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Short story inspired by Jordan's & Sam's smoking scene in Season 2, Episode 3.
Tags: Fluff, Smoking weed, Making out while high
Itâs late. The kind of late where your bones ache with every breath. You had a long fucking day of training, getting your ass beat at Dean Cipherâs sadistic little after school club. Youâre pretty sure your ribs are still trying to knit themselves back together as you walk.
You donât even knock, just push the door open, eager to see them. You freeze when you spot Sam in Jordanâs room. Both of them sitting on the floor in front of the tv. Samâs hunched over the glass bong, mid-hit, while Jordan sits with their eyes closed, head tipped back against the bed, completely at ease in a way you havenât seen in a while. Itâs almost disarming how calm they look, though you got to admit it pisses you off a little that they look this way with fucking Sam.
You clear your throat. Loudly. Mostly because youâre also a little irked they didnât invite you. Jordanâs head turns quickly a deathly glare on their face, clearly not expecting you. Their face morphing into a wide toothy grin when they recognize you.
"Baaabby!" they slur loudly, clearly having been at it for a while. You can't help but smile back seeing their glassy red eyes and wide smile, something you haven't seen in a while. You sigh, your backpack dropping from your shoulders as you kick off your shoes, the door clicking shut behind you.
Jordanâs hands reach out to stroke your thighs lazily as you pass them to plop yourself between them, harshly snatching the bong from Sam's lips mid-inhale. His soft "hey" of complaint is half-hearted as his head collapses back against the bed behind us.
You take a deep hit, your body relaxing as the world finally quiets down. Your ribs still feel tender but they should fully heal by morning. Jordan's head falls on your shoulder, their hand gripping your knee, lazily sliding up and down your thigh. Your eyes close slowly, your head resting on top of theirs as the three of you relax against the bed. It feels weird to be this relaxed, almost as if you're just regular college kids instead of constantly being on alert and fighting for your lives.
A high-pitched singing pulls your attention to the TV. "What the fuck are you watching?" you ask, confused while taking another hit. Is that fucking Avenue V? You think to yourself before both Jordan and Sam burst into fits of giggles. You stare at them wide-eyed as they laugh uncontrollably, the puppets still singing on the TV. You can't help but laugh too, clearly losing your mind as well. It feels nice to feel normal.
You don't know how much time has passed. The TV still plays softly in the dark room, casting flickering shadows throughout the room. The only other light being a soft warm amber glow from the small lamp on the nightstand.
Your head rests against the edge of the bed as you smile contentedly, feeling Jordan's small hand on your knee, their fingertips slowly stroking up your thigh, leaving trails of goosebumps in their wake. The world feels hazy and warm around you, everything moving in slow motion like you're underwater.
Their mouth leaves soft, lazy kisses on your shoulder, the warmth of their lips seeping through the thin fabric of your shirt. They move upward, tracing invisible patterns up your clavicle, to the sensitive base of your neck. You sigh happily as they place a wet, open-mouthed kiss on your pulse point, sucking softly, the pressure just enough to make your breath catch but not enough to leave a mark. Their hand continues its slow, deliberate exploration of your body, fingertips dancing across your skin like they're memorizing every inch of you.
Their lips trail along your jaw, the tip of their tongue occasionally darting out to taste your skin. They slowly turn your head to meet their lips in a messy, uncoordinated kiss that tastes faintly of weed and the sweetness of whatever they were drinking earlier. The scent of them, their shampoo, their skin, that indefinable essence that is purely Jordan envelops you completely.
They groan, the sound vibrating against your lips as their arms wrap around your hips. In one fluid motion that is way too smooth for their intoxicated state, they pull you up so you're straddling them, your knees on either side of their hips sitting on their lap. You giggle at the sudden movement, your head spinning pleasantly as you place your hands on their chest, feeling the steady thump of their heartbeat beneath your palms. Your hands stroke upward, across the soft fabric of their shirt, until your arms wrap around their neck, fingers playing with the soft hair at their nape.
Your tongue runs along their bottom lip teasingly, the tip tracing the seam of their mouth. They growl a primal sound that sends heat pooling low in your belly their hands firmly gripping your ass, fingers digging into the soft flesh as they pull you tighter against them. Your bodies press together, chest to chest, hip to hip, no space between you as your mouths crash together in a messy, lazy kiss that lacks finesse but makes up for it with raw emotion.
You sigh happily into their mouth, the sound swallowed by their lips as their tongue runs along yours, exploring, tasting, savoring. Their hand slips under the hem of your shirt, their palm hot against your skin as it slides slowly up your back, fingertips tracing each vertebra, sending delicious shivers cascading down your spine. Your tongues move lazily against each other, dancing to a rhythm only the two of you can hear, both too tired and too high to do anything else but exist in this perfect moment together.
"Mmm," they groan, the sound rumbling deep in their chest. Their mouth moves to suck gently on your pulse again, their teeth grazing the sensitive spot before their tongue soothes it. Their hands trail softly along your back, mapping constellations across your skin, fingers dipping just below the waistband of your pants before retreating, teasing.
You lean further into them, your body melting against theirs as your fingers tangle in their hair, tugging gently at the roots the way you know they like. A soft moan escapes them as you pull, and they respond by licking a hot, wet stripe up the column of your neck, their teeth grazing over the soft skin just below your ear before their tongue soothes the spot, the contrast between sharp and soft making you shiver.
Their hands run up and down your sides, thumbs brushing along your tender ribs before the pads of their thumbs gently stroke the sides of your breasts through your bra. The touch is light enough to be maddening, not enough pressure to satisfy but just enough to make you want more. You arch into their touch instinctively, your body seeking what your mind is too hazy to articulate.
You moan, the sound quiet but needy in the stillness of the room. Your tongues meet again, languidly exploring each other's mouths, neither of you in a hurry to escalate or end this moment. The room fills with the sounds of quiet wet kissing, soft moans, and the occasional creak of the floorboards as you shift against each other, the fucking puppets still singing softly, forgotten, in the background.
"I'm still here," Sam mumbles next to you. His voice cutting through your bliss like a bucket of ice water. You gasp sharply, breaking away from Jordan with a loud, wet smack as your lips pull apart. You completely forgot Sam was even in the room. Jordan sighs heavily, their forehead falling dramatically to rest against your shoulder, pressing soft kisses against the bare skin where your shirt has slipped down.
"Leave then," Jordan's voice rumbles against your chest, the vibration of their words sending tiny shivers across your skin despite the interruption. Their arms tighten around you possessively, clearly unwilling to let this moment end.
Sam groans again, louder this time, shifting his weight as he attempts to stand. He plants one hand firmly on the floor, pushing himself up only to lose his balance and topple over with spectacular ungracefulness. His limbs splay out like a puppet with cut strings as he lands with a loud thud on the carpeted floor.
Everything is silent, the only sounds are Samâs soft snores as you both stare at his body limp on the floor. A laugh bubbles up from your chest, starting as a giggle and quickly escalating into full-blown laughter that shakes your entire body. Jordan joins in, their body quaking against yours, their laughter warm against your neck as they hold you.
"Did he seriously just fall asleep?" you whisper, your voice still trembling with suppressed laughter. Jordan's eyes, bloodshot but twinkling with mischief, meet yours. They nod, biting their lower lip to contain another laugh. You shake your head, still giggling at the ridiculousness of it all, your fingers absentmindedly playing with the hairs at the nape of Jordan's neck.
Jordan's attention returns to you with laser focus. Their soft lips find their way to your jaw, pressing feather-light kisses along the sharp line, each touch sending tiny electric pulses through your nervous system. Your eyelids flutter closed as they work their way slowly across your skin, mapping a path from your jaw to the corner of your mouth.
When your lips finally reconnect, it feels like coming home again. Your tongue meets theirs in a lazy dance, both of you too tired and too stoned to do much else but savor the moment. The kiss is gloriously messy, tongues rubbing together without finesse, exchanging soft sighs and quiet moans. The wet sounds of your mouths moving together fill the dark room, followed by heavy breathing and the occasional soft snore from Sam who is unmoving on the floor.
Jordan's hands move to cup your face with surprising tenderness, their thumbs softly stroking your cheekbones in gentle, hypnotic circles. Your hands find their way under their shirt, fingertips tracing abstract patterns across the warm skin of their lower back. Their tongue slides against yours with deliberate slowness, as if they're trying to memorize the taste and feel of you.
You sigh contentedly into their mouth as they deepen the kiss, their fingers tangling in your hair.
The perfect, end to your long ass fucking day.
âđź I read this over once before posting and I really haven't written in about a year but I really liked London Thor in this scene so here it is.
Really wished I had time to write because I am really loving how Jordan is more open to being outwardly vulnerable yet theyâre still their stubborn sarcastic self! đĽš
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A little preamble for Part 2 of 'I Hate You, I Want You'
Jordan Li x fem!Reader | 1K Words
A little spicy fluffly story before the real part two...đ
âHey,â Jordan whispers into your ear. A small yelp escaping your lips as their breath tickles your neck. Their right arm instantly wrapping around your waist, pulling you flush against their chest while their left hand grips your hip tightly keeping you there.
They were in their smaller form, basically the same height as you this way. Their lips right on your neck, their warm breath sending shivers down your spine. Itâs been a week since they rescued you from Dustyâs party, and almost a whole month since they last touched you this way. Your body instantly reacting, craving, wanting, needing their touch.
They're so close, so warm their lips ghosting over your sensitive skin. You could feel their lips curve into a smirk as you gasp when their right hand slowly travels up and down your body. Your heart racing, your breathing heavy with anticipation. They knew your body better than anyone else, every part of you was theirs, and its been so damn long since they held you so close.
A soft whimper escapes your lips as their right hand softly caresses under your breast. Gently cupping it, massaging softly before moving to the next. Their other hand slowly traveling down your hips, their fingers gently massaging your skin as they move. Your body craving their touch, arching back into them, silently begging for more.
They continue their actions, softly teasing your skin, leaving you breathless and wanting. Slowly kissing your neck, while their left hand gently grips the top of your thigh. Your knees feeling weak, your mind becoming cloudy. The way they touch you, the way their hands travel up and down your body. Their left hand making its way up your thighs, under the hem of your shirt feeling your smooth skin underneath.
A low chuckle rumbles in their chest as their lips travel up your neck, their tongue dragging across the shell of your ear. Your eyes closing, trying to keep control of your body, as they hold you tightly against their chest. A soft moan escaping your lips as their tongue gently licks up your neck. Their hand traveling up further, their fingers gently tracing the outline of your stomach. You bite your lip, trying not to cry out. God, it feels so good, their fingers slowly tracing patterns along your body. Slowly teasing the skin on your stomach as their teeth tugging at your ear lobe, their warm breath ghosting over your ear.
"I missed you, sweetheart." They say, their voice sending more shivers down your spine. You groan out loud at their confession, letting your head drop further back onto their shoulder, giving in, letting your body feel their touch. Their voice so soft, so tender, you didn't care who was around you or who could hear you.
This was their game. Building up the anticipation, driving you wild until you gave in.
You could feel their smirk on your neck, as they kiss and suckle your skin. They wanted you to give in, and you couldn't deny that you missed them too. You missed the way they held you, how their lips would explore every inch of your body, how their voice would sound as you both were tangled together. They continue their movements, their fingers teasingly tracing patterns along your stomach, their lips leaving love marks on your neck.
âWhy have you been hiding from me, baby?â They demand as their teeth nip at the soft skin of your neck, their right hand gripping the top of your thigh hard, digging their nails into your flesh. You whimper at the sensation, bitting your bottom lip, trying to keep your moans in as they played with you in the middle of the hallway.
You been buried with work and school for the past few days, barely having enough time to sleep and eat. You hadn't plan to ignore them, but it happened and now they had you where they wanted. You were putty in their hands, and they knew exactly what they were doing. This game you both played was a dangerous one, and yet you couldn't get enough. The line you had both set, was becoming blurry, but neither one of you seemed to cared.
Their right hand travels up your body, cupping your chin turning your face back towards their face. Their left hand tightening their grip on your thigh as their lips finally meet yours. Oh god, you missed their lips. You missed...them.
Their kiss was hungry and rough as their tongue explores every part of your mouth. Holding you tightly against their body as you melt into them Their other hand slipping into your hair gripping it tightly, holding your head still as they ravage your mouth.
Your body aching, burning for their touch. You turn your body to face theirs, wrapping your arms around their shoulders, pulling them closer, kissing them harder. You missed the taste of their lips, the way their tongue moved in sync with yours. They let out a low groan as they push you up against the wall, their body pinning you against it, their right knee pressing between your legs. Both their hands firmly cupping your face, holding you in place as they deepen the kiss. Your hands gripping their hips, pulling them closer, your body yearning for more. You don't care who sees or hears you. Your body and mind lost to their touch.
After a moment they pull back with a loud pop, leaving you gasping for air. A small smirk tugging at the corners of their lips, as they watch you try and regain your composure. Your face flushed, your heart racing. You were a mess and they love it.
They slowly lean forward, kissing you again, their lips ghosting over yours. "I can't get enough of you." They confess softly. One of their hands travels up your jaw line, their thumb gently stroking your cheek. You lean into their touch, closing your eyes, a soft sigh escaping your lips as their thumb runs across your lips. They press a firm kiss to your lips once more before stepping back.
"Fuck," they groan, looking around the empty hallway. "Come on baby. It's time for you to make it up to me." They say with a smirk, taking your hand, intertwining their fingers with yours, leading you back into their dorm. Your mind fuzzy, your legs feeling weak, your body craving the punishment they promised.
A smutty one-shot about Jordan crashing your COD play 'date'.
Tags: Situationship, includes both of Jordan's forms
(I haven't written in months, and thought I would try something new. Story is written with mixed pronouns: He/She/They)
It was Friday night, and you and your friend Aiden sat cross legged on the floor your backs resting against the couch playing video games. You were sitting shoulder to shoulder laughing loudly as you played Call of Duty.
âBastard, you shot me!â You yelled, your elbow digging into their ribs. âIâm on your team, fucker!â He just laughs and shrugs as you adjust your headset waiting for the next round. You grab your control ready for the next round, exclaiming âGame on, jerk!â
Just as the round was about to start the door to your dorm swings open harshly. The door knob smacking against the wall loudly. Jordan storming into the room, her curled bob bouncing with every angry step.
âWhat the fuck, Jordan!â You exclaim, quickly taking off your headset to glare at them from the floor, watching as they walked towards you.
They paused mid-stride when they noticed you werenât alone. âWhoâs this?â they asked harshly, pointing at Aiden, who was still playing next to you, oblivious to Jordanâs angry glare and harsh tone.
âAiden, Jordan.â you say, pointing between them both. âJordan, Aidan.â you finish, pointing in the opposite direction.
Aiden places his controller on the floor next to him, taking his headset off turning to face you with an amused raise eyebrow. You smile at him apologetically. While Jordan starts to walk towards you both slowly, shifting to their larger form. You rolled your eyes, they had a habit of shifting to their male form when trying to get their point across. Which you found idiotic as they were much more intimidating in their 5â2â form.
âAnd why is he here?â Jordan says harshly, glaring at Aiden. You shrug, picking up your controller to log off the game.
âWhatâs with the 20 questions?â you say, with a raised eyebrow. You're being a brat on purpose, trying to see how much you can rile them up as your eyes stay locked on the TV.
Jordan huffs, brushing their fingers through their hair. âYou werenât answering your phone,â he says pointing at the your phone on your floor with his chin, âor the fucking door.â Jordan continues glaring at you now.
âOh,â you say nonchalantly, picking up your phone from the floor. Well, look at that⌠you had several messages and missed calls from Jordan. Karma is a bitch, the asshole had been ignoring you whole week.
âHuhâŚguess I missed them,â you say casually, still staring at your phone. âWe were kinda busy.â Aiden snickers besides you, a small smirk on their lips as he looks from you to a very angry Jordan.
âBusy with what?â Jordan says through clench teeth. You turn towards Aidan, giving him a small smile before turning towards Jordan whose burning glare could freeze hell. Fuck, you love their sexy glare. You lean back against the couch, crossing your arms with a mischievous grin.
âSee...I would tell you, but I donât really wanted too.â You say with a playful pout. Aidenâs soft chuckles the only sound in the room. You were enjoying this too much, ridding Jordan up was one of your favorite past times, especially after they ignored you all week.
Jordan glare turns murderous as their eyes trail down your exposed legs. You had a habit of kicking off your jeans as soon as you entered your dorm. Walking around in just a loose shirt and panties. Their eyes linger on your exposed thighs for a moment, you shift to cross your legs feeling a blush spread on your cheeks, your nipples hardening under their heated gaze as you gripped the hem of your shirt lower down your thighs.
Fuck, they were so hot. Their death glare doing nothing but turn you on more. You bit your lower lip, watching their eyes snap up to your face, their darken eyes burning into yours.
Fuck, you love how intense and possessive they are, it made you fucking hot.
See, Aidan had dropped by earlier to return a textbook. You met him a few weeks ago in an art history course you were taking as an elective. He was super sweet and you both shared the same humor and love for video games. He also had absolutely no interest in you as you did not have the right body part, if you get the meaning so when he dropped by earlier you didn't even try to put pants on.
You were in the middle of an epic game session, when Jordan bursted in. Aidan, knew about your complicated relationship with Jordan. He found the entire thing hilarious, he was currently having a blast seeing the famous Jordan Li so fired up. They didn't run in the same circles as Aidan was in Performance Arts and the only person Jordan knew from that school was Emma.
You both glare at each other in silence, while Aidan sat quietly next to you smirking. The tension between the two of you was so thick, that it would have taken a chainsaw to cut through.
Jordan took a deep breath rubbing their hand down their face and releasing a heavy sigh before shifting back to their female form, the change was instantaneous. It was the one thing that always threw you, how fucking quick they could shift. If you blinked you would of messed it, it was amazing.
They stalked towards you, their eyes never leaving yours. They grab your wrist, pulling you up, a yelp of surprise leaves your mouth. You turn to stare at Aidan, who rolled his eyes at the dramatics. You were about to open your mouth to say something to him. But Jordan had other plans, as soon as you stood up, she pulled you towards her and kiss you deeply.
