little freakazoid

chainsaw is a male bigg's orca. he was born in 1978 and is ~47 years old. he travels with an older female, whidbey II, who is likely his mother, or potentially sister. chainsaw and whidbey II frequently travel with whidbey II's daughter's matriline, the T065Bs.

chainsaw is a very recognizable and iconic orca, due to his unique dorsal fin that has two gaps in it, likely due to an incident(s) in his youth.

"the only interactions I've had with manic/psychotic people have been violent" do you live under a rock? do you emerge from your house only once every 3 years? we are everywhere, you just don't realize it.

hayden x monroe; old silly comic i finally finished

And you can expand them to see rank, number of babies, and percentage of babies and add a second name to compare. (in 1973 four percent of babies were named Jennifer! 1 in 25!!!)

yeah like, if you see a person of color and your brain's first impulse is "we have got to avoid them at all cost or else we might lose complete control of our actions and do/say something terrible" then that is an unwanted intrusive thought, extremely common in ocd.

You might even do compulsions, like biting down on your tounge or taking trying to walk farther away from the subject of the thought. With the intention of protecting them. This is bad btw, and it only reinforces the thought. If you perform the compulsion then your brain will solidify the fear, so next time you see that person/someone like them, you might be even more scared of doing something terrible.

You don't want to hurt that person and your brain knows that, so it conjures up vivid images of everything you want to avoid doing. It's not real, it's not something you want, and you should not feel bad. It's an anxiety disorder.

The best solution i have to intrusive thoughts is to just. stop thinking for a sec. make your brain silent. just think this: " " it worked wonders for me when i'd have panic attacks about an even worse kind at 15

And now I'm seeing it repeated with "the intrusive thoughts won" types of things. Except those may even be worse because those pretend that you actually want to do the things you have thought about. Which, remember, YOU DON'T. That's why they're intrusive. They intrude. They break into your fucking house and you don't want them there.

It's messy. it hurts. it sucks to discuss. People misunderstand it. But it has to be dealt with and talked about.