Don't love you yet but probably will

ilya convinces shane to reenact and record some of the videos without his face to send back to cliff. it takes a bit of prodding at shanes exhibitionism and some jealousy of cliff when he finds out about their old threesome, maybe some feminisation like "he wont know you’re even a man, we will only record how well your ass takes me, he will think you are a pretty girl with a perfect ass", either way ilya convinces shane.

and they START with being indistinguishable if it’s a man or a woman but VERY slowly with shanes permission ilya starts showing more of shanes body, it goes from “indistinguishable from a man or a woman” to “that is a man if i think about it for a minute” but not identifiable as shane. they do this slow. incredibly slowly. beanie said it best, boiling a frog slow.

there are two purposes for this. One, ilya likes showing shane off, the close ups of their sex are fine and they’re hot but in ilyas option they dont do shane the justice he deserves. even his waist is obscene, to cut his body out of videos is like sacrilege. shane, the longer this goes on and the more comfortable he gets and the more ilya turns this into a sex thing, is not as scared of cliff knowing ilya is fucking a man as long as it cant be traced back to him. Two, ilya is making cliff microdose his bisexuality hes still in denial about by slowly exposing more and more of shanes body so its clear its a man. hes confident one of these days cliff will realize hes been jacking it to two dudes fucking and will finally make the connection ilya made the first day he met cliff.

this has some unique chirping material to it to explore between shane and ilya. shane getting slammed into the boards by cliff mid game and the next time hes within hearing range and alone ilya is spitting out some shit about how he wonders how cliff would play if he knew it was shane in those videos taking him so well. now they’re both half hard in their gear thinking about it. shane shoving ilya at the boards to get between him and the puck, commenting that he thinks cliff has enough material to fuck him better than ilya does at this point. shane is half hard in his gear, ilya is plotting to record again that night to prove he’ll always fuck shane better than cliff could.

and post outing? oh my god, post outing but pre cliff realizing/being told its shane in those videos shane is really really weird around cliff because shane is thinking “he knows now hes literally seen our sex tapes he knows what i look like getting fucked he has seen ilya fucking me” and cliff is thinking “my best friends boyfriend fucking hates me :(((“

once cliff realizes/is told he starts getting weird with ILYA while shane is STILL being weird with cliff and ilya sits through like 3 weeks of hell before he has to step in and break down the most problem avoidant people in his life to get them to admit this is about the sex tapes so they can solve the issue and once he knows what its about hes like “you fucking idiots are stressed about the SAME THING stop being weird we all jack off to them”

the whole time things are weird cliff has those videos in a locked folder and hes trying to decide if he should delete them or not. on one hand, hes sure it was never supposed to come out like this if it was meant to come out at all, on the other hand its like 20 to 30 videos and a solid 15 of them are hot as FUCK and were pretty regular videos he’d jack off to so if he deletes them he’ll be a little sad about it. he didnt watched them since he found out but once ilya talks to him and shane all bets are off and hes jackin it to them again💪💪

this can be hollanoveau or just exhibition or whatever your heart desires but the important part is that it is yours now, go my worms

Shane on the other hand talked a mile a minute. He was always babbling and bubbling about one thing or another. He was a yapper.

As they got older, Ilya realised that it’s simpler to hide in the spot light and that it’s easier to get away with things when he’s loud. It’s whole another kind of invisibility, hiding in plain sight, everyone sees him, believes they know him, but they only know the parts he allows them to see.

Shane became quiet. He figured out that people didn’t want to listen. He understood people find him more likabke when he’s quiet. So he keeps his thoughts to himself, doesn’t talk, doesn’t make people uncomfortable by having too much information to share and not knowing when to shut up.

Fast forward to the cottage. They’re sitting on the couch, Shane’s legs in Ilya’s lap as he waves in arms around, talking excitedly about something. And Ilya, Ilya just listens. He doesn’t interrupt him, doesn’t tell him to stop talking. He enjoys not having to be the one talking for once, actually. There’s a small smile dancing across his lips as he listens to his boyfriend (boyfriend!!!) yap about beavers, their importance for the ecosystem and how they became the national animal of Canada.