Every time I go to do something I pick the worst and most inconvenient way to do it. I was linocut printing a birthday present and it was going better than expected but I just fucked it up and I have to start the printing over. I realized after carving four blocks that it really would have made more sense for me to just draw the design in the first place and now I've messed up the print (after four failed tries to get the first layer right). I mixed a custom color too which was a bit of a pain and now I have to try again.
I know the process of learning a new skill involved errors and that this is such a non issue, but I'm just annoyed about it. I was so close to being done.
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A short little ficlet for @cherrycuttles. I meant for this to be done while you were still in classes for a little self care reminder, but I didn't finish it in time. My bad. Its a loose continuation/references to this post
💬 3 🔁 1 ❤️ 8 · A little sick Bobby ficlet for @cherrycuttles since you haven't been feeling good. I can't really do anything about your he
"Ow!"
Scott paused on his way to his room, having just passed Warren's. It was Warren's voice that had exclaimed in pain. Scott backtracked, intending to check in with Warren. As far as he knew Warren hadn't been hurt by training recently, so there was no reason Scott could think of for Warren to be pained.
"Owww!"
"Warren?" Scott asked, leaning into Warren's room to find Warren shirtless and sitting on the floor, a handful of feathers scattered on the floor around him. "What are you doing?"
"Plucking my feathers."
Scott entered the room without permission and joined Warren on the floor. "Why are you pulling out your feathers?"
"So molting goes smoother."
"Molting?"
"When I lose my feathers in autumn or spring to prepare for the weather. It's going to start getting cold soon and… Well I'd rather things go smoother."
"Oh, I see. So you pull out feathers in preparation for losing your feathers?"
"Yeah. It's… I don't know, I just find this works better."
"Alright. Do you need help? It didn't sound like it was going well." Scott reached out to touch Warren's feathers but stopped himself. He knew Warren's wings were a sensitive topic and he shouldn't touch without permission. He figured he wouldn't like people touching his glasses without permission either.
"That… that would be great, please Scott."
Scott shifted so he was facing Warren's back. "How do I know which ones to pluck?"
Warren gestured to the feathers scattered on the floor. "Anything bent or broken."
Scott nodded before realizing Warren couldn't see it. "Alright."
Warren stretched his wings out as far as they would go and Scott got to work. He started at the tip of Warren's right wing, carefully pulling out any bent or broken feathers. Scott carefully smoothed the perfect feathers back into place. The feathers grew smaller and more dense closer to Warren's back, where feathers met skin. As Scott's fingers carded through feathers near Warren's skin he noticed they were caked with grime and were more coarse than Scott figured they should be. He wasn't an avian expert, but he was pretty sure feathers closer to the body should resemble down feathers. Scott figured the angle would be awkward and hard for Warren to reach on his own.
"Warren?" Scott withdrew his hands from Warren's wing.
"Mmmn?" Warren had been enjoying having someone else help him groom his wings back to a healthy state and he was a little disappointed Scott had removed his hands.
"Do you struggle to reach your wing joints?"
Warren flushed a deep pink. "Um… It's a little tricky."
"I see." Scott contemplated. "It looks like you've got some build up here, like sweat and blood, staining your feathers."
"Oh." Warren's flush deepened. "I try to clean things but…"
"I get it. I struggle to clean around my nose sometimes, and I get acne breakouts along the bridge. Hang on, I'm going to go get some stuff to clean this up." Scott stood and left Warren's room.
Warren sighed. He didn't like that Scott saw how gross his wings were, the parts of himself that he couldn't keep tidy and perfect. He hated the idea of Scott seeing him as someone who couldn't look after himself. Warren pulled the feathers Scott had plucked into a pile. He wasn't sure if he could allow Scott to clean out his joints. The humiliation of having his team leader scrub him down had Warren's chest flushing. He should just hide in the bathroom and not let Scott see him anymore.
"Hey Warren, have you seen—" Bobby hesitated when he saw Warren sitting on the floor. "Uh, what're you doing?"
"Wing grooming." Warren stretched, his spine popping.
"Ohhhh." Bobby entered the room without asking. "And, uh, how is that going?"
"Scott thinks my wings are gross." Warren's voice cracked and tears pooled in his eyes.
Bobby bit his lip, debating on the best course of action. He settled for dropping next to Warren and nudging him with his shoulder. "Did he say that?"
"Not out loud." Warren hesitated to lean into Bobby, but he wanted comfort.
"So what did Scott actually say?"
"He asked if I struggled to clean my wing joints and then he left."
Bobby pursed his lips. That didn't sound like Scott. "What did he say when he left?"
"He was going to get things to clean my wings," Warren mumbled.
"So it sounds like Scott is trying to help you." Bobby leaned further into Warren. "And it sounds like he's not actually upset with you."
"Who's upset?" Scott asked, re-entering the room.
"Warren thinks you are," Bobby answered.
Warren smacked Bobby's shoulder. "Well I didn't… I mean… My wings are kind of…"
"Natural?" Scott prompted.
"It's not natural to have gunk built up in my feathers."
