master of puppets

Jesus, that sounds terrifying. I think hearing something like that happen to someone would wake anyone up pretty fast and make you realise your body's not something you can just keep pushing past forever. I'm really glad he's resting and recovering now, though! Work's going good on my end too! Nothing too overwhelming, just enough to keep me busy without completely frying my brain. Luckily for them, they got me back immediately, they didn't even have to beg me to return. We really should go back!

that we all should just follow cats when these things happen because they don't seem to have a worry or care in the world? which yeah, probably worrying for us collectively, but cats! i just know myself and also doubt i'd try very hard to survive. we'd all like to think we'd be resourceful and surviving and perhaps outsmarting whatever it is, but in reality? i'd be dinner or dead, basically, so another thing we have in common. would you be one of those folks taken out because they thought a helicopter was flying over? because guilty. i think the only reason i'd try to survive is my kids, but they're already more resourceful than i am, so i'm sure i'd just slow them down. eric not only tried, he won by the end and protected the cat! a proper final girl if i ever saw one.

Yeah, which I find kind of adorable! We all like imagining we'd suddenly become these hyper-competent apocalypse masterminds, but realistically I'd probably hear a suspicious noise, investigate it for no reason, and get taken out immediately. I would absolutely be one of those idiots waving at a helicopter thinking I'd been rescued only to instantly get obliterated, you're not alone there. But the kids thing makes total sense, I feel like that's the one thing that'd kick survival instincts into overdrive. Although the fact you already think they'd survive better than you is killing me. Yeah, he loses his survival partner, but at least he's got the cat safe.

A little bit of both? I think there's a compilation of me telling everybody I'm too much of a coward to go to space when people ask if I'd go for real. Apparently that's hilarious, but I'm dead serious, don't send me up there, please. Did you have to film during the summer, too? I hear those Georgia summers are killer with all that humidity, without having a huge wig to deal with on top of it. Yeah, and of course we know more about some of them than others, that's why I'm especially curious about George and Ringo. Do you have any favorites of his solo stuff? I have a soft spot for My Sweet Lord.

That's so real though. It might be funny because of how you said it? But I think most people wouldn't actually want to go to space if they really had the choice. Everyone likes the idea of it until they remember you're basically being launched into the terrifying infinite void sitting inside a metal tube. Absolutely not. I'd be begging them to keep my feet firmly on Earth. We filmed towards the end of the year, so I didn't have to suffer through the full Georgia heat, but the wig alone was enough to make me feel like I was melting half the time anyway. All Things Must Pass as a whole is probably my favourite. It's such a beautiful album from start to finish. My Sweet Lord is easily one of the best songs on there, though, it really is a favourite too.

Aye, I mean screen time, am no even the only Sauron in the show, so ye know. Dinnae even get me started, any Lord of the Rings actors, if I meet them, I'll be cornering them and asking them every question under the sun about making those movies. Ye definitely got the connections somewhere, ye just gotta look for them. I really want to work with her again, just gotta find the right project to dae it. Once I get intae directing, definitely want her as the lead. She could play anything.

I know, I know. Charlie's on a whole other level, though. He played the part so well, even if the hardcore Tolkien purists would probably disagree, but the show itself is just so ridiculously cool. I actually had Ian McKellen on the set of Avengers: Doomsday, but I was way too shy to go up to him and start asking questions about all of that… which honestly probably means it's not a good idea for you to introduce me to anyone because I'll immediately turn into a nervous wreck the second they look at me. Especially if it's McKellen or Mortensen. That's so sweet, though. You're not wrong, she genuinely could play absolutely anything.

of course! i mean i get that for sure. i feel the same way when my group idle started getting bigger. it was like people had their eyes on me and the rest of the members. i saw so many comments talking about how i had a deeper register with my voice compared to other female idols and i started to embrace that more along with my dancing. i think i hear fans calling me cute more often than not though, haha. glad to know you aren't feeling as overwhelmed as you did before. i remember seeing so much of eddie online from edits to fan art and honestly, it was cool seeing all the love they showed for you and the character. i tuned into stranger things a bit before i got too busy to keep up. fantastic four has always been a fave so definitely made sure to check that out when learning you were apart of it.

