I'm here to see what all the fuss is about

just the idea that jason has been pulling away, he cant find a reason to keep trying with these people, person after person, kid after kid, name after name gone. ages ranging far too low to keep playing this game of cat and mouse, to keep pretending that he will ever be happy with these people.

he's been selfish, so so SO fucking selfish and hasn't been worth a fuck.

the bats notice, they see jason willing to hit harder, that he pulls back later and later and later, how he doesn't even bother yelling amymore, he says his piece and shuts down -- no amount of poking, prodding, and berating is getting him to engage

and so they gamble

it's a big one, but they're desperate.

they've got jason in the cave, another night of close calls, another night of the tension ratcheting up in all their shoulders, they know what he wants to do, and jason knows what he SHOULD do, but they press on

and in a desperate bid, they tell jason dick killed the joker, a hail mary if jason's ever heard one, and the fucked up part is, he believes it, he believes it 100%, but he knows there's more to this story and the GUILT on dick's face disgusts him.

his stomach rolls with it, it's almost as bad as how he felt when shelia looked at him, mid puff, mid crowbar, mid bone shatter.

the regret, the guilt, the fucking cowardice

jason remembers heaving when he looked at her, blood and bile mixing in ways no child should ever taste.

he wants to now

at least there's no blood

instead, he demands the footage, placates them with removing his guns from their holsters, knives clatter on the table and taking off the mask, they wanna catalog his disgust and disappointment that's on them

and he watches how the joker taunts dick about him, how the idea of tim being dead was enough of a straw to break the camels back, how dick's already folding under the pressure, how bruce takes one look at his golden boy and moves to fix it

tim matters to dick

dick matters to bruce

and jason matters to no one

dick cant watch the footage, he knows what he did, he sees it flash behind his eyes plenty, he just watches jason, and they're being shut out -- jason's face is blank, carefully, there's nothing they expected to see, no tears, no joy, no satisfaction-- there's nothing

dick feels his tongue fumble for words, "i. . . couldn't stand him talking about you like that"

and jason snorts, "ah okah so we're pretending you didnt think tim was dead, got it," he rolls his shoulders and starts walking back to his weapons

tim cant help but cut in, as if what he has to say will make a difference, "he gave you what you wanted, what more do you need"

jason continues to check his weapons over, sliding knives back into place, "what i wanted was a dead joker, what i wanted was a family that valued me more than that sack of flesh, instead, ive got three cowsrds staring back at me wondering if they got an A for effort."

jason's hands are steady, relaxed even, his mask sits in his hands and he briefly flicks his eyes down, it's kight and somehow painfully heavy, from the color, to the title, to the power -- it's defined his life for the last decade and realizes. . .

these people were never worth it.

50 dead 32 of them under the age of 18, all people he could have helped, could have kept ALIVE if he wasnt so busy tearing scabs open and bleeding at the feet of people that cant even BEGIN to understand what loyalty means

it's them or the city

them or the people

them or his people

Do Not forget that Bruce's first reaction after catching Jason is to send him to a unvetted boarding school that promise to teach and correct wayward boys, which turned out to be a trafficking/mob front.

Do Not forget that Jason got into trouble with the principal because he refused to help her heist a museum and ran away because of it. Do Not forget that he told Batman about the heist plan, and when Batman doesn't seems to trust him showed up at the heist planning to stopped them himself.

Do Not forget that Jason pulled Batman's famous disappearing trick on the big guy himself, fought back against several much older teens despite loosing at the end, and got into the museum so easily that Batman did a double take. All before he gets the Robin offer.

*Jason through a speaker*: If you choose to turn the trolley to prevent his death, you will turn it onto me, your son. And kill me in the very place we met.

Because the books show the opposite for the most part- Dick's literally gets his ass kicked in the first issue of the collection because he didn't do any research on the Pierce Brothers(Shout out to Jason's monologue in the opening about how any self respecting superhero planning on moving to New York would know about the Pierce Brothers) and rushed in because he saw that they were beating on some guy without knowing that they're Metahumans. He loses his temper just casually seeing Jason during that photoshoot and just starts trying to kick his ass while they're both seen as civilians. He fucks Cheyanne multiple times without knowing anything about her or her life.