You let out a small yelp in surprise, before kissing her back. She wraps an arm around your waist pulling you closer. Her kiss is rough, demanding, as she bites down on your lower lip. You gasp, allowing her tongue to slid into your mouth. Her hand gripping your ass, your shirt riding up from their grip. You moan, pressing yourself closer against her chest.
You could feel them smirk against your lips, as you melted in their embrace. Your hand tangling itself in their hair, as you deepen the kiss completely forgetting that Aiden was still there as Jordan claimed your mouth and soul.
Jordan rips their lips from yours in a loud smack. Her lips kiss swollen and her eyes burning with a dark need. She turns to Aiden, who still sitting on the floor.
âFuck off." Jordan said with a glare, her eyes narrowing and jaw clenching in frustration. Aiden laughed, the sound echoing around the room, and stood up with his hands raised in a gesture of mock surrender as he walked towards the door.
"Well this was fun," Aidan jokes, "I'll call you later, darling." he said giving you a wink before leaving closing the door quietly behind him.
"Darling?" Jordan hissed, their fingers digging deeper into your ass.
You roll your eyes, "Jealous?" you tease with a smile.
Jordan's response was to throw you onto the bed, your body bouncing on the mattress. In an instant, Jordan was straddling you, pinning you to the bed. Their dark brown hair falling into her face, the way the light was hitting their eyes made them seem lighter than usual.
"Do I need to fucking remind you that your mine," Jordan says in a growl, their lips capturing yours in a brutal kiss. She sucks on your bottom lip, pulling it into their mouth before letting it go. Your fingers tangling themselves in their hair again, pushing their lips closer. Your hips grinding into theirs, your right leg hooking around their waist to bring them closer.
âYes,â you murmur into their mouth. You weren't sure if their question was hypothetical, but you loved pushing their buttons.
"Fuckinâ brat," Jordan groans into your mouth, their hands grabbing onto the hem of your shirt, pulling it up. You lifted your arms, as they pull it off. You reach for the hem of their shirt, but they swat your hand away.
"No," Jordan says with a smirk. You pouted, as their mouth attached itself to your neck. Biting, sucking, and licking the skin there. You groan, grinding your hips against their, their left hand moving from your hip to the bed beside your head, as they ground their hips against yours.
"Fuck," you hiss, as Jordan nips at your pulse point.
"Mine." Jordan growls, their right hand moving to squeeze your breast. Their fingers tweaking your nipple, you buck into their hand.
"Yet...you..ignored me all week," You say through gasps as their mouth sucks and licks at your right nipple, their hand still fondling the left. Your back arching off the bed.
Jordan chuckles, "So that why you're being a brat?" they say, as their mouth moves down your body. Nipping, and licking at the your skin on the way.
"Mm," you hum, as they plant wet kisses on your hips. Their hands pulling your panties slowly down your legs as their mouth continues to place kisses and bites on your legs and thighs. They drop on their knees by the bed, pulling your body towards them as they hook you leg over their shoulder. You raise yourself on your elbows wanting to look at them. Your eyes connect as you stare at each other. Both you breathing heavily as you laid fully naked on your bed, your legs open wide while their remain fully clothes.
They cock their eyebrow at you, giving you a mischievous smirk before saying, "Don't worry, baby. I'm gonna fuck the brat out of you." You didn't have time to process their words before their mouth was on your pussy, sucking your clit hard.
"Oh, fuck." you gasp, dropping onto the bed as they continue their assault on your clit. Sucking, and flicking their tongue against the sensitive bundle of nerves. You grab onto the bed sheet, throwing your head back. You could feel them chuckle, their fingers digging into the flesh of your thighs. They bite down on your clit, and you gasp. Your hand shooting towards their hair, your fingers tangling themselves in their curls as their tongue pushes past your folds and inside you.
"Oh, god....yes!" you whimper, grinding your pussy against their mouth. They moan, their fingers digging into your thighs as their tongue thrust in and out of your pussy. Your back arching off the bed, your hands tightening around their hair as their tongue curls inside you.
"Jordan," you whimper, "Please." Your hips bucking against their face, your grip on their hair tightening as they continue to fuck you with their tongue. Jordan chuckles, their tongue pushing further into your pussy. You whined, their fingers digging into your thighs and you know that you'll have bruises later.
"Please, fuck, Jordan." You moan loudly.
They suck on your clit, their eyes never leaving yours as they continue to fuck you with their tongue. "Fuck, I missed your taste." Jordan says, as their tongue plunged in and out of your cunt. Their voice muffled against your pussy. They breathing harshly against your skin. The sound of them, eating you out loud and obscene and it just turns you on even more.
"You are such a brat," Jordan says through licks, "And I fucking love it." They thrust two fingers inside of you harshly, as your mouth falls open from the intrusion. "Means, I get to punish you." They groan as your walls clenched around their fingers, your hips rolling with each thrust.
"My fucking brat." Jordan groans, their tongue moving along the folds of your cunt, as their fingers moved in and out of your slick entrance.
"Fuck, Jordan!" You cry out, as their fingers curl and twist inside of you. Their tongue lapping at your clit. You grind against their fingers, the pressure building up inside you. You could feel yourself getting closer and closer to the edge, desperate to fall over.
"That's it, baby. Ride my fingers." Jordan says, their mouth sucking on your clit. Their eyes boring into yours, "You look so fucking beautiful, baby. Your tight little pussy, riding my fingers like my dirty little slut."
"Fuck, I'm close." You whimper, your hips rocking faster. You could feel their eyes on you, as their tongue flick at your clit.
"Scream my name, darling," they say with a sarcastic tone, watching as you fucked yourself against their hand. Their mouth sucking on your clit, as their fingers curl and twist inside you hitting all the right places.
"Oh, fuck!" You cried, as the pleasure builds. "Jordan!" You scream, as their mouth closes around your clit and sucks hard. Your orgasm hits you suddenly, and you see white stars as your eyes roll to the back of your head. Your thighs clenching, your body shaking as Jordan continues to lick and suck at your clit, drawing your orgasm out your body jerking from each flick of their tongue.
"Good girl." Jordan say, giving your clit a long lick, "You taste fucking delicious." They give you a shit eating grin, licking their lips. You gasping for air, your legs trembling the pleasure rolling through your body. Jordan slowly pulls their fingers out of your pussy, their tongue following suit. Licking their fingers clean before giving your thigh a soft kiss over the bruises their fingers left behind. They stand up, their eyes meeting yours as they lick their lips slowly. You watch as they pull their shirt off, tossing it to the side, their shorts and boxers following after as they climb up your body. Their naked form crushing yours, their mouth attaching itself to your throat, biting and licking at the sensitive skin, marking you. You release a soft whimper as they bite down hard, sucking the tender skin, before pulling away to stare down at you.
You lift your hand, brushing a piece of her hair behind their ear as they start down on you.
"Darling?" You say with a teasing grin. They can be so petty sometimes.
Jordan scuffs, ignoring your comment leaning down to kiss you instead. Their mouth covering yours, their tongue pushing past your lips. You moan into the kiss, your hand tightening in their hair, while the other wraps around their shoulders pulling them closer. Your hips grinding against theirs.
Jordan chuckles, the noise getting swallowed up by your mouth, as they rock their hips against yours. Their lips trail down your jaw, as they continue to move their hips. Shifting, instantly to their male form. Their rock hard cock, grinding against your dripping wet cunt.
"Jordan," you moan, as their hips rut against yours. You can feel the tip of their cock rubbing against your swollen clit, the sensation driving your overstimulated body insane.
"You want my cock baby," Jordan says, his teeth biting down on your shoulder. "Want me to stretch your pretty little pussy?" Jordan asks, their fingers brushing the hair off your forehead, as his hips thrust against yours, the crown of their dick pushing past your folds, teasing your entrance.
"Fuck," you groan, their hands cupping your breasts. His thumb circling your nipples as their mouth continues to bite and suck at the skin of your neck. You were getting stimulation from all sides, their fingers, their mouth, their dick.
"This what you want, baby." Jordan teases, as their cock pushes past your folds, their crown stretching your entrance before entering you inch by inch. They thrust their hips forward, sheathing their cock completely inside you in a sudden deep thrust.
"Mm fuck," you whimper, as their thick cock stretches and fills your begging cunt. Their hips, rolling slowly as he bottoms out. They still for a moment, allowing you time to adjust, your head tilting up at the full sensation. Your lips parts, eyes close as Jordan rolls their hip, their mouth latching onto the base of your neck, biting and sucking on the sensitive skin.
"God, your so fucking hot," Jordan says, as their hands grab at your thighs, wrapping your legs around their waist. You wrap your arms around their neck, as they begin to rock their hips. They push their cock deep into your pussy, rolling their hips before drag their cock out and thrusting it back in. Their movements slow and steady, oh so very deep.
"Oh god," you moan, as their cock hits every nerve inside of you, their lips still attached to the base of your throat. They bite down on the spot, hard, a deep thrust of their hips as their teeth sink into your skin.
"Fuck, Jordan," you moan, your hand tangling itself in their short brown hair. "Please, Jordan, I need...I need." Your words gargled with each thrust of their hips.
Jordan chuckles, the low rumbled sending shivers down your spine. "What do you need, baby?" they ask, their voice raspy and deep. Their hands tighten on your hips, the thrusting of their cock, slow and deep.
"More," you moan, your eyes close as Jordan buries their dick deep inside your pussy rolling their hips making you feel every inch of him.
"Yeah, baby. You want me to fuck you?" Jordan says, as their hips pull back and snap roughly, back into you. "Want me to fucking own you?" They growl into your ear, as their thrusting become deeper and rougher.
"Yes...fuck, yes" You gasp, as they begin to fuck you harder and faster, their hips slapping against yours, the sound loud and lewd. Their hand coming up to wrap around your throat. Their thumb resting on your quickening pulse, squeezing lightly.
"Eyes on me, baby." Jordan orders, their hips slamming against yours. You force your eyes open, your gaze locking onto Jordan's, their pupils dilated. Their hips still, before thrusting themselves deep into your aching pussy. You gasp, your eyes rolling back, but they tighten their grip around your neck.
"Eyes." They growl, and you whimper. Your hand grabbing onto the one wrapped around your neck, your eyes locking back onto theirs.
"Eyes on me when I fuck you!" They growl, their hips snapping roughly. You whimper, nodding desperately.
"Fuck," Jordan groans as your pussy clenches tightly.
"So fucking perfect." They say, sucking your bottom lip into their mouth as their cock pounds into your pulsing pussy. Your hand tightens in their hair, pulling their lips against yours, your tongue plunging into their mouth.
"Mine," they growl, and you moan into their mouth. "All fucking mine." They snarl, their lips pressing against yours in a rough kiss. Their teeth biting down on your bottom lip.
"YesâŚJordan." You whimper, their thrust becoming more frantic. "Yours, only yours." Jordan groans as you clench around them, their thrust slowing down but deepening with every thrust.
"FuckâŚ" You cry out, the pressure inside of you building, "Fuck, yes. Yours, baby." You whimper, and they groan. Their hand tightening on your throat, their hips snapping into yours.
"Your going to come for me baby?" Jordan says, as their hips roll against yours, your swollen clit rubbing against their pubic bone. "Come for me, baby. I'm so close." They groan, and you whimper.
"Fuck, you are so beautiful." Jordan says, their hips moving faster, their thrust becoming harder and deeper. Their hand still around your throat as their lips capture yours in a rough kiss. You arch your back, moaning into their mouth as their hips pound against yours.
You cry into their mouth, as your orgasm crashes into you. Your legs shaking, their hips continue to snap against yours, their cock hitting all the right places, driving you wild.
"Fucking beautiful." Jordan moans, their hips slapping against yours as you clench and quiver around their cock. âFucking, mine!â They say, your body shaking, their hips never stopping, they continue to slam their hips against yours chasing their own release.
"Fuck baby," Jordan groans, their cock twitching inside of you. You whimper, clenching tightly around their cock, milking them. Jordan lets out a loud grunt, as their hips snap one last time before spilling inside of you, their hot cum shooting deep inside you as their mouth desperately presses against yours, your tongues twisting together in a sloppy kiss.
Their hips stuttering, as they fill you. You whimper, your body still trembling, as their hips slow. You could feel their cock twitching, as they continued to spill inside you. Your messy kiss slowly coming to a halt, as their lips leave yours, their forehead leaning against yours.
"Wow," you whisper, and Jordan chuckles softly.
"Yeah," They agree, their hands gently caressing your skin, their fingers tracing over the bite marks and bruises they left behind.
"Sorry," they murmur, placing a gentle kiss to the side of your neck.
"Its okay," you say, placing a soft kiss to their lips, "You're hot when your jealous."
Jordan scuffs, but gives you a small smile. They place a soft kiss to the base of your throat, their body dropping more against yours as they nuzzle into the crook of your neck. You wrap your arms around their shoulders, holding them close, your hands gently stroking their back.
"I missed you." Jordan whispers, their lips ghosting across your neck.
"And whose fault is that, dumbass." you say with a sarcastic scoff, "You're the one who's been ignoring me all week."
"I know." Jordan sighs, their body weight shifting as they raise their head to meet your eyes. "Just, things got super busy this week and I couldn't focus, you're too much of a distraction sometimes." They say sincerely, their fingers brushing across your cheek. You roll your eyes dramatically, but say nothing as you sometimes feel the same way about them, needing a break to focus on school and other shit but that didnât mean you didnât miss them either.
Jordan gives you a shy smile, before placing a firm kiss on your swollen lips. Their head dropping back into the crook of your neck. You sigh happily as your finger go back to gently stroke their back, lightly scratching their back with your nails, drawing soft sighs from their lips.
"We should probably shower," Jordan says softly, after a moment.
"Mmm, in a bit." you murmur your fingers continuing to trail patterns on their naked back. Jordan chuckles, shifting to their smaller form as they nuzzle their face deeper into your neck, their hand gripping your hip, holding you impossibly close to their body.
"Whatever you say, baby." they say, their voice muffled as they burry their face into the space between your breasts. You chuckle, before releasing a content sigh, holding them closer, your eyes closing as sleep slowly begins to claim you both.
My brain has been so overloaded with work and working with different clients with different time zones that I don't even know what day I am living in anymore.
I love my job but sometime is just sucks all my creativity away...
It was a late Wednesday night, the soft noise of the tv playing in the background as you mindlessly scrolled through your phone. Laughing at the cute dog videos on your feed, while laying on Jordan's couch. They had to stay late to help Professor Brink grade some papers.
The sound of keys turning the lock caught your attention. Slowly turning your head towards the door, watching as Jordan enters the room. You give them a sweet smile, watching their brown eyes light up at the sight of you. Their usually perfectly curled bob, now messy and frizzy from what you imagine is them running their fingers through it all day. You stare at them silently, your smile growing as you open your arms up in the air inviting them onto the couch.
They sigh, taking off their shoes by the door silently walking towards the couch before collapsing on top of you. Their face nuzzling into your neck, their arms wrapping around you as one of your hands runs through their hair, massaging their scalp and the other holding them tightly. They hum softly, releasing a heavy sigh as their body melts under your touch.
"Tired?" You ask, and they nod their head slightly. You press a soft kiss against their forehead, making them sigh again as your hold tightens around them.
"It's been a long fucking day." They mumble, as you massage their shoulders with one hand. Both of you sitting in comfortable silence. One hand continuing to work through their tight muscles, your other running through their hair, scratching softly at their scalp. Listening to the soft noise of the tv, and their calm breaths. You press a few more kisses against their forehead, their arms squeezing you tightly, pushing you both flushed onto the couch.
"That feels nice," They mumble, their nose pressing against your neck, tickling the sensitive skin. You laugh tenderly, your hands pausing to hug them back tightly, rubbing their back up and down. You press a soft kiss on the crown of their head.
They hum, their lips pressing against your neck delicately. Before lifting themselves up slightly, pressing their lips against yours in a slow, deliberate kiss. Their body slowly pressing down more onto yours, as your hands roam across their back. Their hands gripping you here and there, as your mouths move against each otherâs languidly. Your tongues slowly exploring each other's mouths, as if you hand all the time in the world. You loved these moments. Just laying in each other's embrace, enjoying the moment.
Jordan slowly moves their hands up your shirt, feeling your stomach and sides. Making your breath catch in your throat, as their fingers ghost over your body. Their lips kissing down your jaw, sucking softly before moving lower. Kissing along your neck and collarbone. Your fingers gripping their hair pulling their face back up to yours, pressing another deep kiss against their lips. Your hand running up their shirt, feeling their bareback. Your mouth leaving their's, to press kisses along their jawline and neck. Licking and sucking the sensitive skin, making them release soft noises of pleasure.
Their lips coming back to yours, their kiss rough and desperate before slowing down. Your hand caressing their cheek as their tongue slowly moves against yours. Their hands rubbing up and down your sides, as your mouths continue to lazily move against each other.
Their teeth pulling at your bottom lip, as you break the kiss. Both of you breathless, their head dropping back to your neck. Pressing their face into it, taking a deep breath as their fingers run across your skin. Your arms wrapping around them, holding them tightly, enjoying their warmth and touch. Neither of you needing to say anything, or do anything but lay there.
summary: You and Jordan are friends with benefits, and Jordan is trying so hard to be okay with that. Somehow, they still fell in love with you despite their best efforts to not fucking do that. But you've only ever fucked them when they're a guy, so they assume you're only interested in them one way. Just like everyone else. You've never said anything to make them think any different so it's obvious, right? So they take what they can get. Which is only half. And they keep you at a distance, because anything else will kill them.
A/N: flashbacks are in all Italics. some smut.
gif credit: artemidosgifs and stannyramirez
âOh shit, Jordie, wait-â You canât catch your breath, legs shaking where theyâre thrown over Jordanâs shoulders.Â
âStop fucking squirming.â Jordan huffs, licking some of your wetness off your thigh.
Your vision is swimming a little. How long have you been in this position? Or in Jordanâs room? Itâs hard to keep track of anything, when youâre with them. His tongue finds your clit again. Insistent, rough swipes. Youâre too overworked now for anything gentle to even register. How many times have you cum now?Â
âYou always taste so fucking good.â Jordan moans, voice hoarse and low.
