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And Hange in the background like 'hmm I'm onto you'

did i mistake you for a sign from god?

1. That's his adopted sister, no matter if only for a year, no matter if it was on paper or not. sickos. she even acts like a sister. snitching on Eren was a classical older sister move, not a "i have a crush on this guy" move. you don't snitch on your crush that's not crush behavior. 2. over protection is actually incredibly psychologically damaging, and Eren shows all the signs of the psychological effects of Mikasa's over protection. Over protection is a form of abuse.

But I guess I'd be the only one noticing it since I know what its like to be overprotected and I see the same resulting behavioral issues I had as a result in Eren. Over protection is also technically a form of psychological abuse. Please properly tag your Eremika so i can avoid seeing it.

https://selectcounseling.com/how-overprotectiveness-toward-your-partner-can-be-harmful/

first one under "Psychological or emotional abuse": https://www.scie.org.uk/safeguarding/children/education/types-indicators-abuse/#emotionalabuse

what would constitute as overprotective behavior from Mikasa?:

- making desiscions on behalf of Eren, against his wishes. for example telling him to quit trying to be a soldier, menacing other girls such as Annie, Historia and in one of the games, Sasha too, when she asked if he wanted to go hunting and Mikasa decided to go hunting instead of him. - taking over and doing things for him. carrying crates without asking for permission, telling him to talk after he is done eating, et.c. she overwrites his autonomy. - isolating him from other girls, "protecting him from distraction." (shut up. controlling someone because of your own possessiveness and insecurity isn't cute.) - over monitoring, constantly checking up on him with "Ereh?", "Ereh!", "Ereh??", "Ereh!!" These kind of behaviors limited Eren's growth and hurt his self esteem, leading to him feeling like shit every time he failed at anything. he wasn't allowed to prove his own abilities to himself early on. His self-loathing stemmed from him feeling like an ungrateful brat for lashing out in defense of his autonomy. Because that's what the world sees.

His entire life has been about establishing his own freedom, his own autonomy, and you decide to ship him with Mikasa? Mikasa who immediately assumed he was being controlled when he did something she didn't like? dismissing the possibility of him doing any of that out of his free will? That's not ever gonna be a healthy relationship.

"sacred connection" up my ass, that shit is toxic as all hell and people always thinks its Eren who's doing all the harm. Eren is doing what he always did early on: reacting to the world around him! his behaviors are a direct result of Mikasa smothering him. that doesn't mean Mikasa didn't love Eren, it just means she loved him in the wrong way. sometimes love can become suffocating and can seriously harm someone, no matter what someone's intentions were. Mikasa's overprotection comes from her anxious attachment, which first and foremost comes from her trauma, but likely also comes, in part, to her rather isolated childhood before that. her anxiety leads to her needing to control Eren, to give HER a sense of security. basically she made Eren responsible for her emotional maintenance.

It bothers me, as a victim of this type of abuse, that no one realizes whats going on. It's damn near a textbook case of it too!

Mikasa might have gotten slightly better at times, but she still kept doing the behavior and overstepping at times. i can't forgive this behavior at all, because she caused so much of his insecurity to begin with. i hate how the fandom also treats Eren as if he isn't allowed to be an independent entity to Eremika. i see art of Eren all alone, without Mikasa anywhere in sight, still getting tagged as Eremika. i see people reducing Eren to Eremika. i see people erasing his autonomy. i get so so sad because it reminds me of what i went through with my mom. i had to cut off my mom so i could finally be allowed my own personhood. and that hurt like hell but i had to. it hurts to see how the fandom has no understanding of psychology and how these kinds of behaviors affect others... how Mikasa's protectiveness is glorified rather than looked at with a critical lense. Mikasa isn't evil, but i hate how the fandom treats her like some purity icon. wasn't the whole point of Ymir that she was just a person? not a goddess or a saint, or a devil or evil. just Ymir. just a lonely girl... and yet the fandom seem to have missed the entire point by glorifying Mikasa into some purity icon. thats not fair. thats a cruel thing to do to Mikasa.

this, to me, makes the mantis symbolism even more on the uncanny. stalking her prey her entire life until she kills and eats him. that is what the symbolism is. its not a mantis eating its mate, because its not another mantis. its a mantis eating a butterfly, which is, in japan, and many other places, symbolism for freedom.

should I just start a tag game?

Like some will mindlessly call him a villain and that he was one since the beginning. That opinion can safely be put in the trash.

But I’m actually talking about the final arcs and what they basically were: the leaders of the entire world gathered and decided to wipe out Eldia. Instead Eldia wiped them out first.

That’s basically it. And also why it’s hard to label Eren as a villain and nothing else.

The main point of course that Eren wiped out 80% of humanity which included civilians. But taking one more second of thought, did Eldia not have civilians? Would it be okay if Marley (the imperial nation running concentration camps and creating titans and using them as brainwashed soldiers for their army) and the rest of the world wiped out Eldia and all its people?

No, but perhaps it would’ve been more palatable. Imperial nations do not fall and do not get massacred. A country of no consequence will have a death toll of 50,000 with no coverage while the imperial nation will have public mourning ordered for the 50. Eldia being wiped out would be expected and barely a thought given about the loss of life and dignity but suddenly them fighting back is monstrous. ‘How could Eren kill so many people!?’, they say as if Marley wasn’t planning to kill them all first.

I've started working on a huge school caste fic with Eren as the main character, and I've been struggling with writing his POV. So I decided to take the Big Five Inventory (a personality test) to get a better idea of his personality. I based the responses on pre-time-skip Eren since I don't like his school caste personality. I just don't think the totally flat affect he has in the previews feels like "Eren", you know?

In summary: while he's less of a hot head without the war and titans, these results reflect a version of Eren closer to when he was 12 to 15-year-old.

70% Extraversion (HIGH) – "Extraverts actively engage with others to earn friendship, admiration, power, status, experience excitement, and romantic feelings. Extraversion is closely linked to the emotional satisfaction a person gains from achieving goals. Although everyone enjoys victories in life, for extraverts, these hold special significance. Promotions at work, a new romance, or receiving an award are likely to bring immense joy to an extravert."

This makes a lot of sense to me. Eren appreciates external validation, and is definitely not an introvert. While I can't see him just walking up to a stranger to strike up a conversation, he defiantly seems to gain his energy from being with his friends.

31% Agreeableness (LOW) – "People with low levels of agreeableness tend to experience less empathy and prioritize their own needs over the interests of others. Individuals with low scores are often characterized as hostile, competitive, and envious. They tend to have more conflictual relationships with others."

I can't think of a better description for Eren Jaeger. He's such a hot head, it's one of my favorite character traits of his. While he can be an obedient enough solider, he doesn't strike me as a generally agreeable person.

40% Contentiousness (LOW) – "Conscientiousness describes a person's ability to exhibit self-discipline and control to achieve their goals. People with low scores are impulsive, easily distracted, and find excuses to break their own promises and planned agendas."

With the sheer amount of times Eren's impulsivity should have gotten him killed, it does not strike me as odd that he isn't contentious. While I don't think Eren is much of an excuse maker, he is a promise breaker. I feel like, when he recognizes that he's in the wrong, he doesn't change his behavior. Or at least just replaces the bad behavior with some different bad thing.

77% Negative Emotionality (HIGH) – "A higher score indicates a greater tendency to take failures "to heart." Neuroticism describes a person's tendency to experience negative emotions, including fear, sadness, anxiety, guilt, and shame. While everyone experiences these emotions from time to time, some people are more prone to them than others. People with high levels of neuroticism are more likely to respond to a (negative) situation with fear, anger, sadness, and other emotions."

I don't even have to comment on this lol.

28% Openness to experience (LOW) – "Openness describes a person's propensity to think abstractly and complexly. Those with low scores tend to be pragmatic, traditional, and focused on concrete practical tasks. They tend to avoid the unknown and follow time-tested methods in all aspects of life. Those with low openness often view art with suspicion and prefer to focus on more practical activities."

This one was difficult for me to understand at first, since I think of Eren as someone who feels very deeply about the little things in life. But the more I thought about it, the more it made sense. I think Eren is someone who does not respond positively to major change. And I think he enjoys the little things, like routine and nature, because he understands them.

But accepted those roles for the sake of the island

Also, this

Imagine this: you're disproportionately stronger than everyone else around you and your subconscious is constantly feeding you violent images, intrusive thoughts so abhorrent that sharing them with other telepaths can be genuinely traumatizing to them. But you're not violent. You don't want to be violent. You so don't want to be violent that your entire culture revolves around suppressing these thoughts and the feelings accompanying them. You meditate every single day. You don't smile. You don't laugh. You compartmentalize something as essential to being a person as emotion just because you know how much of a danger you are to others if you don't.

And then you lose control anyways.

Like no wonder they treat Pon Farr as something shameful. Vulcans are renowned for their control. Renowned for being control freaks, even. And it's always played for laughs by the people around them because doesn't every history have war? Hasn't every species done something violent? You don't need to give up emotion to be better. Just do as the humans did.

But they don't understand that you're not human. They don't understand how deep you feel. That the urge to do harm is just as great as the grief from doing it. The shame. The guilt.

You're being told to let lose by a people who have no idea what that means. Who see your pride at successfully managing the worst parts of yourself as a misguided sense of superiority.

This is what I've been thinking about since I made that post about Vorik and his Pon Farr, because he's arguably in one of the worst situations a Vulcan can be in. He's going through Pon Farr, maybe his very first, light-years from his mate or any possible replacement.

Like. Just think about. Think about the fact that they're so worried about this event that Vulcans arrange marriages specifically to prevent the exact thing Vorik had to go through. They train their entire lives for it. They build in fail-safes.

Get on this people