gaslight, gatekeep, gillion tidestrider

• Feels like a performance, or you are copying things you have seen in other relationships

• When people comment on or ask about your relationship, it makes you uncomfortable

• After having sex, the more intimate touches/cuddles do not feel as good

• Wanting more independence or time alone

• Thinking if your partner cheated on you, you wouldn't care

• Being scared that you might cheat despite having no desire to be with anyone else

• Words like "partner, boyfriend, girlfriend, etc" all feel wrong, and you don't like them being applied to you

• Not having a strong feeling of missing your partner like you're "supposed" to

• Questioning your sexuality/preferences despite being confident in who/what you're attracted to

• Feeling like you're lying if you appreciate gifts or affection from them, even if you really do appreciate it

• Saying "I love you" feels fine, but it holds the same weight when you say it to anyone else

• Not wanting to tell anyone about your feelings because you're afraid you will be misunderstood

Anyway, that's all I got. I hope it helps someone out there. I'm still struggling too, but I think we will all be okay! <3

this list is not in any order, and i am not familiar with most of these artists, so an inclusion on this is not an endorsement of anything! if ive made a mistake anywhere, just let me know!

schmekel - transmasc jewish folk band (they seem to have deleted the majority of their music off most platforms, unsure why? but this link is to a playlist of re-uploads)

exiliahu - very vocally pro-palestine jewish trans man

noah finnce - british trans man, pop rock

ellyotto - canadian trans man, hyperpop

jesswar - fijian-austrailian trans man, hip hop

2am ricky - Black american trans man, hip hop/soul/jazz/house

rahim redcar - french trans man, indie/alt-pop

elio mei - american trans man, indie folk

anjimile - Black american trans man, indie folk

the oozes - queer punk band w/ a trans man lead singer

sushi soucy - transmasc, folk rock

dopamine - band of scottish transmascs

boy jr - transmasc, indie/alt rock

great grandpa - queer indie rock band w/ trans man lead singer

riotnine - transmasc punk band

the muslims - transmasc poc anti-fascist punk band

TR sun - Black american trans man, hip hop

billy tipton - american trans man, 1940s jazz star

mal blum - american trans man, indie rock/folk punk

dayflower - british transmasc "dreamcore" indie pop band

ryan cassata - american trans man, folk punk

ezra butler - british trans man, indie pop

bells larson - canadian nonbinary trans man, indie pop

sasha allen - american trans man, indie pop

boy bowser - american trans man, energetic hip hop

mikah amani - Black american trans man, folk music

jake edwards - british trans man, pop music

jakey bake - trans man, super indie/underground

king aiden - Black american trans man, indie pop

addison grace - american transmasc, indie pop

dylan and the moon - british trans man, indie folk

searows - american trans man, indie folk/bedroom pop

elio kennedy yoon - Asian-american trans man, indie pop

beverly glenn copland - Black canadian trans man, art/folk pop

REVENGEOFPARIS - nonbinary transmasc rapper

V3CTORGRAPH1CS - nonbinary transmasc, hyperpop

Um Jennifer? - american indie rock duo ; one is transmasc, the other is transfem

jigsawllie - transmasc, indie "weirdcore" vocaloid music

aw look it’s jays old design!! remember when she was so young and had both her legs and didn’t blame herself for everything that’s gone wrong and wasn’t completely suicidal?

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I think it'd be really cool if like. After getting Pelagus' blessing and stuff, Gillion got a little makeover where his markings were.sharper and his coral looked more like horns... this is so self indulgent but idk. Also I like the idea of his hair getting longer and him getting taller ... cuz he got his oath back and stuff....overall jusg more. dragony in appearance....