He puts a hand under your back to press you further into his mouth. With only your shoulders pushed into the mattress you canât move. Jordanâs eyes are always glued to your face when you fuck. As if heâs daring you to shy away from whatever heâll do to you next.Â
Considering that his favorite thing to do is overstimulate you, youâre not sure the irritation is fair. What are you supposed to do when heâs made you cum four times and is still going? According to Jordan, the answer is simple: lie there and take it.Â
Lifting you up. Pinning you down. These are the solutions heâs arrived at. Jordan hates having to chase you just to give you the orgasm you begged him for in the first place.Â
âYou ready for my fingers again?â Jordan asks, but itâs not a real question, because you donât get to so much as gasp before heâs plunging three fingers into you again.Â
Heâs rough as he rocks his fingers into that soft spot inside of you that always makes your eyes roll back into your head. He knows the angle you like him to use by heart.Â
âFucking shit, Jordan!â Your hands fall into his hair, grip like a vice, and Jordan half moans and half laughs against you.
Itâs the vibrations that send you over the edge again. The breath leaving your lungs in one rush as that coil inside releases and makes the world go white and your ears ring.Â
You come back to yourself slowly. Jordan hovering over you, pressing kisses into the side of your neck. You grasp at his shoulders, pulling him down so that he's laying on top of you. The weight is comforting after the overwhelming head rush. You still feel shaky. He goes down easily, wrapping one arm underneath you.
âI can feel you smirking, jerk.â You laugh weakly, hitting his arm.
âYou soaked my fucking fingers. Think I'm allowed a smirk.â Jordan says.Â
He lifts his head from your neck and there's that smug look you love to see him wear. It's enough to make you ready to have him all over again. You settle on gently massaging his scalp.Â
âI'll tell you what you're allowed.â You tease, grinning at him.Â
âHah! Always have enough energy to be a fucking brat, huh?â Jordan rolls his eyes.Â
You wrap your legs around his waist to bring him closer. âI've got enough energy to make out too! Gimme a kiss.â
âFucking insatiable.â Jordan scoffs, but gives in. Because he always does.Â
It's hard to think when Jordan kisses you. He kisses like he doesn't need to breathe. Or be anywhere else but with you. One of his hands finds yours, locking your fingers together. You squeeze tight. Try not to imagine holding his hand like this outside each other's dorms. Because that only ever makes you feel empty afterwards when all the hormones from the orgasms should leave you floating.
You get a third wind when Jordan rocks his hips against yours and you feel he's hard again. You reach a hand between the two of you, grasping his dick to angle him back inside. Thank God for Supe refractory periods. You sigh when his tip pushes into you.Â
âYeah princess? You want me again?â He tries to sound teasing, nonchalant, but he only sounds like he wants you just as bad.
You rock your hips so that he slides inside fully. Watch him tilt his head back and moan for you as you move. Hungrily taking in the way every sound shapes his mouth. You lean up to kiss at the underside of his jaw. You can't leave any hickies on him but you always kiss him like you want to. God you fucking wish you could. Maybe if you could leave marks people wouldn't chase after them so much. If everyone knew Jordan was yours. But Jordan isn't yours.Â
You bite him a little harder.
Jordan's hand finds your throat. You whine, the noise strangled against his palm. You go lax as he pushes you back into the bed. Gently. His fingers flex, a little tighter, and your eyes flutter shut.Â
âGonna be good for me?â Jordan asks.
You nod your head frantically, legs dragging him closer. It's never close enough. No matter what you do.Â
âYeah, I'll be good, Jordie.â You say the words he wants to hear, feeling your head go soft and thoughtless again.
âFucking liar.â He grinds his hips into yours and chokes you harder when you clench around him.Â
Youâd been fast friends, best friends, since the moment you stepped on campus and met one another as freshman. Talking to Jordan. Spending time with them. Everything that first year didnât even feel like getting to know one another. It just felt like coming home.
You didnât say as much to Jordan. They would have rolled their eyes and scoffed at how sensitive you were, if you had. But you knew they felt the same way. You were the one Jordan went to whenever they were sad. When they were excited. When they were coming into themselves, learning to love who they were after a lifetime of everyone else telling them not to.Â
You were the first person to see them. Before Brink, even, you saw them. All their potential. All their greatness. All of them, and Jordan had never forgotten that.Â
Jordan saw you too, in turn. Youâd never felt like much more than a pretty face, before Jordan.Â
You were the type of beautiful that made people look twice when they walked past you. When you were a little girl you soaked in all the praise like a flower. Every: âsheâs so prettyâ, and âwell look at her!â, or âoh wow!â was nourishment to your little soul.
It would be impossible to pinpoint the moment you realized that was all anyone saw. Even once your powers manifested. Advanced healing, advanced reflexes, limited invulnerability, energy manipulation. You were the whole nine yards. Your parents, when you were thirteen, had sent a video of you using your powers off to Vought.Â
A man and woman showed up a day later in suits, wanting to meet you personally.
âShe sure is a little looker, isnât she?â The man had said, and heâd held your hand for too long before he let go.Â
Theyâd come prepared. With ideas for costumes. Which team of teenage Supes you should be placed with. If you should just go straight for television. The adults talked around you. Not paying you any mind as you stared at the costume that would reveal so much skin. Youâd never worn a skirt that short before. You hadnât been allowed, hadnât even wanted to, really. If youâd come home from the mall having bought anything like that on your own, your parents would have blown a fuse. Now they just sat on either side of you, mile wide grins plastered on their faces.Â
All the voices faded to background noise. You realized maybe you were too young to be a superhero. You thought it would involve more... saving people. Running into burning buildings. Getting the bad guys. Saving the day. The people from Vought were only talking about magazine spreads. About what persona would fit your look.Â
âWhat about school?â Youâd asked, quietly, and everyone in the room had turned to look at you baffled.Â
âWhat about school, sweetheart?â The woman laughed. âYouâll get a private tutor, of course. But your future is big. You wonât even have to worry about stuff like that anymore. Goodbye lame homework. Hello red carpets!âÂ
You sat very quietly until they left. Your parents were more angry than youâd ever seen them, when you told them you wanted to wait until after high-school to pursue being a hero.Â
You knew telling them you werenât sure you wanted to do it at all was off the table.Â
During high-school you noticed people didnât listen to you. You would be telling someone about your favorite book; or talking about a movie that changed your whole worldview, only to realize the other person had been staring at your lips the entire time.Â
You stopped talking so much about things you cared about. No one listened anyways.Â
âBimbo.â
âAirhead.â
âSlut.âÂ
Were all things youâd heard before youâd ever gone on your first date. Gotten so much as your first kiss on the cheek. High-school was lonely, and you couldnât talk about it being lonely without sounding like an asshole, you quickly realized. The few friends you had would roll their eyes when youâd try and vent. You thought it was just playful ribbing. Friends tease each other. It made you feel included! Until you caught them mocking you behind your back to one another.
âLook at me, Iâm Y/N, and lifeâs so hard because Iâm so pretty and popular. Is she fucking serious? Stuck up bitch.âÂ
You stopped venting.
When you got to God-U, you werenât sure what to expect. College was a chance to reinvent yourself. Even if you werenât sure you wanted to be a Superhero you knew this could be a chance to find your people. Lifelong friends.Â
People who you could get coffees with between classes. Who would go to all your birthdays and want to be there. People you would spend hours on the phone with. Fall asleep studying together. Girls who might like you enough to make you their maid of honor. Guys who would high five you when you did something cool and not try to sneak a glance at your chest.Â
You were imagining it all as you unpacked your boxes. Your stomach twisting itself into knots. Living in a half world between excitement and dread.
Then you met your roommate and she gave you the look. The look youâd gotten all your life from girls, and you knew youâd never be real friends. Girls who looked at you like that kept their boyfriends away from you at parties. And they never shared the secrets that friends share because they thought youâd put them in a fucking burn book. The look alone almost made you give up and just go home.Â
You went for a walk instead, fighting back tears. Thatâs when you ran into Jordan. Literally, ran into Jordan. You knocked the both of you to the ground.Â
When theyâd snapped, âWhat the fuck dude?â at you, harsh and angry and very them, youâd burst into tears.Â
It wasnât the perfect way to meet your person. But you were glad you met them at all.Â
 âStop moving your eyes away from the screen.â Jordan says.Â
âIâm not allowed to move my eyes away from the screen?â You laugh.
âNo, this part is really important. You have to pay attention. I wanna see if you catch it.âÂ
You try your best to keep your eyes glued to the screen, as instructed. But you canât help the way you keep glancing towards Jordan. She looks good. She always looks good, but right now you donât even want to look away from her. The colors of the movie flashing across her face, blues and golds, make her look like a painting.Â
âAre you watching?â Jordan asks, and you smile at the excitement in her voice.Â
You look back towards the movie, wondering what she wants you to see so badly. You look just in time. A small detail catches your eyes and you gasp, reaching out a hand blindly to shake her in your own excitement.Â
âDid you see that in the background?â You shake her again, for good measure.
âI saw it.â Jordan laughs.
âThat means that he killed the wife!âÂ
âHow do you figure?â
You pause the movie, ready to explain where you think the plot is heading. When you turn to face Jordan you have to take a deep breath. You donât know whether you love or hate that look. Your feelings on the matter change day to day.Â
Jordan is leaned up into the arm of the couch, relaxed, and sheâs staring at you with The Smile she wears sometimes. She started doing it a few months into your friendship. Back when you used to talk and then slowly stop. So completely sure that nobody wanted to hear what you had to say.Â
Jordan had asked you, back then, why you always stopped telling stories halfway through, or stopped talking about your day, or the latest book youâd read.Â
You wanted to lie, at first. Eventually you told a half truth, âI never have anything interesting to say.âÂ
Jordan had looked at you for a long time. You were worried that somehow, up until that moment, they hadnât realized how boring you were. But you acknowledging it out loud had made them think about it, and now they were going to ditch you for a friend who was interesting, funny, and smart.Â
Instead, Jordan had told you that she loved the way your mind worked, and sheâd smiled The Smile at you, for the first time. You hadnât known how to respond, to the words, or the smile. You turned the conversation back towards Brinkâs latest class assignment.Â
Later that night youâd gone back to your dorm room and cried, but youâd felt happier than youâd ever felt.Â
It made you feel warm and soft that three years later Jordan still smiled at you like that. It felt like your cue to say anything on your mind, no matter how dumb. Green light means go. The Smile means talk.Â
âWell?â Jordan nudges you with her foot, still smiling, and waiting for you.Â
You shake your head to break free of the spell she puts you in, âWell, look at his sense of style for the entire movie. All his stuff is modern and sleek and then the first time we see his bedroom all the rest of the decor is in line with the rest of the house, except that one thing. All the camera shots are so purposeful and they lingered a little, after he walked away. They wanted us to see he was keeping a trophy. He totally killed her, didnât he?âÂ
Jordan pauses for a second and then laughs. âI donât know how you always guess right. I didnât see the twist coming at all the first time I watched it.â
âSecondary super power.â
âConnecting all the dots?â
âConnecting all the dots, yeah.âÂ
âY/N! Y/N, thank fucking god, you gotta come with me.â Cate grabbed you by the arm, rougher than sheâd ever touched you before.Â
âI was on my way to class.â You tripped over your feet as Cate pulled you the opposite way you needed to go.
âForget class! Jordanâs gonna get themself expelled.â Cate snapped.Â
âWhat?!âÂ
âTheyâre beating the shit out of Peter in the locker room. Lukeâs not on campus. I canât get close enough to stop them-â
Youâd broken into a sprint towards the fighting arena. You didnât know what the hell was happening. Peter and Jordan had spoken maybe ten times to each other in all the years of attending the same university.Â
Youâd never gotten anywhere so fast in your life. Andre was standing steadfast in front of the entrance to the boyâs locker room, a small group of other students standing outside. You could hear the sounds of fighting pouring out from the door.Â
âBack it up you fucking vultures.â Andre snipped. He might not have super strength but he was still Number 4, and could look intimidating when he needed to.Â
âAndre, whatâs going on?â You pushed to the front of the crowd.Â
âThank fuck Cate found you. You gotta get in there. Jordanâs gonna fucking mur-â Andre glanced at the phones pointed at the both of you, trying to record even a drip of gossip about top students trying to seriously hurt each other and lowered his voice, âJordan is actually gonna fucking kill Peter. Iâll keep the crowds back. Get in there.âÂ
You moved past him into the locker room and your jaw dropped at the state of the place.Â
You thought these lockers were bolted down. Apparently not. At least four rows of them were knocked to the ground, heavily dented. A water bottle refilling station had been crumpled to nothing, exposed pipe spraying water across the floor.
âGet off of me you fucking animal.â You heard Peter cry from further in the room and ran.Â
Jordan had shoved Peter up against the wall. You were surprised Peter was still conscious. He was lucky he healed so fast. You could see his black eye fading even as Jordan broke his nose.Â
âYou fucking stay away from her. You understand? I hear you fucking talking like that again and I take the tongue out of your fucking mouth, you asshole.âÂ
Peter laughs through a mouth full of blood,âNot my fault she gave it up so easy, Li-âÂ
Jordan throws him into one of the last standing lockers and you see that they are indeed bolted into the ground. Evidently, Jordan throws stronger than Supe resistant steel can take. When Jordan moves to lift Peter out of the crater his body made in the downed locker you rush in between them, putting a shield up.Â
âY/N?â You can see some of the anger fade from Jordanâs face, just a little, at the sight of you.
âHey, Jordie. Think Peter has had enough.â
Jordan scoffs, âNo, he really fucking hasnât,â he leans around you to yell at Peter, whoâs trying to push himself onto his knees, âHeâs still running his fucking mouth!âÂ
âPussy whipped asshole-â Peter groans.
You glance at Peter on the floor, aghast, âPeter! Stop antagonizing, Jordan. Whatâs wrong with you?âÂ
âUnbelievable, honestly. You walk in on Jordan kicking my ass and you tell me to stop antagonizing the fucker?â Peter huffs, pushing his nose back into place so it wonât heal wrong.Â
âName calling isnât gonna make him stop kicking your ass. Iâm trying to help.â You shoot back.
âWell, no one needs your help, you dumb-âÂ
âHey.â Jordan interrupts. Heâs not yelling anymore, but his voice is the loudest thing in the room. âWatch your mouth, Peter. I fucking mean it.âÂ
You look back and forth between them. They watch each other for a long moment. Jordan looking eerily calm. Peter looks away first.Â
âYeah, thatâs what I fucking thought. Come on, Y/N.â Jordan grabs your hand and marches you out of the locker room. Past Andre and Cate, who try to stop you both but Jordan waves them off and muscles his way past the crowd too.Â
He doesnât stop until youâre back in his dorm room and heâs shut the door behind the two of you.Â
âYou were fucking that loser?â He asks, clicking the lock into place.   Â
âYouâre lucky Andre and Cate kept people out of the locker room so thereâs no video of everything! You could get expelled, Jordan! What the fuck happened?âÂ
âHe hit me first and heâs not even in the top ten. Whatâs he at? Number 14? No oneâll give a shit what happens to him. When did you start fucking him?â
âIâm not fucking him! Or⌠Iâm not just, fucking him. Iâm⌠I was dating him. Why were you two fighting?âÂ
âDating? For how fucking long? You didnât tell me you were dating anyone.â Jordanâs hair is already a disheveled mess. He yanks his fingers through the strands and makes it worse.Â
âWeâve been going on dates for like⌠three months? Kinda? Maybe.â You say quietly.Â
âThree months?! Are you serious? Why didnât you tell me? What the fuck?âÂ
âWhy are you so mad?â
âFriends talk to each other about shit like this! And if youâd talked to me, I would have told you that Peter is a clout chasing piece of shit thatâll never amount to anything. You shouldâve heard the shit he was saying today. Fucking piece of shit!âÂ
âThatâs why you were fighting?â You wring your hands together, a knot tying itself over and over in your stomach. âWhat did he say?â
Jordan stops pacing the room, goes still and turns away from you.Â
âWell? What did he say? It was bad enough to make you two beat the shit out of each other! So what was it?âÂ
âHe just⌠You donât have to worry about it, okay? He wonât go near you again.â Jordan says firmly.
âWhatever he said heâs gonna keep saying. Just behind my back. I should know.â
Jordan sighs and moves to sit beside you on his couch, knee bouncing with anxiety. âHe was⌠bragging to his shitty friends. About being the first guy on campus to fuck you. About how it didnât even take that long and⌠how⌠he was thinking of recording you. So he could show them how slutty you are. It wasâŚ. fucking disgusting.âÂ
âOh.â You say.Â
You swallow around the lump in your throat. Youâd done everything you could to avoid something like this happening. Had kept your dates off campus, to make sure he actually wanted to date you and not just the hot girl ranked Number 3. Youâd spent nights staying up on the phone laughing and talking. Youâd put off sleeping with Peter for a whole two months, even though you liked him, because you wanted to make sure he liked you.Â
You hadnât even let him call you his girlfriend until a few days ago. You thought he really liked you. But no matter how hard you try⌠you guess this is it. Youâre just something pretty to look at. Even Vought doesnât take you seriously, despite your powers. Youâre the top ranked student in everything. Right behind Jordan. Forensic analysis. Combat. Battle strategy. Still, you only ever get asked about makeup routines and how to maintain your figure in interviews.Â
You wipe at your burning eyes and try not to cry about something youâve already accepted.Â
âFuck that guy. Fuck him. Heâs so far beneath your level Iâm surprised you can perceive his plane of fucking existence, okay? Heâs a fucking single cell organism. He doesnât even know what a brain is.â Jordan gets up from the couch to kneel in front of you, tries to look you in the eyes.Â
âIâm so fucking stupid.âÂ
âNo, you fucking are not. Donât say that about yourself. Heâs fucking stupid. Itâs genuinely insane you even wasted your time with him. Why didnât you tell me you were seeing anyone?â Jordan asks, voice quiet.
