the chosen one

DOODLES!

A while ago I had to do a presentation about a book for my Cambridge English  class and I chose one of my faves: “History is all you left me.”

literature posters ≡ history is all you left me, adam silvera

most of the time when a book has a big concept that makes their world different than ours (think dystopias like hunger games or divergent), the book follows the main character who finally stops that. they somehow differ from the norm and break the cycle. but in this book they dont. they never figure out how death-cast works, they never save the day and prove something by not dying even though they were told they would, they never break the cycle of their world.

they die at the end, and even though you were told they would, your brain convinces you they wont, gives you just a little hope, because if it followed the narrative that a lot of other stories follow, they wouldnt

@projectliterature​ event 02 : underappreciated   —  they both die at the end

they: both die

me:

just thinking about how they never really got to say goodbye.

just thinking about how in the beginning mateo said he was raised in his home and would die in his home.

just thinking about how he knew the stove was broken.

just thinking about how rufus died listening to mateo singing to him.

just thinking about how finding each, indeed did kill them.

just thinking about how so many songs fit them- so well (ribs by lorde, “you’re the only friend i need”, like real people do by hozier, kiss goodnight by idkhbtfm, carry me out, burning hill, pink in the night, francis forever, your best american girl- anything by mitski, two ghosts- harry styles, etc.).

just thinking about how mateo probably thought his father wouldn’t love him the same or lidia either if they knew who he loved so he neglected that feeling.

just thinking about the part where rufus holds mateo’s hand before jumping.

just thinking about how rufus was the reason mateo lived so long that day and mateo was the reason he died so shortly after he did.

just thinking about how no one could tell the pluto’s rufus had died, they just kind of assumed the next day i guess.

just thinking about how rufus was left behind again but he probably thought he was the one who left mateo.

just thinking about how rufus probably blamed himself for not getting up earlier, thinking he could’ve saved mateo.

just thinking about how rufus lied to the ambulance and said mateo never got the call.

just thinking about how all the stories connect.

“He should’ve given the photographer more credit. He managed to capture the moment right when Henry cracked a joke, a candid, genuine photo, completely caught up with each other"