𝑀𝑢𝑙𝑡𝑖𝑝𝑙𝑒 ❖

      Breaking up with the former hosts husband (they weren’t legally married) was a tough choice...

      I do feel a bit of guilt for how free I feel when I know he’s in pain but I know I made the right choice. I don’t think he ever could have seen me for myself...definitely not as a couple. 

      There’s always the possibility that as friends it’ll be better but this whole situation has left me a bit hurt too. 

       I want to be seen and loved for myself, not as the shadow of someone who is no longer here. I hope that slowly people who knew the former host can adjust but I’m not sure I’d want to date any of them again. 

        I think the fear would always be there; that they’d never truly be able to see me for myself. I’m not comfortable with that so I think it’s best to just start over.