Leave your body at the door

I like my Pixel, despite all its flaws. But I can't trust it.

Best way to describe a Pixel user is "the mice cried and got pricked, but kept chewing on the cactus".

Then I started reading The Vampire Armand, but almost instantly dropped it because I didn't have a spare second either at work, or after. Now I pick up where I stopped. For a dozen pages I was like, 'a vampire BL, at last!' mixed with a 'chotto matte, how old is he?'. And then it started again—history. I was okay when Venetians praised Botticelli, a Florentine artist. But then she gives a scene where they speak of 4th crusade as if it's just happened (it took place in 1202-1204). And I was like… um, but you speak of Botticelli (end of 15th century), describe Marius art style exactly like the Renaissance, and he uses oil to paint (which wasn't really used until the 15th century)?... And then she mentions the Kievan Rus' past of Amadeo. Because of the names, the timeframe described turns out to be very narrow—30s and 40s of the 13th century. And that was it. I had a blue screen of death for a moment and had to take time to process it.

Explained to myself, that she made that historical hodgepodge on purpose for the sake of the story beauty and dramatic tension.

Took a breath, started reading again. And here’s Armand talking about his home country. And I'm like, how can an American describe what it's like to be here so precise? And then I thought that this country, this land, was like that forever.

“I heard ad nauseam of that old glory,” I said quietly, not wanting to anger him. “I was stuffed with tales of the olden times when I was a boy. <…> There was nothing but depravity there, and we speak now, as you know, of an immense land.”

Hide if you want to hide

Wherever you hide I'll find you

Hide if you want to hide

The reason I'm talking about it now is that it suddenly gave a name to one of my dolls - Maudith, which means 'cursed' in French. I think it suits her.

It's actually 'Maudit', but Maudith sounds better because the 't' at the end is readable.

This name is probably too pompous for a blind box doll, but what can I do if it's already stuck to her. She's one of my favourites after all (and Vampire, too).

Apparently forgot to post those. One of the rare days when I was home in daylight.

I like how photos come out with these lenses (old Helios). But since they’re manual, it’s hard for me to keep things in focus - I can’t tell when something is out of focus, neither through the viewfinder nor on the camera display.

It tastes so good, I'm surprised. I was almost sure it would be repulsive because usually people say so about matcha lattes (it's my first matcha latte). The smell, though, is repulsive.

It feels so good inside (unlike coffee), very comforting. I like coffee, but 50% of the time it makes me slightly suffer.

This taste reminded me so much of Japan. So here is a pic of my first (and only) real cup of matcha after visiting Gotokuji (Maneki neko temple) during my autumn trip to Japan last year.

There are very few bodies that I find fitting for Datura. DSAM would be perfect, but no one is selling it here. I should probably make a WTB post (never worked for me).

I thought that UF73 should be ok, but when I opened the box I was shocked how huge he is (apparently I have a serious problem mapping measurements to reality). Here's a comparison with Dante (Dollshe Saint on Rhythmos). I didn't even try to put Datura on this thing (actually, I made an attempt, but the string tension is so strong, it's impossible for me).

To make things worse, I have one more UF73 ordered... But I ordered him through a dealer (because their shop looks way more user-friendly than the mess in official Ufdoll shop), and he's not been shipped yet. I wanted to compare normal and white skintone to see what matches better.

Put him back in a box and listed it for sale. I thought he would be bought right away, but he's still here almost two weeks later. Looking at photos I think that he is not even that huge. But he is.

And I don't like the plastic he's made of. I thought he would feel like Ufdolls 1/5 and 1/6, but he's clinky and creaky and feels very fragile, though people say big ABS dolls are as sturdy as 1/12 ones.

But considering all the said things, I still reluctant to sell him because... I'm a collector? A hoarder? Dunno.

I like his hands. Reminds of Doll chateau.

Maybe he's not that bad if you never touched resin BJDs. And if you're not scared of his size like me. He looks nice in photos, definitely will look better in clothes. And he's very lightweight, weighs way less than any of my 1/3.

A while ago I was very stressed because of my job and life in general. And when I'm stressed, I go shopping (online). I know it's very wrong, but can't help it.

Here are some results of that shopping—Hirono backpack of the Echo series, which, I thought, should suit 1/6, but I was wrong about sizes (as if for the first time, duh), and Hirono plushie of the Road Journal series. Both were bought as sealed blind boxes. I liked 3/6 plushies in this series, and by Murphy's law, I got one of the other half, the one I liked the least. He's City Dust Afloat. Well, he's cute anyway. He's a little bit smaller than the limited Hirono I bought last year, and his design is slightly different. This one has movable arms, whereas Hirono Living Wild has some kind of a skeleton.

(Road Journal Hirono can't stand on his own, he leans on a hair clip)

Ah, stupid thing about Living Wild. Now it can be bought normally from the official shop, and for 30% cheaper than what I paid.

Yesterday I received another parcel that was supposed to be one more Hirono plushie, but they sent me two magnets instead. Well, some kind of scam was to be expected, because this seller was listing him for 30% less than everyone else and had zero reviews.

Challenges are not my thing, after all.

Day 16, Warm.

Trying to catch up.

'You call it warm??'

Wanted to take her out with me but it's too cold outside and I'm staying home with a cold.