âI justâŚ. I wanted to make sure he was actually gonna stick around before I even brought him up to you. Youâre so ⌠important, why tell you about someone who isnât? Itâs not like you write home to me about any of the people you mess around with! Weâve never really talked about this kind of stuff.âÂ
âYeah, but itâs different. Iâm not serious about anyone! You were actually dating, Peter. And I would have told you not to.â Jordan rolls his eyes.
âWell, I wanted to make sure it was serious. Before I even said anything.âÂ
âIt wouldnât have gotten serious if youâd told me about it in the first place. I wouldnât have let Peter within ten feet of you!âÂ
âWeâre talking in circles.â You huff in frustration, pressing your palms into your eyes to stop the stinging.
âSorry, I justâŚ. Fucking still wish I was beating the shit out of him, honestly.â Jordan says.
âYou are not leaving this room for the rest of the day, Li. Even if he is Number 14, you canât walk away from a fight then go back for seconds cause you didnât get it all out the first time. That wonât hold up too well in court.â
âHe heals too fast for there to be any marks left on him. Itâll all be hearsay.â Jordan smirks. Â
You let out a weak laugh. Jordan reaches out, touching the corner of your lips. âCan we shoot for something a little bigger? If I donât see you smile soon Iâll actually go kill him.âÂ
You roll your eyes and slide to the edge of the couch, so youâre resting your head on Jordanâs shoulder, leaning all your weight against him. He wraps his arms around you, rubbing circles into your spine.
âI really wanted it to work out, Jordan.â You mumble into the skin of his collarbone.
âWith fucking Peter?âÂ
âWith⌠anyone.â Your voice wavers and Jordanâs grip gets tighter. âItâs so fucking lonely. I just want to be someoneâs favorite person. Not because of how I look, but because they like me. Really like me. And no one fucking does, no matter how hard I try.â The tears start falling now and Jordan pulls back and makes you look up at him, one hand on your cheek.Â
âHey, hey, donât cry. I fucking⌠I like you. Iâve always liked you.â Jordan says, frantic as he wipes away the tears as they come.
âItâs not the same, Jordan!â You shake your head, and bite your lip. Youâd almost said itâs not enough. Because it isnât. But you can't think about that for too long. It makes the hole in you ache a little worse.Â
âYeahâŚ.guess itâs not.â Jordan says quietly. He keeps wiping away the tears, dutiful and gentle as he goes.Â
âYou said he hit you first?â You ask, after a long moment of him quietly soothing you.
âCome on, Iâm not stupid. Had to let him get the first swing in.â Jordan smirked.
âWhat did you say to make him hit you?â You ask.
âTold him he was lucky you believe in charity work and giving back to the fucking needy.âÂ
Itâs enough to startle a laugh out of you. You smack his arm weakly before pulling him into another hug. He kisses the top of your head so softly you donât notice it, too busy laughing.Â
âY/N, good to see you dear. You keeping our Jordan out of trouble?â Brink asks as he comes out of his office, not surprised to see you perched on Jordanâs desk.Â
âProfessor, we both know that Iâm the one getting Jordan into trouble.â You flash the older man your most mischievous grin.Â
âAh, my apologies. I assume that means youâre distracting her from doing her work, as well?â Brink raises an eyebrow teasingly.Â
âYes.â You say.
âNo.â Jordan protests, at the same time.Â
You throw your head back with a laugh. âItâs a goal I hold most dear to my heart, to distract Jordan from grading these papers. I think Iâm succeeding wonderfully, youâll be happy to know, Professor.âÂ
âSheâs joking, Professor.â Jordan smacks your thigh and you glance down just in time to burn the image of her hand on your thigh into your brain. She almost never touches you, when sheâs like this.Â
âYou know, Jordan, I didnât happen to lose my sense of humor after I hit sixty.â Brink waves off Jordanâs concern and leans towards the two of you, whispering conspiratorially, âI know the gray hair gives the illusion of being a boring old fart, but I do like to laugh every now and then.â
Jordan shakes her head with a small laugh and you canât help but watch, entranced, at the way her hair brushes the olive skin of her cheeks. When you look back towards Brink you find him already watching you, a knowing smile on his lips. You laugh nervously, and look down at the wood grain texture of Jordanâs desk. Itâs suddenly fascinating. Is it real oak? Cherry?
âYou close to being done, Jordan?â Brink asks casually.Â
âUh-â Jordanâs face blanches and you suddenly feel genuinely sorry for distracting her from her work.Â
â-relax, kiddo. Youâre not in trouble. Geez, what am I, a work nazi? Those papers donât need to be graded for another four days, right? You work too hard. I was just asking causeâ I was getting a little hungry myself and wanted to know if you could use a break? Thereâs a great new Indian place nearby, apparently. Professor. Karp was telling me about it yesterday. Itâs only a twenty minute ride away. Wanna tag along?âÂ
âI should probably finish up a few more papers-âÂ
âShe would love to take a break, Professor.â You reach over, saving the work Jordanâs done and shutting down her laptop at lightning speed.Â
âBrat.â Jordan mouths the word at you quickly, so Brink wonât see.Â
You stick your tongue out at her, not caring if anyone sees.Â
âYou should come along too, Y/N. Been awhile since we last caught up.â Brink has a twinkle in his eye that you canât quite place.
You slide off Jordanâs desk anyways, not willing to pass up any valuable Time Spent With Jordan, âIâm not sure if I trust Professor Karpâs recommendation on restaurants, but Iâll try and be very brave about it if the food is awful.â
âJordan, have I ever told you how much I love this girl?â Professor Brink shrugs on his coat with a laugh.Â
âYeah.â Jordan watches Brink help you into your own coat with a small smile. âYeah, Professor you have.âÂ
âFucking fuck me!â Jordan throws her phone onto the coffee table in front of her.
âAre the parental units being emotional terrorists again?â You ask from your spot on her bed, turning the page of your textbook, mindlessly highlighting another sentence that could be important for the upcoming final.Â
âNo, itâs just the whole fucking roster is busy.â Jordan roughly runs a hand through her hair, disheveling her bob.Â
âHuh?â You look up from your notes.
âThe whole roster is locked in for finals but I really need to let off some fucking steam!â Jordan sighs.
âHow big is the roster?â You try to sound curious, like a best friend would be, and not irritated, like someone in love with their best friend would be.Â
âToo big for me to not be fucking someone right now.â Jordan snips.Â
âWe are studying right now. Or Iâm studying, and you should be studying too, instead of thinking about needing to get your rocks off.â You say coolly, flipping to the next page.Â
âI canât fucking focus.â Jordan groans, but comes back over to the bed and flops down beside you, throwing her arm over her eyes. âWhat concept are we on now?âÂ
âTheories on limiting public and private property damage in fights with other Supes.â
âThere is no fucking way I can focus on something that fucking boring without having an orgasm first.âJordan groans, again, âItâs not even about limiting loss of human life or injury?â
âNope. Property damage.âÂ
âFuck me!âÂ
You both fall into silence. You studying. Jordan, you assume, weighing the pros and cons of downloading Tinder. The thought makes your stomach drop.
Then you get an idea. An awful, horrible, no good, rotten fucking idea.Â
Your mouth is opening before you can stop yourself, âYou could fuck me.â
âHuh?â Youâve never seen Jordan sit up so fast.
âI just mean- ⌠we really gotta focus and I... I mean if you just need to let off some steam we could alwaysâŚâ You try your best to fumble your way into proper usage of the English language but even the thought of fucking Jordan makes that impossible.Â
âAre you serious right now?â Jordan shifts halfway through the sentence, eyes glued to your every nervous, jittery movement as you sit in front of him.
âWouldnât have said anything if it wasnât a real offer.â You say quietly, not looking up from the book.Â
Jordan snatches said book from your lap and tosses it away, ignoring your noise of protest. âYou donât think itâd make things weird?âÂ
âWeird was when I had to take you to get your wisdom teeth removed and you kept saying the green man was gonna get us while you were still high off the good stuff. Sex is just sex, right?â You try to say it casually.Â
âWould⌠would it be a one time thing?â Jordan asks slowly. Â
âIt could be more⌠we could be-â You say, equally as slow.Â
â- could be?â Jordan echoes, voice sounding oddly tight and expression carefully blank.
The look is so strange it makes you panic, and if youâd thought of saying something stupid and desperate for one second like âa coupleâ, well, that look on his face is more than enough to send you straight back to reality on the âmy-life-fucking-sucksâ express in no time flat.
âWe could be like friends with benefits!â You blurt out in one breath.Â
âOh.â Jordan says.Â
âIt was just an idea.â You reach for the textbook again, which landed near Jordanâs thigh. Youâre careful not to touch him when you grab it, or sound too disappointed, or heartbroken at the completely lackluster reaction Jordan has to the thought of having sex with you. âA stupid idea, forget it.â
âWhyâs it stupid?â Jordanâs brow furrows, tone teetering on the edge of defensive.Â
âI meanâŚâ You canât think of a reason fast enough. âWeâre probably sexually incompatible.âÂ
âWhy do you assume that?â Jordan goes from staring at you, to glaring at you.Â
Youâve always hated how once Jordan latches on to a line of questioning, you canât get them to drop that interrogation for shit. A dog with a bone has nothing on a Jordan who wants an answer.
âI donât⌠know?â You say, but it sounds like a question.Â
âI think weâd be compatible.â Jordan states this like heâd state the sky is blue or water is wet.Â
âHave you thought about it before?â You ask, bewildered.Â
âWhat, are you into something really kinky?â Jordan answers your previous question not at all.
âNo!â There goes that nervous body language of yours again.Â
âOnly way to really know if weâre sexually compatible is to actually try it out.â Suddenly, Jordan is within your personal space bubble.Â
You donât really know how to react, your body freezes up on instinct. Jordanâs hand comes up to rub soothing circles into the crook of your elbow. Your shoulders fall away from your ears.
âCan I kiss you?â Jordanâs voice is quiet, soft as he tilts his head to knock his nose against yours. Playful, teasing. But the look on his face is something you canât place at all.Â
You feel his breath on your lips and nod absentmindedly.Â
âDonât want you to nod when I ask you a question like this. Yes or no, Y/N?âÂ
âYe-â The words not fully out of your mouth before Jordan is kissing you, a heavy hand pulling you closer by the nape of your neck.Â
You pull yourself into Jordanâs lap and try to focus on how good it feels when he nips at your bottom lip, instead of how much you wished youâd asked him to be your boyfriend. Or girlfriend. Partner. Everything. Even if heâd said no, at least then you would have had an answer. Now youâve only made your life harder.Â
You stop thinking so much when Jordan puts a hand on your hip and guides you to grind yourself against him.Â
âY/Nâs right.â Jordan mutters, not looking up from his phone.Â
âNo, she is not. Youâre just agreeing with her because thatâs your default factory setting. Listen to the context of the argument please.â Andre snaps, drowning his Vought Triple meat burger in ketchup.
âI did. Your grim dark theory on childrenâs media is lame, and Y/N knows more about the Monsterâs Inc universe than you ever will.â Jordan shrugs.
âHah!â You laugh in Andreâs face.
âIs it really such a flex to be an expert on the lore of a Pixar movie universe?â Cate asks teasingly.Â
âYes.â You say.Â
âNo.â Andre says, like a sore loser. Â
âI agree with Y/N, itâs literally in the explicit text of the movie, Monsters Inc isnât a post-apocalyptic world. Itâs a separate dimension from ours. The monsters come to our dimension to harvest screams of children to get clean, scream energy. God, Andre, pay attention during movie night.â Luke jumps in on the tormenting Andre train, grinning wildly at the other man from across the table. He gets a middle finger for his troubles.Â
âIâm glad someone pays attention to the intricate lore of the greatest movie of all time.â You sniff haughtily.Â
âI literally agreed with you first.â Jordan looks at you from over the top of her phone in a way that makes you blush.Â
âIâm glad two people are paying attention to the intricate lore of the greatest movie of all time.â You clear your throat.Â
âThank you.â Jordanâs intense brown eyes fall away from you and you take a gulp of your drink.Â
âBathroom alert, Y/N. A stall just opened up.â Cate tells you pointing to the bathroom door right as another girl exits.Â
âI am kissing you on the lips, telepathically.â You say, sliding from the booth youâre all sharing.
âDonât you telepathically lip lock with my girlfriend.â Luke calls after you, laughing.
âGet some powers of telepathy yourself and make me, fire boy.â You enter the bathroom, shutting out the sounds of laughter from your table with a smile.Â
You take the biggest stall at the back and try to go about your business quickly. You hear two faucets turn on, someone washing their hands, and try not to get pee shy.Â
âSo how was it?â A monotone voice asks, you assume one of the hand washers.
âYou know I donât usually kiss and tell, but it was insane.â A higher, more giggly voice answers.Â
âSo they really are good in bed then, huh?â The monotone voice sounds a little more curious.Â
âIncredible. All the rumors are true. Theyâre a little⌠uh, brusque, about the after sex part, if Iâm putting it lightly, but the sex itself was great!â The high voice chirps.Â
âWhat? Did they throw you a towel and tell you to kick rocks?â The monotone voice asks.Â
âPretty much.â The high voice sighs. âBut they made me cum so many times I think Iâd still pick up if they called me again. You think they might?âÂ
âI say this with all the love in the world: girl stand up.â Monotone voice drawls.Â
âYou wouldnât be telling me that if you knew how good it felt to sit on her face.â High voice says.
You stifle a laugh, trying not to get caught eavesdropping, but with Supe hearing it really is hard to mind your own business. Besides, theyâre not being that quiet about the conversation anyways.Â
âIâll have to take your word for it.â
âOr you could experience it for yourself. They were just as good as a boy as they were as a girl. Maybe better. I dunno. She was more aggressive as a girl, which was kinda hot.âÂ
âJordan Li, pussy eating extraordinaire. Can we go now? Our food is probably ready.â Monotone voice sighs.Â
âFine, but Iâm telling you, the things they can do with a strap are-âÂ
The voices fade away with the sound of the bathroom door opening and closing.Â
You find you donât really want to finish eating your food, when you get back to the table. You spend the rest of lunch trying your best not to look at Jordan, and also ignoring Cateâs concerned gaze boring into the side of your skull.Â
You pretend to be sick to avoid having to face the reality of Jordan being more than happy to touch other girls as a girl. They just donât want to touch you when theyâre a girl. You wonder what about you is so uniquely off putting. You wonder why it canât be you. Why canât it ever fucking be you?Â
Jordan barges into your room on day three of the silent treatment that you told the group chat was due to a raging fever.Â
Luckily your eyes, swollen shut from all the crying, and the red nose to match, corroborate the story.Â
âWe got it all. Weâve got tissues. We got soup. We got pain meds. We got liquid meds. We also have all the ingredients for a hot toddy, if you want to mix your poisons a little.â Jordan begins to unpack everything onto your counter.Â
âI donât want to take anything.â You say morosely, and a little mean, kind of wanting to hate them but just feeling sad. Jordanâs your best friend before anything else, and you could never hate your first real friend.Â
âCome on, just a little something. You sound fucked up.â Jordan practically coos, touching your forehead. âFeels like your feverâs gone down a little. Sit up for me.â He says, and pulls you to sit up when you donât do it on your own. Â
âI donât want to fucking-â Jordan puts two pills in your mouth as soon as you open it to bitch at him. He hands you water to help you swallow it down.Â
âThanks for that. That was really fun for me.â You snap once youâre done.
âItâs for pain and should bring down the rest of your fever.â Jordan lays you back down, tucking the covers all the way up to your chin. You marvel at the way he doesnât rise to the bait of your very clear attitude. Jordan, catching the look on your face offers you a small glare. âIâm worried. You usually donât get sick. Iâll check that attitude when youâre better. Now, do you want the damn hot toddy or not?â He rubs your head soothingly.
âYes, please.â You try not to pout as you watch Jordan make the drink for you. You really hate how hard it is to hate them. âSorry, Jordie.âÂ
âOh, you can go ahead and save that apology for when I make you cry into your pillow, yeah?â Jordan doesnât even look up from measuring the ingredients.
You pull the covers over your head and leave them there until Jordan pulls them back down.Â
You almost hadnât come to the party.Â
You werenât in a partying mood, as of late. You were in more of a Shakespearean pining era than a City Girls one. But the group had bullied you in the group chat for a week straight until youâd promised to come. The group bullying hadnât worked so much as Jordan asking you one single time to go had.
So here you were.Â
Youâd been nursing one drink for the better part of an hour and hadnât done a single line of cocaine. Jordan had offered you some, but the line had already been placed on the back of his hand. You politely declined, much to his confusion. You only ever did hard drugs with Jordan, and only at big rager parties like this one.Â
At the moment youâre nearly sober. Because you didnât so much as want to touch Jordan right now. Let alone do something like snort a line off of him. Then youâd have to do something like lick the residue off his skin. Which would lead to kissing him. Which would lead to making out with him. Which would lead to fucking him.Â
And you think, for the sake of your sanity, you need to be done fucking Jordan Li.Â
Itâs been about three weeks since you were âsickâ and youâd dodged every attempt at getting physical that Jordan tried to initiate since. At first you were able to pass it off as still feeling icky. That excuse worked for a week. Now, you didnât hang out alone with them and pretended not to see Jordanâs âyou up?â texts until morning.Â
Your friendship just needs a hard reset. This time spent not having sex will do it.Â
Besides, itâs not like Jordan isnât swimming in fucking choices. What does it matter if youâre one less body off the menu? There are plenty of hot girls at this school. Jordanâs probably already fucked half of them.
You throw back the rest of the drink youâve been nursing all at once.
âAre you okay?â Cate puts a hand on your arm and you offer her a blinding, completely fake smile.Â
âYeah!â You say, as chipper as possible.
âJesus christ.â Cate replies, face going all sad and concerned. âWhat did Jordan do?âÂ
âHuh?â You blink, confused.
âYou are the most pissed off Iâve ever seen you. What did Jordan do? Youâve been avoiding them for like two weeks. What gives?â Cate pulls you closer by the arm so that she doesnât have to shout over the music.Â
âNothing!âÂ
âCan you try to lie again but do it better, this time?â Cate frowns.
