Don't love you yet but probably will

connor storrie for Xiox Magazine ⛓️

feeling emotional about this one today

connor: i had just gotten off of like a six-hour flight coming from LA and it was so weird to see him in person and know we're about to go on this huge journey. it was my first time in canada. i was like studying russian like my mind was all over the place. so i probably looked like a crazy person in there cuz i was like i need coconut cream

hudson: he kept saying i need coconut cream and chia seeds

connor: and so he was just like following me around as i was like—

hudson: we spent 35 minutes looking for coconut cream

Shoved facedown into pillow during doggy

tossed them to the side when riding and then they rolled on top of them when Ilya took over

Knocked off while making out and then stepped on

Somehow got between the mattress and headboard and then slammed repeatedly

Accidentally popped lens out when cleaning cum off them

Fell into lake when fucking on the dock, gone forever

“shane. would you still love me if i was tiny little worm?”

and shane, bless his heart, he rolls over to face ilya with wide eyes and an open mouth and stares at his husband who is staring back at him intently.

“well?” ilya prompts.

shane closes his eyes and counts to five like his therapist taught him and doesn’t think about the fact that his optimal nine hour slumber is being cut down to eight hours and forty minutes because of this, it’s not going to ruin his whole day, he won’t let it.

“ilya.” shane says and ilya smiles like a puppy dog at shane saying his name “go to sleep.”

his smile drops “so you would not love me as little worm? i am still your husband while i am in worm form.”

and shane mouths worm form because he’s never said that string of words before so it felt necessary. then he sighs and grabs at ilya and lays on his back bringing ilya to his chest. he cuddles him into his side as ilya rests his head on his pec.

“yes, i will still love you if you were a worm. through sickness and health and becoming a worm. now, go to sleep.”

and shane feels ilya smiling against his skin and and a little “okay” breathed out quietly.