Oh, right. It's such a strange feeling when suddenly people start paying attention to every little thing about you, but I think it's really cool that you embraced what made you stand out instead of trying to fit into what people expected. I can absolutely see why people call you cute all the time too, you should definitely take that and run with it! And yeah, he's such a loved character, which I really appreciate. I think that's probably the nicest part of all of this, knowing people connected with him so much. He was such a weird bloke at times, and if people can relate slightly, that's a win on our end. I could've survived without being asked every five business days whether he was coming back for the final season. That part got a little exhausting, not gonna lie. Ha! You like Fantastic Four? Okay, now we're talking. So you're a Marvel girl then?

Is now the right time for me to admit I passed by the spa at least three times and you were there every time I glanced inside? I guess you really weren't joking. Hope you're feeling extra relaxed now, darling, otherwise those girls need to find a new profession. I wanted to tell you how much fun I had with you. Not too sure we pulled off the whole sophisticated wine people, especially after you made me laugh so hard, I spilt red all over myself, but we gave it a try. Seeing you again was everything I hoped it would be. You really haven't changed all that much and that was more comforting that you probably realise. So, was that it for you? A little slice of freedom and now back to work? Poor baby. It's hard being an in demand actor.

Why didn't you come in with me every single time is the real question here. And you can't blame me for wanting to relax a little bit, God knows we all needed that spa like rain in the desert. Those girls had magic hands. I felt ridiculously relaxed… even if I'm already back in the trenches now, stressing myself out over the most absurdly tiny things again. I had so much fun with you too, love. I'd say you're sophisticated no matter what you do, even when you're pouring wine all over yourself. I was hoping you'd say that, though! Although I'm sure if spending time with me had been dreadful, you probably wouldn't have admitted that either. I really hope we can see each other again soon, you need to carve out some time for me one of these days. Yeah... no more downtime for me. What about you, though? Do you still have a little bit of time to breathe, or did work drag you straight back in immediately?

Playing real people with such a massive influence was never going to be easy, but I think it makes a difference when the actor actually cares for the people and the legacy they're portraying. As scary as I'm sure it is for you and the other guys, you have to admit, it's really cool that you've been given the role. The Michael biopic must have been scary for Jaafar with the added layer of playing his uncle on the big screen. Sorry, I didn't mean to add more pressure. I know you must he dealing with a lot of that already. I think it's only right you actually do. I mean, he was the most underrated in the group. He wrote some of their best songs and barley got any credit for the masterpieces he lovingly crafted. You might finally give him the recognition he absolutely deserves. Could you imagine throwing my name into the mix? There's no way Paul McCartney knows who I am, but it's fun to pretend.

It's definitely a challenge in itself, but I think we've all taken this opportunity on with a lot of excitement, and hopefully that really comes through in the final product. It's scary, but in a good way, you know? Not so much fear of something you don't want to do, but more that fear of the unknown, of not really knowing whether you're going to be able to rise to what the project demands of you at every turn. I can't even imagine what Jaafar must have been feeling, though, he wasn't only stepping into Michael Jackson's shoes, but he's also your family, so it must have been incredibly intense, trying to balance all of that emotional weight and responsibility at the same time. I really do hope I manage to give him the recognition I feel he deserves. A lot of people will be excited to see Lennon or McCartney portrayed, but I just hope I can move something in people with my portrayal. Oh, I wouldn't be so quick to say that, your name's been making quite a bit of noise lately, I'm pretty sure he knows exactly who you are.

apparently we have a very interesting and depressing imagination. me too, and i don't know why, but the song "happily never after" by the pussycat dolls immediately came to mind after i imagined the door slamming shut. that's true, but it's always good to create new routines, right? even if it's something simple like trying a new sport or waking up early to go on a 20 minute walk, i don't know. i remember when i first started going to therapy, and i always thought one hour would never be enough time for me to talk about everything i was feeling. and now, years later, i think one hour can feel a little overwhelming, because i'm pretty sure i've already said everything i needed to say within the first 30 minutes. maybe that means i'm healing from the things that happened in the past or from the things that used to bother me. are you thinking about going to any of joe's shows? because i heard charlie wants to go to one, and i want to as well. maybe you should come with us. we can both pretend we like going out sometimes.

