JJ was taken aback, startled at the boom of his voice that reverberated through him, but the young Vila kept a rather confident front in the way he stood as tall as he could without cowering away. He did not grow in the life of a slave. Heâd been born free and lived outside the walls, and despite being the youngest of the siblings, JJ still had his strength to speak his peace. His fists would clench tightly at his sides, nails digging into his palm to try and calm himself. Anything to not cry any more than he already had. He was quiet, the rise and fall of his chest giving away his rather young and inexperienced anger. The injustice he felt. It wasnât until he was grabbed and ring taken did he finally react, a look of pure loss washing over his face. Eyes would blink in panic, fear, and hurt and tears threatened to overflow. A figure that had experienced his own loss, standing rather heartbroken in front of the other. The only love JJ had experienced had been familial, and there someone was, snatching it away from him. His breath had shaken, but he could not help his honest thoughts. Even if the other mocked them. âYou are despicable,â heâd finally manage to get out, utter disbelief that someone could say things so horrid and to actually believe in them. âHow can you sit there, day by day in your fancy chair and spelled castle, and be okay that we are treated as such? I was not there for your war. I did not do anything wrong, but be born in your reign.â The Vila would suck in a breath to calm himself, tugging lightly at his wrist. Even if he could not run, he would at least distance himself, not wanting to break completely. There had to be someone in the castle that understood. Someone whoâd been gentle, was not meant to be here, and it became more and more evident the longer he stayed. âI am not a toy. I am not a thing, and for you to think that of me and all the others is wrong. Vampires might be dead, but surely theyâve experienced the fragilities of life at some point. No one is ever truly, that heartless.â Heâd aggressively wipe his cheek that had gotten wet, not caring of the hole heâd dug himself into. He could not understand how someone could just stand there, and be the way he was. It was pent up emotions that exploded, even if he hadnât meant to be so mean. It wasnât like him at all.Â
âbut JJ would calm, the carefulness the other displayed in giving his fatherâs ring back to him making him want to sob all over again, though he would wait when he was alone. âPlease, please listen.â Heâd nearly weaken, practically begging for someone to just listen. It was more than just being taken and enslaved. It was that no one bothered to ask him what happened or even believed him. Believed in him. Yet, the other wanted JJ to believe. He couldnât. âI didnât do anything wrong.â Heâd managed again, but this time, it wasnât about what happened in the Undercroft.Â
Standing rather defeated, heâd watch as the other retreated and once heâd gotten what he needed, heâd spoken up again, only to anger the other, causing him to wince. Heâd stand beside the other, staring at the other as if a gaze could kill a person. He did not move right away, his thoughts moving a mile every second that he stood there. Heâd wanted to protest, to deny the other of what was demanded of him. Everything was unfair, and he hated this so called âEnforcerâ. JJ removed the article of clothing that was asked of him, and stepping closer to the other, his hand would rest upon his shoulder, now shaken at being exposed and his pride being taken from him. Heâd had breathed short breaths to calm himself, and carefully heâd rather awkwardly fell into the otherâs lap, his ass on full display. He wasnât sure what he was supposed to hold onto, or what was expected, but heâd curl just sightly at dangling in the otherâs lap. âIâm sorry,â he murmured, but not in the hopes of getting out of the punishment, but for allowing himself to get worked up.Â
âYou are despicable,â
For a moment, Hadrian felt stand between his toes. For a moment - he stood, staring at the sea, feeling the water rush over his feet. He could hear the voice of his mother, he could smell her incense - cloying and rancid, nothing like the salt of the air. He could hear ask why he was not out on the boats. Why was he not singing? Why would he not beg his father the Ocean for itâs bounty. Would he not sing for her supper? Hadrian - child that he was shook his head - his voice aching and tired, his throat burning. âDespicable child.âÂ
He didnât let it show. He kept his expression passive, the mask of annoyance sewed firmly into the features of his face. He let the boy speak. He wanted to hear it, a part of him liked the rage. A part of him saw it for what it was and he knew this one would go somewhere. Maybe not to a good place but heâd make it out of the Undercroft one way or another. The mershark sent a silent prayer to the gods that it wouldnât be in a body bag. He was tired of bodies. He was tired of death. As he was left to silence, he did not speak.Â
And when the boy finally returned, when he was exposed and bent over his knee - it was like watching the tide go out. The rage - like all things - ebbed and flowed. The righteousness of the otherâs ire broke against the insurmountable wall. He heard the apology and all the different definitions of the word that came with it. Hadrian didnât move his hands - his face still shaped into the impassive mask. He looked up from the boy - to the two guards and jerked his chin towards them. âThis is going to take a while. Clearly, several lessons need to be taught. You can both go - thank you for your help. Take the rest of the day off in fact. Iâll see this one back down myself when Iâve had my fill.â His voice was hard, it bore a cruelty borne of many centuries.Â
The guards looked between themselves, looked to the Vila bent over the Enforcerâs knee and chuckled darkly between themselves, imagining the agonies. Both nodded and made their exit. Hadrian didnât move until he heard the retreating footsteps. He didnât move until all was silent. Reaching down - he gripped the boy by either arm and hefted him back into a standing position. With quick hands, he tugged JJâs underwear back up to cover the boy and give him some modesty and then gestured to the chair on the other side of his desk. âPull your pants up and sit down.âÂ
Once the boy had done so, Hadrian - now swiveled to the side in his chair - plucked a cigarette from the pack in his drawer and lit it. Inhaling, he eyed the Vila for a moment and his mouth quirked into a smirk. âI...am going to impart to you some wisdom. You are not going to talk back until I am finished. You are not going to argue either. If you donât wish to follow what I say - by all means, do not and end up punished once more - I am only going to tell you this shit once.â Ashing his cigarette; he swiveled until he was staring directly at JJ, his gaze hard.Â
âI...â His voice cracked, just slightly. âI am despicable. That was an apt word to use, you are correct. I am no good, horrible, low-down, vile sonofabitch. And so is everyone else here. It is wrong. Youâre correct about that as well. What weâre doing is unforgivable. However - it being unforgivable does not and will not stop it from happening. You are a slave. This is not an opinion. It is not up for debate. You are a slave. Is that an unfortunate turn of events? Absolutely. Does that change anything? No. Is it unfair? One hundred fucking percent. Still changes nothing.â As Hadrian spoke, his voice got softer. He wasnât yelling anymore and the rage had slipped from his features the moment the guards had left.Â
âThere is a system in place in the world that is bigger than you or I. You happened to end up on the shit side of that system and for that, I am sorry. I am not patronizing you, truly I do feel for you but there is nothing I can do. I cannot make you a free man. I cannot set you loose and let you run away into the hills. No one is coming to save you. Iâm sorry if that stings but it is a truth we all must hear and learn from. I learned it millennia ago myself. I...â He swallowed, a bone-deep weariness aging his tone. â...I know you didnât do anything wrong. Just like...so many others didnât. But it is what it is. And there is hope. There is. Itâs just a different shade that what youâre looking for. If you get claimed by a kind master, your life will be better than what it was when you were free. There are masters here that give their slaves more freedoms than they had before. Money, power, clothes, love, youth. Things people sell their soul for and it can be yours if youâre smart but you have to be smart. You have to be brave and when the time comes, you gotta shoot straight. You canât...â Leaning back, he gestured to the office.Â
âThis shit canât happen again. You gotta get thicker skin. Itâs your only chance, kid. Itâs your only fuckinâ chance.âÂ