i love you. (i’m trying to add # so this will hopefully reach whoever needs to hear this.)

i want to just stop

i feel like the people who associate the song that’s like “all for nothing at all” with eren don’t really understand his motive and how he succeeded. he knew mikasa and armin would stop him, that was the whole idea so to say that the rumbling was for nothing at all wouldn’t be true. he needed to be with zeke so he could get to the paths and talk to ymir and erase the memories of his friends from when they said goodbye. also to eradicate the existence of titans. sure in the beginning, it might’ve been all for nothing at all but now it’s not. he said he wanted to kill all the titans and he did.

levi when the scouts got introduced in season 4 and people called him “round” or “fat” and said he looked bad like...is there something wrong with being fat..? and then in the newest episode they’re making fun of armin and saying stuff like “he got his father’s genes” or that he’s “starting to look like his father” or whatever like..? what. they’re not little kids anymore, attack on titan has the most realistic body types- the thing you guys preach about but when we actually get realistic body types you guys share them like what? i know they’re just drawings and shit but people turn so fast on their fave characters because they look bigger or fat. so annoying.

rufus walks across the street without a hand holding him back, listening to his song being sung by the love of his life. mateo was with him before rufus died.

continuation from my last post- you know the song cherry by harry styles? do you think aimee and lidia felt like that when rufus and mateo found each other? like when they realized they were in love? do you think the line “don’t you call him baby, we’re not talking lately. don’t you call him what you used to call me” describes what aimee felt when rufus and mateo got together romantically but platonically when lidia saw them? if that makes sense.

just thinking, just thinking, just thinking.

i suffer from an eating disorder. i have ever since i was maybe 8 or 9 years old. during national eating disorder awareness week, a lot of attention has been brought to this topic and instead of helping, it’s just triggered me more and has made me relapse and feel guilty when i do eat. i know this isn’t the case for everyone but that’s how my mind reacted. i have never told anyone about my eating disorder because- and i’m sure most of us feel this way but i don’t like talking about it. so instead of me telling you guys who suffer from these to just eat or to eat because your body deserves it, i will tell you something else because for me those never worked. they actually made me feel worse. it’s ok to relapse. it’s ok to have a few days that are worse than others. it’s ok. you don’t have to recover right now, tomorrow, next week, next month- whenever. you are not obligated to. take it at your own pace because i know how suffocating it is to suffer from this firsthand and not know what to do. it’s ok to feel helpless because that’s what makes us human. take your time and do it at your own pace. progress is progress no matter how big or little. i’m proud of you and i know every post like this says “i’m proud of you” but i genuinely mean it. if you haven’t been told this already, i am so proud of you. even if we don’t know each other, i’m proud of you.