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『 CAINE GIFSET (22/?) 』

- The Amazing Digital Circus, Episode 9

So he makes these jokes about calling himself hot, but this comment later makes it pretty clear they're just that-- jokes.

All this stuff he says about being an archetype, too. Guy resigned to his lot in life, pretends he loves it. We know the tune well!

Interesting that does his cheeky little motioning-to-his-own-body move from his "ain't I a hottie" jokes, by the way. Put a pin in that.

Anyways, he's insisting he's choosing to be who he is, right after referring to becoming "who he is" as "becoming part of the machine." He's lying again, about liking the way he is. Duh, right?

Exhibit A: The highly marketable maid outfit.

Canonically transgender character has some interesting comments about this. Comments that echo Jax's mysterious comments about Zooble from earlier.

Now, I'm not always the best at this, but the only connection I can think of between Zooble, bartenders, and tattoo artists, is that they're all..........kind of dykey? It's giving "two toxic homosexuals interact at atarbucks." But that might just be me.

Wow, Jax, making fun of your own romantic prospects on the basis of your gender in relation to the hypothetical romantic partner? Interesting choice! It would be a shame if it stopped being straight somehow.

Oops! I tripped, and Jax's very particular metaphor for having his deeper feelings and true desires revealed fell out of my pocket!

.................which could mean anything!

Anyways, I now draw your attention back to his particular word choice when he jokes at the expense of his own appearance:

I swear there was another instance of him joking about his appearance specifically in regards to masculinity but I can't remember where. You get my drift though.

He's not the pinnacle of masculinity, and he knows he's not, so he jokes about it-- because it's funny! It's funny that he's not a "real man!"

Being funny-- that's a type of guy you can be, even if everything about being a man doesn't appeal to you!

It's a role! A role he can fulfill! His role that he's stuck with, that he's given up on fighting. The funny one. Nothing else underneath the funny egshell, thank you very much!

There's just no use even thinking about changing who he is. That would just be depressing! And it's no good to anyone if the funny one can't be funny. If he can't fulfill his role. If he ever wants anything else, anything more genuine.

There are also a couple of asks she answered that also come to mind:

The first two make me think of the advertising for the maid Jax plush (sorry that the dialogue is slightly different; the video doesn't have subtitles in English so I chose French>>English):

The third ask reads to me like he probably has some internalized misogyny. However, all of them have multiple possible explanations; these responses aren't definitive.

HOWEVER however, Goose has stated in a LOT of asks how she projects onto Jax and has stated she relates to him the most. This can easily include any struggles she's had/having with her gender identity.