💔 Heartbreak 💔

Build a life for yourself, and be with the man you love.

"How do you expect me to forget you?"

"You can just kill me."

so, ways to get around this:

turn off AI results. they're literally nonsense to us

don't use pinterest because the sources/provenance is often hard to trace

a standard internet search can be okay, but museum collections are the top tier (list of collections below this list)

instead of broad terms like victorian, regency, tudor, renaissance etc. try using the decade you're looking for. if you're not sure of what decade it is but have a vague image in your head, look on the fashion history timeline and just jump around until you find it. but even changing to e.g. 19th century will give better results than victorian

including terms like womenswear/menswear, daywear, formal wear, evening wear, court dress should increase the value of your search too

including "fashion plates" in your search can give you a nice impression of the intended silhouettes of the era. some of these might be a little stylised but will show you what was considered in vogue

for pre-fashion plate eras or things like makeup and styling, you'll have to look at portraiture or manuscripts. these are harder to actually find what you're looking for, but searching museum collections and limiting results to specific date ranges will be your friend

when looking at art, do bear in mind sometimes artists would paint fabric extra flow-y to show off their skills. it might not have been exactly like that in terms of fabric weight or drape. so, a pinch of salt required!

if you find something on image search where the provenance is dubious, reverse image search and you might find a source! i've been able to trace random pinterest images to real sources, but this does take a lot of time and effort and is often not worth the headache

some online resources and museum collections:

fashion history timeline is an invaluable resource if you're trying to get a feel for everything and should be your first port of call. it'll also link to good examples

the met has a vast number of extant examples of clothing, as well as fashion plates

costume institute fashion plates is a subcollection of the met for fashion plates (1800s-1922)

v&a also has many extant garments, fashion plates, and incredible articles on clothing and aesthetics. read the details of the objects because they'll often reveal a lot about the piece

lacma is good for C19th-20th pieces

nypl digital collection for photographs

national portrait gallery or similar for portraiture, or literally any museum in your country that has historical art

national museums scotland can be useful situationally but might be oddly specific

stout style history is a great collection for finding image references for fat people wearing historical clothes. survival bias of a lot of museum pieces tends towards smaller clothing that couldn't be repurposed, but this aims to counter that. it's not sortable, but is still a really nice resource

wikimedia commons is surprisingly handy! and the images, if you should need to link/repost them, are public domain

auction websites sound like a funny one to recommend. some won't have mannequins and some will. just look up historical garment auctions and you'll find some!

Either you're completely worthless to him, or you're everything.

🚨Rant incoming 🚨

Love You Teacher is being marketed as a soft romance… but if you look closer, it feels more like a quiet, devastating study on what it means to love someone through illness...

On the surface, the premise sounds almost absurd.

A teacher (Pobmek) forced to "raise" his own boyfriend after an accident leaves him with brain damage and a childlike mentality.

But that’s exactly why the series hits harder than expected (especially for me). It uses that premise not for shock value, but as a lens.

Because what the story is really doing is stripping love down to its most uncomfortable question:

What happens when love stops being equal?

Pobmek doesn’t just lose a partner, he loses the version of Solar who chose him, understood him, and met him as an adult.

Suddenly, love becomes responsibility. Routine. Exhaustion. The emotional whiplash of grieving someone who is still physically there.

And the show doesn’t let you look away from that.

There’s a subtle but constant tension between roles: boyfriend vs. caregiver.

And that tension mirrors real-life experiences of people caring for loved ones with neurological or mental health conditions, where affection and duty blur together, and guilt creeps in no matter what you do ( I speak from painfully personal experiences here).

Even Solar’s characterization matters here. He isn’t just cute or innocent, his regression highlights something deeper: the loss of autonomy.

The loss of self. The way illness can rewrite a person’s identity, not just for them, but for everyone who loves them.

And maybe the most heartbreaking part? The series quietly suggests that love alone isn’t always enough to make things fair, easy, or even sustainable.

That’s why Love You Teacher feels less like a romance and more like a love letter, specifically to the messy, unspoken reality of caring for someone.

Not the idealized version. The real one:

where patience has limits

where resentment can coexist with devotion

where choosing to stay is a decision you make OVER and OVER again

It’s a story about love, yes, BUT more importantly, it’s about the cost of it.

Now, I am no expert, but I did study Psychology for two years.

The heavy implication (till now) that Solar had a traumatic childhood which caused him to develop an alter personality (which very well could be Solar who is the alter as one day Sun did wake up and started telling everyone that his name was Solar) to process and cope with that trauma right? Well there is another thing. Often in cases like this, the childhood memory gets supressed by the person, once again as a coping mechanism as the mind can not handle the fact that it had experienced that. And once the person feels safe, the mind also feels safe enough to process those feelings.

So my theory is this

Solar is the "caretaker" personality which took over Sun when he was a child and in a situation where he could not handle the stress, he created Solar. But as Solar fell in love with Pobmek, and gradually felt himself relaxing and safe, Sun came back to him. (Because while the head trauma was worrying, it wasn't severe enough to be traumatic for Solar). Moreover the fact that Solar doesn't remember anything about his childhood, once again aligns with this.

Pobmek created the safe environment for Sun to reveal himself.

In my continued work, started here, of analyzing the data for actors who have worked with Director New Siwaj, I have pulled out some key data that even if you don’t like him as a director or his work, imma need you to stop firing mean shots.

Actors New directed in their first drama:

Billkin

Prem

Perth

Santa

Earth Cooheart

Earth Pirapat

Mark Ji

Est Supha

Ohm Pawat

Peak Peemapol

Saint Suppapong

Na Naphat

Ja Phachara

Tae Weerapat

Mond Tanuchai

Nice Vitchapol

Oat Pasakorn

Thor Thinnaphan

Ohm Thipakorn

Java Bhobdhama

Title Kirati

Soodyacht Pasit

Mark Siwat

Gun Napat

Plan Rathavit

Boom Krittikpak

Actors P’New directed in their first main role:

Boun

Prem

Earth Pirapat

Perth

Santa

Earth Cooheart

Ohm Thitiwat

Ohm Pawat

Peak Peemapol

Mark Ji

Soodyacht Pasit

Marc Natarit

Aou Thanaboon

Boom Tharatorn

Poom Mitpakdee

Winny

Satang

Dunk

Gun Napat

Saint Suppapong

Plan Rathavit

Boom Krittipak

JJ Chayakorn

Aun Napat

Like…when I say the man is foundational to Thai BL it isn’t a joke. This is the foundation he has built with his work.

Is your bias listed above? Any actor you respect in the Thai BL scene up there? Any of them give a leg up to your bias? Because he gave them a chance that lead to where they are now. You don’t want your bias to be directed him? He’ll find other people. Promise.