• Meow •

Would really love if life would stop shitting all over the place right now.

I am so. fucking. tired. of being sick. It’s been almost three weeks and I still have no clear idea what’s wrong with me. Sometimes I feel like I’m getting better and it makes me so happy and I have hope, and other times I feel worse than I have yet and it crushes me. I’m taking antibiotics and a steroid pack and doing everything I can possibly try to feel and get better, and nothing is working. I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I don’t want to keep burdening people because I feel like shit and they can’t help me, but this shit is breaking my brain. I miss seeing my friends. I miss feeling healthy and like a normal person. I feel like I’m never going to get better because there’s no indication of improvement after all of the medicine I’ve taken. I so fucking done feeling like this. I generally enjoy life and have so much to look forward to, but I don’t even want to wake up tomorrow if it means another day of being sick with no hope of getting better.