so much had happened, so there was the chance that things would be all rocky. besides, itโs just too sudden.ย
โiโmโ sorry for dumping all of this, i just wanted to give you closure becauseโฆ well, i shouldโve given you it years ago.โ a tear streams down her eye as she says this, and then she begins to stand. โi should leave, iโm sorry for not letting you know i was comingโ god iโm so sorry.โย
โsana waitโโ you start, grabbing her wrist. she looks into your eyes, herโs are still glossy. you decide itโs better to let her go for now, unsure if this is the last time youโll see her after thisโhopefully not. โitโs okay, justโฆ be careful. you know iโm always here, always sha.โย
the nickname that you made up for her makes her heart crack a little, she can only smile back at you for now.ย
โย
the conversation between dahyun, tzuyu, and your mom is interrupted when dahyun catches the sight of sana pulling her scarf off the hook and wrapping it around her neck again. she takes account of the slight flush of her nose and cheeks, as well as her water-lined eyes.ย
โyouโre leaving?โ dahyun asks, concern clear in her tone. sana simply smiles and nods, โyeah, iโll see you at the holiday party. it was nice seeing you too miss l/n, i missed all of this.โย
โyouโre always welcome honey,โ your mother assures, โwhereโs y/n?โย
โout on the porch, she said sheโll be back in a bit. iโll see you all, thank you.โ sana says before departing, leaving the three women in the living room perplexed.ย
a few minutes later whilst the three in the living room conjure up theories of what had happened while you and sana had been goneโyou appear with a blank expression. you sit down next to your mom and lean against her, not saying a word.ย
tzuyu (who is only briefly caught up with whatever had happened between you and sana, and she deinfitely needs a thorough presentation on your history) looks at dahyun and tilts her head, dahyun simply shakes her own head.ย
โsana and i talked a bit, resolved and made things clear.โ you say, answering the elephant in the room. โiโm heading up, iโm getting sleepy and i want to have some energy for the party tomorrow.โ you add. โit was nice getting to know you tzuyu, youโre perfect for the idiot beside you. night everyone.โ chuckling quietly in between responses.ย
and with that youโre walking up the stairs to your room, leaving your mom, tzuyu, and dahyun perplexed yet again.ย
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december 25th, five oโclock pm.ย
you're greeting guests, various familiar faces and their parents, family friends, and whoever else you mom managed to fit on the list.ย
the party is lively, with people scattered in the backyard and on the little porch while your dad grills his signature bbq meats. your mom laughs with her friends as she sips on her wine, moving her hands around as she talks to emphasize her little life updates.ย
in the basement with you are your old high school friends: momo, her cousin mina, jaehyun, mark, johnny, seulgi, sooyoung, jeongyeon, and dahyun, whoโs accompanied by tzuyu. the rest of your frineds couldnโt make it, they were probably out of town. all of them sit on the floor or couch with a can of smirnoff or soda, all chatting and laughing over old memories.ย
you lean against jaehyun as you laugh, letting yourself hide behind his shoulder while mark ruthlessly brings up each embarrassing phase youโve had. what a guy, a guy youโll be figthing soon if he keeps this up.ย
the feeling of your phone ringing against your palm as you hold it catches your attention, directing you from the conversation at hand. the screen shows a call from โmomโกโ which earns a confused look. you answer the call, cupping the phone so you can hear her better as you answer.ย
โhello? did you need something?โย
โhey honey, would you mind coming out for a bit? someone wants to see you.โย
โsomeone?โ you ask, โone of your friends or...?โย
โjust come on out sweetie.โ she insistts.ย
โokay okay, whatever you say.โ you respond before ending the call and starting to get up. jaehyun looks up at you with a quirked brow as he sips on his drink. you look back and shrug, โmy mom wants me to meet โsomeone,โ probably one of her friends or something. i wonโt be long.โ you respond to him and let the others know.ย
"alright, take your time," jaehyun says with a nod, setting his drink down. "hopefully, it won't be too boring," he adds with a small smirk, teasing you gently. you roll your eyes playfully in response before grabbing your jacket and heading towards the sliding door. ย
you were right about the guess on seeing your mom's friend, orโfriends. however, the sudden chill you get when seeing the minatozakiโs on the porch makes you tense up. ย
they're standing there, glasses of wine in their hands as they look at you. sana's mom has a smile on her face, so does her dad. you walk up to them and try to shake off your nerves, fully hugging sanaโs mom and giving sanaโs dad a side hug.ย
โitโs been a while hasnโt it?โ sanaโs mom says, putting her hand on your shoulder and grinning. โitโs wonderful to see you again.โย
โlikewise.โ you respond, melting into relaxation the more you get used to this atmosphere. โhow have you all been?โย
after a tense reunion with sanaโs parents, they find out about your ambitions and what youโve been up to. not much is mentioned about the falling out between you and their daughter, but the thought most definitely lingers in the cold, winter air. ย
sana's parents tell you about an internship she earned at a hospital her first year, saying theyโre proud of her for helping others and the bonus of the nice paycheck that came with the experience. they tell you sheโs found herself a guaranteed transfer to your school and that sheโs excited to help even more people in the nursing program.ย it sounds like sanaโs a great person, sheโs always wanted to help others, it makes you smile and nod as her parents update you on what sheโs been up to.ย
but thereโs this feeling of uncertainty and sorrow brewing. the fact that you have to hear about sana from anyone but her breaks you a bit, knowing that the two of you wouldnโt hesitate to update each other back then. now, it seems like youโre missing a chunk of memories that you couldโve shared with sana.ย
โwe asked her to come to the party.โ mr. minatozaki says, looking at you with a sympathetic smile. โshe said sheโd consider it.โย
โoh, i see.โ you respond, nodding whilst looking at the ground. ย
part of you is glad that sheโs not here, but who are you kidding, there would never be a time where youโd be dissapointed to catch her near you, despite the paranoia taking over.ย
โwell, itโs nice to catch up y/n. we've missed you, itโs great to see how well youโre doing. your parents must be proud.โ mr. minatozaki concludes, looking at you with admiration.ย
โyeah, thanks.โ you say, โwell, i'll leave you to talk to my parents, but i'll stop by again to talk to you two. it's really nice to catch up, i've missed you guys too, and your wonderful dinners.โ you add jokingly, earning a laugh from the couple.ย
sana's mom kisses your temple and hugs you, then lets you walk back into the house.ย
it seems like this whole night has been full of surprisesโscratch that, at this point, everything is a surprise ever since you've been back in town. especially now, because once you step into the kitchen, thereโs a familiar woman whoโs making your knees weak all over again.ย
โy/n, hey.โ sana greets softly, smiling at you.ย
she's just hung up her scarf on the little hook near the fridge, the same place sheโd always hang it back then. there was this unspoken rule that when sana was here, there were certain spaces that belonged to her; the hook near the fridge, the chair at the dining table closest to the living room, the right side of your bed, and the left side of the couch in the basement. ย
still, youโre pissed at the fact she had practically cut you off completely over a boy just to come back years later to win you back. it irritated you how easy it was for sana to convince you, but you were much angrier at the thought of her coming back to see you because her and chris didnโt work out. was she serious about the breakup? was that all it took to forget that she had caused so much mental turmoil?ย
despite this, her being in your house again and seeing her at this christmas party like years before; everything reminds you of the fact that sana had always lingered in your home.ย
โhey, didnโt think youโd make it.โ you respond, watching her shrug.ย
โmy parents said your signature cookies are here, i had to.โย
can't be the only reason, you want to mumble, but your lips stay sealed.ย
sana speaks again, โi stole a couple, ate some earlier actually. still as great as i remembered.โย
โthanks.โ you mutter, walking over to the fridge to grab a bottle of water. โdid you want to talk about something?โย
โwhat do you mean?โย
โthereโs a reason you came, and i know itโs for me since youโre not in the basement with everyone else. we both know thatโs the signature spot.โย
sana cringes at your tone, but gives in.ย
โi just wanted to see you, and hopefully talk to you normally.โย
it's taking everything in you to hold your ground, to protect yourself from this sudden appearance thatโs making you all uneasy again. you canโt let sana screw you up again with a simple visit, you canโt.ย
โi know youโre sorry but sana, you treated me so terribly. do you know how much i cried? how fucking terrible i felt after losing my friend of years to chris?โ you seethe, sighing. โpart of me wants to start over, maybe try againโbut how can i do that when thereโs the chance of you throwing away everything, we rebuild over another stupid fucking guy.โย
she looks at you with guilt in her eyes, her shoulders sinking and words jumbling in her throat. ย
โy/n, nothingโno one, despite what i've done to you, will ever make me forget how much i love you. there's always a space in my heart for you.โย
you scoff, anger flowing throughout you now, then walk over to her. she stands against the frame of the entrance, you stand in front of her now, looking down slightly. sana's looking at you directly in the eye, you can see the hurt and regret in her eyes; her look brings you back to your senses.ย
โhow do i know youโre not bluffing? sana, every ounce of me wants to redo this.โ your voice cracks slightly, the hurt evident in your tone. ย
โyou just have to trust me, i'm sorry, i'm really sorry.โย
you feel like curling up into a ball and hiding, the way your chest tightens makes you want to cry a bit.ย
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the party ends around one in the morning, considering the fact that some of the attendants are adults that donโt have the energy to party until the sunrises. ย
jaehyunโs just crossed the line, now slurring his words and laughing stupidly while he gets touchy with the guys, so mark ends up driving him home. johnny catches a ride with seulgi and sooyoung. with them gone, youโre in the basement with momo, mina, dahyun, and tzuyu. all five of you end the night with some recollections of memories, momoโs recent date, minaโs annoying professor, and before you know it you all are hugging goodbye.ย
you've already gone through three cans of the smirnoff cans, it hadnโt done much except make you a little more giggly and talkative. you were a little tipsy, that was all.ย
throughout the night, tzuyu and dahyun exchange glances, their eyes meeting repeatedly, dahyuns hand rubbing tzuyuโs thigh, and the little smiles they give each other. all of it doesnโt go unnoticed โ at least by you โ and hints at the potential for something you donโt want to think of in detail once they return home. ย
as you observe their subtle interactions, a pang of envy stirs within you, longing for that same allure and anticipation. amidst the swirling emotions, a sense of emptiness creeps in, amplified by the beers youโve had. you're left to ponder on whatโs making you feel hollow, still feeling bad after raising your voice at sana earlier.ย
you canโt feel bad, you shouldnโt. whatever you did wasnโt comparable to her practically pretending you didnโt exist for almost two years.ย
after rolling your eyes and saying some stupid joke to dahyun and tzuyu โ the last to leave the house โ you head back to the basement. ย
of course, sana had to be sitting on the couch, head turned towards the tv as she sipped on a beer. ย
โhey.โ you mutter, earning her attention as she turns away from the christmas movie you paused earlier.ย
โhi.โ sana greets.ย
every ounce of anger, irritation, and dread had been squeezed out your body at the sight of her. you genuinely think itโs the alcohol thatโs making you rethink everything, making it hard to fight back that voice in your head thatโs trying to stay reserved and petty.ย
sana sits there, her gaze fixed on you with intensity. her glasses are perched on her nose, a familiar sight whenever she's engrossed in watching tv or anything like that. the sight only adds to her charm, making her look even more adorable. you can't help but notice her favorite cardigan draped over her shoulders โ the fluffy, white knit cardigan she adores so much โit's a cherished gift from your mother, and she's held onto it all these years.ย her eyes bore into yours, drilling into your skull and compelling you to plop down beside her as if nothing had ever transpired between you. you surrender, maybe itโs the late hours of the night, maybe the beer, o rmaybe just sana.ย
(itโs probably just sana.)ย
she turns back to the movie playing, some stupid romcom jaehyun had put on as background noise.ย
your eyes trace the curve of her nose, lingering on her lips and the impeccable contour of her jawline as she remains fixated on the tv screen. her side profile captivates you for a moment, holding you in some sort of spell until she breaks the silence with her soft voice.ย
โi think our parents are playing card games in the kitchen.โ ย
โprobably betting money too.โย
โremember when your dad took your christmas money for their game?โ sana asks, giggling at the memory. her eyes are still fixed on the screen, you decide to tune into the movie too. โdidnโt he lose too?โย
โyeah.โ you sigh, sinking into the couch. โhe paid me back double the next day though.โย
โso it was worth it?โย
โyeah, i think we went out to eat with that money.โย
sana turns to gaze at you, her eyes tracing the soft contours of your profile in the dimly lit room. the glow from the tv accentuates her favorite features of yours, and she finds herself lost in the sight before her. for a while, she simply stares, allowing the comfortable silence to envelop the moment. ย
you turn to look at her now, you two just stare at each other for a while more.ย
โmaybe we can try again.โ you mumble, giving into the beauty in front of you. โevery part of me is against the idea.โย
โthatโs understandable.โ sana agrees. she sighs before adding, โyou donโt have to try again.โย
โi know.โ you assure, โbut i think we should.โย
โiโm sorry.โย
โi know, sana.โ ย
as the music from the tv fills the room, silence once again settles between you and sana. you know that you can't let this opportunity slip away โ it's everything you've wanted, and deep down, you realize it's everything you've needed too. ย
there's a mistletoe thatโs hung above the two of you, itโs been there the whole time, both of you were aware of it. it dangles from the light tantalizingly, but neither of you do anything about it. neither you or sana even mention it. your mind races to the memory of dahyun and tzuyu kissing each other under it and part of you wants to kiss sana like that, but you wonโt let her kiss and make up.ย
you reach out, your fingers gently intertwining with hers. you lift her hand to your lips, feeling the warmth of her skin against your own. softly, you press a kiss upon the back of her hand, you linger in the intimacy of the gesture.ย
the two of you sit there for a moment, letting the world around you two fade away.ย
everything about the moment renders you weak. you think to yourself that maybe, just maybe, a second chance is enough to patch things up. if itโs with sana, then maybe itโs worth it.ย
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The way the breeze passes through the leaves and the warm air brushing against Nayeonโs skin makes it feel like a dream. Dating an idol was nothing short of busy and with your 40-50 hour a week schedule, you rarely had time off to spend with Nayeon. Your schedules finally lined up, so you decided to take Jihyoโs advice and go to Bali for a week away.