Scott joined the pair on the floor. "You mean sweating isn't natural? You think blood isn't natural?"
"Piss off Scott," Warren muttered. He brushed his hand under his eyes.
Bobby wrapped a hand around Warren's wrist. "Hey, neither of us are grossed out or upset, okay? You guys were normal about my ice problem, let us be normal about your wing problem."
"I should be able to handle myself," Warren sighed, pulling away from Bobby and wrapping his arms around his waist.
Scott dipped his rag into the bowl of warm water and started dabbing at Warren's feathers. "We're a team Warren. The five of us are meant to take care of each other. We help Bobby with his ice, we help Jean with her headaches, we help Hank when he's struggling. Let me help you clean your wings to keep them healthy."
"Let us help," Bobby added. "We care about you Warren. There's no shame in needing a little help cleaning up."
Warren gave a little shudder. "I'm a Worthington—"
"Hey," Scott cut Warren off. "That doesn't matter. Not to us. You being our friend matters more than your family name. And it doesn't matter who your family is, you still deserve help and care."
Bobby nodded in agreement. "Just let us handle the things you can't quite do."
"I guess," Warren mumbled.
Scott continued wiping grime off Warren's feathers, while Bobby absently stroked Warren's already preened feathers. Warren slowly relaxed, settling into having his friends take care of him. The concept felt foreign to him. Warren had been self-sufficient as long as he could remember. Not nearly as qualified as Scott, but he knew how to take care of himself. Scott's hands were gentle as he cleaned Warren's feathers.
"Hey Scott?" Bobby asked.
"Hmm?" Scott gave a slight nod.
"Does the skin around Warren's wings look red and irritated to you?"
"Bobby, I can't tell when things are red."
Bobby huffed out a sigh. "Okay, well his skin looks dry. Did you bring lotion?"
Scott shook his head, "I didn't think to."
"There's some in my bathroom," Warren gestured to the door across from them.
Bobby hopped to his feet and crossed to the bathroom. Warren watched Bobby enter the bathroom while Scott continued wiping at Warren's skin and feathers.
"God, are my wings that gross?" Warren asked, feeling like Scott had been cleaning them for a long time.
"Not exactly. I'm just trying to be careful and not pull out any feathers unnecessarily. We only want to remove damaged ones, right?"
"Right." Warren's chest warmed at Scott's care and attentiveness.
Scott pressed a light kiss to Warren's shoulder blade. The action was an impulse Scott often longed to engage in and the guilt of it hit him as soon as he indulged. He couldn't allow himself that small act. He owed Bobby better, owed Bobby loyalty even if they couldn't be open about being boyfriends.
Bobby re-entered the room and plopped down right next to Scott, nudging his shoulder into Scott's. Scott gave Bobby a small smile before finishing with wiping down Warren's wing joints. When Scott finished, Bobby started dabbing lotion on the sensitive skin. Scott figured it would be best to let Bobby handle the lotion, so he started plucking feathers from Warren's left wing, being just as thorough as he was with the right wing.
Warren fidgeted with his hands while his friends worked. It felt better than expected, to have someone applying lotion to his back where he couldn't reach. He had to admit that Scott was doing a much better job at preening his wings than he himself did. When Scott pulled out feathers it didn't hurt. Warren barely noticed Scott's hands tangled in his feathers. He certainly felt Bobby's cold hands against his skin though. He understood that Bobby was always cold but he wasn't thrilled about feeling it.
When both Scott and Bobby were finished tending to Warren, Scott asked, "feel better?"
"Yeah, actually I do. Thanks you guys." Warren twisted to smile at his friends.
Bobby gave Warren a side hug. "No worries birdie."
Scott stretched, the tension in his shoulders easing up. He had a bad habit of getting to focused on whatever he was doing and causing some seizing in his muscles. "Do you need anything else War?"
Warren shook his head, "no, I think I'm okay. Thanks for helping with my feathers guys, I appreciate it."
Scott gently nudged Warren. "Always birdbrain."
Warren grinned. Scott almost never called him birdbrain, Bobby's favorite nickname for him. He liked it when Scott acted like a teenager, teasing and silly.
Bobby hopped off the floor and offered his hand to Warren, who accepted. Bobby pulled Warren off the floor and went to help Scott up too, but Scott got to his feet on his own. Bobby bit back his slight disappointment. He never missed an opportunity to brush his fingers against Scott's skin, always wanted to give Scott the gentle touch he deserved. He knew Warren felt similarly. There wasn't competition between them, but Bobby had noticed a tension between himself and Warren that only existed when Scott was around. It was a little unfortunate because Bobby normally loved being around Warren, and Scott was the person he was closest to.
"I was thinking we should eat," Scott said, somewhat distractedly. He was cleaning up the cloth and bucket from the floor. "We can sweep the feathers later. I think it's suppertime anyway."
Bobby grinned and looped an arm through Warren's. "Sounds like a plan Scottie. Should Warren put on a shirt now, or can that also wait until later?"
Warren elbowed Bobby in the ribs. "I can decide that for myself actually."
