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i am so stressed out literally all of the time now 🙃

ppl say it gets better and it just ! Fucking doesn’t ever !! this is not worth it !!!!

i always have dreams about reconciling and having a really nice time w people who don’t talk to me anymore

playing dst and accidentally set 171 logs on fire,, humiliating!

being home sucks and being reminded of certain people sucks but i will say that my lovely best friend and bribri and the people who i get to know so well have brought me a lot of comfort. I rly thought for a while i’d feel that awful and mistrustful and paranoid forever but I’m reopening myself to the idea that i can have good, strong bonds with enough work, and that some people are gonna be shitty no matter how much i try to give them the benefit of the doubt. Having relationships where people actually care and want to communicate and talk things out and just care is so so good, getting to know gentle souls who care so much is so good