lover at heart

reblog to diminish the horrors from the person you reblogged from

im ok i just need to see some sunlight shining on water

we can’t talk here contact me in my dream tonight

You have to let people love you. You have to let people get to know you. You have to let people help you. Being so completely selfless that you try to erase yourself off the face of the planet and never ask for anything and reject everybody's offers of support makes you very hard to love! Unfortunately. Emptying yourself out of everything that makes you, you is not actually what your loved ones want from you, generally. They want to make you happy! They will be so so sad if you don't give them the chance. It's not all selfish. I promise.

Every single day this month has been like Okay sure. Okay sure what the hell. Okay sure. I guess

ITS NOT HOPELESS ITS JUST JANUARY.

affirmations: i am very normal. i am not trapped in a lie of my own making. everything is fine. no one will uncover my web of deceit #mywebofdeceit

Hit the hay so hard last night that i found the needle

In 6 months I know i’m going to look back on this time in my life and be like what the fuck was I on what was I even doing. And the answer is pure unadulterated yaoi cocaine