Stay Strong and Carry On.

Does anyone have a credit score as low as mine? Fucking medical bills are killing me. I’m probably back down to 430 but I’ve been lower.

I just want one beautiful day without a migraine. A day to have sex, ride roller coasters, and enjoy the sun. Just ONE day.... please.

I want another cheese sandwich bitches... I’ve had too much rum. 🤔 Or not enough?

Why does Shonda Rhimes always have to break my heart? An even better question- why do I keep watching Grey’s Anatomy when it makes me so sad??

I’m drinking at 11 AM. Fucking deal with it because I don’t give a fuck.

The guy I like lives two hours away. I had to cancel our first date because of fibromyalgia. I’m stuck at home watching Grey’s Anatomy, and all I want is for him to drive down, climb in bed with me and watch Netflix for 48 straight hours. I want him not to care that when I lay back with a cold pack on my neck and head, it gives me a double chin and makes me look ten years older. I want my dog to like him. I just don’t want to be alone. I thought this would be a great weekend, but chronic illness has a mind of its own and control of my body and things I’m able to do.

So I’m talking to this guy I really like talking to and we’ll be going out for coffee soon, but he compliments me... a lot. What’s most important to me is honesty so I’m not sure I trust him. It could be down to my own issues. I don’t really know. Compliments have always made me a little uncomfortable so maybe it’s due to that.

There are good Christians and bad Christians just like there are good atheists and bad atheists. I don’t know what the fuck I am but I want to be good.

The worst part about fibromyalgia is I can’t tell my family how much it hurts. I don’t want my parents to worry and feel bad. I blame everything (not being able to go to family events or even work or walk my dog) on the migraines. But it’s not just my head. Everything hurts. I want it to stop.