My Shadow

I was in the emergency room this time 3 years ago. After I had tried to 💀 myself. I remember rocking back and forth in my bed covered in bandages. The woman in the bed next to me was elderly, she was covered in urine and she wouldn’t stop crying. She was begging the nurses to let her die. I’m not sure I can ever get over something like that

He broke my heart 3 years ago and now he’s married her.

Do I go to work, or do I kill myself seems to be a daily debate recently

I wish I would just die. I’m so tired of fighting this depression. Problem is, I’m too scared to do it

I’m on an island. Screaming out in to the ocean for someone to see me. Nobody does. Nobody can see me.

You were once the kindest person to me and I must admit, I fell in love with you for it. Then you seemed distant. I could see you slipping away, but I tried to give you space as I didn’t want to scare you off. You became more and more detached, until one day I said we should end it and you joked to your friends about how funny that was. You read my messages out to them and you all laughed. What kind of person are you?

Don’t mind me, my heart is just screaming through my chest, and I want to die because the thought of going through another day of this anguish feels unbearable

Sometimes I wish I had died at 11 when I first started becoming depressed