here’s to all the madders!
the ones who just learned about madd
the ones who have known for years
madders who are battling other mental illnesses like depression and anxiety
the ones whose madd was a trauma response
madders with other mental illnesses that they’re dealing with
recovering madders who are starting to get their shit together and are helping the others
madders who are still struggling to deal with their daydreams and aren’t quite sure what to do
older madders juggling college/their careers and madd
younger madders dealing with school
madders who have an offline support system
madders who haven’t told anyone outside of the online community about their madd
madders who created original paras and paracosms
madders with paras and paracosms from existing media
we’re all dealing with this shitty disorder that there isn’t a lot of research about and that a lot of people don’t know about and it sucks ass. i will be the first to admit it. and despite all of that, we’ve created this amazing and supportive community of thousands of people all across the world who know what it’s like, and we’re lifting each other up and giving each other advice and creating our own unique brand of humour and just…making this shitty disorder a little more bearable. i think i can speak for most, if not all of us when i say that the madd community, with its wonderful madders, is one of the best things in my life. to all of you amazing madders out there, i love you, so much. i know it’s difficult feeling split between two worlds, and being unsure of your identity, and feeling foreign in your own body, looking in the mirror and seeing a stranger. i know that a lot of times we hate all the dissociation and derealization and intrusive daydreams and sometimes physical injuries that tag along with this disorder that never seems to take a fucking vacation. i know that recovery seems daunting and terrifying, and we fear losing the last tiny shards of ourselves that we haven’t lost, and we are scared of having to rebuild ourselves with this crutch that has become such a constant for us. i know.
and it’s okay. it’s okay that we’re unsure, that we don’t know how to cope and which way to go next. it’s okay that sometimes we feel far to reliant on our daydreams to even function normally. and i can’t promise that it will just go away in a day, a month, a year or even multiple. but i can promise that we will always be there for each other. there is a beautiful and complex and vibrant world outside of our daydreams that is worth living in, and maybe one day, we’ll have kept on supporting each other and kept on working towards it, and we’ll realize it isn’t as hard to get there. so, thank you to every single madder. thank you for existing and being incredible.
snowghoul
blakekathryn
titsay
annaxmalina
germansingergirl
vaporwave
theartofmadeline
andulkaphoto