The view from the mountain villa you had rented was breathtaking. Nayeon stepped out to watch the sunset while you took a moment to rest. Days filled with the most beautiful scenic hikes and walking around the surrounding villages was fun, but still tiring.
Over the past four days, Nayeon wished she could paint every sunset as she looked out from the balcony over and through the dense forest. Tropical birds passed through the orange glow of the sunset, giving Nayeon the opportunity to take pictures in the hopeless effort to capture the peace she felt.
Time ticked by as Nayeon leaned against the wooded railing. The sun had gone down at least half an hour ago and the mountain was lit up by the stars. A few crickets chirp to harmonize with the rustling of the leaves. The sticky heat of the day mellowed out with the cool breeze, making Nayeon never want to leave her spot on the balcony.
Once you adequately rest your sore legs, you push yourself off the plush mattress. You shuffle over to the cart in the room that held a few bottles of wine and other spirits. Pouring yourself a glass of red wine, you turn the lights off before you step out onto the balcony and quietly slide the door open and shut behind you.
โThe stars are out.โ You make the obvious comment just to break the silence of the night as you slip a hand around Nayeonโs waist to pull her close to you. She jumps and playfully smacks your arm but immediately settles into your embrace.
โYou scared me.โ She whispers and even though there are no other people around you, it feels right. Itโs so quiet except for the sounds of nature filling the night.
You chuckle and lean down to press a gentle kiss to her forehead before sipping your wine. A comfortable silence falls around you as you look up into the sky. The stars and the moon are just bright enough to highlight every beautiful feature on your girlfriendโs face.
As you stare up at the sky, you feel your wine glass being carefully pulled from your hand. Without looking down, you smile and rub small, soothing circles with your thumb into Nayeonโs hip. โSure, go ahead. I didnโt bring that out for myself or anything.โ
Nayeon just thanks you by placing the wine glass back in your hands and leaning up to kiss your cheek. โThink of it as payment for scaring me.โ
You shake your head with a fond smile drawn across your lips, your focus still on the night sky above. Itโs like a black blanket, well decorated with twinkling diamonds.
After a few minutes, you look down at Nayeon. She has a content look on her face as she stares out into the forest below and the peaks of the mountains on the horizon just past the tree line. โYouโve been out here for a while. Everything okay?โ
Nayeon looks up at you with that look in her eyes you fell in love with almost two years ago. She places a gentle hand on the side of your face and gently strokes your cheek with her thumb before looking back out. She nods and relaxes even further into your embrace. โI donโt think Iโve felt this happy in a long time.โ
A hum of agreement leaves your lips as you take another sip of your wine. Your grip tightens a little around Nayeonโs delicate waist to better support her as she sinks further into you. โBali was the perfect choice.โ
โEven though itโs blazing hot out during the day?โ Nayeon asks through a small laugh and glances up at you.
โSure, it may be boiling hot during the day. But at nightโฆ itโs perfect.โ You smile down at Nayeon before looking out at the mountain peaks, taking a deep breath. The earthy smell of the forest and the slightest hint of the salty ocean thatโs been carried over by the breeze fills your senses.
โThe second you start to feel just a little too hot, that breeze passes through to cool you down again. It smells like the Earth and carries with it just a hint of the ocean.โ
Nayeon looks up at you, her eyebrow raised in disbelief. โYouโre getting all of that from the breeze, huh?โ
You give her a small nod and take another sip of your wine. Another comfortable silence falls over you before you set your glass down on the small table set up on the balcony. You scoot the table back to a far corner and pull your phone out.
Soon, a slow song fills the air, and you extend your hand before you put your phone down beside your wine. โCare to dance with me, Miss Im?โ
โYou certainly are a charmer.โ Nayeon laughs, the sound filling your heart with love as she takes hold of your hand.
The space on the balcony is large enough for you to sway with Nayeon along to the gentle beat of the music. It reminds you of the first time you asked her to dance. When your hands were so sweaty that you had to keep wiping them on your pants so Nayeon wouldnโt be able to tell you were that nervous.
โYou have such a nice speaker that you brought, yet youโre using the tinny speakers on your phone?โ
Twirling Nayeon around, you let out a soft chuckle. โIf I go get my speaker now, then I miss out on time that I could have spent dancing with the most beautiful girl in the world.โ
A soft blush makes its way up to Nayeonโs cheeks. She rests her head against your chest and notices your heartโs beating a little faster than usual. โIs your heart beating faster from the oh so strenuous dancing, or are you suddenly getting all shy on me again?โ
You keep Nayeon close to you as the song changes to something even slower. It gives you a moment to gently rock back and forth with her in your embrace. โNeither. My heart always beats this fast when I think about you.โ
Nayeon pauses for a second as she looks up at you. She keeps the gentle motion you have with her and asks you in a soft and teasing voice, โWhat are you thinking about if Iโm right here with you?โ
The sudden but very welcome feeling of your lips against her forehead causes Nayeonโs eyes to flutter closed. โWell,โ you say as you slowly pull back, โIโm thinking about you.โ The slow song playing from your phone fills the momentary silence between you.
โIโm thinking about how lucky I am to be here with you.โ You press another kiss to Nayeonโs forehead.
โIโm thinking about all the ways I wish I could make time go slower right now.โ You press a gentle kiss to her cheek.
โIโm thinking about how you took a chance on a goofball like me.โ This earns a small chuckle from Nayeon as you press a kiss to the tip of her nose.
โAnd Iโm thinking about how you shine brighter than the moon itself.โ
Nayeonโs eyes twinkle like the stars. She takes a second to find her voice before she speaks. โYou think I shine brighter than the moon?โ
Your answer is a small nod and a soft kiss against her lips. The song plays out, leaving you to listen to natureโs music. The lingering taste of your wine on Nayeonโs lips makes you smile as you listen to the night serenading you once again.
After a long day, you were beyond joyful to retreat back to the comfort of your shared bed with Yunjin. You both were pretty exhausted after practice and couldnโt wait to under the covers. Your bed was your favorite hello and the hardest goodbye.
The other girls were undergoing their night routine by the time you both made it to your room. Well, it was Yunjinโs room but you preferred staying in hers more than half the time so you claimed it as your own, occasionally abandoning your own.
You landed on the bed with your face on the pillow and your girlfriend followed, causing you both to giggle when you turned your heads to face one another. โI am so tired.โ Yunjin mumbled, to which you could only hum in response to show her you understood her exhaustion.
โWe have to change.โ You mentioned after you fell into a short silence, the result of you both nearly drifting off. Your words earned a groan from her as she shoved her face further into her pillow and put her arms under it as a way to hold it. โAnd we have to remove our makeup..โ You added, receiving another groan in response, but this time more dramatic. You couldnโt help but chuckle at her reaction and it took all the strength and willpower in you to sit up.
You patted her butt playfully after you noticed she wasnโt bothering to move. โCome on, Jen.โ You whined, wanting to get this over with so you both could get back in the bed and actually under the covers. She lifted her head up and looked over at you, squinting. โThe quicker we do this, the quicker weโll be able to fall asleep in each otherโs embrace.โ You persuaded, to which she immediately flipped over on her back and sat up. A laugh erupted from you and she smiled at the sound.
You both stood up and made your way to the bathroom to take off your makeup. You got there first and the sight of your girlfriend made you grin as you grabbed a makeup wipe. She was watching you through the mirror and you felt her gaze on you, causing you to nudge her with a chuckle.
โYah, quit staring and remove your makeup so we can go to sleep.โ You jokingly scolded before handing her a wipe. โNot my fault youโre so pretty.โ She muttered as she took the wipe and started to wipe her face. You side eyed her and she caught it when her attention shifted to you through the mirror, resulting in her releasing her infectious laugh.
