cheers to the sliver of hope that shines

"a Type? in what way?", you may ask. i dunno, one of them. platonic, alterous, aesthetic, maybe even gender envy: spin the wheel, your guess is as good as mine all i know is its non-rose and theres a pattern.

Rocky from Project Hail Mary is genderfluid, unlabeled and autistic!

I love labels

I love labels because you have this word you can point to and say "thats how I feel, there are others that feel like that, I'm not alone"

What do you mean I want to be friends but also I think it's adorable when I fluster you and I think I could spend the rest of my life doing that. And like I wanna be your boyfriend but not like THAT, I wanna hang out but I don't wanna go on dates, I wanna kiss you but never on the lips, like maybe your hands or your forehead or your cheek or anywhere less romantically charged. I wanna hold your hand but like only sometimes, and only if it's not a big deal. But also it can be romantic just not like THAT. But also kinda like that?

And like it's fine if it's entirely romantic to you, that's cool. It's not to me. It's this weird blend of both. But also??? Don't make it weird and hugely romantic. But I could buy you flowers and call you my valentine in February, but like as friends-but-also-not. I want to hold you in my arms and comfort you and be your rock. But like. Not as friends but also not romantically. I adore you but not like you want me to but also it's like halfway there.