Meanwhile, Jason's inner monologue states that he actually bothered learning shit about the Pierce Brothers and throughout the series is mostly attacking them indirectly through their goons. When Dick catches him in the middle of trying to kill some guy he explains that he's a convicted rapist who fell through the cracks, because that's a thing that he knew about the guy. I wonder why he was standing underneath that balcony after Dick fell over, almost like he was spying on his targets instead of rushing in... Dick never finds out where Jason's staying but Jason knows where he lives and where he works and his phone number.

Jason was not asking Bruce to kill Joker, Bruce’s options were to kill Jason or let Jason kill Joker. If you won’t listen to me, then perhaps you will listen to the author.

The dilemma Jason presents is that Bruce must either accept that he’s complicit in the knock-on effects of his actions (and inactions) and thus shoot Jason, or he must remain stalwart in his position that he is not complicit and thus let Jason kill Joker.

obviously how effective this is varies wildly based on the relationship, or lack thereof, that you have with the other person. but I find it effective with people who are In Your Life but don't meaningfully have any control over you. quite often it DOES result in increased directness in the future, especially if it's something I end up doing fairly often. and it's not rude; I'm just politely seeking clarification about what is being communicated. it makes the person have to think about what effect they were expecting their behavior to have on my behavior, and then just... tell me straightforwardly. but without escalating the situation or making the person feel 'called out' most of the time.

She frequently makes requests by telling me what I want, eg "oh wouldn't you like to.." "don't you think it's be nice if..."

It used to drive me up the wall, but now as an adult with better understanding of what's happening I say "Actually I'm fine with x, but I'd be happy to do y if that's what you want?"

One day she actually asked me, "Why is it so important to you that I say that y is what I want?"

and i got to say "Well I don't like being told what I want. I have enough life experience to know my own desires and limitations, and I can advocate for them when I need to. However your opinions do matter to me and I want to take them into account. It's much less stressful for me to do so when I'm not guessing what's in your mind."

And folks, she Actually Listened.

Later that day she wanted something that ended up not being possible, but because she said so directly I was able to help her find a different way to achieve the same goal!

You are not going to pass a skillcheck against a rip current once it has you.

Waves will not bow to your physical prowess no matter how impressive.

Shock does not care that you used to be on your school swim team.

If you hit your head, being good at swimming isn't going to turn you face-up while you're unconscious.

We are doing something. We’re rejecting allonormative ideals and that’s a massive thing to do. We’re actively fighting not just to help other aspecs, but to help everyone, because amatonormativity (and allonormativity as a whole) hurt everyone. Single people who want to find a partner but can’t also deserve to be able to exist.

There are so many issues with the expectation of marriage, including:

A single income isn't enough to get by anymore

Having a spouse is almost necessary under the current medical system

Society shames and pressures people who are single to get into relationships constantly

Rejecting allonormativity means fighting against these things that hurt everyone.

Rumination is probably the most common type of OCD compulsion, but I rarely see anyone talking about it. I've talked to multiple people diagnosed with OCD who didn't even recognize it as a compulsion.

Basically, if you have OCD you have terrible intrusive thoughts. They can be about anything, but common themes are fear of being a bad person, fear of hurting someone, fear of contamination. etc.

Rumination is when you get stuck in a spiral. Rumination is when you spend hours catastrophizing, overthinking, analyzing, telling yourself it's going to be okay.

I'll say it again:

Rumination is a compulsion.

Rumination is a compulsion, and that means you have to stop doing it.

I did ERP (exposure response prevention) for my OCD with a therapist! For 9 months! And it did help, but the idea didn't really click until I found this website a couple years later.

And Oh My God. It made things make so much more sense, and I was able to pull myself out of an episode even though I wasn't in therapy or on meds at the time.

Genuinely if you have OCD, or even if you suspect you have OCD, I'm begging you to read some of these articles.

Like this was genuinely life changing for me.

Here are some of the ones that were most helpful to me:

Defining Rumination

How to Stop Ruminating

ERP Exercises for Compulsive Rumination

The reason for this is the way that the two phases of the fight—Choso v. Kenjaku and Yuki v. Kenjaku—contrast each other.