As soon as you finished removing your makeup, you brushed your teeth rather quickly. You went to spit and you turned your head to side, locking eyes with your girlfriend. She grimaced at the sight and you couldnโt help but giggle. You wiped your mouth and leaned back up just to see her starting to brush her teeth.
โIโm gonna take a quick shower.โ You notified her as you turned on the water, earning a nod in response. You waited a little before putting your hand in the water to check the temperature. Once it was warm enough for you, you began undressing. You felt eyes on you and turned your head, being met with your girlfriend drooling. It was from her spitting out toothpaste, but also to add effect to how she felt about the sight she saw through the mirror.
โYou are something else.โ You shake your head in amusement as you watched her smile before wiping her mouth. โWe can save more water if I join you.โ She suggested as a knowing look made its way onto her face. You hopped in the shower and laughed at her words.
โNo funny business, Jennifer.โ You tell her as you turn away from her to enjoy the warm water. โYeah yeah..โ She waved you off dismissively before taking off her clothes and joining you.
You both helped wash each other and stole kisses every now and then, but it was mainly Yunjinโs doing. You stepped out before her and wrapped a towel around you, waiting for her. She came out shortly after and you handed another towel to her.
Exiting the bathroom and making your way to the closet, you looked for some pajama pants and one of her hoodies. She watched you from the doorway with a smile on her face. Once you were dressed, she then made her way into the closet to put on clothes. You hopped on the bed and got underneath the covers, relishing in the warm and coziness it provided. Not as comforting as Yunjinโs embrace, but that would be solved eventually.
She retreated from the closet and jumped on the bed, landing in a starfish position. One of her arms landed on your waist, causing you to let out a groan at the impact. She rolled over onto her back and looked over at you. โAre you ready to go to sleep, my love?โ She asked, to which you rolled on your side to face her and nodded tiredly.
She scooted up to lift the covers from underneath her and cover herself before getting comfortable. You watched her every move up until she leveled with you and turned off the light radiating from the bedside lamp.
โGoodnight, sweetheart.โ
You hummed in response as you prepared to turn over and face the other way, earning a light hit on the shoulder. โSay it back..โ She mumbled, to which you scooted impossibly closer to her and kissed her cheek before whispering in her ear,
โGoodnight, my love.โ
It didnโt take long for you both to fall asleep, especially you since you were out like a light by the time Yunjin could ask for some cuddles. She would always get them anyways, whether you were asleep or not.
The moonlight painted a soft glow on the room, as the two of you laid peacefully in shared dreams, intertwined in a comfortable silence. The rhythmic melody of your synchronized breathing echoed through the stillness. Time slipped away, marked only by the occasional shifting of covers and the gentle murmur of night.
As dawn tiptoed into the room, a golden hue began to embrace the space. The first light of morning gently kissed your faces, casting a warm, ethereal glow. A subtle change in the atmosphere stirred you from slumber. In return, your slight movement created a ripple effect, slowly awakening your girlfriend. The room, once cloaked in the quiet of night, now hummed with the promise of a new day.
But the peace that resonated in the room would be swiftly interrupted by knocks at the door. Groaning at the noise, you rolled over on the side and sandwiched your head between your pillow. โWho is it?โ Yunjin groggily questioned as she wiped her tired eyes, sitting up slightly. The unknown person didnโt bother to answer before cracking the door open, revealing it to be Chaewon.
โBoth of you need to be up and ready in ten minutes.โ She stated, but it felt like she was talking to a wall based off of Yunjinโs blank expression and you not bothering to remove the pillow. You could still hear, but you didnโt want her to know that. โWeโll be out shortly..โ Yunjin mumbled loud enough for the brunette to hear all the way from the bedroom door, waving her free hand dismissively. Chaewon uttered something under her breath before exiting the room and closing the door behind her.
โIs she gone?โ You inquired, your voice sounding muffled from the pillow. Yunjin hummed and draped an arm around your waist, snuggling closer. You returned the pillow to its resting position and sighed out of relief before turning to your girlfriend. She sent you a sleepy smile, which you couldnโt help but smile at. She was too cute, especially in the morning.
You leaned in for a kiss but the moment was interrupted when you both heard Chaewon shout from the other side of the door. โYah! Both of you hurry up and get ready!โ A laughing fit erupted between the two of you, with Yunjin throwing her head back on the pillow.
Not wanting to your leader to burst into the room, she untangled herself from around you and got up. โYah!โ She mimicked Chaewonโs shout as she made her way to the bathroom, to which you couldnโt help but giggle.
โI heard that!โ
Yunjin poked her head out and you both looked at each other with shocked expressions before bursting out laughing again. She would definitely get a look from Chaewon when you both stepped out.
all my thoughts, they're shaped like you: huh yunjin x fem! reader
request: i was wondering if you could write smth about yunjin and reader having a sleepover? it can be a smut or not js however you'd like <3
a/n: i decided to write this as sfw instead of smut just bc im...not confident in my smut writing abilities rn so i hope this will suffice! enjoy and thank you so much for requesting. *please note all pictures and videos are used for creative reference to give readers a visual of hair, makeup, clothes, shoes, etc. ONLY*
guilty was your first comeback in six months and by far your most successful since your debut four years ago. originally the song was to go to one of your seniors, but it was pushed your way when another caught his attention. the song was much more mature than the other songs you'd put out in the past which increased attention towards this new side of you as an artist. the past four weeks were filled with long schedules of music and variety show appearances, photoshoots, and too many fansigns to count. however, today was the last day of schedules before you got a two week long break to rest and recover.
you stood in front of your manager who was pressing you to take pictures for instagram before you got whisked away elsewhere. he smiled as you posed and the rest of your staff members made positive comments about you and your performance outfit. you didn't even bother settling back into your dressing room because not even two seconds later there was a knock at the door. you rushed over to open it and a small face peeked through as you beamed from ear to ear.
eunchae shyly greeted your staff members and you before she stepped back and onced you over with a gasp, "you're so pretty!" you reached forward and pulled her into a hug, "you're so precious oh my god." she giggled and led you down the hallway to the room where she films Eunchae's Star Diary. when you both got inside she motioned for you to sit down and she followed behind you.
for a moment there was silence after you introduced yourself before you and eunchae began laughing and you admitted in english, "i'm sorry i don't want to be awkward...it's this is just a little funny to me because we've never actually met." eunchae agreed and answered in korean, "yeah this is our first time meeting, but i feel like i know about you a lot because yunjin unnie talks about you all the time." similar to a professional she continued, "with your new comeback, can you tell us a little bit about the album and your favorite song?" you nodded and explained more professionally, "guilty is my first album since six months ago. it's also a different sound than what i've put out before. this time i wanted to focus on something that everyone can connect with."
eunchae looked at you with wide eyes and prompted you to continue so you added, "guilt is an emotion that everyone has to some extent or another. it's a feeling that has a negative connotation and that's something i wanted to change. of course singing about positive things is good, but i think singing about negative things and presenting them in a beautiful way is equally as important. more specifically, my single guiltyโ is about a selfish love that hurts the other person. itโs not coming from my experience, but i used it as a way to define what love is and express it on stage.โ
the younger girl looked at you and sighed, "everything you say sounds so smart." you laughed and shyly dismissed the complement out of habit before she asked you, "who was the first person to hear the single?" you side eyed her and she grinned because she already knew the answer but for the sake of her show you sighed, "huh yunjin of le sserafim." eunchae pointed and laughed at your facial expression and you playfully rolled your eyes but she shared happily, "yunjin unnie has been singing the song nonstop since it came out. when it dropped she was telling all of us in the dorm that she heard it first! she kept bragging that it was so good but didn't tell us any hints! but it was worth the wait because the comeback is incredible, unnie!" heat bloomed in your chest at the thought of yunjin listening to your music and bragging about how talented you were to those closest to her.
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the minute you got back into your apartment after your schedule all of your messages came rushing into your notifications. your best friends had blown up your phone all day which honestly wasn't new, but scrolling through 100+ messages was kinda annoying when you were tired. then, like clockwork your phone started ringing and you answered to see one of your best friends on your screen, "hey i don't know if you saw somi's texts or not but we're having a sleepover at your place tonight." immediately you responded, "who is we? you speak french now?" on the other line she laughed and said, "don't be like that y/n."
you whined, "aeri! i just finished promotions im TIRED! and why my place and not somi's?" aeri let out a small huff and said, "somi's apartment flooded like ten minutes ago so we can't stay there. you know the rest of us aren't allowed people to stay overni-" you cut her off immediately, "hold on it's not just you and somi?" aeri looked off to the side and bit her lip, "uh...so funny story..." before she could answer someone snatched her phone and continued, "jen is coming too." you spat out the water you were sipping, "WHY WOULD YOU INVITE YUNJIN?!" somi answered casually, not taking her eyes off of the road, "i thought you would've worked stuff out by now. besides it's kinda shitty if we have a sleepover and exclude one person. it's called a friend group for a reason, right?" you huffed, "yeah i guess..."
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the friend group started just as you and giselle when she entered SM entertainment back in December of 2019. the two of you clicked immediately even though you were technically her senior, having debuted that past summer. along with her members, they were the only girls close to your age in the entire company so you were quick to befriend them as soon as you were allowed. months after meeting giselle, you met somi who debuted a month before you as a soloist. then you introduced the two and the three of you were a trio of best friends...until yunjin came into the picture.
you and yunjin were familiar with one another but you only met once at a music show when you were promoting at the same time. from there you introduced her to somi and aeri, and she was added into the friend group. once you added her into the small bunch of friends you all were complete, and dubbed, The Plastics, by fans.
for the most part everything was fine with you four except that there were times when it was hard to meet up because of busy schedules. however, you started trying to distance yourself a bit when you realized that you had a crush on yunjin. the cardinal rule of friend groups was don't date other people in the same group. despite aeri and somi swearing up and down to you that yunjin liked you back, you refused to feed into it. your best friends weren't liars but you just couldn't bring yourself to believe them for whatever reason. besides even if you confessed to yunjin you didn't think much would come of it besides a ruined friend group. so you decided that you were just going to continue trying to compartmentalize your feelings and gaslighting yourself into thinking you didn't like her.
