Hardcore Junkie

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I am starting to forget their voices, they have been gone for almost a year now. My birthday last year, was the day I lost them.

Many people I love very much have passed away. I feel like no matter what I do, I can't escape death. Death seems to follow me like my own shadow, it's always there. I can't see it or hear it, but I know it's always close. And I worry that one day it gets too close, and takes someone I love too much. I'm not scared of death, but I am scared of losing the very few people I have left. I hope someone can relate, and if you reading this can, please remember you are not alone.

I feel very mysterious

Heyy! So I really like recording random videos (Cooking, yapping, gaming, outfit check, haul videos ++) on my old ahh laptops crusty webcam, and I think they look very cool and nostalgic. Like those early 2010s youtube vlogs, and I kinda wanna start posting them on Youtube. But I'm terrified that people I know irl would somehow find them:(( So do you guys think I should post them or should I just keep them to myself?? Also would anyone even be interested in watching them??

Joost on my iPhone 6s

Now I only recently joined Tumblr but I have already seen many incredibly weird posts about Joost. (I'm not gonna go into detail but I'm sure you know what kind of posts I'm talking about.) Like can we please not post our weird fantasies about celebrities online?? Celebrities have boundaries too and some people very clearly need to learn to respect them. And something I see all the time is people babying him...Joost is a fully grown man.. Joost is just a person just like everyone else and some people just need to learn to treat him like a normal person. I'm sorry to tell you this, but no. Joost is not your husband he has no idea you exist. This sounds like a rage post but I'm just concerned, not only for Joost but also for some of you guys... Please take care of yourself and please talk to someone if you feel the need to.