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Perhaps the hardest thing about losing a lover is

to watch the year repeat its days.

It is as if I could dip my hand down

into time and scoop up

blue and green lozenges of April heat

a year ago in another country.

I can feel that other day running underneath this one

like an old videotape—

You have always been a creative and passionate girl. And I don't know if you remember this, but when you were young, you had all these characters you would come up with. And you used to have these little shows for your mom and me, using the living room as a stage. I think my favorite was the blind farmer. She would stumble around, bumping into all these furniture, yelling, "Has anyone seen a brown cow?" But in middle school, you had a brief affair with theater, and you were really into drama. But no more blind farmers. It had to be serious. Preferably life or death. But as a teenager, you became an activist and you developed a strong passion for gun control, which you got so serious i had to pick you up from the police one time for egging Walmart employees for selling weapons. It was obvious it came from your big heart, but I have to admit, I think part of it was about you rebelling against your dad too. You know, the dad who works in the military and happens to own a rifle. The same rifle which mysteriously disappeared right around that time. You remember that? Wasn't that a wild coincidence? 

Zendaya as Emma Harwood in The Drama (2026) dir. Kristoffer Borgli