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you ran to your room trying to get everything ready for your friends, the least you could do is have a clean apartment. the vaccuum drowned out the sounds of the city streets below your building as you dragged it across your area rug. you hummed along to oceanfromtheblue that blasted through your headphones, further muting the noise from the outside world. unbeknownst to you, yunjin had already entered your apartment. she got in using the 10 digit code on your door that she memorized just in case because that's what friends do...right?
a pair of hands gently caught your hips as you backed up with the vaccuum in hand making you scream and jump. you whipped around to see yunjin standing before you looking perfect as usual. she was only in a pair of sweatpants and a hoodie with those ugg slippers she liked to leave in your apartment for when she visited you. even in a basic dressed down outfit she still looked like an angel with her red hair pulled into a messy bun with a few loose strands framing her face. the pair of glasses she wore sat low on her nose causing her to push them up before pulling you into a hug. she laughed and apologized, "y/n i'm sorry! i called out your name a few times i thought you would have heard me." you let out the breath you'd been holding and assured her, "no it's fine i shouldn't have had my headphones this loud..."
there was an awkward silence and her eyes found yours bringing out a pinkish hue to her cheeks that was only reserved for you. her hands remained on your hips and you brushed a piece of her hair from her face and tucked it behind her ear. the simple action sent butterflies straight to her stomach and made her catch her lip between her teeth. neither of you knew where this was headed but right before you two could figure it out, the front door swing open and aeri entered with somi, "HEY BITCHES- oh." the two of you jumped and yunjin inched away from you, "heyyyy!" somi motioned between the two of you, "did we just interrupt something or?" immediately you refused, "no we were just um... yeah anyways hey guys." you paused and realized the two let themselves in, "wait- how did you two get inside?" yunjin and your manager were the only two people who knew the password for your apartment so how did they manage to get in?"
somi pointed to her phone and said, "i wrote it down the last time yunjin and i were over. the real question is why does yunjin know it and we don't. i thought we were friends." the blonde placed her hands on her hips and pouted to which aeri added, "how do you even remember all those numbers anyways?" yunjin responded, "i memorized it after seeing y/n do it once. and it's not hard, i just remember important things." both aeri and somi shared a glance and you joked, "so basically i need to make a new passcode. got it." the three of them laughed and put their bags down so you could start your plans for the night.
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yunjin pulled out a vlogging camera from her bag and said, "i know we usually have a 'no work stuff' policy for our hangouts but i have to vlog and this is the only interesting thing i've done all week." your other friends started getting baking utensils and ingredients out of your pantry and cabinets while you preheated your oven.
the american idol stood in front of the camera and started speaking, "hi everyone! today i'm with my friends- and we're going to do the blind, mute, deaf challenge while cooking. y/n is being so kind to let us use her kitchen today!" you fake side eyed her and muttered, "you all showed up on my doorstep unannounced but okay." the three laughed and finished setting up the things you'd need.
since it was yunjin's vlog she decided how roles were split up and it was through rock paper scissors: aeri was deaf, somi and you were blind, yunjin was mute. for the sake of your kitchen and everyone's safety she decided to have two people who weren't allowed to speak. before starting the challenge yunjin explained, "so we already have the roles assigned. basically we are going to try to cook dinner together with our roles and we aren't allowed to switch or break character. so aeri is deaf- she already has her headphones on." she pointed the camera to aeri who was in her own world listening to some tyga song on blast, not paying attention to anyone else. yunjin continued, "somi and y/n are blind- wait do we have a blindfold?" she turned to you and you shook your head, "why would i have a blindfold? somi smirked and winked, "i have many blindfolds." yunjin slapped her arm and she laughed, "what?" you huffed in fake annoyance, "we should have made her one of the mute ones. yunjin finished explaining, "and i'm mute so i'm going to be silent because i didn't want to tape my face. anyways, aeri is the only one that can see the recipe and we have to follow her directions." you ended up finding two scarves in one of your drawers to tie around your and somi's heads and you all started the challenge.
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"OKAY! BOIL THE POT OF WATER!" aeri shouted loudly making you flinch at the sudden outburst. you reached your hands in front of you as you cautiously dug a pot out from your cabinet and placed it in somi's hands. the blonde started to slowly walk to your sink, hitting the front of it with a soft thud and a whine while the rest of you laughed. somi filled the pot up and gently walked it back with the help of yunjin before she turned on the stove. the rest of it went like this, yunjin slightly helping you while aeri screamed the directions to you all.
when it came to cutting the chicken somi backed away from the counter, "i don't wanna touch it ew." you muttered, "you big baby." aeri asked in confusion, "YOU SAID YOU HATE ME?" the three of you burst out laughing while aeri stood still confused, looking around then into yunjin's camera as if it would talk back to her. you stood in front of the cutting board with the raw chicken and grabbed the knife that was within reach. you thought aloud, "this is probably a bad idea having the blind one do this part of the challenge but...i have bandaids."
somi was busy trying to drain the pasta from the water with the help of aeri guiding her as yunjin nervously watched you handle the knife and raw meat. yunjin tensed as she watched you nearly cut your finger once and then placed a hand on your arm. this time you didn't jump at her touch and let her come behind you. her hands placed gently atop yours and you giggled before playfully asking, "oh my god what is this? so romantic." beside you somi and aeri pretended to gag, somi not even facing the right direction as she teased you. when you both finished cutting the meat, yunjin moved from behind you and immediately you missed her body pressed against yours.
the remainder of you all cooking was a hot mess. from aeri forgetting she was in charge of instructions to take mini dance breaks, to somi trying to spoon in pasta water into the sauce with a fork by accident, yunjin trying to mime out her questions about the recipe to aeri, and you walking smack into the open refrigerator door- the whole thing was a mess. but an entertaining one that fans would love to watch once it was uploaded. somehow by some miracle you all managed to make the food exactly how it was supposed to taste which paid off at the end.
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hours passed and aeri and somi had fallen asleep after crying their eyes out to the notebook that just finished playing. you poked aeri with your foot and her head lolled to the side limply making you and yunjin laugh. you pointed to your tv and asked, "did you like the movie?" the red aired woman nodded and mumbled quietly, "yeah, it was good. i understand the hype now but it was sad too. i love a happy ending but leading up to it was sad, you know?" you agreed and admitted, "i was mad when they made me watch it for the first time so you're better than me. all of that emotion just for me to get something kinda nice at the end, it was exhausting." she hummed in agreement and you both fell silent.
yunjin's hands brushed your hair gently, the softness of your silk press beneath her fingers was different from the way you usually wore it. unlike when most people touched your hair, you didn't pull away or dodge her hands running through the strands. instead you scooted closer to her and smiled when she began dutch braiding one of the sides on your head. the two of you basked in the quiet which was the first of it's kind tonight.
there was a small snag in your hair that caused you to almost whimper when her long fingers tugged at it. yunjin murmured an apology and pressed a gentle kiss to the spot before continuing. she then spoke up, "imagine just...forgetting who you are and everyone you love like that."
you didn't think before answering, "i almost did. when i left home and came here. i was around people that said i needed to leave my old life behind if i wanted to be successful here. i was naive and thought it was true, that my past would hold me back so i tried to let it all go. i only realized they were wrong after i was all alone." yunjin began braiding the other side of your head and asked, "so how'd you fix it?" you answered, "i met people who were like me and i made friends and talked to people. i tried to do things that reminded me of home, like being around you guys." yunjin finished your two braids and you turned around to see her smiling at you fondly. she could see the slight pain hidden behind your gaze as you recall one of the harder times in your life.
yunjin sighed and blurted out, "you smell like home." for a moment she froze and you pulled away and asked, "like new york? cuz that's not a complement if i smell like a new york street." yunjin laughed and answered nervously, "no you just...i don't know you're just- whenever i'm with you i feel at home." she moved down to the floor mattress you laid out earlier that night, knowing somi and aeri would be laid out on the couch like they are now.
you laid side by side as you told yunjin, "it feels like that with you too, like i'm back in the states just living without worries like now." yunjin bit her lip debating on if she wanted to do this now, but she caved into herself, "that's not what i meant but it's okay." you turned to face her, now laying on your side as you asked, "what did you mean then?"
yunjin felt her heart begin to race and she tried to brush it off, "no there's nothing." but you were determined to understand what she meant so you asked, "no, talk to me. what's going on in your head? tell me. i want to know, i want to know everything about you." of course yunjin knew that you weren't ever going to force her to speak, so she still had an out if she wanted to just not continue the conversation. however, she was tired doing this same dance with you where she almost admitted her feelings then ran away at the last minute. she knew that even if you didn't feel the same way that you wouldn't let that ruin the friendship you already have so she bit the bullet.
there was a pause then yunjin huffed and confessed "when i'm with you i feel safe, like i have nothing to worry about. i can just be myself and i know you'll never judge me or leave because i express myself the way i want to. whenever i'm not with you, you're still living in my head...all of my thoughts, they're shaped like you. i love you and i love being around you and being with you and i never want to leave your side which is why i try not to come too close because i can't risk fucking this up. but here i am telling you what i told myself i'd take to the grave so...just promise me if this screwed everything up and judging by your silence i think it did- just pretend it never happened and leave somi and aeri out of thi-" you refused to let her talk herself into thinking she ruined everything, "i love you too."
yunjin's breath caught in her throat and you repeated, "i love you too, huh yunjin. i love you so much and i love being around you and with you too." she sat up so she was upright then looked back down at you until you were sitting beside her. the small nightlight on your hallway outlet was the only thing allowing you to see her eyes locked on yours. you inched closer to her and brought your arms to rest on her shoulders while her hands were on your waist. her long fingernails scratched the ribbing of your tank top while your fingers twirled with a piece of her hair.
her forehead pressed against yours and you whispered, "what does this make us then?" yunjin shrugged and giggled which made you smile, "i dunno but we can figure it out together?" you asked, "yeah?" she nodded and you noticed how she eyed your two friends who were asleep tangled together yet half off the couch. she looked back at you and asked, "so when do we tell them?" you scrunched your nose and placed a gentle peck on yunjin's lips. the red haired woman paused then kissed you twice more, "who says we have to?" right when you pressed your lips against hers for the last time, a bright flash lit up your entire living room. you both looked over and aeri smacked somi's arm as she soft whisper yelled, "what part of NO FLASH did you not understand?" the two smiled as big as they could from ear to ear before yunjin let out a huff and sighed, "you all suck."
"itโs late" you call out, pausing the show you were watching "did you have dinner yet?"
momo pauses, the bag and the shoes discarded by the door. the dogs asleep on your lap as you look over her, the sleepiness evident in your eyes.
itโs evident, that the tension in your home has finally got to you. itโs also funny that it got to you first, even though you werenโt the first one between the two of you to drift away
momo swears she doesnโt mean to, but she also knows better than to let it get this far. schedules on schedules almost on the go left you both restless for months on end
โno, not yetโ she sits beside you, hoping for you to lean on her like you always do, and you do, finding comfort in her presence after so long
her heart wonders why it hurts more than it should when you hesitated for a few seconds
your head wonders why itโs still her that gives you comfort
โwhat do you want to eat?โ you ask, her hands playing with yours, a sigh that sheโs been stressed and nervous
โi donโt knowโ she answers back, only focusing on the feel of your hands and how she missed the way your hands always fit together โmaybe some ramen would be niceโ
you both donโt talk for a while, the silence carrying the rest of the conversation you both wish to have, only for fear to stop it from ever happening
โiโll order some?โ you ask after what seems forever to her ever anxious heart
โyes pleaseโ she pulls away to go and finally wash up before being stopped by you, to give her a kiss and a sleepy smile
โgo you stinkyโ you shoo her away, so you can bring up your phone to call for some ramen takeout
maybe she can fix somethings tonight
โyour stinkyโ she teases
โmy stinkyโ you tease back
maybe you can feel better tonight
it only takes 24 minutes for her to be back by your side and to see you still waiting for her, despite your eyes so close to giving up already.