"Aw, but Scott's leader."
Scott rolled his eyes and scoffed. "Bobby, you guys are still capable of making your own choices."
Bobby looped his free arm through Scott's. "Whatever you say fearless leader."
Scott gave an exaggerated sigh. "Warren do you want a shirt?"
"No, I think I'm good." Warren smiled a little at his friends' antics. He really had nowhere he'd rather be than beside them. He felt comfortable and safe with them. His chest felt warm and he was content as Bobby dragged him and Scott out of his room. He cast his gaze over to Scott, who had a soft smile playing about the corners of his mouth. Warren couldn't help his own smile at seeing his high-strung team leader looking so relaxed. Maybe between him and Bobby they could get Scott to act his age and chill out. Helping him with his wings had been a good start Warren supposed. Scott always seemed happier when taking care of someone else.
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For fucks sake, everything is getting trapped behind a paywall. My word processor updated and like half the features are now a "plus" feature where they were free to anyone before. I don't use the features, but fucking still. This is actually missing me off. Its unbelievable. If you want to start charging people for your service, create new features. Taking something that used to be accessible and changing it to be something you need to pay for is bullshit.
"sex should be less stigmatized and talked about more" and "you should always make sure people who dont want to consume sexual media that you present dont have to see it" are two statements that can and should coexist. by the way.
(this came out of a conversation in the comments on a previous post about an author threatening to stop updating a fic because of lack of engagement)
So there’s this idea that fic writers should write for themselves and not care too much about stats or engagement,
and i totally get the sentiment behind that. if writing becomes entirely about stats and external validation, something important does get lost - creative freedom and joy, conviction in your own writing
but i also think:
“i write for myself, but i post for others.”
because posting fic is not only self-expression. it’s social. ao3 is called an archive, but emotionally it often functions as a community space.
people post for connection, for participation, for others to bear witness to their pain and trauma and grief,
and i don’t think most people are asking to be admired so much as acknowledged. there’s something deeply human about wanting another person to encounter something that mattered to you and go:
“ok, yeah, I see what you were trying to say. I see you.”
especially because fanfic is often people processing very real feelings through fictional characters at a safe distance, one step removed,
and then uploading that deeply personal thing into a shared archive and hoping somebody else might connect with it.
And i think that’s why it hurts so much when you summon up the courage and post a fic into the void and you get nothing back,
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I just read that thing about Daredevil's senses not working well in the rain
It makes perfect sense, all the smells being washed away and that extra noise from the falling water making things really hard to pick up on. It's probably a little overwhelming or frustrating for him too, thunder maybe making it worse
Maybe when Moon Knight learns about that they spend a cozy night indoors or cut patrol short instead?
Matt definitely struggles in the rain and the snow, finding his radar extremely disrupted and ineffective. Matt's essentially truly blind in stormy weather. Thunder probably makes him jumpy especially if it's close overhead because he can feel it. Lightning has his skin prickling. Matt hates how skittish he gets in stormy weather and complains about it constantly. He probably clings to MK a bit more than usual and has headaches that won't dissipate.
When MK learns about how sensitive to the weather Matt is, he makes sure to check the weather for the day to make sure he's prepared. He'll drive Matt anywhere he needs to go and has an umbrella on hand. Matt is hesitating over going on patrol and MK just suggests they stay home, have a cozy night in. It takes some persuasion but Matt relents and curls up on the couch with MK to do a movie night. Matt probably falls asleep part way through, content to be listening to the rain from a distance. He probably listens to MK's heartbeat to avoid the rain sounds. MK has Matt swaddled in a blanket to keep the rain chills away. Marc holds Matt close, Steven makes tea, Jake cooks a nice meal, all to help Matt to calm down and stay inside.
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Can I just say how much I just love the idea of the O5 X-Men being brought together?
They are all mutants, chances are they all felt like freaks in a way, especially since mutants weren’t something that were really understood when all of them were growing up.
Scott felt like a monster due to his powers being uncontrollable and one slip up could lead to someone getting hurt but yet no one is afraid is hug him or just be near him in general.
Jean felt insane due to hearing everyone's thoughts, and sadly they weren’t all nice yet when she met the boys the thoughts were full of concern for one another and companionship that she was now a part of.
Bobby felt like an outcast not only due to his powers but sexuality as well. Yet his new family don’t mind cuddling him, even when his body temp is in the negative and don’t shame his feelings for preferring dudes.
Warren felt ashamed about his wings and he how did need to hide them to “preserve” the family’s name yet he’s found people don’t want him to hide himself and do stuff to help him instead of shaming his needs like grooming this wings and making sure he’s eating a lot of food for molting seasoning.
Hank felt like a freak, he was very ape-like in the way he was shaped and moved and his high intelligence didn’t exactly help. Though he’s now found people that, even though they may not understand a lot of what he’s saying, do listen to his ideas as well as not looking at him weird when he moves on all fours, plus when he got fur they would groom him
Idk I just find it really beautiful. Here’s five people, teens to be exact, that are now together and by extension are not so alone anymore.