Happily Never After, now that's a classic. Now I can't unhear it. Yeah, you're probably right, even if sometimes we have to push ourselves a bit to build those new routines. I mean, I'm definitely not a sporty guy by any stretch of the imagination, so whenever I've had to get back in shape, I've basically had to drag myself into creating the habit of going to the gym until it finally stopped feeling like a chore and just became part of my week. Maybe you don't even need to go so often anymore. Maybe that's a sign that you're finally making peace with a lot of the stuff that used to weigh on you. That sounds like progress to me. If my schedule allows it, absolutely! I know I saw all of you in Napa, even if in passing, but it'd be really nice to see you all again and catch up properly.

i honestly have no idea who nancy meyers is, but regardless? the moral of the story is, you'll look fantastic. 10/10 on the jimin style score. i feel like everyone should try soju and korean bbq at least once. if they don't like it? that's fine -- more for me. oh, so you won't be wearing a priest uniform to adele's concert tonight? i'm shocked! it's basically when all the truth starts coming out is when they happens. alcohol, the best truth serum.

She's written and directed rom-coms, but thank you for telling me I'll look fantastic anyway! I mean, a 10/10 rating is pretty hard to complain about. I've heard we've got some really good Korean restaurants here in London, so I'll give it a try, and if I end up loving it, it'll be fifty-fifty for you and me. And no, that definitely wasn't the outfit I ended up wearing. Clerical clothing would've had me overheating within five minutes. It really is true, though! I've found myself confessing things I swore I was gonna keep to myself.

i totally get that. i really can’t wait for the next dune and hunger games movie, although i think we have a while to wait before then. isn’t spiderman out soon? that will be so much fun!

I've actually never watched Dune, is it good? I know there are a couple of them now, so maybe I should finally tune in at some point. And The Hunger Games is so good! I've only seen the older ones, but I definitely need to catch up because at this point I've genuinely lost track of how many films I've missed. I'm stoked about Spider-Man coming out too! One of my favourite superheroes, though!

for the record, i think the stacked cast is also doing a lot of the work. eh, he's young, he can deal with it. it has become a running joke for all of us with how much he slipped up on. but i do love him to death so i promise, if he gets yelled at, i will defend him. i get it. i was the same. i respect it, even if it means i won't get any spoilers.

Poor thing, even now that he's way more media-trained than he used to be, people still won't let go of the joke that he spoils absolutely everything. I'm sure it's still a good laugh between all of you, though, including him. And yeah, it sucks, I know. Waiting two whole years for the movies to finally come out feels painful, but hopefully it'll all be worth it when the time finally comes around.

A deveratating blow to my already demolished ego. How am I possibly supposed to go on with life knowing you're booked for the rest of the year. It's a cruel dose of reality I wasn't ready for. Ever month, please expect at least two heart wrentching letters expressing my deverstation of not having you near. I won't only detail those longing gazes out the window as I wait for my beloved to return, I will enclose a photo so you will always have a reminder of the anguish I face when you're not around. You would laugh at my misery, wouldn't you? Not you triple naming me. Suddenly I feel like I'm in trouble and I can't for the life of me remember what I did to get me in this situation. Luckily, we won't be separated for too long. I'll be seeing you in Napa, my boy.

I know, but I'll still be able to sneak away to see you from time to time, and we literally just had Napa a few days ago, you can't tell me that didn't at least temporarily cure our mutual "missing each other" disease. Although I fear I'm now back in full missing Joe Keery hours, which is not a particularly emotionally stable place to be. I'll be waiting for those letters, obviously. You're going to make me cry with them, I just know it, but I suppose that's the price I pay for maintaining this very healthy, totally normal emotional dependency we've built. I just love your full name, that's all, I think it deserves to be said in full at least once in every emotional crisis we have. And if you were ever actually in trouble, you know I'd tell you. How's life back to normal, baby?