âJesus Christ, does everything have to be about Jordan? Must my whole entire goddamn life revolve around Jordan Li?â You snap, the way someone who isnât mad about anything does. Â
âOkay.â Cate says slowly. Like sheâs trying to placate a wild animal.Â
The tone alone makes you roll your eyes and move to disappear back in the crowd of drunk twenty-somethings. But she firms her grip on you, the leather of her glove digging into your skin.Â
âY/N-â
âIâm fine, Cate. I just have to get over it.âÂ
âGet over what?â Cate narrows her eyes at you. That shrewd look she sometimes wears when she knows something before someone else falls onto her face.Â
You wonder if youâre completely transparent about your pining or if Cate missed a dose of her medication. Is she starting to hear the buzzing of your frantic, angry, miserable thoughts? Or is she just naturally perceptive?Â
âSo, this is where the real party is hiding!â An arm is thrown around your shoulders suddenly and you are careful not to sigh, because Jordan may not be as perceptive as Cate, but theyâre pretty damn close. Especially when it comes to you.Â
Youâve never moved away from them holding you close like this before, so you canât do it now. You try to just be still. Donât lean into his warmth, but donât cringe away either. You probably used to melt against him, when he touched you. Pathetically. Desperately. A sunflower following rays of light across the sky.Â
â-Princess?â Jordan gives you a gentle shake and your head snaps to the side to look at him. âYou okay?â
âYup!â Apparently, you didnât say that convincingly because he starts to scowl at you. Surprisingly enough, the thought of withstanding a Jordan interrogation does not make you want to be at this party for much longer. âIâm gonna head out, though.âÂ
âWhat?!â Twin exclamations of confusion form Jordan and Cate both.
âNot feeling it. I think I need to get some more sleep. I got a headache, or⌠something.â You shrug.
âOr something?â Jordan echoes.
âYou are not going anywhere, yet, dear friend.â Andre throws his own arm around you, appearing from thin air, and tugging you away from Jordan. Youâve never been more grateful to him.Â
âHow do you figure that?â You laugh.
âWeâre about to play truth or dare in the other room and you dodged playing last time. You can leave after youâve played. You canât get known as the truth or dare dodger.â Andre says.Â
âYou say that as if being a party game dodger is like being known for dodging the Vietnam draft.â You snort.
âNo, itâs worse. People that dodged the Vietnam drafts are heroes. Truth or dare dodgers are cowards. Come on.â Andre begins to drag you towards the other room and you go along with minimal dragging of your feet across the floor.Â
The room is crowded, but all the faces are familiar. Theyâre all within the top twenty, or the groupies that hang around everyone in the top twenty. You pull Andre across the room to a spot on a raggedy couch you have to squeeze the both of you into. No room for Jordan, who you want to avoid. Or Cate, who is too fucking perceptive.Â
You wish youâd grabbed another drink for yourself. Jordan winds up across the room from you, in an optimal position for trying to catch your eye and give you a concerned look every ten seconds.Â
This does not make Truth or Dare more fun to watch.Â
Vulgar dare from one classmate to another. Forcing someone else to admit an uncomfortable truth. One humiliation after the other. Pick your poison on whether you want to debase yourself through the damnation of your own words or a physical act. All challenges of self-mortification being doled out by people who secretly donât like each other very much, but all call each other friends anyways.Â
âEarth to Y/N the space cadet.â The girl sitting next to you gives you a playful shove. You try not to glare at her. Her name escapes you. You think she hangs around with number 6. Or something.Â
âWhat?â
âCate picked you. Truth or dare.â She says the words ominously, causing teasing jeering to rise from the entire group.Â
âWell, Y/N, whatâs it gonna be?â Cate raises her eyebrow at you challengingly.Â
âShe doesnât have to play if she doesnât want to, guys.â Jordan rolls his eyes.
âDare.â You say, wanting to get this over with.Â
The room erupts into excited noise. You donât know why. Cate, of all people, would never force you to do anything humiliating. Or truly scandalous. Itâs why you trust her enough to say dare, instead of truth. But you never pick dare, because anyone else would abuse the power. Everyone looks too eager to see Number 3 do something embarrassing.Â
As if Cate isnât your closest friend beside Jordan. As if sheâd abuse the trust you place in her. It makes you sick. You donât wanna be here. At this party, or at this stupid fucking school.
âI dare youâŚ. to kiss the prettiest girl in the room.âÂ
âWhat?!â Jordan turns to give Cate the nastiest, most disgusted glare youâve ever seen.
âShe doesnât have to do it if she doesnât want to. You know Iâm all about consent.â Cate shrugs innocently, crossing her legs together and giving you a smirk.Â
You sit for a second, contemplating your next move. There are plenty of pretty girls at this party. In this room. If nothing else, the top twenty and their groupies are photogenic (hell, some of them are only in the top twenty because of their looks to begin with. You hope youâre not one of those.) But thereâs only one girl you want to kiss at this party.Â
Thereâs only one person in the world you want to kiss at all.Â
You take a shaky breath, feeling like the walls are closing in. Andre nudges you subtly, catches your eye, as if to say: âyou okay?â but thereâs something else in the look too. Something that says itâs not just Cate, who knows. Probably your whole friend group knows how you feel. Probably the whole school. Probably anyone but Jordan sees it. And Jordan probably does see it, because theyâre too fucking smart not to, and theyâre choosing to ignore it. Because itâs easier that way. Because your feelings are probably too inconvenient. Because youâre not their type. Because youâre clingy, and stupid, and not good enough-Â
You stand up. The room is a wall of noise, and smell and sound pressing in on you. You see Cate smirk. You see Jordan looking away. You see every girl in the room sit up straight. Delusional, if they think any of them could ever be anything, compared to Jordan.Â
You walk past every other girl in the room, and stand in front of Jordan, who still isnât looking.
You kick his ankle with the toe of your heel, to get him to look at you. His head snaps around, the curls of his hair sticking to his forehead, and he looks comically confused. And itâs really too fucking much, for someone as smart as Jordan to look so confused. So fucking baffled, about whatâs happening here. But itâs a pretty convincing act. That only makes you more angry.Â
You make an impatient motion with your hand. A âdo it alreadyâ movement of your wrist. The same way youâd crossly signal for another driver to go first at a fucking four way stop.Â
He just blinks up at you, owlish.Â
"Well? Are you gonna let me kiss the prettiest girl at this fucking school or what, Li?" The room has gone a little quiet, or maybe the blood is rushing in your ears so bad everything is quiet in comparison.Â
Jordan stares up at you for a moment longer than is comfortable. And you really start to feel the eyes of everyone in the room on you. You donât let yourself shy away from the attention. Not Jordanâs, not anyone elseâs. You straighten your spine and look down your nose at him, and tap your foot. Try to look like the mean girl everyone expects you to be because no one cares who you actually are.Â
As if you could care less if Jordan leaves you stranded right now. As if it will be their loss, if they donât kiss you, instead of the worst moment of your entire life.Â
Jordan shifts.Â
You try not to think of how desperate you must look, when you reach out at a speed that isnât human to hold her face and angle it up, so you can finally fucking kiss the girl you love.Â
You wish you could kiss her like it didnât mean anything. Like sheâs nothing. Like you hate her. But you donât know if this is the only time youâll ever get to kiss Jordan when sheâs your girl, and not your boy. This might be the last time you kiss Jordan ever.Â
It has to be.Â
You close your eyes tight. Try to ignore the way theyâre stinging. You kiss Jordan slow and tender. The way youâve always wanted to. You tangle a hand in her hair, to bring her closer. You try not to marvel at the way the longer strands tangle in your fingertips. She gasps against you, and her hands find your waist and you are too sober to cry over Jordan touching your waist above your clothes. Like a fucking middle-schooler.Â
But the tears start falling anyways. You let out a quiet sob against her lips that you try your hardest to stifle, and Jordan may not have kissed you like this before. But sheâs kissed you plenty. She pulls back, startled, like an animal. Big brown eyes full of concern.Â
And the spell is broken, and you are standing in front of about thirty of the worldâs worst, most unsympathetic human beings, crying, because you kissed your best friend who doesnât want you back.Â
Youâve got ten seconds to leave before someone pulls out their phone and records you. If they havenât already started.Â
So you run.
Through your tears the layout of the house becomes unfamiliar. You try to hide your face a little, and hope people donât recognize you as you pass them by, sobbing openly.Â
Years of pent up feelings are bubbling out of you. The relief. The grief. The way you hate yourself for falling in love with the only person who has ever loved you. Wondering why you couldnât just be grateful for the kindest, most understanding friendship you never even thought yourself worthy of. Why couldnât that have been enough?Â
Why did you fall in love with them?Â
A hand closes around your wrist and you try to yank yourself away but youâre pulled into a bathroom and the door slams shut behind you.Â
You wipe your eyes so you can see whoâs tried to save you from embarrassing yourself any further.Â
Itâs Jordan. Because of course it is.
You burst into tears again.Â
âAre you fucking drunk? What the fuck was that? Y/N what the fuck is happening right now?â Jordan sounds on the verge of a mental break.Â
Sheâs probably wondering what type of things people are gonna start saying about the two of you on social media. Sheâs probably mad at you for giving her a PR mess to clean up.Â
âIâm not drunk!â You protest, sounding a little like someone who might be drunk.Â
âAre you high? What did you take? Lemme see your pupils.â Jordan reaches out to grab your face and you swat her hand away.Â
âNo one fucking drugged me, Jordan. Iâm just a stupid fucking idiot whoâs in love with you! There! Are you happy?! Why donât you go laugh at me with one of your stupid fucking girlfriends. Youâve got so fucking many of them.â You wail, sinking down to the floor, and hiding your face in your arms.Â
The room goes quiet, besides the sound of you crying. Loudly. You think you might be having an anxiety attack. You canât breathe right. But maybe thatâs just from the heaving, toddler-like sobs.Â
âYouâre in love with me?â Jordan asks, quietly.Â
âAs if you donât know!â You snap your head up to glare at her. She kneels down in front of you, and puts her hand on your knee and you try not to get distracted by how pretty she is. âI follow you around like a puppy dog. Like your little shadow. And everyone notices except for you, because you donât want to notice, because you donât fucking want me. I got the message, Jordan. I got it!âÂ
âWhat message?!â Jordan grabs you by the shoulders, voice fraying at the edges, and looks like she wants to shake you.
âYou donât touch me!â Your voice raises to the edge of a yell, and the sound of it echoes in the small room.Â
âWhat are you fucking talking about-â
â-donât be cute, Jordan. You donât touch me when youâre a girl! I thought⌠I thought it was maybe just that you didnât touch girls when youâre a girl but it isnât. Apparently you have plenty of fucking girls that you touch and fuck, when youâre a girl. Itâs just me, that you donât! Whatâs so fucking bad about me? Huh? Whatâs wrong with me? Why donât you want me?â You demand.
You think you might sound like an insane person, and you wish you could pull the words back in but the hurt is bubbling out. A river relishing that first burst of freedom when a dam breaks, no matter how much damage it causes.Â
Jordan is staring at you like youâve grown two heads. Mouth agape. You wish you were dead, a little.
âIâm sorry. Iâm sorry, Jordie.â Your voice goes small, and you sniffle. âI really tried to stop. But I canât, I love you. Iâve probably loved you from that very first day. Because youâre wonderful, youâre the most wonderful person Iâve ever met and I donât know how anyoneâŚâ You trail off, fanning at your eyes to try and pull yourself together. â...I donât know how everyone else knows you without being in love with you. I wish I wasnât in love with you, please donât be mad, please donât fucking-â You sob, again.Â
You find yourself pulled into Jordanâs lap this time. Itâs a foreign feeling, to be touching so much of Jordan when sheâs like this. You bury your face into her neck and cry, and let her black hair block out the fluorescent lighting. She shushes you, cheek pressing against the side of your head, and thatâs familiar. The way she soothes you. Your hands wrinkle the fabric of her jacket, clinging to her tightly.Â
âIâm sorry. I can get over it, I promise. I just needed to tell you. Iâve never kept anything from you before. It was killing me, but I can get over it, Jordie, I promise-âÂ
âHey, hey, hey, no-â Jordanâs turning you to look at her suddenly. âDonât fucking⌠Iâm not⌠Iâm not mad at you or fucking⌠gonna leave you, Y/N. What the fuck? I love you.â
You could start crying from the relief of hearing those words come from her lips again. You thought she wouldnât ever speak to you again. She grabs you by the chin and kisses you, hard, your teeth clink together and your noses mush and you go completely still and frozen, like a scared deer.Â
âI could see the words not fucking register in your brain the way I meant them. I am in love with you. Romantically.â Jordan barely pulls away, you feel her lips brush against yours, every other word.Â
âWhat?âÂ
Jordan laughs, âGood, now youâre just as confused as I fucking was. Why the fuck wouldnât I want you? Iâve always wanted you. YouâreâŚyou.âÂ
âIâm me?â You echo.Â
âI didnâtâŚ. I didnât want to make you feel⌠like everyone else has. Like I was just fucking waiting around for a chance to date you. Or fuck you. As if your friendship doesnât fucking matter. Or was a consolation prize, if I couldnât get you to date me. It isnât a consolation prize. Itâs the most important thing to me in the fucking world.â Jordan laughs, and the sound is suspiciously choked up.Â
âOh.â You say, and are crying. Again. Jordan laughs and wipes the tears away with her thumb.Â
âBut what about when we started having sex? You still⌠never touched me when youâre like this.âÂ
âYouâve never said anything about liking girls.â Jordan says quietly.
âYouâre not just a girl. Youâre the girl. And guy. â You say, holding her hand against your face and kissing her palm fiercely. She laughs again, and puts her forehead against yours.Â
âSo what? Iâm the one girl youâre into?â Jordan raises a brow and doesnât look very happy saying the words, oddly enough.Â
You tilt your head trying to puzzle out why, slowly, you arrive at a conclusion. âI literally talk about girls all the time.âÂ
âWhen?!âÂ
âIâm constantly pointing out pretty ones!â You snap.Â
âI thought you were just being sweet!â Jordan snaps back.Â
You close your eyes and breathe in the smell of her cologne.Â
âYou make me so angry I donât know how to think.â You say, and kiss her bottom lip softly. âYouâre not an⌠experiment, if thatâs what youâre asking. Youâre theâŚâ You trail off, realizing this is not one of your romantic daydreams where youâve thought of the words youâd tell Jordan over and over again.Â
In real life you canât tell people that theyâre the love of your life if you arenât their girlfriend. Unless you want to look crazy.
Jordan, who is your best friend, before sheâs anything else, melts. Because she knows you well enough to know what you arenât saying.
âYeah.â Jordan nods, sniffling once and trying to look very tough even though her lip is quivering a little. âI⌠I love you too. Or whatever.âÂ
âIf it makes you feel better Iâve slept with other women before, to make sure I wasnât just in love with you.âÂ
âWeird fucking thing to tell me after I say I love you, but go off.â She glares at you.Â
âI think you could do with feeling a little jealous. Why am I hearing stories about how good you are at fucking other women while Iâm trying to piss at Vought Burger in peace?âÂ
âWhat?â Jordanâs brow furrows.Â
âThree weeks ago I heard-â
â-I fucking knew youâve been mad at me!â Jordan grabs your waist, pulling you closer.
âYou would have been pissed too, if you heard the shit I was hearing!âÂ
âIf I hear anyone talking about fucking you ever again Iâm going to go to prison.â
âHot.âÂ
âShut up and be my girlfriend.â
âShut up and be my everything.âÂ
âYouâre gross.â But she kisses you, and itâs gentle, and no one else is there to see it.Â
And itâs perfect.
A/N: this is my first time doing full on smut for a fic! it beat me the fuck up. if you enjoyed this fic consider reblogging, leaving a reply, or an anon! a writers fuel is engagement. and this fic took too damn long to write. xoxoxo
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You stumble into Jordan's dorm room at three a.m., the world spinning with each step, and soft laughter bubbling up from deep within you. You fumble with the key, the metal clanking loudly against the lock. With a final curse and a triumphant giggle, you manage to open the door stumbling into the dimly lit room, illuminated only by moonlight. Every attempt at silence is thwarted by your clumsiness, knocking into furniture and cursing under your breath as you stub your toe on an unseen obstacle.
Jordan had woken up when you were fumbling with the key on the lock, their eyes barely open as they observe your drunken antics with a fond smile. They pretend to be asleep, enjoying the spectacle of your stumbling entry into the room, drunkenly swaying as you walk.
The room spins slightly as you collapse on the couch, kicking off your shoes and struggling to remove your pants, the alcohol rendering you both clumsy and giddy. From the bed, Jordan watches you with amusement, their smile growing wider with each of your drunken movements. With a mischievous giggle, you shuffle towards them, your steps unsteady. Jordan shuts their eyes tightly, pretending to be oblivious to your approach. In the darkness, you don't notice the subtle rise and fall of their chest as they suppress a chuckle.
Just as Jordan expects to feel the bed shift under your weight, everything goes silent. Too silent. They're about to peek, open their eyes, when suddenly, you throw yourself onto the bed, landing on top of them. Your limbs tangle with theirs in a drunken embrace. A loud giggle bursts from your lips as you clutch onto them.
âJesus, fuck!" Jordan exclaims, caught off guard by your sudden assault. But their hands instinctively hold onto you as you start sliding off the bed in your drunken state. Pulling you closer, their hand bringing your thigh to rest on top of their hip, you nuzzle your face onto their chest breathing them in.
"Sorry, baby," you slur, your words muffled against their chest as you snuggle closer, sighing happily as their hand travels up your back to stroke your hair. You lift your head to meet their eyes, your vision hazy. They shift a hand to cup your cheek, a soft smile forming on their lips as they look down at you.
"Someone had a good time." They say with a teasing smile, placing a tender kiss on your forehead. You nod enthusiastically, giggle softly as they caress your cheek. You close your eyes, sighing as you rest your head back down on their chest, breathing in the comforting scent of them. Jordan's arm wraps tighter around you, as the other gently strokes your hair, the rhythmic motion lulling both of you to sleep.
Jordan Li x fem!Reader | 2.4k Words
Summary: Playing games with Jordan Li
Tags: Situationship, Mentions of drugs and alcohol, No actual smut but descriptions of previous encounters
You and Jordan had a thing.
