Hello again Markus/Evan!!
((I'm gonna say this in a more serious tone, mainly because I feel that in this situation it has to be formatted as such.))
If you feel that you're useless, a burden, etc-
I feel you underestimate how much you feel to people. You're perfect just the way you are. If people don't appreciate you, that's their loss.
From the way you phrased your last post (in the tags), had me very concerned. If you need someone to talk to you have your bf (CUTIES!) and your friends (bmcsc). I'm also here, but I'm really not important for this.
(If needed, I can give a sub-tumblr, if things get too bad and you need to vent)
Also, quite literally no-one thinks that you're a burden. All your followers have followed you for a reason. They like your content. Not because it's some AI garbage or some 12 year old's drawing or that they're bots, but because, well, it's yours. They like your artstyle. They like you. It's normal to be feeling this way, considering your large following and such but no-one is pressuring you to be good at art, or to be making art- as I've previously stated: "Art is meant to be fun".
Last note (What I personally feel you need to do):
Take a break off the internet.
I'm saying this as politely as possible. The internet is not a good place, and if you're feeling shitty because of how people view you ON the internet, then I feel it's appropriate to leave at least for a bit just to get yourself back together (or to have a more positive mindset).
Or don't. I'm not your parent. I'm an anonymous user!
(I'm also like... Not a qualified therapist!)
Anyways, that's it. Have an awesome day, you're cool.
I'm not really feeling shitty because of how people view me on the internet, it's just a general thing.
im feeling shitty because I don't know when I'm gonna suddenly feel like I want to die out of no where or feel on top of the world in the next second and it's tiring and I know it's hard for other people to deal with
i hate suddenly feeling like I hate everyone, but i know I don't so I feel guilty because I know I love all my friends and everyone in my life but then I end up distancing and ignoring the people i love because i dont feel good, i just dont want to hurt anyone because i know that sometimes i can come off really mean when im in that state
it's been this way for so long and i dont know what it is. i dont know whats wrong with my brain or whats wrong with me.
after this I'll probably feel fine again for a while. i just have to wait it out, its exhausting. but i dont know what else i can do. distractions only work for so long. its just the same cycle
and theres a bunch of other things going on, past things that are lingering, my home life, etc.
i wish i could just be happy all the time or at least not feel this way
im sorry im being so like negative on this account it just feels better to get stuff off my chest
