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something I find really really intriguing about the way that pete talks about his queerness is how he doesn't equate romantic attraction to sexuality at all ??? in my mind, it's always been a sort of backwards i'm-only-gay-if-i-have-sex kind of way, but it's so fascinating to me.
particularly this quote:
where like. okay, sure. you aren't attracted to guys but you find them attractive. but stating that in the same article where you say this:
of course i know it's a widely-held belief that pete wentz is bisexual on tumblr, so i'm not going to say i'm a pioneer in this in any capacity, but i genuinely believe that pete wentz doesn't think he's bisexual. or at least didn't at the time.
every time he's asked to elaborate on his attraction, he says he'd marry a man if he 'didn't have to have sex' but i've always found that not-quite believable because he always references his own dick as being undesirable, which some could link mostly to his self-image issues (and whatever's going on with his gender, but that parts a little murkier/less evidence-backed). but even if we were to believe peter 'lies-about-everything-for-fun' wentz, what he's essentially describing is biromanticism. he's into making out, living with, and 'sharing clothes' (lol. sure pete.) with guys, but he'd 'never have sex with them'.
(i could give you my half-baked theories about his internalized homophobia which he may not even realize he has being what makes him say that at every opportunity, but that would be pure extrapolation from my attempt to bury myself in his psyche supported with vague-at-best quotes from, once again, peter 'lies-about-everything-for-fun' wentz.)
and then we have to tackle this section:
he references the concept of bisexuality in the interview itself, which is really funny to me, because he also still boxes himself into a 'heterosexual' category despite literally admitting to a) being attracted to men/finding them attractive, b) making out with men, and c) believing sexuality is a spectrum and there are 'some people' who 'aren't gay, straight, or even bi'. while he doesn't personally group himself into that category directly, it's kind of heavily implied by the Everything Else of the interview.
to me, pete wentz and his sexuality have always been this tenuous sort of relationship where he's comfortable being the 'straight guy who looks/acts gay' but he feels the constant need to reaffirm his heterosexuality. sure, he's fine when people call him a faggot, but he constantly feels the need to clarify that he wouldn't fuck a man and therefore he's not bisexual. almost like 'it's fine for other people to be gay or bi or queer or whatever, but not for me because i didn't have the stereotypical Queer Experience that i see in my own head'.
he seems to have this idea of what it means to be gay or grow up gay that doesn't quite account for the fact that it's really fucking hard to realize you're attracted to the same sex sometimes because you're raised in a society that shows you heterosexuality as the only option for most of your childhood. made worse by the fact that he likes women too, which can frequently mask the attraction to the same sex because you can date the opposite sex and still feel like you're 'doing it correctly'. even when you're aware of queer people as a concept and supportive, if it comes to a person who doesn't think they're 'allowed' or is, for some reason or another too scared to explore, they're never going to actually embrace that part of themselves. he can be as woke as he wants about lgbtq+ rights, but he's been so cemented into straight relationships for his entire career that i doubt he ever really treated the idea of dating a man as anything but a joke or something that other dudes do, but not him.
that's all obviously pure extrapolation as well so don't take me too seriously, but every conversation about pete wentz's sexuality is tinted with this sort of 'i'm not gay i promise, but what if i were? that would be okay, right?' that feels like him testing the waters but not having declared himself 'gay enough' to be allowed to take on the label.
there's also a part of the pete wentz identity that just fully, outright rejects labels as a concept, which i think is kind of awesome, but i do think it's somewhat limiting and definitely a product of the time.
once again, i know his bisexuality/biromanticism is widely supported by tumblr as a whole, but this is just my take on it.
ok fine. you want the real reason why i love and look up to pete wentz.. its this. this exactly. there's literally no better way to put it and it's so hard feeling this way without any sort of explanation or labels from anyone. you can't correctly describe how it feels to have these kinds of feelings and maybe it's just like that forever and i just have to deal with it.
at least it's not just me who feels like im going crazy because yeah girls are hot but it's whatever and im not really gay enough to call myself a lesbian or even maybe bisexual. maybe that's okay but tbh making peace with myself even without labels is harder as it seems. id make out with a cute chick any day and hell yeah i love to look at a nice pair of tits. and women are so intelligent and strong and their minds and bodies are so beautiful and beyond compare and yes i would absolutely marry a woman. and yes i have completely fallen in love with one before and fuck it's so. hard to navigate.
but im not gay or anything. because i never really cared enough and i didn't go through any special awakening and dont really feel like im going to be accepted for liking girls. not that i rely on other people's approvals but i feel like i just don't belong in the category of "bisexual" and to call myself that would feel like lying to everyone including myself. and i'd never get fully intimate with a girl so at the end of the day no im not into chicks and its whatever anyways .
and maybe that's societies fault for pushing this on me but im done caring too much for understanding myself. it bothers me but id rather pour my heart out in a way that doesn't make me feel embarassed or guilty. and if being with a man is the answer for that then ill do it because who am i kidding?
listening to fob without knowing anything about them or their interpersonal relationships and backstory / life / drama must be wild. like wow this is just a song to u.. u get to just casually enjoy sick music without feeling fucking insane while listening to it. u dont even know which unhinged peter wentz 2005 livejournal entry that line is from. what is that like i imagine it’s peaceful
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🎶 ✨ when you get this, list 5 songs you like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool) 🎶 ✨ (okay if you don’t want to answer) :p
Attention - The academy is…
Fairytale - Jon Walker
Charlie's Garden - Djo
Monday (the Colors show version is better imo) - Quadeca
Fame < Infamy - Fall Out Boy
@where0worlds0collide @sickkvalentine @mikeyp4rker @ryroventlove @kuemori @wormsinmousetraps @lalalalala520710 @cj220 @ar3i4 @believeinthe-enemy that's 10 but open tags if anyone wants to join!!
TYSM for the tag, I haven’t done a tag game in ages! Told myself I wasn’t allowed to put any MCR on it because then the whole thing would just be MCR lol.
The Last of the Famous International Playboys - Morrissey
Blood - Starbenders
This is Love - Air Traffic Controller
Born Under Punches (The Heat Goes On) - Talking Heads
whenever im really sad i watch that episode of teen titans go where fall out boy turns into ridiculously large superhero automobiles to fight an evil monster dragon that banished everyone to a land of coolness and awesomeness and the only way to get out is if they all preform a magical song that harnesses the power of music and friendship and then life doesn't seem so bad
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first and foremost it documented this blur that had become our lives. this record more than any of the others has always reminded me of night time- both the anxiety of insomnia and the peace of being awake when everyone else is asleep. i remember before we released it i used like a security blanket listening and trying to fall asleep. i really appreciate everyone who gave this one a chance.