โyou can go sleepโ momo want to talk about a lot of things, wants to do a lot of things with and for you. god she really does, but when you look so tired and so sleepy she just canโt do it โyou can go get some restโ
โbutโ you still yawn despite the obvious fact that you refuse you sleep โi missed youโ
her eyes look into yours and she swears she sees the future she wants to have, itโs with you
โmissed you tooโ she notices her dogs have been moved to their beds, snoozing away into dream land, and so grabs the opportunity to cuddle close to you, hair wet and all.
you want to say anything, anything that can make the conversation rolling.
you canโt say anything
โthis is niceโ is what she says instead, her arms bringing you closer โyouโre so niceโ
you donโt want to say anything that will ruin this
โi missed youโ sheโs leaving kisses all over your face, each one making you want to just sob out loud โgod i missed thisโ
you just want her, like this with you all the time. but you canโt, you know in your professions that you canโt
โi just want to put you in my pocketโ momo wipes any tears away, heart breaking at the sight of you leaning in more for her touch โi just want you near me, with me all the timeโ
the things you would do for her, but a part of you will always be scared that she will up and leave
โi love youโ sheโs kissing you now, with every emotions she wants to tell you that know one but you will understand โi love youโ
you donโt need to be scared though, not when she looks at you like you hung up the stars just for her
โitโs you babyโ momo doesnโt know what to do, your tears have caused a panic in her, but she swears all she sees in your eyes is love โitโs always you baby, always going to be usโ
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Laughter danced through the air, and Nayeon didn't care if a toothache awaited her; she was too lost in the moment. The couch was a chaotic mosaic of candy wrappers, and she felt a subtle ache in her stomach, not from the indulgence in sweets, but from the overwhelming emotions stirred by your presence.
Her heart swelled with an intensity she couldn't put into words, and her stomach was aflutter with a thousand butterflies as you sat beside her, your smile as sweet and inviting as the candy that surrounded you.
You were there.
An angel sent from the world of a carnival snack booth.
Nayeon couldn't help but draw you closer by the arm, seeking refuge in the comforting curve of your neck. The symphony of giggles slowly faded into soft, heartfelt sighs.
"We're going to regret all this sugar, my love," you murmured, your voice soft, as you placed a tender kiss on her temple.
Nayeon simply hummed in response, her shoulders shrugging lightly, as if to say that it didnโt matter; sheโd willingly trade any discomfort for this shared moment of bliss.
Time lost its meaning as you basked in each otherโs presence, cocooned in warmth and affection. Then, as if a dam had burst within her, Nayeon couldnโt hold back her emotions any longer.
"I love you, y/n," she confessed, her voice quivering with raw emotion, her hands cradling your face with tenderness.
Your eyes met hers, and you could see the depth of her sincerity as she repeated those three words, each one laden with a profound sense of longing and adoration.
They carried the weight of a thousand candy wrappers, an earnest declaration of love as sweet and genuine as the candy you enjoyed.
"I love you a lot," she whispered, her fingers tracing the contours of your face, the affection in her touch almost palpable.
"I love you so much," she continued, her voice brimming with fervent passion that threatened to consume you both.
Each word seemed to kindle a new flame within her, and your lips met in a series of heartfelt kisses. Your love surged to new heights, mingling laughter and tears of joy, the taste of candy lingering on your parted lips.
Nayeon pulled back slightly, her eyes locking onto yours with a mixture of contentment and vulnerability, a soft smile gracing her lips.
โThis moment, right here, is where I want to be,โ she whispered, her voice filled with warmth and certainty. โWith you.โ
Your eyes held hers, radiating a love that transcended words. You whispered in return, your voice brimming with sincerity, โNayeon, Iโve been waiting for this moment my whole life.โ
With a shared understanding, you returned to your candy-coated haven, savouring the sweetness of the candies and the sweetness of your love.
Warnings: kidnapping, manipulation, cursing, mentions of drinking alcohol, brawl
Genre: Angst with a happy ending, a bit of comedy here and there, Mafia AU
Wordcount: ~ 4,175
A/N: i had this written down long time ago tbh and when i heard dreamcatcherโs propose i thought iโd share it with you cause the lyrics kinda matches๐ let me know what you thinkk
You remember very vividly the day your whole life changed. It didnโt feel real, just a few days ago youโd been a normal young woman working at this Italian restaurant as a waitress and then suddenly you found yourself dragged into mafiaโs dirty world. A huge misunderstanding. Youโd never expect that tall, gorgeous short-haired woman to be a mafia member. Youโd never expect Yoohyeon - that was her name - to be spying on you.
When she walked into the restaurant for the very first time and directly asked your colleague for you to get her order, you couldnโt believe it. Despite being shy, you felt beyond happy about an attractive, charming stranger wanting to have an encounter with you out of all other waitresses and waiters. You didnโt question Yoohyeonโs flirting or her curious eyes glued to your figure even while you were serving other customers. It seemed okay, more than that actually. You liked being the centre of her attention.
Yoohyeon visited restaurant few more times, always getting a Margarita from you. Sheโd take her time drinking it while admiring the surroundings and simply walk away after winking your way. She was generous, tipped you a lot which was another reason why you were so fond of her.
That day, there was an accident, someone drunk barged into restaurant. He kept yelling at one of the customers accusing him of lying and stealing money. His whole face turned red from all the anger, alcohol and emotions heโd been dealing with. You coworker Mark, who was also a waiter, tried to ease their nerves and not cause panic in between other guests. Unfortunately, Mark didnโt manage to take control of the situation.
You froze on the spot watching as one of the men, the drunk one, rushed to punch the other nearly sending him off the chair. Thatโs when even worse thing happened. The other guy started defending himself with a knife which he sneakily took from the table. Mark quickly jumped, truth be told heโd have no chance against them. It was too risky for him to intervene, so he did the only thing he could - called the police.
All of other guests were running out, as the place was slowly being demolished. It was pure chaos. You felt many people pushing through, not caring about your body. Youโd almost fall to the floor as well if it werenโt for someone grabbing your wrist and pulling into themselves forcefully, yet there was a subtle tenderness to it.
โYoohyeon.โ You gasped once your hands landed on her shoulders for some support.
โItโs dangerous here, Y/N. We need to go.โ The look in her eyes was so intense that you had to really push yourself in order to glance around. Almost everyone else had ran away. Yohyeon was right. You needed to find a safe place and wait for the police.
With a tight grip on your hand Yoohyeon led you outside. Something about her calm aura and confidence let you feel safe. You began to scan her body, she had great physics. Strong muscles currently covered by suit pants and a white shirt. Her face remained almost neutral, except for the gentle frown on her forehead. It only made her more attractive in your eyes, though.
Outside, you found a bit less crowded space a few meters away from the restaurantโs entrance. While you stayed focused on the situation in front of you, you missed the way Yoohyeon nodded at someone behind you.
โIโm sorry.โ She suddenly said quietly.
โFor wha-โ
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You woke up in a dark room which kind of reminded of a warehouse. Panic in your eyes, as you glanced around. Did you just get kidnapped?
It didnโt sit right with you.
โFinally.โ Your head snapped in the direction of the voice.
โLong time no see, huh?โ A tall, dark-haired woman addressed you, a satisfied smirk present on her face.
โWhat? What is going on? Itโs a misunderstanding.โ
โDonโt play innocent now, Karla. You really thought youโd get away with everything youโve done to me?โ
Karla? Who the hell was Karla?
โI am not Karla, I swear. You got the wrong person. Iโm Y/N.โ The woman in front of you laughed at your shaking voice.
โI have to admit, youโve always been a good actress.โ She took slow steps towards you, a dangerous glint in her eyes. โBut you wonโt fool me again.โ
You gulped the second she knelt in front of you to look you straight in the eyes.
โI can prove it. I have no idea who Karla even is. You got the wrong person. Believe me please.โ
Womanโs head tilted to the side, thatโs when you finally spotted Yoohyeon leaning against the wall. Her hands behind her back, as she watched the scene with that small frown.
โYoohyeon! What did you do?! You know Iโm not Karla!โ Your eyes met, but there was no empathy in hers. She stared at you blankly.
โYoohyeon only fulfilled my order which was to catch you, the hacker.โ Woman in front of you held up a picture of... someone very similar. You had to admit she looked just like you although youโd never wear her clothes. Nevertheless, your eyes widened in shock.
โI-I-Thatโs not me, I swear. She looks almost identical, but really it canโt be me. Iโm just a waitress and a student during weekends. Yoohyeon knows it!โ
You so badly wanted another girl to take action and agree with you. You thought she was smarter than that. There was no way for you to be involved in mafiaโs world.
โWoah, have you already fallen for her? You think sheโd like someone like you? Oh, please.โ
Angry tears blurred your vision. So thatโs why Yoohyeon wanted your attention. She was only fulfilling orders. You understood it when she remained motionless against the wall.
โYoohyeon.โ This time leaderโs voice was surprisingly stern, far from amusement she was expressing moments ago. One word was enough for the brunette to immediately approach both of you.
โYes?โ Her cautious eyes focused on the other woman.
โMeet me in my office in ten minutes.โ
Yoohyeon nodded as you watched the leader walk away. Apparently, now it was her job to look after you.
โCome on, Iโll show you your room.โ Yoohyeon said over her shoulder already on her way out of the room. You hated how empty she sounded like. You hated her current facial expression. Who did she think she was? There was no way sheโll tell you what to do.
โY/N?โ Brunette turned around when she didnโt hear you getting up.
โFuck you! Iโm not going anywhere. You know damn right I have nothing in common with mafia! Why did you do that?! Why did you stay quiet when she was talking to me?โ You rose on your feet, angry tears now streaming down your face. Yoohyeon clenched her jaw and quickly approached you while pinning against the nearest wall. You froze in her strong grip, you actually had no chance against her muscular body.
โI am only doing my job, okay? Stop whining and follow me. Youโre already causing trouble.โ She growled in your ear and you couldnโt remember the last time you felt so scared.
Her eyes were piercing through you with so much anger, Yoohyeonโs body tightly pressed against your own didnโt help either.
You really were at her mercy. She could crash you any second. For a short moment the two of you had a silent, intense battle with your eyes. Then Yoohyeon stepped back and once again told you to follow her. You had no choice. Slowly you dragged your feet behind her tall figure. While passing through different doors and halls you began to wonder how she could be such a good actress.
Just days ago, God - you didnโt even know how long youโd been there for, Yoohyeon was sending you all these winks and smiles. How could you be so naive? How could you let her manipulate you so easily? This new side of Yoohyeon, her true side that you were now following made your stomach sick. You were terrified of what she was truly capable of.
~ About an hour later ~
Sitting on the floor with your back against the wall you were looking around your new room. There had to be a way to escape. Yoohyeon left you there before heading to her leader. She told you to โwait and behaveโ.
How nice of her, you thought sarcastically.
