oh my god i just realised why i’ve been feeling so bad for the past two weeks with no energy to live. it’s because my therapist was so mean and judgemental the last time i went which was two weeks ago… and i’ve been just carrying this anger and resentment in my body all this time !!! i just talked about it on the phone with my mother and i think this therapy is not what is going to help me get better.. what an epiphany. i think sometimes psychologists get it wrong and your own body knows better honestly .. but all that thinking and analysing gets in the way!!!

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the last week of may i had a good health week. it was sunny and hot, i went swimming, i made elderflower cordial, i tried to be as active as possible despite not having energy like a normal person, and for my usual i had great energy. but ever since june started my health has been down again and its a struggle daily… this godforsaken disease is such a mess. also the weather has been stupid, and classic dutch. a daily blanket of clouds in the sky. lack of sunlight, or when it’s there, its sporadic and not bright. sometimes rain. i hate it lol. been to the functional medicine doctor last monday to discuss my health test results and got prescribed some meds to try.. and i have to overhaul my diet once again… let’s see what it does..