You didnât know what else to call it. All you did was argue and fuck. It was an endless cycle, but oh so fucking hot. You love to provoke them, knowing exactly what buttons to push to get them to pin you up against the wall, no matter what form they were in.
Your body responding instantly when they wrap their hand around your neck, their other hand tightly gripping your hip holding you firmly against the wall. Pulling you up slightly on your tiptoes to meet their lips. Your lips would be bruised from kissing and biting, their tongue licking your lip before sinking their teeth into your bottom lip.
The grip they had around your throat tightening slightly as you moan into their mouth. Loving the way they would plant wet hot kisses down your neck, leaving dark hickeys along the way, not caring who would see them. Their hands would travel up your thighs, their fingers dipping inside your wet folds. Your breath would catch and your body would quiver every time. They would always chuckle softly when they realise you had provoked them for this exact reason. They love to play this game as much as you did. They love to see how fast they could make you squirm, get you all worked up until you were begging for more.
You wanted them. You always did. You want them, and you didn't care where. The dorm room floor, their desk, inside one of the many empty classroom. You just needed to feel them, their cock, their fingers, their mouth, willing to take any part of them. They would never give in right away though. Toying with you, loving how your lips pouted when you begged them to give you more.
They would tease you with their fingers, mouth hot on your neck. Whispering all the dirty little things they could do to you, knowing you would let them. Their fingers would be relentless, working you up, just enough to drive you crazy. Always making you cry out in frustration when they pull back. They always pulled back. Always. Walking away, not sparing you another look. Knowing you would come crawling back to them later.
You always did.
Except, this time you didn't.
It was late. And you hadnât come to find them. They were angry, frustrated and oh so unbelievably hard. They knew what you were doing. Playing this dirty little game, just as well as they were, so why the fuck didn't you come?
They couldnât sleep. They had been up for hours thinking about you. Imagining the sweet taste of your soft lips and the low whimpers you made when they nibbled on your neck. The way your back would arch against their hips and how your thighs would tremble when they made you cum.
The images were intoxicating. It drove them insane. They rolled over in bed grabbing their phone off the desk. Scrolling through their contacts until they found yours. Fuck it.
They sent you a text.
You up?
Yup, real fucking classy, Jordan! They say to themselves, sighing resting their phone on their chest. Closing their eyes waiting, trying to get the images of your soft lips around their cock or pussy out of their mind. What the fuck am I doing? they think to themselves. Opening their eyes, staring blankly at the ceiling. Their phone suddenly lighting up, vibrating.
What the fuck, youâre calling them? They think to themselves slightly confused, it was 3am. But nonetheless, they pick up, after letting it ring for a few seconds. Saying nothing when they do.
"Maybe, what do you want?" you say after a few silent seconds. Your voice low but teasing. They could hear the playful smirk on your lips. Your turn now to torture them.
"You know what I want." They growled, too hot and bothered to be playing this game now.
"Sorry, baby." You said, so deliciously sweet. "But you brought this upon yourself. Figure it out."
The line went dead. You hung up on them. They could imagine the shit-eating grin you had on your face, and fuck if that didn't turn them on more. They groaned, dropping their phone on the desk, palming their erection through their boxers.
"Fuck this!" they say out loud, quickly getting up walking towards their door. Pausing, when their hand touched the handle. They shake their head, turning back. Shifting into their smaller form, walking into the bathroom instead. Jordan Li does not lose.
It had been a two whole week since either of you even stood in the same room. You thought about them every night, your fingers hovering over their contact on your phone way too many times but you were adamant about staying strong. This was the game, you weren't going to lose. You didn't want to be the first to crack, not this time.
But fuck, you wanted them, so fucking bad. The thought of their fingers inside you, making you squirm and writhe, their mouth sucking and licking. You craved their touch. You missed how their lips and hands explored every inch of your body, knowing exactly how to give you the release you so desperately needed.
It was Friday night and the party was raging, but doing nothing to calm the fire within you. You wanted to forget, the alcohol was helping, but only a little. You were beyond drunk, dancing with a group of girls you barely knew. Your body moving with the music, sweat glistening on your skin.
They were there too, standing across the room. You didnât notice when they came in at first but you felt their their eyes trained on you, their jaw clenched, eyes dark. Watching how you danced, how your hips moved, and how your body swayed to the music. The hem of your dress dangerously high on your thighs. You knew they were watching, your own eyes meeting theirâs a few times, giving them a teasing smile, and playful wink. The glare on their face only deepening each time your eyes met.
You knew they couldn't stand it any more than you could. It was taking every bit of self-control to stay where you were. You turned around, ignoring their stare before you threw it all away. Resisting the urge to crawl back to them at the first sight of them in weeks. You were still conscious enough to know you didnât want to lose. Choosing to continue this game a little longer, even though the desire and lust for them was consuming you.
After a few songs, one of the girls from the group pulled out a small baggie filled with bright blue pills with a small star in the middle. All the other girls from the group squealed, jumping up and down in excitement. You hesitated; you were already so fucking drunk and high. You had taken something from one of the other girls earlier, wanting to get out of your own head. You had never been this gone before, especially when you were out alone with a bunch of people you barely knew.
The girl with the baggie slowly walked up to you, making a show of it. Holding the small pill up to your lips, with an playful flirty smile. You giggle, smiling back, rolling your eyes playfully. Fuck it! You think to yourself. Slowly opening your mouth, extending your tongue winking playfully at the girl standing inches from you. She giggles as she places the pill on your tongue winking back at you before turning back to the rest of the group to continue to party.
"What the fuck are you doing!" You heard a familiar voice growl in your ear. Your body stiffened, eyes going wide. Not having noticed when Jordan had moved. Their hands quickly turning you around to face them, their right hand roughly gripping your jaw. Their thumb and index finger pressing into your cheeks forcing you to look up at them.
âOpen.â They command, eyes trained on your lips, waiting for you to obey. Ignoring the stares and questions from the girls behind you.
You huff, rolling your eyes pressing your lips tighter shut. Ignoring them. Their eyes instantly going up to meet yours when you refuse to obey. Their eyebrows pinching together in further frustration.
âOpen.â They repeat louder, pinching your cheeks harder causing your lips to pout. Small whimper leaving your lips.
âDonât make me say it again, princess.â They growl, emphasizing the last word. Their eyes staring directly into yours. Their eyes dark with lust and something else, almost possessive. You can tell they were no longer in the mood to be playing games.
Yet you continue to stare at them with wide, puppy-like eyes, your lips perfectly pouted. Your eyes glistening from the intense grip they had on your jaw. Despite trying to stand your ground, you still hadn't swallowed the pill. Battling internalling between your own stubbornness and the need to not provoke them further. Finally, with a reluctant sigh, you slowly open your mouth, extending your tongue out. The bright blue pill resting at the tip, staining your tongue blue.
They quickly lift their other hand up, taking the pill from your tongue between two fingers. âI told you not to take shit I didnât give you myself.â They seethed, crushing the pill in between their fingers, wiping the residue on their pants.
âWhat else did you take?â They ask, eyes flicking from left to right, looking at your blown pupils, hand still firmly gripping your chin, roughly turning your face side to side.
âIt hurts,â you whine, bottom lip trembling. Their fingers were gripping your face way too tight, causing the muscles to start twitching.
âYeah, well I am not very happy with you right now. So I donât really care.â They say, not loosening their grip on your jaw. They still looked angry, their jaw set, and eyes glaring. They look away from you, quickly scanning the crowd. The girls you had been with were long gone. Jordan hadnât recognize any of them.
"Tell me you didnât come here alone?" They ask, looking back down at you. Voice terribly calm but their eyes showing their frustration. You try to shake your head, but their grip on your jaw tightens, making you squeak out a quiet maybe. They curse under their breath. Shaking their head, letting out a small, humorless chuckle. "Unfuckingbelievable." They say, releasing your jaw. Their right hand reaching down to grab your wrist.
They turn around, pulling you along the crowd. You stumble, legs giving out from underneath you, the alcohol and drugs affecting you more then you had thought. They groan in frustration, letting go of your wrist, quickly bending down gripping your waist and throwing you over their shoulder.
âJordan, what fuck!â You say, trying to push yourself off them. They ignore you, walking away from the crowd, towards the nearest exit.
"I can't leave you alone for one fucking minute, can I?" They grumble, shaking their head. As you squirm trying to break free from their ironclad grip.
âStop moving.â They ordered, slapping your thigh before pulling your dress down lower over your ass and thighs as they made their way through Dustyâs house and out the front door. Your body resting limply on their shoulder, no other choice but to let them carry you. Your head too muddy to keep fighting. They walked through the house ignoring the occasional stares from random partygoers.
Once outside, they not so gracefully placed you on the grass, kneeling down in front of you as you sat yourself up. Taking a deep breath of the cold night air. They gently started to stroke their knuckles across your cheek. Your eyes tightly shut, your head spinning from being upside down, and the sudden hit of fresh air.
"Look at me." They say firmly, but the angry tone no longer present in their voice. Your eyes slowly fluttering open, meeting theirs. Eyes unfocused and hazy. Their hand goes back to your jaw, this time, much softer, stroking the skin they had grabbed so harshly before.
"What else did you take?" They ask again, continuing to stroke your cheek with their thumb.
"IâŚI don't remember," you mumble, your head falling onto their shoulder, nuzzling into their neck. Your thoughts hazy, not sure if it was the drugs, or alcohol, or Jordan.
"You smell nice," you say breathing them in, pressing your nose against their neck. Resting more of your weight onto them, but they don't seem to mind. Their left arm wrapped tightly around your waist, holding you steady, while their right hand ran through your hair, lightly scratching at your scalp. Both of you sitting in silence for a few moments. The only noise the muffled music from the party, and the soft breeze ruffling the leaves.
You hear them release a heavy breath, obviously trying to calm themselves. "I can't fucking believe you," they suddenly say, pulling your head back by your hair to meet their eyes. A slight whimper leaving your lips. "I was going to leave, you know? I was going to let you have your fun, let you think you won. But you can't help being such a fucking brat, can you princess?" The ask, tone harsher than they intended.
They paused, searching your eyes. The small pout on your lips and the glazed over look in your eyes making it hard for them to maintain their anger. Their grip on your hair loosens and their hand coming up to press their thumb against your bottom lip, causing it to pucker slightly. While their other hand travels up your back to hold you by the back of your neck. They pull your bottom lip down slightly, your tongue darting out, tasting their finger.
"Fuck, donât tempt me right now." They mumble, watching how your lips wrapped around their thumb. Sucking on it softly, your eyes looking up at them, innocent yet hungry. They smirk at your antics, shaking their head. Even as drunk and high as you were right now you were still playing the game.
"I'm going to have so much fun punishing you, baby." They whisper, pulling their thumb out of your mouth. Leaning down to kiss your lips firmly. "But not tonight." They say, lifting you up once again. You instinctively wrapped your arms around their neck, and legs around their waist, whining in protest.
"Let's get you back to your dorm room, princess." They say, caressing the back of your neck. You hum in agreement, closing your eyes, relaxing into them once more. The dorms are only a short walk from Dustyâs run down house.
"Jordan?" you whisper, after a few minutes of walking in silence. Your head tucked against their neck.
"Mhm," they hummed in reply, their hand rubbing comforting circles into the small of your back, making sure your dress doesn't roll up as they held you.
"Thank you." You mumble into their neck. Your arms tightening their hold around their neck, nuzzling more into them.
"Don't mention it. But try not to be so fucking stupid next time." They say, with a slight reprimand in their tone. You canât stop the laugh that escapes your lips at their remark. Unfortunately, this was not the first time they had to rescue you.
This was honestly purely for my own self indulgence, and kinda might have already started writing the punishment... đŤŁ
Here is a little preamble for Part 2 đ
I've been thinking about Jordan finding out something silly you've been keeping a secret because you're embarrassed - a stuffed animal or baby blanket, maybe a diary, maybe you have a secret skill/hobby/interest thats childish/weird/embarrassing. đđđ
Aw, this was such a cute idea I had to write something fun and fluffy. Sorry, it took forever! Life really been lifing lately.
You and Jordan entered your dorm room, the echo of your shared laughter contrasting the previous silence in the dimly lit room. Jordan held the door open as you walked in, heading straight to your closet in the far corner of the room.
Jordan had surprised you with reservations to your favorite restaurantâa place you both frequented, filled with shared memories. You knew this sweet gesture was their silent apology for the busy week they had. However, as you were about to leave, a light drizzle began to patter against their office window, creating a rhythmic symphony on the glass.
Jordan, always the protective one, had been adamant that you wear a jacket. They had seen you shiver in the cold one too many times, and insisted on you being prepared for an unexpected turn in the weather. So, with an exasperated sigh and a playful roll of your eyes, you had agreed to fetch a warmer layer from your closet before stepping out into the drizzling night.
"It's barely raining, Jordan. I couldâve of gone without a jacket!" you yelled from inside of your small closet, searching through the hangers for your favorite coat.
"Yeah, yeah, just get your coat. I'm not about to let you catch a cold again," they respond, lifting a pillow to sit on your bed by the headboard.
"What's this?" you heard Jordan ask. At the sound of their voice, you step out of the closet, turning towards them. Your eyes widen as you see them holding the small lilac knitted blanket that you kept neatly folded under your pillow. Horrified, you rushed towards them, trying to pull the small blanket from their hands, but they were too quick. They jumped off the bed, quickly standing up, holding the blanket out of your reach, a wide grin on their face.
"Babe, do you sleep with a blankie?" they ask teasingly, their grin widening as they see your cheeks redden.
"No," you respond sharply. They raise an eyebrow challengingly, glancing from your face to the small blanket in their hands, a deadpan expression at your obvious lie.
With a dramatic roll of your eyes and heavy sigh, you say, "Ok, maybe. Now give it back," reaching for it again, but they easily avoid your grasp.
"No, no, princess. How did I not know you slept with a blankie!?" They ask, with a teasing smile, waving the said blanket away from your reach.
âJordan, please!â You plead, stepping towards them again. But they step back, switching growing taller, raising the blanket above their head ensuring you can't reach it.
"Ok, that's not fair!" you exclaim, now standing directly in front of them, your eyes locked onto theirs in a defiant glare. Their vexing smile remained unwavered under your intense glare.
"Care to explain?" they retort, a gleam of amusement twinkling in their eyes. They are looking down at you with a playful, almost teasing smile. Their hand slowly waving the small blanket back and forth, the movement adding emphasis to their words. You can't help but groan internally, a sigh of frustration welling up inside you. You close your eyes for a brief moment, steeling yourself, knowing they won't let the topic go.
"UghâŚfine," you groan, tilting your face up to meet their gaze. "My grandmother made it for me before I was born. IâŚI've slept with it every day since." You say quickly, your voice trailing off as you look away, feeling embarrassed.
You had forgotten about the blanket, you usually stored it in the back of your dresser whenever Jordan came over. Initially, you were hesitant to bring it to college, but you couldn't bear to leave it behind. You rationalized with yourself that you would only keep it until you adjusted to the new place and schedule, knowing you wouldn't sleep without it. But itâs been two years now, and you still found comfort knowing it was under your pillow, a little piece from home.
You felt vulnerable and a little exposed. No one knew about the blankie, not even your parents who thought you lost it a long time ago. You were supposed to be an adult now, yet the soft, worn-out fabric under your pillow brought you comfort that nothing else had, well, until you met Jordan.
After an awkward silence, you slowly lifted your head to meet their warm gaze, you noticed a soft smile and a glimmer in their eyes, your eyebrow arching slightly in question.
"That's really sweet," they said, as they brought their hand up to gently brush your cheek with their thumb. You felt your cheeks grow warm, not sure if it was from embarrassment or their touch.
"Itâs embarrassing," you mumbled, looking down at your feet.
"No, it's not. I think it's endearing. Cute, actually," they countered, lifting your chin to meet their eyes again. You searched their eyes for some form of judgment or mockery, but all you found was the familiar warmth and kindness they only had for you.
After a silent pause, an impish glint appeared in their eyes. Teasingly, they asked, "Do you also have a stuffed animal tucked away somewhere that you cuddle with when I'm not around?" They asked with a playful smirk, a gentle ribbing that made the room feel a little less tense.
Your face quickly turned into a soft glare. "Asshole," you retorted, suppressing a chuckle, attempting to push them away. But they were quicker, pulling you towards them, their arms encircling your waist, the small blanket resting on your back.
"I'm kidding, Iâm kidding," they said, their laughter echoing in the air around you. Their eyes were sparkling with mischief and amusement yet full of adoration. They leaned down, their lips meeting yours in a sweet, lingering kiss.
"You're still an asshole," you mumbled against their lips, as they broke away from the kiss. They laughed out loud before placing a quick peck on the lips. They held you by the waist as their hands softly rubbed the small of your back, their nose lightly brushing against yours in a tender moment before they stepped away.
"Alright, come on, let's go. I'm hungry," they declared. "And don't forget your coat!" they added, their voice light and playful. They gently took the small blanket, their fingers softly smoothing out any creases as they folded it neatly before placing back under your pillow. You watched them, a soft smile playing on your lips as you put on your coat.
Once you were both ready, they interlocked their fingers with yours in a familiar, comforting grip. They lifted your intertwined hands, placing a soft kiss on the back of your hand - a silent promise of affection that sent a shiver down your spine. You had your safety blanket, you had your coat, and most importantly, you had Jordan.
Don't really take request as I can't promise I will get to them but this was too cute not to do, and exactly what I needed. Thanks Anon!
"You wanna go out to dinner tonight? Know I've been busy this week. Feel like I've barely seen you." Jordan mutters against the shell of your ear. You shiver as he gives the skin a teasing kiss.
Already you're pouting, knowing what your answer has to be even though you wish so desperately that you could give a different response. "Wish I could, Jordan. But my night is already spoken for."
You're spun around by a hand on your hip, playful and fast so that you can't stop yourself from falling into his chest. Your hands grip his jacket for balance, and he reaches up to hold one of them with his own. "You got plans? With who? Cate? Cancel them."
"Brat." You laugh.
