Jason, The Witless Wonder

harold, they’re lesbians

people are gay, steven 

i’m a lesbian, carl 

don’t be a transphobe, chad 

we support the gays, david 

I DID MY TIME

AND I WANT OUT-"

Mental health issues in general can warp our perceptions. For example, depression and anxiety can twist things into looking darker and bleaker.

Perception is subjective; two people can experience the same thing and have vastly different experiences because of it. Our perception dictates our reality.

I failed a lot of my undergrad but have managed to bring it around and have been doing better currently in my Masters. In a recent assignment, I found out I got an A5. However, I wasn’t happy.. because I found out someone else got an A3.

I should be happy that I am getting As again, yet here I am comparing myself to others, feeling bad despite getting an A. Felt weird when I realized it.

song: *ends as soon as it starts somehow*

me: wha- how? *restarts song*

song: *is over without me registering that it even played*

My brain:

“Bro you don’t have adhd” being said to you. Just straight up denial

“Did you take your meds today?” Deadass don’t ask this unless I tell you to bc this phrase mixed with my rsd makes me read it as “you being your full self is annoying, and I like you better when you’re so focused on schoolwork that you forget to eat”

Explaining what a hyperfixation is 5000 times to a family member only to have them still ask “why do you do X so much?”

If your hyperfixations are mostly arts and craft stuff like mine are, what you hear constantly is “didn’t you used to do __? Why don’t you anymore” oh don’t worry Karen I will but it’ll be after I drop this current medium that I spent $500 dollars getting supplies for and have been doing non-stop

As an addition to that; holy FUCK do I have all the supplies and then some when a younger sibling or cousin needs to make a project for school

Someone asks about your hyperfixation so you start talking about it passionately but you notice they don’t look like they care or are paying attention so you apologize and they go “no keep going” so you do but they stop caring and paying attention again

To stop from fidgeting with literally everything your face looks like shit bc you just rip up your face as a fidget

Starting a new Med that doesn’t work and you go to class and halfway through when you realize your notes are covered in doodles and there’s not a single word on the page and you want to scream

Explaining my adhd to someone and they reply with “that seems like add not adhd” Karen they’ve meant the same thing for years now also my medical diagnosis says adhd

Actually having memory issues but someone who knows this constantly says it’s just an excuse to get out of doing things so when you actually DO remember something you feel like a liar

Tinnitus

Taking a few too many (a lot) of your sleeping pills designated for adhd hyperactive brains and when you’re out the next day sometimes your hearing just cuts off

Feeling so great and accomplished when you get something memory-wise down only to realize everybody else in this class memorized it two weeks before it was assigned

Rsd making you read somebody using a period at the end of their sentence as passive-aggression

Still loving your og hyperfixation but haven’t actually actively been involved with it so when you get back into it people new to it know more than you and it feels bad

Getting so into a hyperfixation that your body turns to stone and then somebody comes to tell you dinner is ready and you’re like I’m not hungry but you go to eat anyways and ur tummy goes OOOOOUGHHHH AAAAAA OOOOOHHHHHHHHH HUNGY

Constantly called distant and antisocial as an insult by people who literally tell you to shut up/if you took your meds when you try to share your hyperfixations

People not realizing that YES I DID do this thing for 48 hours straight without eating yesterday but my brain decided actually we’re doing this other thing now

Being jealous of people’s cute color coordinated rooms that are minimalist and spotless when yours is actually hurtful to the eyes

Your “organization system” that you were forced to use in elementary school didn’t work neither do 500 folders neither did a thick binder for every class MRS MAGERS FUCK YOU WHORE

You realize you haven’t eaten all day. You get up you go to the kitchen. You make ramen. As it is cooking you get a water. You drink some of it then put it down. You sit on the couch. The microwave goes off. You take the ramen out. You want your water. You put the ramen down. You go to get your water. You pick up the water. You aren’t thirsty why did you need this. You put the water down. You go to your room. You did not eat anything this entire process.

Someone cleans your room and expects it to stay spotless and how they put it. Not only can you not find anything if yours that you need, but in 20 minutes your room somehow looks exactly how it did before it was cleaned. You were sitting on your phone this entire time. You’re not sure how the mess happened. You get yelled at

Getting yelled at in general

“Ok I need to bring X to the place today. Gotta remember” when you arrive at the place you realize there is no X. You didn’t bring it.

Like, today I’ve got a dentist appointment at 2:15. To make sure I’m there on time, I have to leave the house half an hour before then. I have to shower before I go, and my hair needs at least an hour to dry. I need to make and eat something resembling a meal, and then thoroughly brush my teeth. I have to choose clothes to wear, then get changed. I need to make sure my headphones are charged, and should probably download some new music before I go. And I also need some extra time to try and unwind, because I’m extremely stressed about this dentist appointment, and if I don’t relax I’ll probably have a meltdown.

Me, adhd:

me and my rsd: