I Hate Myself and I Want to Die

I had a lot of/still have some vestigial arrogance about quantitative methods over qualitative ones, probably in a combination of scientific misogyny + STEMlord superiority. But doing regression analysis and quant-heavy data analysis makes me realise more and more that you can justify basically any claim with numbers, and that you can construct your research in such a way as to output the numbers you want. which does not mean that all data are made up or that quantitative knowledge is all false. I think stories about scientists straight up inventing numbers or fudging experiments on purpose prove that there is a real difference between fraudulent and non-fraudulent research. but those data must always be narrativised & are always already narrativised. The act of presenting numbers itself is doing some of that narration because you’re already arguing that these numbers are worth presenting

I'm technically bisexual but I describe myself as a lesbian because I'm totally uninterested in men. this upsets men, which is one of the many reasons I am uninterested in them

the TSA's dick detector is the epitome of security theater. how many times have you ACTUALLY caught a woman trying to smuggle a small bomb in her panties

i mean average sized bomb

You have to turn it into a game. "Hey traveling companion, 5 bucks says I'm gonna get groped by that TSA agent"

I'm not a transmisogynist but here's a few hundred words on how this trans woman offering to talk to me is like if this male cult leader serial killer was also a child molester. it is impossible to parody these people.

sorry to everyone out there who thinks they have the funniest tshirt but i think i can confidently say i just saw the actual funniest tshirt just now. i passed by a beautiful black woman with long multicolor braids blowing majestically in the beach breeze & she was wearing an oversized tshirt that said in gigantic letters "WHITE BOY OF THE YEAR"

unfortunate truth of reality is that oftentimes 15 year olds will say/do/believe some stupid bullshit because they are 15 but telling them that they believe that because they are 15 is probably the most counterproductive thing in the entire universe

i remember being 15 and wanting literally nothing more than to be taken seriously and listened to and every thought and feeling i had was dismissed because i was a hormonal teenager. i was well aware at that point that a lot of the things i felt were probably because i was a kid, but that didnt make any of it less real, and being dismissed because of my age 1. did not help 2. did not make me feel better 3. made me angry at and untrustworthy of adults because they refused to listen to me. teenagers are people. kids are people. one of the only major things separating them from adults are experience and wisdom. they have like. you know. interiority

like in YOUR mind you may think youre being helpful by going 'well you're a kid, its not really a big deal, youre okay, youll get over it' but that does not register as "helpful affirmation that everything will turn out fine and the only reason im upset is because of something out of my control so its better to just try and come to terms with it" it registers as 'adult dismissing my real tangible problems and sadness and anger because of my age and inadvertently calling me stupid'

fellatio sounds like a supporting shakespeare character rather than oral sex on a penis to be honest

it's tomboy tuesday

its insane how not good stealth netrunning is. literally 1 bad roll fucks you up, in a minigame revolving around rolling 1d10 + single digit numbers

Is no one able to make good stealth rules? Like every single GM and system I've seen has stealth boil down to one check full success or full fail. It's really really bad game design, and it's why no one uses stealth unless they minmax it.

Make a spot warning system, where the player has the option to take an action right when they're about to be found. This could be dashing for cover, attacking from the shadows, or causing a distraction. Genuinely would be way more engaging

Is no one able to make good stealth rules? Like every single GM and system I've seen has stealth boil down to one check full success or full fail. It's really really bad game design, and it's why no one uses stealth unless they minmax it.