Artistic Expressions Of An Amateur

It started with a haircut.

Not the first one.

Not the second,

Or even the third.

It started when the world fell apart and kept going,

and I was expected to keep going too.

Like the shards of it weren't digging into my feet as I tried to catch up.

It started with a mirror,

a bottle of red hair dye,

a moment of desperation,

and a moment of surprise.

A reflection that paused and whispered,

Oh,

Yes.

This is right.

This is me.

It started with a step in the right direction,

and a bit of the world

Rise without the sun,

the sun not having risen.

Pulled roughly from the gentle grip

of dreams left half eaten,

dripping out from rows

of pale teeth,

clenched against the cold.

Strap into the metal coffin,

geared up for transport to a temporary grave

as white lines fly idly past.

A funeral procession wreathed in white,

uncaring and indifferent.

See the reflection, stood uneasy at the door,

eyes blind and burning,

waiting for release.

Weightless words tumble briefly

out of despondent mouths,

dissipating with departure.

Feel the plastic splash of light,

a buzzing glow that sinks into bones.

Bones that sing along in time

with time that follows crooked lines.

Stretch like taffy the lonely seconds

between now and the rising

of bodies,

of minds,

of dawn

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I don’t need someone to tell me

What my purpose is

Or why I am here

I know the answer is the same

It is in the touch of a mother

The words of a friend

The smile of a stranger

The sight of a lover

It is us

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You are here

And isn’t it a miracle

To experience this

Here and now

is an improbability of infinite proportion

and yet

You are here

And isn’t it beautiful

To see the sunrise and know

that there have been a thousand before

and there will be a million after

and a trillion after that

You are here

And isn’t it a gift

That you have a mind

That can think

And feel

And appreciate

that though you are small in comparison to the universe

You are someone’s entire world

You care and are cared for

And you are here

You are here

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