You sighed and curled your legs against your chest. Hunger was slowly getting at you, as well as tiredness. Although there was no way youโd fall asleep in that poorly-arranged place full of old boxes and pallets. The door had a glass in it, but unfortunately it was made out of bullet-proof glass meaning running away through it was close to impossible.
As you kept eyeing the entrance, it suddenly swung open revealing Yoohyeon with a paper bag of what looked like take-out. After closing the door, she knelt down in front of you.
โHope you like noodles.โ
You stared at the bag she put in the middle of your bodies, a frown building on your face.
Wait, what?
She actually sounded kind, too.
โNot hungry.โ You turned your head to the side, refusing both her food and conversation. You knew better, they could poison you.
โI know you are, but whatever. Itโs not poisoned or anything if thatโs what youโre worried about.โ Yoohyeon crossed her legs on the floor, her moves remained calm which you took as a good sign. You just had no idea when sheโd become aggressive again.
Few seconds of an awkward silence later Yoohyeon spoke again.
โIs it true?โ Her voice was really soft, a part of you wanted to believe that she came back to you. โThat youโre not Karla and actually have nothing to do with the mafia?โ
You met her eyes, aware that Yoohyeon tried to read through you and your emotions - something she was actually very experienced with.
โIt is true. I have no idea whatโs really going on and this whole situation scares me a lot.โ There was a slight crack in your voice. Thatโs when Yoohyeonโs signature frown came back.
โThat mean Karla has doppelgangers. I think thatโs the case and youโre simply a victim of hers.โ Short-haired nodded to herself, her gaze seemed a bit distant now as she was trying to put pieces together. โJiu also thinks it could be a mistake that we got you and not her.โ
โWhat does that mean then? Whoโs Jiu?โ You looked at her, desperately looking for answers. It was about your whole life at this point.
โJiuโs the leader, she was talking to you earlier. Still, sheโs unsure whether or not youโre only acting innocent so we need to wait for her decision.โ She shrugged, as if it wasnโt a big deal.
โAre you kidding me? Youโre going to let an innocent person get hurt or even killed because of your leader? Fuck, Yoohyeon! Itโs my life on the line here.โ This was ridiculous, you just had to raise your voice in frustration.
โShut up. Yelling wonโt fix anything.โ One sentence was enough for your eyes to fill with tears again. You hated the woman in front of you, with your whole heart you despised her. โMy lifeโs on the line too, if you werenโt aware. Although, Jiuโd never hurt me. We just have to wait few more days and then weโll know whatโs coming.โ
As she finished talking, Yoohyeon gently clapped both her thighs announcing that she was done.
โEat up.โ Her monotonous was back the second she got on her feet.
You couldnโt believe she was real, it was impossible for a human being to be so awful. Eating was now the last thing you could think of.
โYou know Iโm innocent, right?โ Before she left, you asked in a small voice filled with a tiny bit of hope.
Yoohyeon then turned around to analyze your features. Her eyes watched you carefully for what seemed like eternity. She let herself stare at you for a moment longer before finally blinking and gulping. She looked away, you had no idea what was going on in her head.
When she reached out for the doorknob you felt a single tear wetting your right cheek. You were convinced that there was no rescue for you, no escape.
She let out above the whisper, but she knew you could hear her.
โI know.โ
~ The next day ~
Despite trying your best to stay awake in a foreign, dangerous place, your eyes fell closed eventually. You were completely worn out and mentally exhausted. There were no windows in the room so you had no idea what time it even was and for how long you were asleep.
It was Jiu who woke you up this time.
โWake up, sleepyhead.โ She addressed you noticing your body laying on the cold floor. All your muscles were sore because of how uncomfortable your position was. Anxiously, you looked up at her smirking face. โCome on, weโll have some fun somewhere else.โ
With a gulp, you got onto your shaky legs. You had no choice but to follow her. Like a prisoner.
Few minutes later Jiu told you to take a seat on a wooden chair, as she sat down on the other side of the enormous desk. Interrogation began.
The leader kept showing you pictures, most of them being very graphic, but it was the first time youโd seen them. You had no idea who these people, victims were. Even after asking the same questions over and over again, Jiu didnโt believe you. Both of you felt like going crazy. You wanted to be free again and she didnโt really know what to do. Finally, after sighing tiredly, she took her phone and called someone. Jiu spoke shortly, her tone didnโt leave any room to argue.
When a tall, well-built woman came in, you had a hunch where everything was heading to. Especially since she was carrying a baseball bat. They wanted to torture you.
โHandong, look at these.โ Jiuโs words made the woman approach the leader immediately. She stood behind her and was analyzing both pictures and documents on the desk.
That was your chance.
You quickly glanced at the massive door before making a decision. You needed to run away, fast.
As if electrified you jumped out of the chair ignoring Jiuโs mad calls and Handong running after you. There was no looking back, as you paced through the huge warehouse. By taking a few random turns, you managed to lose the woman following you. Luckily you found space with no people in it. The only minus was that you didnโt know where to go and what was truly ahead of you. Which is why you totally didnโt expect a sudden set of stairs leading to the basement.
With a groan, you fell down while probably twisting your left ankle. You had no more power in you, no more energy to run. The pain was too overwhelming. The only thing that came to your mind was hiding, so that no one could see you in that long hall.
You crawled behind a huge plastic box filled with some liquid and hid between it and the wall. If someone was using the stairs, they wouldnโt see you.
Then, all of the sudden, you heard two pairs of steps nearing. One from the above, running and another from down the hall - steady and slow.
โHey! Have you seen that Karla girl?โ This had to be Handong on top of the stairs, but who wsa she talking to?
โNo, but try in the garage. I heard someone running there.โ Yoohyeon.
Your eyes widened and you did everything you could not to make a sound. While holding your breath, you heard Handong running again in a different direction. You were praying that Yoohyeon would also go somewhere else and not notice you.
You remained quiet, just when you thought she was walking away, her face came into your view as she crouched beside you. In shock, you almost yelped but quickly covered your mouth with your hand. Short-haired was watching you with that unreadable expression before smiling amused.
โWatch out for the stairs next time, will you?โ
So she knew it was you, but still told Handong to go somewhere else?
โWhat? Did you just keep me covered?โ You couldnโt believe it.
โI know what Iโm doing, okay?โ Yoohyeon looked at you expecting an affirmation, one of her eyebrows raised. Simply, you nodded not trusting your own voice anymore. โLetโs go, Iโll bring you back to your room.โ
It was very weird. Why would she do that when you were in the middle of talking to Jiu? Shouldnโt she bring you back to her leader?
Confused, you got up but was reminded of your injured leg. Yoohyeon saw you flinching with every step you took, but the moment she opened her mouth you protested.
โIโm fine.โ Stubbornly, you followed her.
In response, Yoohyeon rolled her eyes and after two more meters of you still not catching up, she turned around. Wordlessly, she closed the distance between you two and lifted you in her arms. You were beyond speechless when she readjusted your body, making you wrap your arms around her neck in a hurry in order not to fall. She held you in a bridal carry method. Her grip really strong, she didnโt even look like she was struggling with all your weight on her.
โWhy are you doing this?โ You used the opportunity to study her face. Neutral and bored almost as always. Thatโs what made her so unpredictable. You never knew what she was thinking.
โWhy are you so stubborn?โ She asked back.
This time, you rolled your eyes.
You chose to stay quiet for the rest of the way. Truth be told, you kind of felt okay with Yoohyeon holding you like that. Almost safe. You enjoyed the leather material of her jacket and the feeling of her hair brushing against your hand as it bounced along with her steps.
Her smell was also nice, strong yet comforting. Finally, you couldnโt help but stare at her lips. They were so close, barely a breath away. Yoohyeonโs whole body was very warm. The contrast to the air and atmosphere around you.
With a deep sigh you hated to admit it, but you liked being this close to her. You wished you could stay like this for a long time.
โTake a picture, itโll last longer.โ Yoohyeon smirked at you, noticing how you were constantly ogling her.
โVery funny.โ Your response was quiet and filled with sarcasm as your eyes narrowed in annoyance.
Since she didnโt appreciate your staring and teased you about it you rested your head against her shoulder, almost in the crock of her neck. Your breaths must have tickled her skin as goosebumps slowly appeared. You felt yourself smiling gently.
โYou can get off now, you know.โ Once again her voice was full of amusement. She just loved making fun of you, didnโt she? Although, you had no idea when you even managed to enter your room.
โRight.โ Mumbling, you got on your own feet with a pained expression when your left leg hit the floor. Yoohyeonโs hand stayed on your waist in case you couldnโt find balance, for that you were grateful.
โLet me see it.โ She helped you slowly sit down and examined your ankle. You gasped when she turned it in her hand a bit too fast. Nevertheless, her touches were gentle, it didnโt seem like she wanted to hurt you. She even apologized for grasping your leg too hard.
โItโs twisted, Iโll get some bandage. Donโt move it too much, okay?โ
Itโs not like you physically could.
Moments later, Yoohyeon came back with a bandage and a weird smile playing on her lips.
โWhatโs so funny?โ You frowned when she began to wrap your ankle without a word. She was very delicate while helping you.
โJiu and Handong are still looking for you.โ
Are they dumb? Or is Yoohyeon the insane one?
After all, sheโs incredibly brave to go behind her leaderโs back like that.
โAre they going to hurt me for running away?โ Fear present in your voice as you whispered.
โIโll take care of it.โ Yoohyeon said seriously, your eyes met briefly. It was her way of confirming and keeping her promise. Eye contact.
โI see you havenโt eaten yet?โ With a glance at the unopened take-out bag, she finished wrapping your your leg. It felt slightly better already. โWhat food do you like then? Rice, chicken, pizza?โ
โPad Thaiโs fine.โ
โWeโll go once itโs all over.โ Yoohyeon nodded while standing up.
โAre you asking me on a date?โ You blurted out of blue. You had every right to be confused. With Yoohyeon nothing was certain.
โThatโs for me to know and for you to...โ With a light shrug, she turned around and left.
You shook your head and leaned against the wall. What world was she living in?
That was an excellent question.
~
Later that day Jiu visited you for the second time. She seemed to lack some of determination sheโd had earlier.
โYoohyeon twisted your ankle?โ Was the first thing she said. Her eyebrows raised in disbelief, she looked comical almost.
You opened your mouth to protest, but were fast enough to catch up on what was going on.
โYes.โ You kept your head low in order not to give yourself away.
โThatโs a bit weird of her.โ Jiu admitted out loud before remembering what she came for in the first place. โListen, Y/N.โ
It was the first time she used your real name. Did she understand that you were not the one she was looking for?
โYouโre in danger now. Karla changed her appearance on purpose so she has people who look like her. Which means that you can be targeted by many people.โ You looked up to meet Jiuโs eyes. Her face was serious, but since she was warning you like this, it meant that sheโll let you go, right?
โHowever, just as much as youโre in danger- youโre also lucky.โ Jiu sighed upon seeing your lost expression. โYouโre lucky Yoohyeon likes you. She wonโt let anybody hurt you.โ
Now it all made no sense. It was ridiculous for the leader to even be saying such things.