Choso comes in first, clearly set to lose against an overwhelming antagonistic force, but he pulls out all the stops, gets creative, and outshines our expectations—he doesn't win, but he manages to force Kenjaku into revealing more of his power set, even though the technique Kenjaku was already using was so oppressively strong. It's a really cool moment! It feels like victory! It's especially satisfying to see it done to Kenjaku, who's spent the whole manga until now out-weaseling opponents who should beat him in a straight power contest. It's even more satisfying that it's the son he abused and discarded. All the character writing until this point lends more gravitas to Choso's little victory.

Then we have Yuki—Yuki has been set up nearly from the start of the manga. She's the renegade Special Grade, at least of comparable power to Satoru Gojo. She appears in numerous backstories and has a significant impact on the current state of the plot—she personally taught sorcery to Todo, easily the second-strongest active student at Jujutsu Tech, and it was her influence that inadvertently set Geto on the path to become the main villain of the original series. In the lead-up to her fight with Kenjaku, we learn that she has history with Tengen, in fact, she was a former Star Plasma Vessel who refused the merger, literally rejected and escaped the inevitable tragedy of one of the major earlier arcs of the series. We don't know her technique. We just know that she's a big deal, and that she was able to singlehandedly, instantly save the entire heroic cast at the climax of the Shibuya Incident. And finally, she's gonna fight.

And lose, and die. After one fucking fight, in which she severely underperforms compared to what we were lead to expect, failing to force Kenjaku into any new power reveals except when she literally suicide bombs him (which fails to hurt him at all). Even before her death, she needs Choso to come in within one chapter to double-team Kenjaku. Does she have cool moments? Yeah! Her technique is awesome. But the fact remains that she had 100x the buildup that Choso did, and still got fewer cool moments, over the course of a longer (yet still abnormally quick) fight, she accomplished less, and the author (by writing it as Yuki's own dialogue) explicitly positions her imminent death as a way to redeem and motivate Choso.

The thing is, Choso is a man, and Yuki is a woman, and this is far from the only instance where that seems to be the deciding factor in who gets to "have their cake" narratively. It's just the most blatant. Again, it's so barefaced in its misogyny that it feels like it's satirizing the manga.

Nobara and Megumi are the two main trio members aside from main character Yuji; they are the mainest characters to not be him. Until, that is, Nobara LITERALLY DIES and it has zero impact on the plot. There is one subsequent mention of her, and she does not distinctly influence the direction of any character arc, even that of the main character, who was closer to her than to anybody else, and who literally watched her be killed in front of him. Megumi, meanwhile, gets his body snatched, and the entire rest of the manga becomes centered on getting him back. His loss is positioned as the greatest, most gut-wrenching tragedy in Yuji's life. Nobara's still not even mentioned, by the way. At no point is it discussed, or even thought by Yuji, that Megumi was the closest living connection to Nobara. Neither by explicit statement nor narrative framing is Yuji's fervor to get Megumi back ever linked to how Megumi is, in a very real sense, the one thing Yuji has left of both his closest friends. Nope. It's just Megumi. Near the very end of the final battle, we see one panel of Nobara. She's put there right beside Junpei and Nanami—two somewhat impactful, male side characters.

i have a file or folder on my pc that i want to share with other people. let's call it gayshit.mp3

unfortunately gayshit.mp3 is 750mb and im not paying for discord nitro so i need another way to send it

i put it into qbittorrent and it makes a torrent file. this is essentially a very small file that points to gayshit.mp3 so other computers can find it. kinda like a treasure map

i send this tiny file to my friend, who loads it into qbittorrent. their computer takes a moment to find mine over the vast expanse of cyberspace and then (as long as my pc is running and the file is still where it should be), it gets copied from my hard drive to theirs

this is the cool part: if somebody else loads that tiny file, they can download it from both of us. if i'm offline but my friend is on, the third person can still get it. this also means that if two people have separate halves of the file, they can download the other half from each other. as long as some combination of people have the pieces between them, they can all have the whole thing.

crucially this does not require a server!!! you can just upload the file to a few people and as long as they keep it, it's still accessible. as long as somebody, somewhere is still connected, it's available forever. the only way it goes away is if everybody disconnects from it.