Huemanatee

the problem is i really do love staying up until one billion o'clock. it just cant be helped

''what if you regret it'' then you will expirience regret - a normal and unavoidable part of the human expirience.

the more you twist yourself into a pretzel to avoid regret the harder it will hit when it eventually catches up to you.

Gotta start repeating this as a daily affirmation

i love u hadestown proshot i love u close ups on the musicians i love u costume details i love u staging details i love u light design details i love u turntable i love u patrick page's boot i love u soon-to-be married reeve & eva in these roles i love u hadestown and ur message of hope despite it all i love u musicals i love u i love u mwah

I am a really really big fan of this whole filming and putting pro-shots of musicals in theater

wanna hang out [remembers it's rude to put expectations on people] it's cool if not [remembers people like to know they're wanted] but I'd really like it if you did [remembers selfishness is bad] we can do whatever you want though [remembers that handing someone a blank canvas isn't as effective as providing a suggestion to bounce ideas off of] like sucking each others fingers for example

Yeah this is what'll happen if I go into a convo without rehearsing it first

I'm reblogging to actually use this

Reblogging so I can read all of this; I think I do need to do better with my emotional maturity so this will come in handy.

Being cut off from our own natural self-compassion is one of the greatest impairments we can suffer. Along with our ability to feel our own pain go our best hopes for healing, dignity and love. What seems nonadaptive and self-harming in the present was, at some point in our lives, an adaptation to help us endure what we then had to go through. If people are addicted to self-soothing behaviours, it's only because in their formative years they did not receive the soothing they needed. Such understanding helps delete toxic self-judgment on the past and supports responsibility for the now. Hence the need for compassionate self-inquiry.

Instead of blaming yourself for having addictive thoughts or desires, you calmly ask why these desires have exercised such a powerful hold over you. "Because they are deeply ingrained in my brain and because they are easily triggered when-ever I'm stressed or fatigued or unhappy or bored." The addictive compulsion says nothing about you as a person. It is not a moral failure or a character weakness; it is just the effect of circumstances over which you had no control. What you do have some control over is how you respond to the compulsion in the present. You were not responsible for the stressful circumstances that shaped your brain and worldview, but you can take responsibility now.

Reflection from Mulan was so crazy she literally sang “If I were truly to be myself I would break my family’s heart” and 8 year old proto-gay me was like “I don’t know what you mean but I know what you mean”