โBut she twisted my ankle.โ Unsure, you argued causing dark-haired woman to chuckle.
โShe lied straight in my face about twisting your leg. I saw how you fell down the stairs on cameras and Yoohyeon still chose to lie about you. Youโll be safe with her.โ Something on Jiuโs face changed. Now, she looked like she was having a conversation with a friends or something. Almost like she was giving advises to someone close to her.
Your tongue was tied. You had so many things to ask her, yet you didnโt know where to start.
โA-Arenโt you mad?โ
โAt her or at you?โ Catching you off guard, Jiu sat down next to you.
โBoth?โ You honestly felt like everyone there was making an idiot out of you.
โIโve known Yoohyeon since I can remember. I can tell right away when sheโs lying or when she likes someone. Itโs the first time she behaved like that, though. Sheโs never tried to protect someone so much.โ You looked down feeling your cheeks warm up. โIโm not mad at her for that. I want her to be happy. Iโm also not mad at you. Just frustrated, but nothing about it is your fault.โ
You nodded acknowledging, but also appreciating her calm voice. Jiu seemed alright.
Now, you were feeling both excited and very nervous about meeting Yoohyeon again.
You had a lot to talk about.
~
While admiring the first sunset in the last few days you were waiting for Yoohyeon at the back of the old warehouse. Handong was the one who walked you outside. She helped you with the ankle and told you to wait few more minutes for the short-haired.
The second you heard steps coming your way, you turned around. Yoohyeonโs hair was bouncing as she walked towards you, her hands hidden in the pockets of her jacket.
โYou up for some Pad Thai?โ She asked with that damn smile.
After a nice evening out, she walked you home or more accurately carried on her back. Her strong hands were holding your thighs. Your arms were hugging her neck and you let your body press against her back fully.
โI like your perfume.โ You shyly said.
It was now completely dark outside, but you werenโt afraid. Yoohyeon wouldnโt let anything happen to you. You knew that now.
โThanks, itโs Gucci.โ She giggled randomly making you laugh as well. You felt every vibration of hers. Every breath she took.
you and your leader have never made it past the co-worker stage. until, one incident turned both of your worlds upside down.
TAGS: kim chaewon/fem!reader. a three-in-one combo of angst and smut and fluff. 2.3k words.
WARNINGS: sexual themes. kinda red-flag chaewon
it happened when the other members left the dorm to do their own thing. only you and chaewon warm the enormous dorm. usually, it would be filled with thundering laughter or silent bustling. but today, it was enveloped in warm silence.
โawkwardโ was how youโd describe the dorms right now.
you and your leader have never been close. its not that you have anything against her. in fact, you held such high respect for her. and as far as you know, she bears no resentment towards you either. its just youโve never had the chance to connect with her.
โit takes timeโ you thought. deep connections arenโt made in a blink of an eye. and you have just been members. its reasonable that you both consider each other co-workers right now.
you walked around the dorms aimlessly, trying to find something to ease your boredom. your eyes fell to the door leading to your leaderโs room.
maybe the best way to spend your hours is by building long-lasting and pure friendships.
your feet led you closer before your mind can convince to turn away. as you come face to face with the wooden door, you paused. it would be better if you bring a peace offering. maybe fruits from the fridge or a cup of tea. is she a coffee person?
ideas arise at the top of your head one after the other until it was shattered by a series of loud sounds. you come back to reality and focused to hear the noises better.
no, not noises. moans. your body stilled, face feeling hot at the realization.
you shouldโve turned away. you shouldโve known better than to spend a second longer at her doorstep. after all, co-workers werenโt suppose to lean their ear on to their colleagueโs room door. but you did.
indeed it was chaewonโs voice. you spent countless hours of vocal practice to recording sessions with her to recognize it anywhere.
you wondered if she invited someone over without your knowledge. the image of your leader making love with someone seared hot on your brain for a moment. you pressed your ears impossibly closer to the cold hard door. no other voice emerged. the sounds were undoubtedly hers alone.
the sounds she made tickle your ear through the thick wood and you couldnโt help but imagine her on the other side, pleasuring herself desperately with her fingers. your mind reeled at the thought.
before you could do something stupid, you walked away and into the confinements of your own room. where you trusted the walls would not betray the sounds you made that day.
a week later, a similar incident happened. this time, chaewon was walking around in very short shorts and a tank top. she was quite exposed, from her luscious neck to her eminent collarbone to her soft thighs. everything laid ripe for you to take.
but you pride yourself in self-control. something within your reach shouldnโt be taken just because you can. youโre better than losing to your own carnal desires.
yet, chaewon was bending in front of you. her hips sways when she walks, and the layer of sweat that clings to her. it all drives you insane.
you knew this wasnโt anything new. she had worn more revealing outfits in the past. and youโve noticed her then of course. but this time was different. you didnโt know what melodies she made when pleasured then.
now, you do. and your nerves were bristling today. tired and battered from the pressures of your job, as taxing as it was rewarding. you desperately needed an outlet. a consolation.
the last straw was when you hear her again in her room. much louder and much clearer than the last time, lust drips prominently from her angelic voice. you press your ears again with less hesitation than the last time. because maybe its time you both graduate from being co-workers.
you open the door, fast enough to alert her of your presence but slow enough to not be labeled as โbarging inโ. the smell of sex poisons your senses until you were high with lust.
chaewon paused at the sight of you in her doorway. she was already red and sweaty but the embarrassment was well-pronounced on her face. โwell, what did you expect?โ even chaewon herself was aware that she was moaning like a bitch in heat.
โplease. donโt stop on my account,โ you say after swallowing your saliva.
what was done was already done. you were already here and chaewon is too deep in her thirst for a release to stop now. chaewon might as well enjoy the consequences.
chaewon continued. she had the audacity to open her legs wider. her fingers reach for her mouth, sucking on them before aiming downwards. you watch every movement, wanting every moment to be burned on to your brain.
she locks eyes with you as she rubs circles on her clit. her other hand clutches the sheets tightly.
you close the door behind you and walk towards her. โmay i?โ you ask. she kisses you in response, whispering a small โyesโ against your lips.
your eyes met hers again as you pull away. a silent conversation exchanged wordlessly.
โthere was no going back on what you were both about to do.โ
you couldโve thought about how having sex with your leader would not only change your dynamic but the entire groupโs as well but you didnโt. your entire focus was on her body. your pleasure and hers. the repercussions could wait. what lays before you should come first.
you stare hard into her eyes, she stared back with just as much fire. it was a challenge, if you had the guts to move. to move forward or to back down, each would take equally as much will.
so, you kiss her. because you were born with tenacity. going for something you want had never been easier.
you both moved swiftly before regret can crash over both of you , grabbing every piece of clothing and removing it.
โfuck. you donโt know how long i dreamt of this,โ you kiss every part of her your lips can reach, convincing yourselves the pleasure was worth the punishment.
it is. for she moans sweetly in your ear, her nails digging through your bare back. the bitter pain pushing you to pleasure her further. you suck at every inch of her soft skin. lower and lower until you reach her breast. your hands fondle her soft skin while your mouth sucks and bites.
her other hand fists your hair. โmore.โ
her pink nipples swell at the attention, and you donโt stop until she begs for you to go further.
โi need you,โ she breathes out as she tugs at your scalp, forcing you to face her bare core. her smell wafts through your nose, intoxicating you. if you werenโt blinded by lust earlier, you were now.
you kiss her inner thighs, biting lightly at the supple flesh. โgod. come on, just fuck me already,โ your laughs sent a wave of air through her womanhood and you feel chaewon jolt under you hold.
having enough of playing with your meal, you gave it small licks. chaewon grits her teeth, she wasnโt known for her patience and you know that. she grabs your head and shoved it into her pussy, forcing and end to your teasing.
your tongue drew circles at her clit while your thumb glides at her entrance. โthatโs it. i always knew your mouth can do other things than just sing,โ chaewon encourages above you. her half lidded eyes enjoying the view of you eating her out.
then, you switch your mouth with your fingers. your tongue slide at her dripping hole, tracing its entrance but never daring to enter.
you bring her to the edge until you removed your fingers from her clit to enter a digit inside her. your lips reach out to kiss her, giving her a taste. you proceeded lower to suck on her nipples, swirling and flicking your tongue once more.
you enter a second finger, picking up the pace. you feel her nails scratch your back harder as you feel her walls lock onto your fingers. โclose, im so close. harderโ
you grant her wish, exerting all your force into every thrust. your lips found its way to her clitoris again. the combination sending chaewon into a fit of moans. her soft voice were light and silent but loud enough to bless your ears. they grew in volume as she comes close to her climax, serving as motivation to you.
with one last stroke, she comes undone at your fingertips. the electricity of her high making her buck her hips in the air and clutch your head for support.
you donโt stop sucking her clit, helping her ride her high. she weakly pushes your head away from her pussy. you pull away woth one last lick making her sigh in fading pleasure.
you plopped beside her. her bed could barely fit the two of you but it embraced your sweaty body enough. after a momentโs breath, you grabbed your closed and walked out of the room.
chaewon didnโt bother to say anything as you prepared leave. words could wait. she only stared at her ceiling, wondering what in the world just happened. a million thoughts ran through her mind, all blurry and fast. but only one managed to come out her mouth when you walked in holding towels and a glass of water.
you hand it to her, as your mind registers the look on her face: regret. you felt a stone dropping onto your stomach.
โthis is the first and last time of this.โ chaewon says quietly before bringing the glass to her plump, swollen lips. is it wrong to want to kiss them again?
โyeah. i know.โ you nod at her. the price of what you both had done is already being paid and you feel its effects. you feel like a rock, out of place and cold. so you got dressed silently, chaewon watching your every move as she sips at her water.
you were halfway out the door when chaewon called your name. โi had fun, you know.โ *thank you* is what she meant. but you already know that so you nod your head and closed the door behind you.
you left chaewonโs room with more worries than when you entered.
the first to notice the shift in you and chaewon was naturally your members. they fell victims to the unbearable awkwardness when both of you are in the same space. they were also quick to notice how you turn stiff at the mention of your leaderโs name. or how chaewon avoids uttering your name altogether. it was amusing as it was frustrating for the four members.
the fans speculated after. after all, nothing escapes a fanโs eye, small or big, irrelevant or otherwise. there were thousands of posts on the internet on how chaewon and you are never on the same frame. even if you were, you were both on to two ends of the screen.
did a fight broke out? a prank? not just the fans but the members were also dying to know what juicy revelation happened.
the next time you and chaewon were left alone in the dorm again was two weeks after the incident. the perfect time to properly talk.
you sit crosslegged at your bed, eyes burning holes through the door. you either go out of your room or she comes in. which one would it be? you wonder if sheโs doing the exact thing as you right now in her own room. maybe sheโs not worrying excessively like you.
as if manifesting her existence before you, you her a knock on the door. chaewon opened the door before you could get up and answer. she closes the door behind her, โyou know why im here.โ
sheโs a leader. of course, sheโd think of setting things straight.
chaewon copies you as she sits after you gesture to the empty space in front of you.