How demanding Jordan is would be less cute if they ever asked you to do something they themselves wouldn't. As it stands, with the way they do anything you ask at the drop of a hat, all you can do is roll your eyes and pretend to be exasperated instead of smitten.
"Fine, don't cancel. I'll just come with." Jordan sighs, as if seeing his best friend is a great tragedy (Which it is. Cate being there means you'll smack Jordan's hand away when he tries to sneak it up your skirt at dinner.)
"What if we want a girls' night?" You shoot back, grinning.
Jordan shifts. The hands on your waist are smaller now, but pull you in closer, "You're the one who's feeling bratty. Really have been neglecting you this week, huh baby?" Jordan smirks, in that condescending way she does when she realizes you're trying to get a certain reaction out of her.
"The plans aren't with Cate, and they aren't cancellable." You sigh, deciding not to rise to the bait of her tone, smirk, or the little circles she's rubbing into your skin.
"What are these oh so important plans?" Jordan asks.
"Do you know how many white boys have complimented my hair today, Jordan?" You ask.
"Pardon?" Jordan blinks at what seems to be a completely unrelated topic.
"Six! Six white boys complimented my braids today. I'm about to kill myself, if we're being honest. I must looked fucked up, and you didn't even say anything." You pout.
You've been having a bit of a rough day, to say the least.
"You look beautiful. What are you talking about?" Jordan asks, confused but nonetheless, wanting to make you feel better. "If you didn't look good I'd very politely... have Cate tell you. But you look great! You've been getting compliments all day, you just said it yourself!"
"Wow, you'd throw Cate under the bus, huh coward?"
"Cate isn't interested in making out with you every spare second of the day. I am. You can be mad at her. I've got stuff I wanna do." Jordan's grin is downright salacious. You smack her arm, trying not to smile.
"Ah. You are operating under the same delusions of the white man. I see that now, I'll let go of the anger." You say, sighing and kissing Jordan on the cheek.
"First of all, don't you ever fucking insult me like that again.... Second of all, what particular delusion am I sharing with the white man?" Jordan asks.
"White men only compliment a black woman's hairstyle at two points in time. When it's brand spanking, fresh off the lot new. Or when it's started to look like shit. I've had these braids in for longer than... is your business. So guess which compliment I'm getting right now?"
"I fucking refuse to say your hair looks like shit, and this conversation feels like a trap. You're always beautiful to me." Jordan says.
"Thank you, baby. But we live on a campus where the diversity win photographers lurk around every corner trying to get pictures of 'The Diversity Win Couple' in our most natural state. I need to take out my braids tonight before I talk crazy in the group chat, and Andre sends me a 'this you?' pic that will devastate my argument." You shake your head somberly, already imagining the fate that lies before you.
"You could stop talking crazy in the group chat." Jordan teases.
"You know damn well I'm not capable of that."
The two of you burst into laughter, unable to keep it together. Jordan has always been obsessed with how easy it is for you to make them laugh.
"Is that gonna take up your whole night, though, baby? We don't have to go to dinner early! We'll go wherever you want." Jordan insists, tone bordering on begging.
Whenever they come out of a particularly busy week, they spend the next two weeks glued to you. As if to make up for it. The clinginess is a stark difference from how they acted before you made things official.
"Jordan, look at the braids on my head."
"I'm looking at them."
"Are you seeing them with your eyes?"
"Yes, and my eyes are sending the image to my brain, which I assure you is working. What's your point here, baby?"
"How long do you think it will take me to undo these, detangle my hair, wash it, deep condition it, and then wash it again?"
Jordan squints at you for a long moment, analyzing your hairstyle and the utter displeasure on your face. "I dunno? Maybe... four hours?"
"I should fucking murder you. Just for that, you're helping me with wash day now."
Jordan's face breaks into a grin like sunlight breaking through clouds, "So I do get to spend the day with you, is what you're saying?"
"Yeah, baby, you get to spend the day with me." You click your tongue at them. Pitying them for the ache in their fingers they're about to feel. They complain about curling their God damn hair a couple of times a week. You suspect you'll be ready to kill one another by hour two.
But you also missed them a lot. Or whatever.
"Don't cut too high up, Jordie. " You whine, shifting his grip lower on your braid, to an acceptable cutting length of the hair extension.
"Baby... can I ask you a very serious question right now?" Jordan hums, obediently cutting where you instructed.
"What?" You ask, already starting to unbraid the piece.
"How... long... do you think your hair is?" Jordan, to be fair to him, does ask the question quietly and with the proper amount of hesitation.
"How dare you! Are you calling me bald?" You gasp, stifling a laugh.
"Don't do this to me. You are prolonging the process. We can cut these braids at least four inches higher than what we're doing right now." Jordan says, you can't see his face but you can tell he's also trying not to laugh. Bastard.
"My hair grew!"
"From the top of your head. It did not magically lower itself further into the fucking braid extension." Jordan loses the battle and laughs.
"Jordan Li do not fucking cut off any of my hair or I'll cry and then blow up this school."
"Of course, princess." Jordan kisses the top of your head and gives in to your terrorist demands because you're cute.
"So how am I supposed to do it, baby?" Jordan claps her hands and you smile at how eager she sounds to help.
"You're gonna want to section it off. Do like... eight parts of hair. That'll make literally every step after this easier. Then you're gonna comb the hair from the bottom, 'kay?"
"Got it."
Jordan starts the process of parting your hair, careful and slow. Fingers sectioning off eight chunks of hair that she keeps apart with the silky hair ties you hand her over your shoulder.
"You sure you don't want me to comb it, Jordie?" You ask Jordan.
"I'll be gentle, don't worry. You always say your shoulders hurt at the end of wash day. Which is crazy, because I've seen what you can bench. I've got you, baby." She spritzes extra detangler spray on each of the parts she just made.
You move around slightly, a little sore already from sitting still between her legs for so long, but smiling to yourself nonetheless. A pillow is suddenly shoved into your face and you lean away, confused.
"Sit on this one instead. It'll be better." Jordan says.
You switch out the pillows and tilt your head back to look at her. "Why're you always right? Is that your kink?"
"No, my kink is bossing you around." Jordan smirks and leans down to give you a kiss. Despite the awkward angle you can't help trying to deepen the contact. The feeling of her soft lips sliding against yours, firm but gentle, is always irresistible.
She hums and gives you a playful nip before pulling away. "Don't start something we can't finish."
"Who says we can't?" You shoot back, staring up at her.
"You will be pissed an hour from now if you glance at your phone and we haven't made any progress." Jordan runs her thumb along your bottom lip before pushing your head forward.
"Who says it will take an hour?"
"I do. If we start, I'm not stopping." Jordan's voice dips seductively and a line of tension runs up the length of your spine.
You smack her thigh for teasing you, "Shut up."
"Is this comfortable?" Jordan frowns, staring at the angle your head has to be at to fit in the bowl of the sink.
"No, but this is the best angle this chair can get me to." You say. Usually you just wash in the shower, but since Jordan is helping the sink makes more sense.
Jordan stands, scowling at how uncomfortable you seem. Suddenly he grins, "Baby! Make a chair with your shields. Something that leans."
You were getting a lot better with being able to make complex shapes, with less concentration. You stand up from the chair you'd dragged from the common room. Jordan pulls it out of the way and gives you an encouraging thumbs up.
It takes you a minute, but you conjure a shield that resembles a salon chair and the both of you let out identical cries of delight.
Jordan pushes you to sit down with a kiss on your forehead. "That's my fucking girl. Tell me if the temperature is too hot."
Jordan washes your hair with the perfect amount of pressure and thoroughness. He's nearly rhythmic in his methodical cleaning. You didn't realize your eyes had fluttered closed until you hear him laugh. You open one eye to glare at him playfully, knowing he won't get soap in them.
"What's so funny?"
"You're like a cat. You gonna purr for me, baby?" He smirks.
"If you keep going like that, yeah. Or I'll fall asleep. Please don't make me fall asleep. I'll fall on my ass." You say.
"I'll endeavor to make the rest of the wash as unpleasant as possible."
He does not do that. And at one point you do fall asleep. Jordan catches you before you can actually fall. 'Thank God for Supe reflexes', you both think. You spend the rest of the wash with your eyes wide open and Jordan laughing at you.
"Did we put too much?" Jordan asks, dabbing at another drip of oil and conditioner down your brow.
"No, this is typical. The hair has to be saturated. It's dripping because the oil is you know... getting hot and even more liquid-y." You say, eyeing the episode of Property Brother's you'd both decided on. "Hm. I think that woman should be put to death."
Jordan was keeping vigilant about dabbing at the sides of your face. You'd been in charge of one side, at first. But Jordan seemed to have a sixth sense for when the other side was dripping as well, and kept interrupting you before you could get to any trickles of oil. You'd given up and just started narrating the show for her as she wasn't taking her eyes off the line of your brow.
"Why? What did she do?" Jordan dabs again.
"She wants to put up a fence that blocks the view of the historical house that she did not have to buy if she wanted a fence so bad." You roll your eyes.
"Is the city gonna let her?"
"No."
"Haha. 500k down the drain." Jordan cackles.
"Anti-gentrification win!" You hold out your fist for a fist-bump and Jordan obediently obliges, oil soaked rag still held in her fist.
A comfortable silence falls over you two, besides the noise of the portable hair dryer.
"I really think we put too much, baby." Jordan mutters, dabbing again.
"I have been doing this since I was twelve, Jordan!"
"Play the video again, one speed slower this time." Jordan's eyes are glued to your phone.
You're sitting between his legs again, cushioned by the (superior) pillow of his choosing. You were trying to decide on a simple hair style when Jordan saw a picture of Mini Twists and got excited to see you in them.
("You've already seen me in mini twists, Jordie. What are you talking about?"
"You weren't my girlfriend the last time you wore them though! Now you are, and I get to look at you as much as I want."
So that had decided that.)
"Okay, I think I got it. 'M gonna start with a braid base, without making the parts too big, then start twisting the hair with two strands, and that will make it last longer, right?"
"Right." You smile at how focused Jordan sounds.
They're hot when they're in the zone. You just didn't think they'd get so into helping you with your hair. But you should have known, really. Acts of service paired with their inner perfectionist? You're completely relaxed at this point. You know Jordan won't have you walking out of your room looking crazy, come hell or high water.
"Is this okay?" Jordan shows you a picture of the back of your head, three rows of twists done.
You gasp, snatching the phone, "That's my head?"
"Uh... yes?" Jordan answers slowly.
"The back of my head? The head on my body?"
"Should I start over?"
"Fuck you! These are almost better than mine. Who's hair are you playing around in when I'm not here, Jordan LI?"
"Stop using my fucking government name." Jordan tilts your head back to look at him with a gentle grip on your neck, grinning down at you. "You play too fucking much. You sure they're good, princess? It's okay if I need to redo them."
"I'm gonna give you orgasms that will make you lose brain cells."
"Baby!" Jordan laughs, rolling his eyes. "I'm serious. Do any of them need redoing?"
"The first row is really fucking good for a beginner but the second row is damn near perfect." You say.
"I'll redo the first row then." Jordan kisses your temple before moving you to face forward again.
"I said they were good!" You protest.
"But the second row is better. I want the whole thing to look good. Don't want you feeling self conscious cause I fucked up the style, y'know." Jordan mumbles.
You tilt your head back to look at him, ignoring him sucking his teeth (a habit he picked up from you) at you moving.
"I love you, Jordie. Thank you for helping me today." You coo.
You watch his face go red with a grin. He grins back, leaning down to give you a gentle kiss. When he tries to pull away too soon you whine, holding him close by the hair at the nape of his neck.
"Wanna kiss you. You're sweet." You breathe the words against his lips, insistently continuing the caress.
He sighs, smitten, and let's you lead for a moment. Hand finding it's way back to your neck and tightening just enough to make you gasp. Still, he pulls away too quickly.
"I'm gonna fuck you up." You scowl at him.
"The only thing you're gonna fuck up is your neck, brat. This is a horrible angle for you." Jordan's smile is so soft at the edges it's your turn to blush.
"Speak for yourself."
"No, I'm too busy speaking on behalf of your neck."
"Well, I'm speaking on behalf of my-"
"Pussy?"
"I was going to say raging hormones but that's a lot more to the point, yeah. Or maybe I was going to say something romantic. You ever think of that, Jordie? Huh?"
"Were you going to say something romantic?" Jordan hums.
"No."
"Let me do your hair in peace." Jordan turns you forward again with a laugh.
"Turn this way." Jordan instructs, snapping another picture.
"I don't know whether you're worse than an Instagram hair stylist or a Mom." You ponder, words barely audible because your girlfriend is scary.
"Shut up and smile." Jordan scowls.
As if engraved into your genetic code the words make you do just that. You suffer through another 20 pictures being taken before you say enough is enough.
Jordan happily shows you the pictures, as if you hadn't seen yourself in the mirror just a minute ago. Or ever. The grin on her face so wide it looks like it hurts.
"You like it, baby?" Jordan asks again.
"It looks so good, Jordie. It looks like I paid someone honestly."
"Yeah?"
"Yeah." You drape your arms around her shoulders. "How's this angle?"
"For what?" Jordan tilts her head to the side, puzzled.
"For kissing. Since you were so worried about the angle before."
Jordan scoffs, but she's the one to pull you in. She doesn't pull away this time.
A/N: i needed reader to have a goofball vibe because i have a goofball vibe. if you enjoyed this fic consider reblogging, leaving a reply, or an anonymous ask saying you enjoyed it! a writers fuel is engagement. xoxoxo
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Prompt #3: You think Iâm weak because Iâm not like you.
Synopsis: They are a supe, you are merely human.
You and Jordan are from entirely different worlds. They are a supe, ranked number two and you are merely a normal human. Currently, a barista working at Jitter Bean on the GodU campus. As you pull shots of espresso and froth milk, you're also juggling your studies at the local normal university. Your days are filled with textbooks and coffee beans, study groups and latte art. This is your world, your routine, and you wouldn't trade it for anything else. You've come to love your life and routine, especially after meeting Jordan.
When you first started dating, you noticed a certain hesitation in their behavior. It seemed as if they were always holding back, afraid of causing you harm. They were exceedingly gentle with you, treating you with a delicacy as if you were a fragile piece of glass that could shatter at the slightest mishandling. Their actions and touch were calculated and cautious, reflecting their love for you. Yet, it pained you to see how much thought and effort they put into the smallest things in order to keep you safe.
Every action they took seems to be for your protection. They open doors for you, not merely out of courtesy, but out of a deep-seated need to shield you from the world. They open jars for you, seeing an unnecessary risk in a simple task. They prevent you from doing anything they deem dangerous, their definition of 'danger' being far broader than yours. You werenât the only human on campus but the few incidence with supe and human have left a sour taste for Jordan. Their overprotectiveness only growing.
If someone hugged you a bit too tightly, they immediately step in, serving as your personal protector, reprimanding the 'offender' for their thoughtlessness. If someone sneezes, they ensure the person stays a safe distance away, as if a mere sneeze could shatter you.
While you love them, their constant vigilance can feel like a cage. Their kindness, while well-intended, begins to blanket you, smothering your independence and creating a sense of claustrophobia. But you see the love in their eyes, a love that is as deep as the ocean, as vast as the sky. It's a love that is genuine and caring, a love that sees you as the most precious thing in the world. Every time they look at you, their eyes hold a promise to protect you, to cherish you.
So, you tolerate their overprotectiveness. You understand where it's coming from. You see the fear ingrained in their actions, the fear of losing you. And maybe, just maybe, you can help them see that you're stronger than they think.
It was just like any other day. You were sitting by the Polarityâs statue waiting for Jordan to finish their office hours scrolling mindlessly on your phone. Suddenly, you saw Andre zoom past you on a flashy new electric scooter at a speed that was definitely unsafe.
"Dude, is that new?" You couldn't help but call out, your smile wide and your curiosity piqued as the scooter gleaming under the sun. Hearing your shout, he quickly turned back around, heading towards where you were now standing. The scooter stopping with a dramatic screech that stirred up dust around your feet.
"Yeah, you like it? It's a new toy from dad," Andre replied, his voice full of pride. He dismounted with a youthful spring in his step, leaving the scooter to stand on its own. It hummed softly, like a futuristic machine out of a sci-fi movie, this wasnât a standard electric scooter. You found yourself drawn to it, your eyes scanning over its sleek design, the fancy built-in gadgets, and the vibrant neon color that seemed to pulsate with life.
Wandering closer, you circled the scooter, your fingertips hovering just above the surface as if afraid to touch. You were intrigued, the childlike wonder in your eyes evident.
Seeing your interest, Andre offered, "Wanna give it a try?" His tone was casual, but there was an undercurrent of excitement. You looked up at him, a hint of apprehension flickering in your eyes as you glanced from side to side. It was as if you were considering the potential risks and the thrill of the unknown simultaneously.
Andre noticed your hesitation and, with a teasing grin, he nudged you gently. "Oh come on! Live a little. Itâs easy, I'll show you how." His words were a challenge, an invitation to step out of your bubble and embrace the adventure.
After reviewing the basics, Andre tilted the scooter towards you, encouraging you to ride. With a big smile, you stepped onto the scooter and took off. Feeling free, you zoomed past dozens of people, the wind blowing on your face, the thrill coursing through your veins. You laughed, feeling giddy like a child with a new toy. The feeling was exhilarating, it felt like what you imagine flying would be like.
You were so engross in the feeling that you didn't notice the curb and both you and the scooter went flying over the hedges. After tumbling and having the wind knocked out of your lungs, the world spun. Your ears were ringing, and you tasted the metallic tang of blood from your split lip. Despite your body aching, you didn't care, you had never felt so free before.
"Oh shit, are you okay?!" A panicked voice rang out. Looking up, you saw Andre. His eyes were wide, his expression frozen in shock as he stared down at you with concern. Yet all you could do was laugh, lying flat on your back on the grass. He couldnât help but laugh along with you, his expression softening at the sound of your mirth. The two of you were laughing like idiots, as if you hadnât just been thrown across the campus.
Suddenly, a voice interrupted your laughter. "What the fuck happen?" Jordan demanded, concern etching their voice as they ran towards you. Their eyes darted over your form, quickly assessing the situation and the extent of your injuries.
