Obsession (Jisbon Drabble)
He promised himself he would never become obsessed about anything ever again.
The search for Red John, for some means of closure, almost destroyed him, devastating those who were around to care about him in the process. And although he has no regrets in how it ended, when he closed his eyes to sleep while hiding on an island, all he could think about was her.
Her jade green eyes that seem to glimmer whenever she shows any sort of strong emotion whether it's joy or upset or ire. Her dimples around her mouth when she smiles. Her dark hair that he's seen in varying styles over the years but it's when it's tied up he finds most dizzying. Showing her neck, the freckles that decorate it, her pulse point that he can envision feeling beneath his lips as he kisses or... more.
When he was back on US soil he thought maybe there could be something there. Something that they could explore together.
But perhaps naively he wasn't expecting her anger towards him, the walls she has built so high that even a proficient climber would struggle to scale. And he became scared to try to break them down, to see him as anything other than a friend, a professional partner.
Now she's going to leave him. Go to DC with Pike. Maybe - probably - he deserves to be left. He's got away with so much in his life and perhaps this is the punishment he's owed. It's something he understands...
If he truly does understand it though, then why has she become his new obsession? Why is he orchestrating a case in Miami to keep her with him longer? Why is he delaying the inevitable? It's completely unfair and frankly insane.
He wants to sit in close quarters with her on the plane. He wants her brunette locks to stroke his face as they walk side by side on the beach. He wants, no, needs to see her in those dresses, any of them, all of them, until they drop onto the floor of his hotel room.
It's wrong. To be this obsessed with someone when all she wants to do is leave. There's a niggling thought at the back of his mind to put a stop to it all, to own up to Abbott before the case falls onto his desk.
But then she's walking across the bullpen with two mugs in her hands - a strong coffee for her and an English Breakfast tea for him - and it hits Jane that he can't stop this.
Because he's completely obsessed with Lisbon and he's not ready to let her go.