The Ragged Things to Come

"vibes", also known as "internal biases",

people say folks with adhd struggle with "delayed rewards" aka long term goals and as such we tend to focus more on short term rewards. what they don't talk about is that at when we Do accomplish long term goals we don't actually feel anything proportionate to the amount of work we did to achieve it. In my head I suffered for a while and then money spontaneously appeared in my bank account.

"Don't you feel satisfied that your windows are so clean now?" It sucked and it sucked and now I don't care. I just remember the sucking.

girls with adhd playing long rpgs like "i am overwhelmed by the state of the save file i left off with last time my attention arbitrarily fell onto this game. time to start from scratch."

"yeah i fucking love this game. i've bought it on console and pc, and then the remaster too. i have no idea how it ends, i only get 40% of the way through the main story each time"

love watching c2 and whenever the nein don't know something, there's always a pattern that follows. first, they turn to the nerds (caleb and beau) and ask if they know it. then the nerds look at each other and wrack their heads to see if they do. if on the odd the chance they don't, the nerds make a trip to the nearest library and plan to barricade themselves in until they fill that gap in their knowledge. then they turn to the clerics (jester and cad) who then ask their gods. one talks to the wind and the other talks to a weasel. the guy talking to the wind is more successful at times. then they spend five more hours planning until fjord just decides to slam the red button. cinema.

reading this as someone who does cross stitch but is scared of the other kinds of embroidery is like overhearing an incredibly tall and buff person say they have beef with Mr. Tom, the kitten that chills at the bookstore

FUCK Mr. Tom and his stupid little fluffy tail ok. And his little charted designs.

Okay, but this neglects the true villain of embroidery stitches: the French knot

Don't you dare malign my girl again

Ok the french knot is very useful but it is a BITCH to do it consistently

being an essek stan is like. well yes I do think he's very sympathetic. no I don't think that means what he did was justified, just that he justified it to himself. I even think his justifications came from a place of actually reasonable motivations. no that doesn't preclude him from being a willfully horrible, awful person. in fact I think he's constantly lying, to the point that I don't generally take what he says at face value, so I'm going to go look at his other actions and general subtext of the overall evidence to see if any given thing he says is true. no I don't feel like I need to include all of these opinions in order to write one single piece of meta let alone fic but some people really do seem to think that if I don't then I must not actually hold them and am alternatively either excusing and justifying all of his worst qualities or insisting he doesn't have them.

Yes-- Caleb and Essek are such fascinating characters because they take values and characteristics that are believed to be good and bring them to extremes where they turn bad. Both of them struggle with intellectual ambition and the lengths to which you should go to satisfy it. They struggle with either ends of the spectrum of patriotism and what that can lead to. Essek and his attitudes towards religion are fascinating. They're in dialogue with some big, fun themes.