give me back my time and i will give you back your heart
Pairing: Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov
Rating: Mature
Word Count: 7733
Summary:
“Let’s make a deal.”
The words come out of his mouth without his permission but they make a flicker of a smile appear on Shane’s face, private and fond. He nods, silently urging Ilya to keep going.
“In ten years, fifteen,” he starts, gritting his teeth against his own anxiety. “When hockey is done and no one gives a fuck about us anymore and- and I have American citizenship. If- if we are both still single, then we can try.”
Shane goes still, hand dropping from Ilya’s face and mouth parting. Ilya has a moment or two to panic that he’s somehow completely miscalculated but then Shane’s expression breaks over an awed sort of smile.
“Like those romcom couples, huh?”
Ilya blinks. It’s not what he’d expected Shane to say. “What?”
Shane’s smile widens into a grin. “You know those movies where like, two best friends make a pact that if they’re both still single when they’re forty then they’ll get married-”
“You are proposing, Hollander? Is so sudden-”
*
In which Shane and Ilya decide to end things in Tampa, make a deal about someday, and end up on the same team together five years later.
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of course, babe!!! i did answer a fic rec ask in the last couple of weeks so i'll link that too if you haven't seen it! and if you're wondering at the teen wolf authors i rediscovered decideophobia aka @shanehollandered and coffeeinallcaps / @coffeeinallcaps are two usernames i was very happy to see pop up again 🥰 and the first fic below is also from another amazing tw author:
a pox on all your houses by apocryphal
"Chlamydia?" Ilya has never heard Hollander's voice reach such heights in the absence of a cock. "You have chlamydia?"
"I did not get it on purpose," Ilya complains.
I can fumble around forever by errantgods
The summer after he wins the Cup for Boston, Ilya almost dies. Shane tries to cope.
i can hear them singin' (to love me is to suffer me) by FlowerCitti
Ilya Rozanov learns how to be loved.
for a split sec, I was a train wreck by Anonymous
Ilya gets injured, stops leaving the house, loses his mind, learns to read tarot, and sends Shane Hollander a lot of photos.
Fall in love with anyone by sistercacao
Ilya reads an article about 36 questions that are supposed to make people fall in love. He decides to ask them to Shane.
limerence by cloudsurfing
The first one is perfect. A deep crimson, brightening to scarlet at its edges and thick, firm between his fingers. It's undamaged, not even torn at its thinnest parts for all of its violent means of arrival into the palm of his hand, but sticky with saliva making its texture unpleasant. It is, otherwise, a flawless rose petal, like something you would see in a drawing; an oil painting.
It's such a beautiful thing, and so small, to be killing him.
Ilya rubs at his breastbone and clears his throat but there's nothing else to come up; not today. Closing his eyes so that he doesn't have to look at himself in the mirror over the sink he pictures his lungs turning to dirt so that the roots of the rose can plant themselves in him; choke him from the inside.
That's not quite how it works, he knows.
It may as well be.
i want a scar that looks just like you by angel_deux
Shane has been covering up his soulmark for as long as Ilya has known him.
Ilya doesn't have a soulmark at all.
cotinine by PenAndInkPrincess
(shane is EXTREMELY sensitive to nicotine) (the problem with this? he isn't actually aware of it and thus doesn't understand why fucking ilya rozanov sometimes makes him sick afterwards)
Shipping up in Boston by angel_deux
Shane is traded to Boston during the hookup era, and his attempts to act normal and professional around Rozanov are a little too successful: fans start shipping him with Marleau, instead.
solnyshko by angel_deux
Ilya Rozanov wakes up from a medically induced coma, sixteen months into a mission to save the dying sun, and he can't remember a single one of his crewmates.
He's immediately drawn to one of them, though. Too bad Hollander won't give him the time of day.
Stop me if you've heard this one before by sistercacao
Shane Hollander doesn't understand why everyone thinks he and Ilya Rozanov hate each other. He's pretty sure that in all the years they've been playing in the league together, they've never even talked before.
Well, he's kind of sure. He thinks he would remember. He would remember something about Rozanov, if it was really important.
Right?
tuna salad days by angel_deux
When Shane sticks it out at Ilya's house, and the tuna meltdown doesn't happen, he still walks away confused about what Ilya actually WANTS from him. When an opportunity presents itself in the form of Rose Landry and a very thorough PR relationship contract, Shane decides to take advantage of it to show Ilya that he can be a totally chill and normal friend with benefits, and definitely isn't too attached.
and two wips i'm currently reading:
Carrion Comfort (Work) by eden22
Flight 771 shouldn't have been any different than any of the hundreds of other flights that Shane has taken over the course of his career, aside from the fact that it was taking him towards his lifelong dream—towards the Olympics.
It shouldn't have been any different.
BEND OVER, STAY DOWN.
BEND OVER, STAY DOWN.
BEND OVER, STAY DOWN.
It is.
moon chasers by totheverge
Five months after Sochi, Shane's set to play a charity hockey game in Paris. So is Ilya.
They run into each other in the lobby of their hotel the night before. Twelve hours stretch out in front of them, and Ilya suggests something different: no phones, no expectations, no past, no hockey. Just the city, and whatever they can be when nobody else is watching.
It's obviously a terrible idea, but Shane says yes, anyway.
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Oh my god, I literally did the same thing with reading he fics, and then checking for others, and then seeing they wrote teen wolf and wanting to check out what ships, and then being like !!!! I loved this one! And then going down a wormhole of a bunch of fics I loved from teen wolf.
isn't it so nice!!!!!!!! it's happened to me like 4 times in the last couple of weeks :')) it's also such a fun thing bc i think so many teen wolf/sterek fics had such a specific style of writing and so once i realise who the author is i can kind of still see those little quirks in their hollanov fics?? it's just like, our roads to getting here maybe different but our taste is still the same u know asdklfhd
sometimes i'm reading a hr fic and this beautiful thing happens where i go to the author's profile and i see they wrote for teen wolf and i think 'huh i wonder what they wrote for teen wolf' and i find all of these phenomenal fics that i still have bookmarked to this day and i'll let out such a fond 'oh of course they wrote x fic!!!!!!!!!' and it really does lowkey feel like coming home lol
really wish tlg had been an exploration of ilya deciding if he wants to come out. adjusting to the possibility of being able to make that choice. what's it like to grow up believing you'd never be able to be public with this part of yourself, and make peace with that, only to meet someone and move somewhere where that's possible? and then contending with a whole different set of circumstances with what coming out means as a hockey player, and whether it would actually be something he wants to do. a scene where he sees two guys walking down the sidewalk holding hands and wonders for a moment what that would feel like with shane? would he want that? would shane? kissing shane's knuckles and pressing against his side as they walked to their favorite coffee shop. and then later, he's in the locker room or he's on twitter and he sees/hears scott being called a slur and it brings him back down to earth for a second. because coming out is that, too. and is it worth the trade off, and would shane want that, and would he, really, if he thinks about it. maybe he still does. but i wish he'd been able to sit with whether he actually wanted it or not, the reality of it, rather than just seemingly done all of this off page to the point of it feeling jarring.
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