there's absolutely nothing you can do to change my mind, joseph. you destroyed our life, our dreams, our family, and now you're going to have to live alone with the consequences. honestly, this sounds exactly like the kind of speech someone gives right before dramatically leaving a room and slamming the door behind them. but doesn't that make me sound a little boring? i mean, i have this routine, and if i suddenly don't have it anymore, i don't know what to do with myself. of course therapy is important, but is it really necessary every single week? that's true, though, therapists can't judge you, i completely forgot about that part, thank god, honestly. and my god, i really don't want to become a pathological liar, i'd rather just be myself with my slightly uninteresting life. and yeah, that's true too! i guess we're never really safe anywhere, right? not even in the comfort of our own homes sometimes, the world can be a little terrifying when you think about it too much. and thank you! honestly, i'm proud of myself too, but i definitely don't plan on going to another event like that anytime soon. i need at least six months to emotionally recover from being perceived by that many people at once.

I imagined an isolated life away from everyone, but this is even sadder. I swear I could hear the door slamming, to be honest. I feel you, though I don't think it makes you boring at all, you've just built something that actually gives you structure and comfort, and losing that suddenly would throw anyone off. I think therapy is something we should go to when we need it, not necessarily something that has to be this strict weekly ritual where you feel like you have to fill the silence with "big issues" all the time; sometimes it's just about having a space to say the small things out loud when there's no one else around to hear them, you know? That's why we shouldn't think about it at all, it just makes it heavier than it needs to be, sometimes it really is just about living and letting things unfold. I can't even blame you, I've barely been to any proper events lately either, it's been months… maybe close to a year, at this point. That's just what happens when we're both a bit on the quiet side, I guess.

My ex has told me that clips from my interviews are all over the internet, which is definitely good for the movie - if it means more people go out and watch it and come home with a little more hope in their heart, I've done my job. Any time I get to use my natural hair, I jump at it, it's so much easier than the wig life. I bet that wig for Eddie was a tough few months, huh? They are, like people know their names, but not much about their lives after the band. I love some of George's later songs, he came out with some real classics.

I haven't seen any of those interviews, are they the funny kind that turn into memes, or just normal interviews that somehow go viral anyway because you're Ryan Gosling? Any wig is already a nightmare, but long wigs are on another level. Too hot, itchy, constantly shifting around, giving you that awful feeling of having something slightly wrong on your head all day. Eddie was a joy in so many ways, except in the hair department, that's for sure. It's a shame people don't know more about their lives beyond the names, we only ever get fragments, really, so hopefully these films help fill in some of those gaps in a more human way. He really does! George had some incredible later work, proper timeless songs that just hit differently when you really sit with them.

i think every single one of you will bring it, but i also think you're right in the audience scrutinizing every little detail. that is, unfortunately, a part of the struggle of taking on a role in biopic. people will compare everything to reality, without thinking about the fact that you're often cramming an entire lifetime into a single movie. oh, definitely. people will have strong opinions no matter what but we do the best we can to weather the storm and at the very least, you have the rest of the cast to lean on. that's what i struggled the most with, with "deliver me from nowhere", since the "nebraska" album was very much bruce isolated and doing his thing, but i still leaned on my cast mates quite a bit. the wigs must be a pain in the ass. i grew my hair out for "the iron claw" while efron and dickinson wore wigs and with the physicality of the entire movie, they both struggled with the heat of them. the wait better be worth it, or i'll leave an angrily written letterboxd review when the time comes telling the entire world how disappointed i am in you as a friend and an actor. i'm just fucking with you, i would never, but i promise i'll keep every little thing you can share with me to myself. i'm not about to spoil the films for anyone.

Yeah, we try not to let any of it get to our heads, but realistically we're going to end up seeing so much stuff online that eventually something's bound to get to us a little. Right now we're kind of living like recluses while filming, so we're blissfully unaware of most things, but once everything's out in the open, that'll definitely be a different story. Having your castmates there really is such a blessing sometimes, because even if the role itself is something you have to carry on your own, just knowing there are people around you who can be there for you throughout the process is a massive difference. Wigs are genuinely the worst part. I hate them so much, they're uncomfortable, ridiculously hot, and you spend half the day terrified of moving too suddenly in case the whole thing shifts. Just growing your hair out feels like the superior option long term. If ater all the waiting you leave us an angry Letterboxd review calling me a disappointment both as a friend and an actor, I genuinely think that might hurt more than any professional critic ever could... cheers for that! I'm kidding.