tw:ed

most important part of the writing process actually is when you loop a single song on max volume and stare at the word document and imagine the characters doing things for 14 hours. this is known as getting in the zone

*scrolls far back into my blog* oh yes…i was suffering quite vigorously here

DID U GUYS MISS ME

dont care didnt ask plus your pessimistic outlook on life is exhausting

"we all die" "love is pointless" "its never gonna get better" yeah ok bitch maybe!!!! i dont care tho im still gonna love with my entire heart and live every day like its my last!!!

Also, can we stop making it seem as if pessimism equals being realistic? Being negative at all times and always expecting/seeing the worst in things is just as unhealthy as forced positivity.

Thinking the worst all the time is ridiculously destructive

I’m really smart and beautiful and sometimes I don’t believe that but that doesn’t stop it from being true

omg I feel so numb I just want to cut everyone out of my life just to feel something fuck

will I ever be okay

feeling embarrassed . in general

God gave me the underrated gift of not being born into a english speaking country and the Idiot Me decided to become fluent in it and understand the things america people say and my quality of life been dwindling since

looking for more insane girl mutuals 

loving people does not end well for me