"Oh, hey baby!" you greeted them cheerfully, managing to sit up on the grass. Your voice held a tone of delight despite the circumstances. "Andre was just teaching me how to use his new scooter, but the asshole forgot to show me how to brake," you explained, playfully squinting your eyes at Andre in mock anger.
Andre, seemingly unfazed by your comment, flashed you a wide grin. âIn my defense I thought that was pretty intuitive!â he declared, shaking his head in a gentle, almost playful manner.
"Apparently not, jerk!" you fired back quickly, laughing at your own clumsiness. You struggled to stand upright, wincing slightly as you felt the fresh bruises forming on your skin. Jordan, immediately reached out to lend a hand. Their touch was gentle, and you appreciated their concern, even though you knew it was fueled by their instinct to protect you, anger and worriedness evident in their eyes.
With Jordan's help, you managed to get on your feet. You took a moment to dust yourself off, brushing away the grass and dirt that clung to your outfit. It was a futile attempt, considering how much you had tumbled, but it made you feel somewhat better. You licked your bottom lip, wiping away the blood from the split, wincing a slight from the pain.
Jordan stood by your side, examining the extent of your injuries until your eyes met with Andre's. There was a brief silence. A small smile tugged at your lips until you both burst into laughter, the sound echoing around you.
âYou think this is fucking funny!â Jordan yells shifting, stepping towards Andre clearly pissed off that he was the reason you had gotten hurt. Their voice was harsh, the anger radiating from their body. Andre froze, and took an instinctive step back holding their hands up in front of him, attempting to keep things calm.
âChill man, it was all in good fun. No harm, no foul.â he replied, taking another step to pick up his scooter off the ground, ignoring Jordanâs angry glare.
âNo harm?! Sheâs fucking bleeding asshole!â Jordan yelled taking another step closer to him. They were beyond mad, you could feel the anger emanating from their body. Seeing the situation escalating, you gently grasped Jordan's arm and tugged, attempting to draw their attention away from Andre.
"Hey, babe," you murmured softly, your tone light and gentle. "I'm okay, I promise. It's just some little scratches and bruises, nothing major." you finished, taking a quick glance down at your injuries.
Jordan didn't respond. Instead, their eyes narrowed, the muscles in their jaw tensing as their teeth ground together. Their expression was cold, dark and their posture rigid, the tension palpable in the air. And Andre did not back down, his own stare turning into a glare.
You tightened your grip on Jordanâs arm, tugging them towards you. You really didnât want this to escalate into something else. You stepped in front of Jordan, grabbing their chin to turn their gaze down towards you. "I'm okay Jordan," you repeated, emphasizing each word.
Finally, their expression softened as their eyes met yours. There was a mixture of emotions in their eyes. Fear, worry, anger, concern. However, their anger swiftly dissipated when they saw your split lip, their concern for you taking over.
"Let's go get you cleaned up," they finally said, their voice quiet as their hand came down to the small of your back. They began leading you away, but not before shooting Andre a final glare. You gave him an apologetic smile before turning around and allowing Jordan to guide you. They led you back to their dorm, their arm still wrapped around you as they guided you. The entire walk was filled with silence, Jordan's body still tense and rigid, the tension still thick in the air.
Now you sat on the bathroom counter as Jordan cleaned your face with a warm towel. They were avoiding your gaze, their expression hard, their brows furrowed and their lips set in a tight line. The air was heavy, the atmosphere suffocating. You hated the awkwardness, and the fact that they were so upset over something that seemed so minuscule to you.
You sighed and grabbed their wrist, stopping their motions, their eyes finally meeting yours. "Are we just not going to talk about it?" you asked, your tone laced with frustration. They let out a sigh and dropped their gaze, placing the warm towel back on your face, focusing on cleaning your wounds instead.
"Jordan," you pressed, placing your hand on their chest. They looked down at you, their expression conflicted, their gaze a mixture of emotions.
"You could've gotten seriously hurt," they whispered softly. You took a deep sigh, closing your eyes before looking at them. You had been dreading this conversation, but now was a good time of any. You desperately needed to get it off your chest, before you truly suffocated.
âJordan,â you start softly again, making sure they are looking at you before you continue. âI love you more than words can express, but sometimes you treat me like I am made out of glass. Like any sudden movement might cause me break. You think Iâm weak because Iâm not like you. But baby, I am human. We get hurt, we bruise, we bleed, and we get back up. Please trust me. Trust that I can take care of myself. That I won't fall apart."
You watched their face fall as you spoke, a mix of hurt and fear clouding their expression. "I know you can take care of myself," they whispered, their tone low, barely audible. "But what if one day you can't? What if one day I'm not around, and you end up hurt or worse?" they continued, their voice cracking, their eyes beginning to glisten. You sighed, and gently place your hand on their cheek, their eyes meeting yours.
"You can't keep me in a bubble, Jordan," you say gently. After a pause, you continue, "I don't need you to protect me from getting hurt. I need you to be there to help me get back up. To support me when I take risks, even if I might fail. I'm not a fragile doll that's going to shatter with a simple breeze. I'm not a damsel who needs constant saving. What I need is for you to believe in me, to trust me to know my own limitations.â
They were silent, their expression conflicted, their emotions heighten. After a long pause, they finally responded, their voice cracking. "I'm scared," they whispered, the admission almost inaudible. They leaned into your touch, their eyes closing, their expression vulnerable.
"I'm scared that I'll lose you. I'm scared that one day I'll wake up and you'll be gone, and it'll be all my fault because I wasnât there to protect you," they continued, their voice trembling. "I can't lose you."
You felt a pang of guilt for not considering how difficult this must be for them too. This was all new, and their protective instincts were only amplified by the newness. You drew them close, your arms encircling their neck, holding them against you. "You're not going to lose me, Jordan. I'm right here baby, just a little bruised," you tried joked, with a small smile, while tracing gentle pattens behind their neck.
You heard their breathing slow down, and their body relaxed. Their arms wrapped around your waist, holding you tightly, and they rested their head on your shoulder. You both stayed there, wrapped in each other's arms, in comfortable silence for a few minutes.
"I'm sorry," they mumbled into your shoulder, their voice barely audible. You shook your head slowly and pressing a gentle kiss to the side of their head, squeezing their shoulders gently.
"I know, baby" you said softly, rubbing their back in soothing circles, "And I love how you take care of me, but I just need you to ease up a little."
Their grip on your waist tightened, their arms wrapping tighter around you. "Okay," they replied, their voice a soft whisper. As they pull back, their gaze was tender, their eyes soft. You couldn't help but smile and press a soft kiss to their lips, the gesture a reassurance that everything was okay. They look at you for a moment before speaking, their voice soft and laced with sincerity. "I promise I'll try my best to be less overprotective." They said their thumb softly brushing over your bruise lip.
"Good, because I really want to use that scooter again," you said with a playful grin. They let out a light chuckle the stress melting away from their body, slowly rolling their eyes at your comment. A gentle smile spreading across their lips as they leaned in and pressed a tender kiss to your forehead.
"We'll see about that," they replied. You couldn't help but laugh, at least they were trying. You knew it would take time, their overprotectiveness would not disappear overnight, but at least they were willing to try. And despite their overprotectiveness, they always made you feel safe, secure and most of all, loved. For in love, as in life, sometimes it's the cracks on your skin that allow the light to shine through.
This was based on this prompt list which inspired this new wave of inspiration.
This also got way longer than I intended.
"Why does Brink insist on making all his tests so fucking confusing?" You groan, slapping the paper in your hand onto the ground in frustration. You lean your head back onto the couch behind you, looking up at the ceiling, mind numb.
You and Jordan were sitting on the floor of their dorm room, studying for the upcoming midterms. Books and papers scattered all over the floor, surrounding you. You had been at it for the last three hours, yet despite your best efforts, nothing seems to be sticking.
Jordan laughs, reaching over to retrieve the discarded paper, their eyes scanning over it. "You know, these questions probably wouldn't be as confusing if you actually paid attention in class," they remark, attempting to give you a stern look, yet the corners of their mouth twitch upwards.
âWell I would if the TA wasnât so fucking hot,â you say leaning in to kiss them. They roll their eyes, pushing you away playfully. âYeah, try all you want, flattery will get you nothing from me,â they say slapping your thigh with the paper, "now concentrate."
âBoo, youâre no fun!â you pout, taking the paper back from Jordan to look it over. They laugh, bumping their shoulder against yours. âWait, you didnât write these did you?â You ask, holding up the paper towards them, with a raised eyebrow.
They playfully snatch the paper from your hand, chuckling, "No, Brink writes the tests. I just grade them." They rest the paper on their thigh as they glance around the piles of papers on the floor, leaning over you to grab the book next to you. "Alright, let's see. It's actually not that difficult, if..." they start to explain, flipping through the pages of the book.
They continue with their explanation, but your brain was too fried to listen, all you could do was stare at them. Their big beautiful, brown eyes scanning over the page, their eyebrows scrunch together focusing on every word. Their lips moving softly as they read the words out loud, their dimple ghosting their cheek. Strands from their short bob sliding out from behind their ear as they picked up another paper, before turning it towards you.
âYouâre not even fucking listening,â they say with a huff, poking your ribs, pulling you out of your daze. You laugh shaking your head slowly, leaning over them to push the loose strands of hair behind their ear.
"I told you. You're a distraction, baby," you say with a smile. Pushing against their shoulder, so they lay flat on their back, your knees on either side of their waist. Papers scrunching beneath the weight of both of you. You smile as you lean over them, placing soft kisses on their cheeks and along their jaw, as their hands grip your waist.
âYouâre so fucking distracting,â you whisper against their soft skin, your mouth moving down their neck, nipping gently, leaving small kisses here and there.
They let out a breathily moan, the grip on your waist tightening. You ghost your lips over theirs whispering, âsoâŚso pretty,â kissing their lips softly as you watch their cheeks blush pink. Paper crinkling beneath you, as the kiss deepens. Their hands roaming under your shirt, the touch of their fingertips causing goosebumps to form across your skin. Your own hands roaming under their loose grey shirt, their skin soft and warm under your touch. You pull away slightly catching your breath, tugging at the hem of their shirt urging them to take it off, before removing your own.
Your mouth instantly moves back onto theirs, tongues exploring each other, chest pressed tightly together. Jordan's hands roaming down your back to your ass, gripping it firmly. Your lips trailing down their neck, to their collar bone. Nipping gently at their skin, soothing it with your tongue. Their moans growing louder as you knead their breasts, placing soft kisses on each breast before taking a nipple into your mouth. Tongue swirling around it, as your fingers tease the other. Sucking harder and gently biting down, eliciting a loud moan from Jordan. Their hands in your hair, as you work your way down their body, placing wet, open-mouthed kisses, and gentle bites.
Before coming to a stop at the hem of their basketball shorts. You slowly tugging them down and off their legs, tossing them across the room. You lean forward to place a soft kiss on the front of their boxers, looking up at them, smiling, "so pretty," you say softly. They giggle, covering their eyes with their arm, the pink of their cheeks getting redder. You tug on the hem of their boxers, pulling them down and off their legs, adding them to the pile of clothes building on the floor.
You kiss their inner thighs, nipping gently at the skin. A soft moan leaves their mouth, arching their hips towards you. You smile against their skin, kissing closer and closer, until they whimper. You look up at them, watching their expression, their face flushed and eyes squeezed shut, as you tease their slit. Slowly running your tongue through their folds, their body trembling at the touch. You lick a long stripe through their folds, before pressing your tongue against their clit, rubbing gentle circles.
"Fuck," they moan, tugging at your hair. Your hands grasping their thighs, their soft skin smooth beneath your palms. You suck on their clit, eliciting a string of curse words, from their mouth. Their body begins to shake, their moans growing louder as the speed of your tongue increases. Their thighs tighten around your head, their breathing growing heavier as you work your tongue, their hips bucking, grinding against your mouth. You pull away, their juices dripping down your chin, "so, so pretty," you say. Their cheeks are flushed, their eyes half lidded, staring down at you, lips slightly parted.
You watch them as you slide two fingers inside them, a gasp escaping their mouth. Their hips rock against your hand, as your fingers move in and out, curling upwards, hitting the right spot. Their hands gripping the papers around them as they moan your name, their eyes closed, their lips slightly parted. The sounds of their moans fill the room, as they get closer and closer to the edge. You lean forward, pressing your tongue against their clit once again, licking firm circles.
"Oh fuck, I'm close," they moan, their hands gripping your hair. Their legs begin to shake, as you continue to thrust your fingers in and out of them, your tongue still rubbing against their clit.
"Fuck!" they cry, their orgasm hitting them hard, their body trembling as their muscles contract. You moan as you continue to work your fingers and tongue, letting them ride out their orgasm. You slowly slide your fingers out of them, giving them one last lick, a small whimper escapes their mouth, their breathing heavy.
You slowly move up their body placing soft kisses, as you go. Kissing their chest, their collarbone, their neck, and their lips. Their body still trembling slightly, as you hover over them. You run a finger along their cheek, smiling down at them, "so fucking hot," you whisper, their dimple forming on their cheek as they smile back.
You lean down, kissing their lips once again, their tongue pushing past your lips. You moan against their mouth, their fingers drawing lazy patterns on your exposed skin. They smirk as you break away, shifting in an instant, quickly lifting you up off the floor. "My turn," they say with a wide grin. You wrap your legs around their waist as they bury their face in the crook of your neck. Kissing and nipping along your neck, you giggle at the sensation and tighten your arms around their neck.
They gently place you on the bed, hovering over you. "I fucking love that sound," they groan, kissing you passionately, before returning to the side of your neck. You giggle again as they pepper kisses down your neck to your chest. You pull their hair, bringing their lips back up to yours. You run your fingers through their hair, before running them down their back, feeling the warmth radiating off their body.
They pull away for a moment, looking into your eyes. You can see their brown eyes glowing in the low light. You can feel their hot breath against your face. You could still taste them on your lips, you wanted more. You want to feel them all over your body. Your cheeks get warmer as the heat in your core builds, as they look at you with lust filled eyes.
They gently kiss your lips, savoring the moment, before moving their hand down your bare chest. Lightly caressing your hips, causing goosebumps to rise. Slowly, they fingers make their way back up to your chest, cupping your breast. You moan softly into the kiss, as their thumb runs over your nipple. You can feel them smirk, as they run their tongue across your bottom lip. You gasp, and they take this opportunity to deepen the kiss, slipping their tongue into your mouth. They lightly tug your nipple, before rubbing it gently between their fingers.
They move their head up to your neck, sucking the spot behind your ear. The sensation eliciting a quiet gasp. As they continue, their hands run over your body. You moan louder, feeling their tongue slide up your neck to your earlobe.
"My beautiful girl," they whisper. You whimper, feeling them roll your other nipple between their fingers. "I'm going to make you feel so good, baby." You let out a loud moan, feeling their hand reach down and palm you through your legging. They rub you slowly, and you squirm underneath them, feeling a damp spot start to form in your underwear.
"So needy," they purr, pulling away from you. You whimper, wanting their hands on you again. You watch as they move to the foot of the bed. You raise your head to look at them, only to see them kneeling down. They slowly begin to pull your leggings down, along with your panties. You lift your hips, making it easier for them to remove them.
"Fuck, baby," they growl, pulling you closer to the edge of the bed. They throw your legs over their shoulders, and lean in to place a kiss on your thigh, biting lightly. They leave a trail of kisses, getting closer and closer to your core. You whimper, feeling their hot breath against your pussy.
"Already dripping," they whisper, running a finger up your slit. "You want my tongue on that pretty pussy, baby?"
"Yes," you gasp, feeling them blow gently on your clit. They smile and begin to lick up your slit, swirling their tongue around your clit. You moan loudly, grabbing the sheets tightly. You can feel them smile, as they wrap their lips around your clit, sucking. Your legs trembling, as they suck harder. You grip their hair, as they slip a finger inside you.
"Jordan," you moan, as they begin to pump their finger. They hum against your clit, sending shivers through your body. Your moans get louder, as they slip a second finger in, pumping faster. Their fingers curling, hitting that spot, as they lap at your clit.
"Oh, fuck," you gasp, holding onto their head, keeping them against you. Their moans sending vibrations through your body. You can feel the knot in your stomach beginning to unwind. Their pace quickens as their tongue swirls around your clit. Your hips buck, crying out their name, as they continue. You grip the sheets tightly, arching your back pushing against them.
"Fuck, don't stop," you moan. You feel yourself getting closer. You grind your hips against their face, wanting more. You feel their free hand grip your hip, holding you still, as their tongue presses flat against your clit. You scream their name, feeling the knot come undone, as your orgasm rips through your body. They keep their fingers inside, continuing to pump and lick, prolonging your orgasm. However their tongue didn't stop, even as you whimpered and twitched from their touch.
"J-Jordan, fuck stop," you cry out, your body twitching. They groan against your core as they slow down. They slowly remove their fingers, pressing one last kiss to your clit, sending shivers through your body. They kiss your inner thighs, before standing up, licking their fingers clean.
"Fucking delicious," they grin. "Sorry, baby. Youâre just so pretty when you cum,â they say against your lips. You kiss them gently, moaning softly at the taste. They break the kiss and give you a small smirk. "But if you think this is going to get you from study, you are so wrong, sweetheart."
They say pulling away, slapping your thigh as they walk away to gather their clothes from the ground. You turn to lay on your side, still on the bed, watching them. "But I want you," you whine, with a fake pout. They chuckle, walking back towards you leaning down. "Well then, you better study," they murmur against your lips kissing you softly before standing back up and grabbing your clothes from the floor and tossing them to you on the bed.
"Like I said, you're no fun!" you say dramatically, from the bed. They give you a cocky grin, walking towards you. They lean down and give you a long and slow kiss, cupping your face.
"Yet you were screaming my name, a few minutes ago," they say, teasingly before slapping your ass and walking away. You huff in protest, sitting up on the bed, pulling on your clothes.
"You're such a dick," you say, leaning back against the wall. They always had to say the last word.
"You know you love it," they smirk, sitting back down on the floor, watching you.
"Fuck you," you say laughing, throwing a pillow at them.