โthis.โ chaewon gestures between the two of you. โwhatever tension we have has to end. itโs taking a toll on everybody.โ chaewon was never one to beat around the bush.
โof course. you have any suggestions what we should do, leader?โ you agree with her. you both knew the price of what you did and you paid enough already.
pink paints chaewonโs cheek at the nickname. your lips turned upward, looking at her pretty face.
โi dont know,โ she breaths with a sigh. โwe could get to know each other?โ her voice raise lightly, her face showing her own uncertainty.
โhow cheesy, kim chaewon.โ you laugh lightly at her suggestion, but you made no protest. you agreed it was a great way to break the ice. โshut up.โ chaewon smacks your shoulder.
โso youโd take me out on dinner?โ you ask her playfully but it took a whole second for chaewon to understand the joke. and when she did, the color pink came back on her face.
โwhy go out when i can get to know you right here?โ chaewon realized how her words could be taken right after it left her mouth. you cackle at her, while the pinkness in her cheeks turned red.
you watch her smile and you thought that maybe your mistake led you to something beautiful after all. chaewon wouldnโt be laughing in your room roght now if it werenโt for the incident.
you never wouldโve guessed sex would be the answer to you and chaewon finally being close. yet, here you were laughing at her lame jokes.
Disclaimer : Yunjin is a bit of a red flag. Fromis_9 Saerom is here having more chemistry with Yunjin and reader than the couple do themselves. I feel like I kinda strayed away from the plot, so sorry about that. I don't know if there's any warning, but tell me if you guys think there is, and I'll correct it.
Author's Note : I'm extremely sorry to the anon that requested this, I don't know if it met your expectations. This took me so long to post due to the number of times I've rewritten it, the only warning of this post that I'm aware of is repetitive wording ngl.
Requested : Yes
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Summary : The desire to celebrate your girlfriend's hard work takes a wrong turn when her jealousy comes into play
The eldest member of Le Sserafim sat curled up on the living room couch, eagerly tapping away at the screen of her phone. The hint of a smile crept onto Sakura's lips as she felt the couch dip beside her, focus wavering as she struggled to finish the hardest level of a game on her phone. She didn't need to remove her gaze from the glowing screen to know it was you who'd taken up the place by her side. The comforting brush of your leg against her own was an action so small, and yet Sakura's heart still swelled with familiarity each time.
You silently dropped your head to her shoulder, the soft scent of your shampoo overwhelming Sakura's senses. She wordlessly placed her phone face down on the couch, turning to meet your gaze with eyes that swirled with nothing but adoration. Reaching for her hand, you mindlessly fiddled with her finger, careful touch igniting warmth within her chest. Neither of you paid any mind to the chaos that ensued within the dorms, simply getting lost in a world of your own. A smile twitched at her lips as she intertwined your fingers, thumb gently caressing your soft skin.
โDo you want to play?โ Sakura tilted her head towards her phone, offering to indulge in a multiplayer game to keep you entertained. Truthfully she had no interest in her game the second you graced her with your presence. Only she did not wish for you to retire to your room out of boredom, as she didnโt believe herself to be interesting enough to keep your company. A soft smile adorned your lips alongside the shake of your head as you brought your other hand up to graze your fingertips along her forearm. โIโll watch if you want to play,โ you assured, determined, scooting closer so that she knew you wouldnโt dare leave her side.
Sakuraโs eyes softened fondly at your adamance to remain in her presence. It was as if you could interpret her every thought with one mere glance. The gentle squeeze she would give your hand could mean many things. But to you it was always obvious, everything with her was. Her every action told a story that only you had the pleasure of reading. How her lips tugged upwards ever so subtly whenever you entered a room. The way her chocolate brown orbs danced with adoration each time she gazed at you from afar. And most of all, her constant longing to be near you paired with her hesitance to reach out.
You could see it in the way her fingers twitched with caution as she reached out to brush a stray strand of hair from your face. โIโd rather just spend time with you,โ the admission fell from her lips with ease when her eyes locked with yours. Ducking your head as a bashful grin crept onto your face, you dropped your head back to her shoulder. While she often stumbled over her words around you, there were always moments in which she surprised you with her bluntness. A pleased hum bubbled from your throat as your nose nudged against her neck, the soft huff of air that escaped your mouth tickling her skin.
Sakura couldnโt help the wide smile that threatened to break out on her lips as you pressed an innocent kiss to her smooth skin. Her gaze briefly flickered to your fellow members in caution, but they were far too caught up in a world of their own to pay any mind to the two of you. Your brows furrowed as she slowly slipped her hand from your warm grasp, head lifting to follow her gaze. A sad smile briefly broke out on your face as you misinterpreted her withdrawal. Sakura glanced your way in confusion as you scooted back on the couch, freeing yourself of her hold entirely. โWhat is it?โ She asked, concern laced in her tone as she stared after you.
You didnโt utter a word, instead tucking your knees into your chest as your pensive gaze remained on your fellow members. โY/n..โ she trailed off knowingly, hands brushing over the space between you as she shook her head. โItโs fine,โ you muttered before she could continue, curling further into yourself, head resting atop your knees. Rather than speaking, she thought it best to take action. Within seconds she was in her rightful place by your side once more, arm hanging loosely around your shoulders as she tugged you closer. โWhat are you doing?โ You questioned, brows sewn together and forehead creased in a frown.
โSpending time with you,โ Sakura murmured, one of the things you loved dearly about her. How simple she could make the most complicated of things. Only a few words tumbled from her lips and yet you felt relief wash over you in an instant. A content smile broke out on your face after a beat of comfortable silence had passed. โI missed this..I missed you. I-โ You cut yourself off before the three familiar words could fall from your lips. The same three words that you yearned to say with each passing moment you spent with Sakura. Your eyes filled with sorrow as you glanced up at Sakura. โI know,โ she assured, allowing you to curl into her side. โMe too,โ was all she uttered, pressing a soft kiss to the top of your head when no one was looking.
The unspoken words that lingered between you would always remain, but it only narrowed the distance separating you from true happiness. Instead of severing your connection, you learnt how it had helped you to cherish the moments in which were only yours and Sakuraโs to share. It only made each subtle brush of her hand against yours that much more meaningful. Bringing value to every second you spend with one another. It didnโt matter if it were an hour or a minute, the brush of fingertips against one another or a kiss shared behind closed doors, it meant everything to the both of you.
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Request: Request imagine: 8th member dreamcatcher. Reader self harms, and the members find out. Very angsty. Sorry, I'm bad at describing
Summary: Being an idol was hard. All the expectations that people had on them were suffocating. Dreamcatcher members only find out how truly scary it can be when it happened so close to them.
Warning(s): Self-harming, Cutting, Blood
A/N: I hope that I wrote it well๐
3rd's POV
You sighed when you were finally able to walk into the quietness and darkness of your and Yubin's room. You were lucky enough that your roommate was still at the studio with most of your members who decided to stay longer. The only ones who came back were you, Minji and Gahyeon.
Everyday was tiring for you but today seemed to leave you even more exhausted. The nearing comeback put pressure on all of you but you seemed to be affected by it more and the fact that out of all of your members you were getting the most hate didn't helped your mental health.
You looked over at the box sitting quietly between your many books. It looked incredibly suspicious so it's shocking that none of your members checked it. You're lucky they respect your privacy.
You walked over to the shelf it was on and looked at it closely, hesitating in picking it up. Strange, you never had any second thoughts about it. Finally you picked it up and opened it, revealing a blade. You took it in your hand and after observing it for a second you putted it close to the skin on your arm.
You kept it there, a last chance to stop and ignore the urge to hurt yourself....but you didn't.
Instead you made a cut.
And two.
Three.
Four.
You were about to make a fifth cut when the door suddenly opened. Your leader came in with a bright smile that dropped when she saw a blade and a blood. It wasn't hard for her to realize what you were doing as she looked at you with wide eyes. Behind her came also a smiling Gahyeon who gasped at the scene. Minji walked up to you slowly with a hand out "Y-Y/N please, give this to me" Tears blurred your vision but you still nodded and gave her the blade. You could never say no to her.
She put it away, making a mental note to throw it away later as she hugged you and fell with you on the floor. You cried in her arms with Minji rubbing your back, Gahyeon observed everything also crying. The other members came not long later and were surprised to see Minji bandaging your arms but one look at her and Gahyeon gave them an idea about what happened.
Yoohyeon could be heard gasping as all of them surrounded you but in a way to give you lots of space if you needed it.
"Y/N Why? Why didn't you come to us?" What Siyeon said made you look down, an immense amount of guilt rushed over you and seeing this Minji squeezed your hand comfortingly "We're not blaming you Y/N. We're not disappointed in you in any way. We just want you to understand that you can come to us if you need to and we need you to come to us when you have any urge to harm yourself like that. You're an important part of our family" Her words touched your heart and you burst into tears.
Yoohyeon hugged you from behind "No matter what you should know that we're here for you, we're always there to listen to you. Don't forget that we love you so much" Handong crouched down in front of you and took your other hand in hers, agreeing with Yoohyeon.
"You deserve to be happy so let us help you be happy" Gahyeon said, the first thing that she said after seeing you with blood dripping from your arm. You smiled at all of them and they hugged you, giggling at how silly all of you looked at the moment.
"Thank you guys, really. I'm happy that I have you all as my members" Siyeon and Bora kissed the top of your head and Minji your arm where it was bandaged.
"Come on, you must be hungry, I'll make your favorite" Minji pulled you up and took you to the kitchen, still hugging you close. In the background you could hear all your members screaming in happiness at the mention of food which made you laugh.
You knew that it wouldn't be easy but you could try working on getting better with your members by your side supporting you.
It's like a summer breeze, so gentle and light, caressing the flowers in a fragrant garden, whispering sweet secrets of eternity. The love flows, embracing the essence of your souls with warmth and tenderness.
Mina's love can be found anywhere.
Think of a gentle rainfall on a quiet night, nurturing the earth and bringing forth new life. Unconditional love is that nurturing rain, showering compassion and acceptance upon your hearts.
You can feel it like it's everywhere.
It's the calm in the midst of life's storms, a shelter that keeps you safe. Her unwavering presence is so special. She stands by your side consistently, through both joyful and difficult times. Always there to provide support and comfort.
She adores you for who you are.
You knew the moment that you met her that there was nothing to worry about. Nothing to hide and nothing to change because those eyes will forever hold constellations for you.
Those hands will make you feel like the most precious thing on earth. Those lips will say the gentlest things with the most passion, a reminder of how beautiful you are.
Even if she's a quiet girl, she makes sure that you always feel the adoration she has for you. From the first sip of tea to the blanket tucked under your chin, all the way to a Lego or Minecraft masterpiece.
She always puts a bit of you in everything. Ever so subtle, but never goes unnoticed by you. And oh how she loves it when you notice it. The first letter of your name with a heart, microscopic, glued over a perfectly painted nail.
You are everywhere.
Mina's care for you is so genuine and profound, let yourself embody this unconditional love. She'll always be there to cherish you.