On Purpose

no but seriously "gimme kiss" plus those big fat pursed lips is one of the sweetest parts of the whole show because their relationship has been characterised by lust from the beginning, it's what they started with and it's what they padded their feelings in before they were ready to let those feelings stand on their own, but in this moment there's not even a hint of lust, there's no ulterior motive to seduce, ilya just wants a moment of connection with shane — physically and emotionally — and he knows now that he doesn't have to do anything to get it. he can be relaxed and silly and he can just ask to receive it. gimme kiss! said in the most mischievous manner ever. and shane gives him kiss!!!!!!!!

he can finally just ask 😭

oh, why is that?

they’re so

be still my heart

vegas bathroom scene is really just like. ilya has the upperhand. ilya is using shane's desire for him to get what he wants and set the terms for their dynamic. ilya is controlling the game and telling shane how the night will go. but then. But Then. shane says 'when did your english get so good?' and ilya says, 'i read new yorker now' and shane's smile is so blisteringly infatuated and his 'really?' is so eager and all of a sudden. ilya is disarmed. shane (unknowingly) has the upperhand now. ilya turns away from shane and stops making eye contact. ilya beats back shane's every question with a flippant answer 'no new yorker is boring' 'ah so being boring is genetic'. but it literally doesn't matter what he says because shane is so enamoured and so weak-kneed and so taken with ilya that his earnestness is pouring out of him. he can't help it. he says 'my dad loves it' like he wants ilya to know him. he says 'wow, genetic' like it's a love confession. and ilya Cannot get back the upperhand. he can't get back the control. so he makes a deal and he sets the terms and it's fine. but then shane looks at him from under his lashes with watery eyes and says 'and if you win?'. and ilya's self-control shatters and he Has to kiss shane. he can't help it. in a second, he'll leave the bathroom and take everything he feels and lock it away in a box he won't allow himself to touch. and yes the aftermath will be agony but it's also. they're playing a game of chess and shane doesn't even know he's already won, y'know?????????????

my boy ilya was fighting for his life

Gentle-domming the fuck out of a boy with a shy smile and the most devastating doe eyes you’ve ever seen. You agree.