hi
i’ve made a post like this before that gained traction and donations, but the plan to move out of my state (florida) fell through completely due to my planned roommate being fired and having to get another job, and i had to spend the money i saved on food and staying in a hotel room when it was unsafe at home. i have managed to get a job even with this pandemic fucking my initial job plan up (i start at mcdonalds on friday,) but i still need help.
i have lived with an abusive mom for four years now (moved in with her at 15, i’m 19). while guilt tripping me and manipulation is what she mainly goes for, recently she’s been drinking more and having stronger outbursts. while i’m trying not to overshare, about a week ago it was around 3 in the morning when she exploded on me while drunk and tried to strangle me. calling the police was a no go, since it would have actively made shit worse (my mom would have easily gotten out of it, or i would have been homeless.) the morning after she blew up at me, we got into a screaming match and she called me a failure + selfish entitled bitch and whatever else you can think of. many family services reports were made when i was a minor, but unfortunately, THEY’RE FUCKING USELESS AND DID NOTHING TO MAKE MY SITUATION BETTER. i once begged an agent on the phone to not come to my fucking house, since i was just venting to a goddamn teacher.
i don’t have any family willing to take me in, or any friends in my state - the majority of them live in texas, and i do have a chance of moving in with one of them + his dad if i can pay rent to him and keep a stable income there. while i’m searching for a job in texas, i’m going to need funds to stay afloat.
i have $60 in my savings right now. while i now have to pay $80 a month to my mom for bills, i’ll be making either $9 or $10 an hour at mcdonalds for (hopefully) 8 hours a day. my writing commissions are open, and i also make video edits (short amvs.) i also managed to get back into therapy after about two years without it or my medication (i don’t even want to THINK about med money right now, i start therapy in june since i was able to get on medicaid for 6 months. fuck off pandemic!)
the goal to move out is $5,000 (assuming everything goes correctly this time) which is huge. i’ve set up a ko-fi with a link to my archive of our own account and my youtube to watch my edits. any money i recieve through commissions or general donations will immediately be put into my savings and HOPEFULLY not touched until i’m able to get the fuck out of here.
even if you can’t donate (which is ABSOLUTELY fine,) please reblog this post and share it. please don’t just like the post and leave it; it won’t be seen that way. thank you for reading this depressing ass post, and i hope you have a good day.
paypal (ignore my shitty deadname)
ko-fi
archive of our own (message me if you’d like to commission!)
youtube (what’S PoPPin’ gaYMErS iT’S yA BOi)
$10/$5000! i now have $60 (ACTUAL FUCKING MONEY…..) in my savings!
